My Guestbook

I've been forced to close my guestbook to new entries by the sheer number of people advertising commercial sites, or otherwise using the opportunity for something unrelated to my web site. For at least five years I never deleted a single entry. When I closed it in late 2004 I was deleting several entries a day. You can still email me if you like but of course you can never put your email on the web as a link if you want to avoid spam. ichovil at sympatico.ca
I found your pages to be most helpful and encouraging. My son is suffering from his first episode at the age of 22. It has been incredibly difficult and scary for us. Three hospitilizations in a month. Two for the illness, whatever it is, not diagnosed yet, and one for an apparant overdose he was given via injection. The need for a better understanding of mental illness and family education is crucial in the patient's recovery and remission. Had I not educated myself I would not have been able to realize the symptons of my son's overdose and it could have been more tragic than it was. Thank you for your insight into these illnesses and sharing your experiences that really help me to understand some of what my son is living with.
Suzy
Nashville, TN United States - Friday, October 29, 2004 at 16:12:25 (EDT)

Must do a report for school. Haven't read articles yet but definitely will. They look interesting. I'm sure, I have or some one I know has had some of the mental challenges brought about by this disorder. Thanks for sharing.
gail l. howard
providence, nc us - Thursday, October 28, 2004 at 08:00:19 (EDT)

Hi, I so thank you for your postings. It has helped me to understand a lot better what life has instore. My daughter is undiagnosed and fighting getting into treatment. Life has been falling apart for years for her. I stuggle to keep her afloat. I believe your site maybe the way to help her see that admitting she has an illness will help her future. I also would like to enable her to become employed in a venture that I believe would work for her. She is a great typist and could record stories of peoples lives and give them back in printed form and on disks. I believe this could happen by telephone sessions, one 1/2 hour at a time. I have heard that people with Scitzophrenia are more able to understand that they are ill if they can see themselves on video tape. I wonder if they could see their thinking in written form if they would recognize the delusions as that. If you think there are ways to make this happen along with a posted website your input would be appreciated.
Rose
426 05673, V USA - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 at 23:59:32 (EDT)

I also suffer from a psycotic diagnoses. I have Multiple Personalities.
Sylvia McClellan
NM United States - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 at 21:20:53 (EDT)

Hi Ian, your site contents is quite interesting and yet it helps many people who visit your site to aquire more information about the problem of Schizophrenia that you have been suffering before.You have done a good job keep it up and God Bless!!!
Merniel Barton
cagayan de oro city, Philippines - Monday, October 25, 2004 at 22:03:04 (EDT)

I actually found your site by chance, while i was trying to research for a biology project on Schizophrenia. I was actually looking for a person with that unfortunate illness that would portray their feelings and express themselves, explaining how they fought this. I find you extremely couragous and inspirational to all people who battle with Schizophrenia. I salute you for your undying, battling soul and strong will!! If you'd like to contact with me with further information, please do at: e_ayt@hotmail.com Thanks! :)
Elvira Ayouty
Dubai, U.A.E. - Saturday, October 23, 2004 at 14:16:17 (EDT)

I would like to meet someone to talk!
Vaarti Nemme
- Saturday, October 23, 2004 at 10:35:51 (EDT)

You are incredibly courageous! Thank you SO MUCH for such a wonderful and very informative website! I wish there were other sites like this one out there! We need this!
Ruth Merkis-Hunt
Ottawa, ON Canada - Friday, October 22, 2004 at 10:28:06 (EDT)

Medication is not the answer to schizophrenia. It can dilute the meaning of your life. Medication is easier than true understanding. Read Memories, Dreams, and Reflections by C.G. Jung. Don't ignore your experiences, they have DEEP meaning which only you can understand.
AW
USA - Thursday, October 21, 2004 at 12:25:59 (EDT)

A great website - planning to use it to inspire hope in young clients with psychosis.
Katherine Stewart
Thunder Bay, ON Canada - Thursday, October 21, 2004 at 10:21:43 (EDT)

I am a psychology major and I am studying schizophrenia in children. If anyone could answer some questions for me I would truly appreciate it. If anyone can offer any information please email me at lxox_amber_xoxl@hotmail.com Learning about how this affects families and their children is very important to me, thank you so much for your consideration.
Amber
Steves Point, WI United States - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 at 12:54:13 (EDT)

Hi Ian, long time right? I read your story, and was moved, touched and inspired. Good stuff. Your readers may be interested to note my view of you as "the guy who wouldn't do awful things to rats" when we did endocrine studies together at Trent University. You will no doubt be pleased to know that the regs have changed there and elsewhere. Please keep your readers informed of your journey. I recall you as a bright young man. Kind regards Rick Fisher
Rick Fisher
New Zealand - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 20:43:18 (EDT)

I would like to say thank you so much for all the information that you have put into your website. This has been very informative. My father was an abusive alcoholic who, we believe, suffered from Schizophrenia. Sadly we are not sure because he refused to go get help from anyone. He sadly committed suicide over 9 years ago. I was only eight years old at the time of his death but i remember everything as though it happened yesterday. I only wish that there was something that i could've done for him...maybe he would still be in my life. My advice is that if you or someone you know may be suffering from this horrible "disease" then please find help!
mary
corydon, IN USA - Monday, October 18, 2004 at 14:08:00 (EDT)

I found hope in reading the information that you provided. I am a mother caring for her son with chronic paranoid schizophrenia. Many of the problems you described have happened to my son. His isolation and cognitive functions have changed so dramatically. Thank you for sharing your experiences and providing information a lay person can understand.
Carol Van Trump
Independence, Mo United States - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 09:49:23 (EDT)

Your site is extremely impressive. I am a lecturer in psychology in the UK and I am currently spending a rainy Sunday writing a lecture on schizophrenia. I have used many points you make - thanks and stay well gail
gail kinman
UK - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 09:47:14 (EDT)

Thanks for all the great information, Ive been schizophrenic for 4 years now and just recently had a relapse, your site gives me a lot of hope.
Kevin
burlington, on Canada - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 01:04:31 (EDT)

I happened to stummble upon this website while I was doing research for my psychology paper. I read your story and it helped my out alot with my paper about Schizophrenia. If anyone has any other type of information that they think would help me with my paper and presentation I would greatly appreciate it and you can e-mail me at jesiree@mail.com *Thanks*
Jesiree
Canon City, CO USA - Friday, October 15, 2004 at 17:40:29 (EDT)

I'm a 49 year old college student studying human services and doing an article on your website for my abnormal psychology course. It's a very informative website and very well done.I also have a passion for music and am a covering alcoholic. maybe i could give you some music recommendations. I wish you all the best in your recovery and ask God to give you his blessings.wish i knew your email addy, i'd write you
Jeff Rex
Lima, OH USA - Friday, October 15, 2004 at 15:31:19 (EDT)

I truly appreciate your story. It has alot of similarities to my brother's story. (suffering for 18 yrs) Bravo to you for your accomplishments! I only wish my brother could/would do as well as you. Thank you.
Sister of a Schizophrenic
Canada - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 20:18:33 (EDT)

I found your site very interesting.
Stephanie Grabe
Rosebery, Tas Australia - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 18:57:40 (EDT)

I supervise probation and parole officers who work with mental health clients under supervision. Your information is great. Your own story very insightful. Thanks
Steve MacMaster
Albuquerque, NM USA - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 17:32:19 (EDT)

interesting topic
eden
edmonton, ab Canada - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 13:11:39 (EDT)

have been on this medication but dont really understand how it works
dee
n.z. - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 at 23:37:57 (EDT)

great site keep going and good luck.
Sean Becher
sheboygan, WI USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 at 09:37:31 (EDT)

Hello!. Firstly, i speak in spanish so my english could be bad. I´m from Argentina (south America) and i am living in Buenos Aires. I want to contact "Alanna Abrey", a person who wrote in this Guestbook. My last name is ABREY too. If you want to contact me, i leave my mail.... roabrey@yahoo.com.ar THANKS AT ALL !! Chau!!
Rodrigo Abrey
Buenos Aires, Argentina - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 at 10:47:20 (EDT)

I wish you all the best and please visit my link list Thak you very much.. http://www.goodlife-2000-kapsel.cool.cd
Nicole
Berlin , Berlin Germany - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 at 09:09:18 (EDT)

I have been suffering with schizophrenia for eleven years now. I was diagnosed with schiz when I was 8 years old. I have attempted suicide many times and unforunately never succeeded. I have been seeing a psychotherapist for two years but our relationship has been getting in the way. Who am I? Where am I? What am I? HELP!
Mo Chahbar
London, ON Canada - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 18:27:09 (EDT)

my boyfriend has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and iv learnt a lot more about the illness, thanks very much for all your help and advice it is much appreciated.
charlie
huddersfield, england - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 14:43:26 (EDT)

I just wanted to say great site! It was very enlighting. I am a high school junior, and currently taking a Psychology class. I also plan to Minor in Psychology. Reading about your life really touched me, and as a student it put me in a totally different mind set. Thank you. I really did think it was something that can be overcome and had to do with a weak will, thank you.
Acey
Dallas, TX USA - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 14:40:18 (EDT)

i to have skitzaphrenia my site is ianhard.2ya.com
steven
barry, wales (uk) - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 09:57:40 (EDT)

Hi Ian, loved your site, i had a psychotic episode and suffered from many, many paranoid deusions (some very similar to your delusions!!!). I have now made a full recovery after being hospitalized and prescribed an anti-psychotic for 2 years. Thank you for sharing your story, i hope you enjoy the rest of your life. :-)
Jenny
U.K - Friday, October 08, 2004 at 12:40:23 (EDT)

Hey Ian my name is Heather. I do not have schizophrenia but i have a friend whose mother does and shes upset about that.
Heather
Merritt, B.C Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 21:10:58 (EDT)

ianhard.2ya.com
steven
barry, f wales (uk) - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 20:46:03 (EDT)

I think your website was very important...my older brother who was also my best freind ,and the person i looked up too most of my life was dignose with scitsofrenia, i was living with him for about 4 years and went through hell with it...hes getting help now in an instituion..i havent gone too see him....myself im a goodlookin kid.. ..i haeva good group of freinds but lately i been smoing alot of pot and drinking alot..i also dont talk as much as i use too..it seems im kinda shy around everyone..sometimes i just wanna sleep and be left alone..i feel depress also... if u can can u contact me conforti_36@hotmail.com
Matt
Niagara falls, ont Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 20:03:21 (EDT)

Enjoyed your site very much, I am a volunteer in the Mental Health field and enjoy every minute of my work. Kudos to you for a great website and for sharing your story
Cindy
Campbellford, On Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 11:37:23 (EDT)

I'm a student in college and had to do research on Schizophrenia. You had some good last minute information. Keep up the good work and God Bless!!!!
Patrice Bennett
Americus, Ga United States - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 16:41:21 (EDT)

that was very good of you to tell your story. i was born to a mother with Scizopherina (however it's spelled) and so i'm with a different family because she couldn't take of me or my younger sister. since i'm only sixteen years old (going on seventeen in January), there's still the chance i could get it. i sure hope not. but if i do, God will take of me. i'm not ashamed of being born to someone with this diease because i was blessed with a better family. so, a shout out to ya, mate.
Jana Lybarger
Toledo, OH United States - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 09:43:07 (EDT)

Bravo! Thank you for sharing your experiences. People like you make the world a better place.
Baylen Wagner
Canada - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 09:13:58 (EDT)

Hi all, I would like to inform you of a website I have created to tell my own story of how I defeated my battle with a debilitating Mental Illness. It is light on information at this point in time, and over time I will slowly implement more Art, Poetry and Scientific formulas I have created to explain my Illness and how I came to defeat it. I would appreciate any feedback you may have. Warmest Regards, Kristin E-mail: kristin@vomdh.com Web: www.VOMDH.com "The epitome of fearlessness is not what you're prepared to say about others; but what you're willing to say about yourself!" Kristin - 2004
Kristin
- Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 08:34:31 (EDT)

MUGU MUGU MAGA MAGA OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
MUGU OFF I DAY OFF
LOME, TOGO LOME - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 05:25:10 (EDT)

Hi Ian my name is Andrew, I went through psychosis last year and I am doing pritty good now. I have read though your site and I really enjoyed it, there was alot of good iformation. I am thinking of making a site on psychosis and I'd really appreciate if you would E-mail me at Andrew_Blount@hotmail.com I would also like to get in tuch with you I am going to be on the T.v on B.c's knowlege network in November. I look forward to hearing from you.........Andrew
Andrew Blount
New Westminster, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 03:09:29 (EDT)

Im still trying to understand more about the illness of schizophernic. I'm in a situation where this person was dignoised with this, yet his action has really gone far beyond any patient that I've read about. what to talk about this, The truth I'm a little scared.
kathy scott
jasper, tx u.s. - Monday, September 27, 2004 at 13:27:05 (EDT)

Keep up the good work, Ian. This is one of the best sites.
CuKettle
Russia - Monday, September 27, 2004 at 07:06:10 (EDT)

May you find the peace you so well deserve!!!!
Lynda
Macon, Ga U.s. - Sunday, September 26, 2004 at 15:22:48 (EDT)

Dear Chovil, There must be more people like you, in the world. Your site surely helps thousands of ill persons and families. I pray for you . Keep going. My warmest regards Sergio
M.Sergio
São Paulo, SP Brasil - Sunday, September 26, 2004 at 00:19:39 (EDT)

Thank you for sharing your expirence with the world! As a future worker in the health department of my country, this is very usefull information. Anette Karijord, nursing student, Norway
Anette
Spikkestad, Norway - Saturday, September 25, 2004 at 17:44:59 (EDT)

I can relate to most of the things you write about
Craig shore04@earthlink.net
USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 at 23:57:02 (EDT)

I like your site, thank You!
Hustler
Friday, September 24, 2004 at 16:33:57 (EDT)

I really liked your site it is very informative. I'm glad you've recovered after all that hardship in your life. I am also in recovery, although at the moment I'm experiencing a relapse due to trying to change to Abilify, it seems to be causing psychosis rather than treating it.
karina davenport
Manchester, UK Great Britain - Friday, September 24, 2004 at 06:49:37 (EDT)

Thank you for this website, I really appreciate all the care you have put into it. My adolescent stepson was diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder 10 months ago. He is now at a residential treatment center and dooing well. We are preparing for his likely return home in the next few months, and want to make sure we are able to help him in every way we can to have the life he deserves. We are looking for information everywhere we can, and your site is very helpful. Especially helpful to me was the information you shared about the "prodrome" period. Thanks again and best of luck to you.
Thea
Anchorage, AK USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 18:52:00 (EDT)

Just thought I should also give you my email address in case you want to write to me. nancyisbell@hotmail.com
Nancy
San marcos, CA USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 15:10:38 (EDT)

I just went thru a whirlwind romance with a man who I learned was schizophrenic. I, myself, have overcome Bi-polar disorder over 6 years ago eating foods that come from a Chinese Company. I wonder if this food would work with schizophrenia. I've heard of other with bi-polar disorder getting well from it but not anyone with schizophrenia. Since both are brain chemistry disorders, wouldn't it be great if it worked for schizophrenia as well. I ended the relationship with the schizophrenic because he is not being treated and hasn't accepted himself having this condition. Thanks for educating me! Nancy
Nancy
San Marcos, CA USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 15:09:25 (EDT)

I was surfing along and came across your website. I really enjoyed it. Thanks! This site is very informative. I hope to see more info for. Wishing you all the best!
kredit
de, - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 14:08:16 (EDT)

Dear Mr chovil, I'm not sure how often you check your guest book for new entries, but if you check it in the next week I would really love to get in contact with you. I am currently doing a major piece of assessment for my grade 10 English report and have decided to look at schizophrenia for my study. Please contact me on 88.felicity.chandler@kih.tas.edu.au your sincerly Felicity Chandler
Felicity Chandler
Hobart, Tas Australia - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 at 20:59:21 (EDT)

i have been there i relate to all the stuff, it is amazing how you have healed and i hope your life gets better and better dont look back in regret you are helping people with describing the illness and delusions so accurately it has helped me thank you. im sorry you had too live with such pain and fear. i know what a nightmare it is. youre wonderful :)
emma
england - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 21:33:10 (EDT)

I enjoy reading your story. My uncle is a schitzophrenic and I can't really talk with him about it becaues he's really sensitive about it. I wanted to do a science project/educational type of presentation on schitzophrenia, but I didn't have alot of information to go on, and your website has helped a lot. Thanks you!
Brandon
Hillsboro, OR USA - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 16:30:29 (EDT)

Not to make anyone feel bad, but my brother has SZ (he was 40) and took his life last week. He is taking 2mg maintenance dosage for the past 15 years. Unfortunately, last month, his second relapse came with a vengence. I wish I had a better understanding of his condition...maybe I could have help..maybe not. I can relate to your stuggles and I have a better insight what my brother was going through. I plan to be more of advocate of this mental illness though NAMI. Please, if you have a love one with SZ, please, please watch the early symptoms to avoid a second relaspe. It is so easy to ignore the symptoms so we could go on with our daily normal lives.
Mark
Los Angeles, CA USA - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 13:49:20 (EDT)

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MUGU
Canada - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 10:33:03 (EDT)

i land here oooooooooooooooooooooook
mumgu
lome, imo togo - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 05:06:33 (EDT)

thank you for sharing your story. i had a rather complex relationship with an untreated schitzophrenic many years ago, and recently i had to refuse this person re-entry into my personal life. i am feeling a bit sad and despondent, and somewhat angry at myself for the way i said goodbye. i had to speak with her as though she were sane, in order to say what i really needed to. i used to live inside of her delusions with her. i was angry a her for trying to contact me. i have some borderline symptoms, and i nearly fell with her into the underworld. my goodbye was not kind, and i had to call her out on some of her symptomatic actions. she claims to be better because she is on medication, but she is still drinking and taking drugs, and was calling me and saying she was a messenger, and that she had to tell me somehing she forgot to tell me years ago. i lived inside of my own insanity with her... i thought she was in love with me and would never tell me, so i lived tortured and unrequited for years, as her mentor, drinking buddy, and best friend. the whole experience makes me question my identity and my grasp on reality. i always miss her, and she became a sort of muse for my artwork, but even when i slam the door in her face. there is a piece of me that doesnt let her go. i am disheartened. it was great to read your story and recognize some of her in it, and to watch the part of me that want to believe in your delusions, the way i belived in hers. maybe it is an escapist tendancy, im not sure. i know i can be a bit delusional, and am often afraid of going crazy. i can only hope that i will keep healing and growing as i have the past few years. i have been sober in alcoholics anoymous for three and a half years now. tahnk you again, and stay safe. love and light, mlklm
malcolm
brooklyn, ny usa - Saturday, September 18, 2004 at 17:40:11 (EDT)

really,its a good effort to let others know about what actually schizophrenia is. all the best n may god bless u.
ribhu
delhi, new delhi india - Saturday, September 18, 2004 at 02:54:48 (EDT)

Am looking at this website for help with a group project on Schizophrenia, its good to find out what its like to have schizophrenia from your personal experiences. Great website really accessible.
sakib ahmed
Dundee, Scotland - Friday, September 17, 2004 at 09:30:34 (EDT)

we get to do a report on Schizophrenia
Brrody
Kent, Wa U.S.A. - Thursday, September 16, 2004 at 13:38:00 (EDT)

I work as an advocate for the mentally ill, helping them to access disability benefits and medical coverage through the U.S. government. I spend so much of my time explaining to clients explaining just what this diagnosis of schizophrenia is and how this varied set of symptoms can be attributable to a single condition. The saddest part of my job is helping clients deal with the shame and isolation that accompany this devastating illness. Now I have a website to which I can direct folks and show them that they are not alone. Thank you for having the courage to tell your story and the commitment to set up this site.
Jennifer
St. Louis, MO US - Thursday, September 16, 2004 at 00:37:15 (EDT)

Great site, thank you for sharing it.

- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 19:50:14 (EDT)

your page is inspirational ;)

- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 19:38:33 (EDT)

WOW, YOU VE DONE A WONDERFUL JOB ON EXPLAINING WHAT SCHIZOPRENIA IS I HAVE A GOOD FRIEND, SUE , WHO HAS STOPPED COMMUNICATING WITH EVERYONE LOST 50 OR 60 POUNDS WAS ONCE IN A PSYCHIATRIC INSTITUTE IN THE MIDWEST , WHEN EVER I CALL SHE DOES NOT LET ME ASK HER QUESTIONS SHE ASKS A LOT ABOUT WHATS GOING ON WITH ME LIKE SHE HAS A LIST OF THINGS SHE NEEDS TO ASK I RECENTLY VISITED HER SHE HAS MANY BRUISES ON HER CHEST AND ARMS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR IF I SHOULD DO ANYTHING
LISA
TEMPE, AZ US - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 15:51:28 (EDT)

u deleted my entry...i was being serious wen i sed that i loved ur site look if u wanna b frendz IAN, theres some rules u need to follow. NO DELETING MY POSTS...look ok they're not pranks okz i g2g...love ya always....
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the O.C bitch....i mean nah ur not a bitch...well....... nah nah ur not.., loser town - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 00:40:55 (EDT)

I found your site searching for chovil on google. I am looking for more information regarding this resource. Thanks for the info. Doo Doo happens and it happens to someone.
Reed Skreps
Canada - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 21:41:22 (EDT)

Thankyou for sharing your experiences.
mike camp
pompano , fl usa - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 15:29:04 (EDT)

Your website is fascinating. Thank you for sharing your experiences. I am desperately worried for my 15 year old son (he will be 16 in November, 2004). I have been worried for about 18 months. He has changed so much over this period. From a highly intelligent, sociable, active and friendly person, to a virtual recluse, not going out, not wanting friends, not wanting to do anything, other than play on the computer. Tragic. I have tried so hard to get him help from the GP, child psychiatrist, etc. The waiting lists and 'policies' seem to put a block on actual help. I fear that the only help he'll get is if they cart him off in handcuffs. I'll just keep trying, but I feel so angry, hurt, afraid. It seems that unless he WANTS help, - which he says he doesn't - then none is available until the 'handcuffs' crisis. Anyway, to get back to your experiences. As I was reading it, I actually thought that you made a lot of sense. Ideas that may be 'off the wall', but what is crazier? Millions of people willing going off to kill or be killed? Or a theory that they have somehow been affected by a virus, or something? I think you have a point. About the mind control - I don't know much about that, but I am open minded enough to realise that more goes on than we are aware. Have you read any David Icke books? Just asking, because you both seem to have similar ideas about the world, our history, etc. Anyway, thank you again. I would be so grateful if you could email me. My email address is: whatsername2@hotmail.com.
Frankie Inglis
Dagenham, Essex England - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 13:12:38 (EDT)

I visited your website because I'm doing a psychology project on Schizophrenia. Your story is very interesting. If you can give me more information please email me at ck171012@gdn.edu Thank you very much.
Christy
Newnan, GA United States - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 10:15:58 (EDT)

my mother-in-law is having trouble with her memory and she misplaces keys,her purse to name just a few She still wants to drive her car but her vision is 20/80 in one eye and 20/200 in the other eye and she gets lost so she doesn't go more than a few miles from her home because she has gotten lost and drove 2 hours before stopping to ask if she could stay in the parking lot until morning when the person said no she called my husband which went down and picked her up and she still did not no she was so far away from her home. we asked her how she got down there and she said they made her get on the highway and they wouldn't let her get off. we weren't sure what she was talking about. we are very concerned because we took the car away and explaned it to her and everyday she asks when we are going to bring it back and every day she asks again.
deborah
raymore, mo usa - Monday, September 13, 2004 at 17:18:44 (EDT)

I really respect you and like that people have the guts 2 not be ashamed of things they can't control. keep it up
Chyla
Metropolis, ill Untied States - Saturday, September 11, 2004 at 14:05:56 (EDT)

Thanks for helping me to understand
Manda
A.C.T, Australia - Saturday, September 11, 2004 at 01:50:30 (EDT)

From the colored occupancy chart and previous unsuccessful meds,I could estimate that Olanzapine works with my son because of the D1 occupancy that is virtually absent in the two other meds.Thanks for the data comparing the meds.
William Kalms
Acton, MA US - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 13:44:08 (EDT)

A warm site. Thankyou please.
Ian McChicken
Seend Cleeve, Seend - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 08:30:02 (EDT)

Lovely site - very helpfull.
Jana Gruna knikkihund@web.de
germany - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 06:33:39 (EDT)

Very interesting and heartfelt. I stumbled upon this site in search for general schizophrenia information, I was intrigued by the content and leave this site more educated and open minded. Thank you.
Elisa Suarez
Canada - Thursday, September 09, 2004 at 12:05:30 (EDT)

My daughter is on Zyprexa at the moment and I would like to know about GABA as an alternative treatment.
C
Qld Australia - Wednesday, September 08, 2004 at 21:01:31 (EDT)

One of my close friends has paranoid schizophrenia. It used to scare me to be around him simply because I had no knowledge of the illness. Now that I know his symptoms and how it makes him feel, I am more comfortable with it. It hurts me when people refer to him as a "schizo" and call him crazy just because he is mentally ill. It is not his choice to be mentally ill, it's in genetics. People should not be bias toward the mentally ill.
Paula
Hot Springs, AR USA - Wednesday, September 08, 2004 at 14:28:20 (EDT)

I've been looking for some insight of what this is like, my youngest sister recently has turned up after missing for 19 months. I got to see her and relized how irrational, agressive, and disorganized she is. She told me some wild, bizarre, weird stuff that she really believes. Such as the government/FBI has been following/under servailence her and how they want her brain for clinical research. I believe that she has paranoid schizophrenia, but she refuses to get help. How can I get her help? She ran from me with her shopping cart and all. The police wouldn't help me get her to a mental center (that I had arranged for an evaluation) so now she has lost that chance. HELP, what can I do? Now I first would have to locate her and do What? I really appreciate your web-sight it's the Best I've come across. I didn't understand this illness/decease, but now I think I can be of more help to my sister. She has a 15 year old daughter that asked me to help her find her mother (daughter is in good relative's home, she didn't want to live with me and my daughter, she perferred to stay in her neigborhood and school friends). What am I suppose to tell her daughter, that's she homeless and has paranoid schizophrenia. Help what do I do to get my sister on meds. She said, she refuses electric stocks and meds and isn't in need of help. HELP any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you again for you web-sight.
GM
Venice, Ca USA - Monday, September 06, 2004 at 23:05:00 (EDT)

I believe some of your delusions have truth in them. I wish one of us could figure out the answer. There are a lot of us who are on the verge of understanding, just as you were/are. It never really goes away does it? How can we find the answer when we cant even begin to put the question into words.
Gary
, USA - Monday, September 06, 2004 at 22:51:36 (EDT)

hi...great site....ive been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia....and i found your site to be quite useful...ive been on risperdal for six years now but dont find it to be doing what it should...i have weeks of pychoses...voices day and night...hallucinations...and on an average i hear some voices mostly each day not steady each day but..like i said for two weeks each month i do...my doctor doesnt do much prescribes my medication for five months sent me to a pychatrist once in six years which was 11 months ago and he said he was going to do a follow up and like i said its been 11 months...and the pyscatrist said options for my doctor was to up the risperdal by 2 mg a day or change it to zyprexa and 1mg of risperdal daily...and he hasnt done that either....so im quite fed up with the mental health services....i dont know what to do....i guess im just going to have to demand action....anyways great site
Michael
Amherst, NS Canada - Sunday, September 05, 2004 at 16:28:32 (EDT)

i want you to know i found your web site very informative and would like to use it as a reference in my research paper for my pschology class please email me if possible i would feel better if i had your permisssion,you are truly an exceptional human being to overcome such adversity
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Austin, Tx USA - Saturday, September 04, 2004 at 23:57:17 (EDT)

I am a case manager for the Department of Social Services Agnecy in Northern California. One afternoon I overheard a co-worker talking with her client who was diagnosed with scizophrenia. My intentions was not to ease drop, but could not help hearing the client decribing her symptoms and her daily struggle with the two voices she constanly heard. My heart became heavy with compassion listening to her. I couldn't even begin to imagine the daily frustration and helplessness she must have been experiencing. I had some knowledge of schizophrenia, as I had taken psychology courses in college which exposed me to the disorder. Soon after the client left, I logged onto Google.com and began to research the disorder, and I came across this wonderful story. I spent the next hour at work reading this article and becoming so interested that I couldn't stop until I completed it. I was so moved by this story that I had to sign the guestbook; not to share my personal expierence with schizophrenia or family members because I don't have any, but to thank you for being so honest, and opening up your world to us so we could have a better understanding of your stuggles and your victories. I hope and pray that your life and the life of many others struggling with this disorder can one day be freed by better medication and even a cure. My hats off to all that are fighting the battle of schizphrenia.
Agnes Febles
San Jose, Ca california - Thursday, September 02, 2004 at 19:11:56 (EDT)

I have been hearing voices since my early twenties, and I have had my share of delusional thinking, and have battled alcoholism too. I happy happy for you Ian on your recovery and am glad your meds work. I am not that lucky. None of my meds work. You can write me at: cynthia@vincennes.net I am also glad you found Rosemary. I wish you two many years of happiness! Your friend, Larry.
Mr. Larry A. Alcorn
Vincennes, IN USA - Wednesday, September 01, 2004 at 08:31:28 (EDT)

Dear Mr Chovil, I'm writing in reference to your informative web site. Reading your storys' felt like if I already know you. Your inspiring and encourageing wisdom of words that you speak with your pain and experences of life has help me to understand of this disorder. In fact I'm a student at Las Vegas College (in Las Vegas,NV) studying to be a Paralegal. In our psychology class we have a research paper on disorders. I choose to write about schizophreina;I have never met a person with a disorder or even knew about it.Your writing was very infomative. I think your an awesome and strong person. . your are a survior and I just wish the are more people like you to learn of disorder and survive from any psychotic disorders. Reading into your awesome stories I found my self intersted and actually understand what is schizophriena. I personally never had that but I can only imagine. I'm 21 years old ,I'm a people person and very genrious with others. I take your consideration in helping others with disorders that don't have any family. I have a aunt of mine that is currently adopted this oldlery men that has alziemer (I'm not aure if mis-spelled.)She vist him at the retire home celebrates holidays and his birthdays. The family he had screw him over and ended placing him in the retire home and never contacted him again. I people like my aunt and others out there as well are appeciated for such commiment to commit to volunteer for people that have disorders and are need of help. I wanted to end this here and hope to hear from you and how you are doing. It was such an honor to have come across your web site that was helpful and very informative. I hope you may have time to write back. In the mean time take care. God Bless. MarisolSobalvarro@yahho.com
Marisol Sobalvarro
Las Vegas, NV USA - Wednesday, September 01, 2004 at 04:36:54 (EDT)

Thanks so much for all the information you share in your web page. It is extremely valuable and supportive to read about people who have gone or are going through the same hard experiences my brother is. He has suffered from schizophrenia for over 10 years. Now, after a long period of passivity living with my parents trying different meds he all of a sudden refused to continue with the medication and left from Spain to Austria. He did this without much apparent planning and without knowing anyone in the city he was going to. This was five weeks ago and we haven’t heard from him ever since. How common is this among people with schizophrenia? What are your experiences? On one hand we feel we should take this to the police, but it seems to be so that if found, he would be taken by the police (I don’t know in which terms, maybe violently?) to get in touch with us. If he is indeed in trouble maybe this is ok, but if he is more or less doing fine, then this could be quite a detrimental and traumatic experience for him. Since he decided to go away, maybe we should just respect his decission and let him be for a while? maybe even hard experiences are better than not having experiences at all, as it was being at home...? We really don’t know what to do and would greatly appreciate any comments from people with similar experiences. Thank you very much. You can e-mail me to azim397@yahoo.es
Malena
- Tuesday, August 31, 2004 at 17:11:24 (EDT)

MY 31 YEAR OLD SON WAS RECENTLY DIAGNOSED.ID LIKE SOME MORE INFORMATION ON WHAT I CAN EXPECT NOW THAT HE HAS FINALLY BEGUN MEDICATION AND REALIZES HE HAS BEEN ILL FOR SOME TIME. MY FAMILY AND I EXPERIENCED SOME OF HIS BIZARRE BEHAVIOURS BUT HE HAS LITTLE OR NO MEMORY OF THOSE TIMES.
SHEILA MCGHEE
DELAWARE, ONT Canada - Monday, August 30, 2004 at 23:08:00 (EDT)

Your site was very helpful to me. Thank you.
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- Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 21:37:34 (EDT)

hi ian chovils. i went threw a really bad time with schizo back in 1980. i was finally diagnosed by a family dr. who put me on melliril. i took that for about 20 some years. (they took me off of that because they said it can make you have a heart attack)then i got a new dr. a few years ago who put me on depakote,resperdal,and seraquel and cogetin. nice cocktail,right,but it works real good. i know how horrible it was for you and me and other people who went threw similar terrible times,but i've not looked back so much as i've looked forward. each day is a gift. it could come back anyday and i know this inside of me. i spend my time helping other people,going to day treatment twice a week, takeing my medicine faithfully...and just being thankful i have another good day.(i also have had time to develope ideas i have for my artwork.) my mom was also a schizo but back in the 40's and 50's they only had thorazine and shock treatments. she didn't like her medicine so she kept going back into the mental hospital,and i missed her terribly. when the dr. told me what i had,and that if i didn't take my medicine as prescribed i'd be going in and out of the hospital/and have the shock treatments...(like my mom)that scared me so much i did whatever it took to get "well" again. i raised two really neat boys,by myself,and worked fulltime to support us. i never married, i could never handel a relationship...kinda like the problems you had. well,i didn't mean to write so much. i've never found a more interesting web site on the subject of schizophernia.thankyou.shirley (august 29th,2004)
shirley
- Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 19:53:47 (EDT)

Hello, my name is Michele and a friend forwarded your website to me. I want to thank you for the information contained in your website. I appreciate your time and efforts. My father took his life August 9, 2004. We never knew that he was ill. He never admitted to anyone that he needed help. He didn't talk to us about things that bothered him, because he didn't want us to worry about him. I live out of state, and would call him often. The morning before he took his life I spoke to him...He had plans for the week. Sounded like he had goals as well...I live with Bipolar Disorder, and would have loved to shared with him....I miss him so much. It hurts to know that he was in pain, and didn't let any of us know. He was very intelligent. He lived for Christ, giving all Glory to God. He was okay with taking his life. One day I will see him in heaven....Thank you for the information. Michele
Michele L. Schmidt
Carr, CO USA - Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 18:00:29 (EDT)

I am doing an assignment on schizophrenia and have seen the illness in a whole new light since seeing your site. I used to think that schizophrenics were crazy maniacs who should be locked up, but now I see them as normal, beautiful people who probably have a lot to teach us. Thank you.
Alanna Abrey
Melbourne, Victoria Australia - Saturday, August 28, 2004 at 00:07:19 (EDT)

hi i am very delighted to come in to contact wth you .I hope i will never regret .
denis mbulih
bamenda, northwest province cameroon - Friday, August 27, 2004 at 05:56:35 (EDT)

hey im a schizo too i really liked your site! johnnyskitzz@aol.com
shaina
bennington, ne usa - Thursday, August 26, 2004 at 21:18:44 (EDT)

Good site!
Ben
Canada - Thursday, August 26, 2004 at 05:32:23 (EDT)

Met a guy [ 27 years old ] who displayed some worrying behaviour. Overly spiritual [ if there is such a thing ? ] , very detached and ungrounded. Esoterical , gets very little sleep, anarchic beliefs , says he spent 4 years smoking weed day in day out . He told me that he feared for his mental health at times. Used to be a very heavy drinker in his youth. Told me that he wants to explore all of his mind. I told him that this would be a journey with no end. He said he wanted to take this journey.Speaks alot about David Ike and lizards and says madness equals genius. I can't tell you how painful it was to watch him and listen to his words especially as I care about him. I think he is unwell but not diagnosed. Thank you for sharing your experience with me and others Mark. May you continue safely and soundly through life's journeys. smile x
River
London , England - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 at 18:10:26 (EDT)

Very good site! I lost a brother to schizophrenia in '91 - had we known then what we know now, we might have been able to do something for him. :( Jacob
Jacob
Toronto, Ont Canada - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 at 00:54:10 (EDT)

thanks for a great site Ian. I'm just wondering if any of your delusions were based on fact. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2002 and am in remission but I cannot escape a number of ideas as they are based on interesting and inescapable facts. people will call these facts a total coincidence, but even with my sense of reality as normal as before my psychosis I still believe in them. I would realy like to hear your opinion on it. send a response to darcygeoffrey@yahoo.com
geoffrey darcy
dublin, ireland - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 at 00:38:17 (EDT)

I know the risperdal consta .Yet i don't know if it is a better medication than risperdal.
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xi'an, shannxi china - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 22:55:38 (EDT)

Thank you for this website. It is one of , if not the most valuable I have come across in researching this illness. My younger brother, currently 20 is in Homewood right now in Guelph, Ontario. He is due to be discharged this coming Wednesday into our care here at home in the Kitchener area. We, as a family are very naive regarding his illnesses and what reactions, positive or negative, we may encounter. Your insight and experiences are an invaluable tool and resource for us and I thank you for sharing it with us.
Peter Galbraith
Canada - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 21:43:12 (EDT)

Thank you for your information about psychiatric practices that you combine with your own experiences. Makes the information more valuable.
karianne vogel
utrecht, Netherlands - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 05:21:16 (EDT)

Thank you so much for sharing your story & for the information that you are providing for those of us who are having our lives impacted upon by Schizophrenia. It is a terrible and alienating disease. My daughter (now 30 years old) suffers from Hebephrenic Schizophrenia. As her condition has deteriorated over some 13 years it has been heartbreaking to see the changes in her. She has been very violent towards me (my left arm is currently bruised badly from my elbow to shoulder!), and my life is being lived with my love for her existing in conflict with the very real terror that I often feel when in her company. I still pray for a miracle - to see her well and happy is something that I would give everything for.
Angela Moore
Ocean Shores, Australia - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 00:32:45 (EDT)

Many good resources, thanks from http://www.shesinrecovery.com
Marilyn
USA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 at 18:36:38 (EDT)

Your website really gave me a better view on what I have. Thank you.
Cherie A
Truro, NS Canada - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 at 20:41:50 (EDT)

Thank you for all the information you have so generously provided. I look forward to studying your writing more thoroughly when more time. My 22 year old son has been ill for several years now, but recognized just since June 2003. Has been in group home locally but hates it. Doesn't like meds and says they don't stop any symptoms. Wants to stop meds altogether. Wants to come live with me. Very delusional. Many voices. Very bright person. Thanks again for your writing and sharing your life. Kathy
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West Richland, WA Canada - Sunday, August 15, 2004 at 13:13:43 (EDT)

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I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2001. So I have schizophrenia too, since than I read all litrature about it and I found your web page. My case little different, I think I am so lucky, since I only experience hearing voices which medication might control, and if I remit I am symptom free. I do not know, I will see. I am on zyprexa right now. Sam from Cambridge
sam
cambridge, on Canada - Saturday, August 14, 2004 at 23:39:23 (EDT)

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marcory, abj ivory caost - Saturday, August 14, 2004 at 12:49:54 (EDT)

A great site with a lot of the kind of information people need.i am not diagnosed as having any particular illness but i do see things that are not there.my local doctor told me to 'go home and forget about them'.dont know if they are exactly delusions but theyre pretty close.thanks for the site.
R.Flavin
London, England - Friday, August 13, 2004 at 11:33:05 (EDT)

wow! what a site keep it up I'm 24 and was just diagnosed with schizophrenia I didnt understand what was going on so I donr some research and found your site thanks it help me to undertstand a little better
betty
Kansas USA - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 17:52:30 (EDT)

You write so well and so many moving stories. Persist and enjoy life!
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Lafayette, IN USA - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 12:47:19 (EDT)

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Canada - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 11:11:38 (EDT)

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London, UK - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 09:21:31 (EDT)

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Mike mike_smith@msx.ru
Russia - Monday, August 09, 2004 at 11:13:14 (EDT)

Hello! I hope all is well. Anyways I remember coming across your site a few years ago when i was doing a presentation on Schizophrenia. I am very interest still of your story and i wish you the best in life. Its amazing how you overcame this illness and continued your sucess in life. I wish you a wonderful life and continued happiness.
Renee Deslaunais
North Bay, On Canada - Sunday, August 08, 2004 at 10:51:42 (EDT)

Thank you for your story, and all the useful information you have provided. My friend of 17 years has just commited suicide a few days ago, and your story helped me understand what he must have been going through in his secretive world that I am just beginning to discover. I only wish there was more awareness in the prodome phase of what friends/ family should look for during this time. Hind sight is 20/20...I can see it all now, even though he was never formerly diagnosed (at least that I know of). I just wish I would have known before his death. I am searching for ways that I can contribute towards increasing awareness of the early symptoms, as well as the illness on a whole. Early detection is key, but there is no information available to every day people on what to look for. I now see all the negative symptoms he so exhibited, in addition to many now prevalent positive symptoms, as well as a family history (that I have just come to find out).... the pieces all fall together now in this puzzle...I just could not connect them before. I had no idea what I was looking at. In the struggle to try and help, many things were misperceived and his behavior so frustrating and confusing. It all now makes sense. You are an amazing person with a lot of insight, and although it is not easy to share, you did. You are helping the awareness. Just wanted you to know how much your story helps me pick up the pieces and head towards gaining closure. This is the best site I have found thus far.
Mianda
NJ USA - Saturday, August 07, 2004 at 11:45:31 (EDT)

Thanks for this website Ian. God has obviously made you a very intelligent man. May I suggest you read Psalm 139 and the whole of the New Testament and see how God speaks to you through His Word.
Jacqui Smith
LEATHERHEAD, England - Saturday, August 07, 2004 at 03:27:34 (EDT)

What an amazing story, and you are an amazing person. I'm going to share this with my boyfriend who's 25, and in the 3rd year of schizophrenia. He will appreciate this. Thank you for sharing this!
Erica
Calgary, Alberta Canada - Friday, August 06, 2004 at 04:36:29 (EDT)

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johannesbourg, geuteng south africa - Friday, August 06, 2004 at 02:38:53 (EDT)

Hi, tanks a lot for this great website. I have a small personal website on Schizophrenai in french. I fell in love with a nice person who suffer from Schizophrenia. We has a baby almost 3 years ago... Take care of yourself
Corinne De Leenheer
Courcelles, Belgium - Thursday, August 05, 2004 at 16:19:57 (EDT)

I have found the info on your website very informative and helpful. I find this illness so lonely and confusing. You have given me some helpful onformation. Thank you.
Suzanna Safrany
Harrogate, Yorks United Kingdom - Thursday, August 05, 2004 at 11:21:58 (EDT)

I found your website very helpfull as I am experiencing milder forms of your symptoms. I realize that I must go to a docter before It's too late and I miss out on all the opportunities in life. Thank you soo much.
Brooke Blakely
West Monroe, La United States - Wednesday, August 04, 2004 at 11:53:41 (EDT)

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c.h.
atlanta, ga usa - Wednesday, August 04, 2004 at 10:29:49 (EDT)

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Lubbock , TX USA - Tuesday, August 03, 2004 at 17:23:46 (EDT)

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Canada - Sunday, August 01, 2004 at 15:40:27 (EDT)

I can totally relate to some of your experiences & have been in treatment for some undisclosed illness as well. I do not want to enumerate here, but if you would e-mail me, if you are truely interested, I would be happy to share my experience with you. It is very much like yours. Although I have never heard any voices. I did however,have the experience of going through a very phsycodelic journey leading to what I believe to be the most important revelation of life. The Bible tells us of the coming times, & yet they are already here. Some of us know more than others for whatever reason, We should be the ones to further the "Truth" to as many as possible & let everyone know what the future holds for mankind. It is going to be really special in the fact that we will be able to live forever in Paradise on Earth. It's up to us with the advanced knowledge of such, to make it known to as many people as we possibly can. Whatever anyone says of us, the truth will be made known to all, "earthwide". Everyone will know that the God of the Bible, "Jehovah", is the Creator of All things. He alone is our Grand Creator & will help us on our journey to wellness. The Bible clearly says at Isaiah 33:24, " ...and no resident will say "I am sick", the people that are dwelling in the land, will be those who have been pardoned for their error." What a comforting thought for all of us... Who knows, maybe we will have a good influence on others that feel like us. As we look forward to a happy future where "War & disease" are a thing of the past.
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Roseville, Ca. U.s.a. - Friday, July 30, 2004 at 23:58:11 (EDT)

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lagos, Canada - Friday, July 30, 2004 at 18:08:46 (EDT)

I was surfing the Net for articles about treatment-resistant Schizophrenia, and was interested to look around your webpage. My son Martin (age 17) has been hearing "voices" since age 14, and we are hoping and praying that he will soon have some response to Clozapine, which he has been taking for over a year now. He had little response to several other antipsychotics. I note that you felt relatively well on a combination of Effexor with Seroquel and (was it?)Olanzapine. I am interested that you live in Ontario. I have been all the way over there and back twice in the last few years, to visit (all too briefly) a wonderful Christian fellowship near the airport in Toronto - so near that it is actually called the Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship! They have a great website at www.tacf.org, where you can look at the Live TV menu and see what sort of meetings they have. Everything is very informal, and the people I met there (including the staff) are really loving and non-judgemental. Best of all, there is something very special there which is hard to define - let's call it the healing presence of Christ...it would be great if you could check it out. I think they also do outreaches in downtown Toronto. By the way, I don't have schizophrenia, but have suffered from times of depression and anxiety, besides marital problems and stress from caring for Martin. It was great to have a few days off to visit Toronto, after I got a tax rebate out of the blue...so I was only there last week, and my previous visit was in 1999. Both times I can truly say I received significant healing. I spent all my time at the church & hotel, but another time would like to visit the city itself. I did see Niagara in 1999 - awesome! I know of a guy called Bob Edwards who grew up in Canada (Vancouver, I think), and whose experiences were similar to yours in his teens. He had a miraculous healing through Jesus' power, and now has a ministry particularly to those with mental illness or stress problems. I will look up his website, if you would like. Feel free to e-mail me at jill.hingyi@hje.org.uk Blessings, Jill
Jill Hingyi
London , UK - Friday, July 30, 2004 at 11:08:43 (EDT)

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Conny
Germany - Thursday, July 29, 2004 at 17:34:19 (EDT)

I'm in year 11 at school doing an assignment on mental coniditions (dissociative identity disorder, schizophrenia etc.) I found your site to be very useful and would like to say that i think you were very brave to share your life with the world, good on you!
scott hutchinson
wagga, nsw australia - Thursday, July 29, 2004 at 08:20:52 (EDT)

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Sydney, NSW Australia - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 at 00:03:11 (EDT)

Dear Sir, I need to commend you for your extensive work on the disease that so much of the world has but so many people misunderstand. My history is similar to yours, except that I had sudden onset at age seventeen. Today I live a productive life, have friends in recovery and a family that respects me and even has a bit of pride that a member of their family has survived something so traumatic. They don't really know though. I still experience mild symptoms and have taken my medication religiously since 1979. I switched to Risperdal after it became available in early 1994 here in the US. To boast briefly - I was married for twenty years, now a widower, am sole inventor on a patent for timing devices for the textile industry, haven't had a drink in more than ten years, was a guest in the White House Oval Office to be congratulated in 1984 for being 'crazy yet holding it in the road' (Actually, I wanted to discuss with President Regan the fact that his administration had recently cut out the program I went to college with, but I figured you only get in that office once, so I decided to keep my mouth shut.), am quite the guitarist as a hobby, and own a motorcycle that I enjoy riding. It's people like us that can make it possible for the next generation of schizophrenics to suffer less. Bob Howard
Bob Howard
- Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 15:20:28 (EDT)

Hello! Talk about dumb and dumber! There is NO SUCH THING AS SCHIZOPHRENIA! If there were such a condition, a cure long ago would have been found! The word schizophrenia is a word which describes to the government that you are worthy of EXTERMINATION!! WAKE UP PEOPLE!! PS ZYPREXA GIVES YOU DIABETES AND MAKES YOU FAT!! One of the indicators of schizophrenia is that you have the following genetic determinations: 1. Intelligence 2. Good looks 3. Wary of con artists 4. Inability to concentrate because society has no motivators anymore to reward excellence, and so consequently, you will see more and more dysfunctional geniuses, and the dumbies are answering the phone already, in case you haven't noticed, as they just keep plodding along, and writing some garbage can term to people who are moral, ethical and in the western civilization who have not learned how to lie, cheat and steal and abuse women with permission of society. 5. There is no love in the world, but don't blame your mother, she was unloved by the government too, because the name of the game is to make mega bucks on human misery. There is no one in government as of July 27, 2004 who cares one iota about making the world a better place. The only artist "who made it" was Picasso, because his daughter perpetuated his memory when he learned he could turn out painting garbage to make a fool out of people! Let me know when someone wakes up to reality!
Elaine Eure Henderson
Atlanta, TX Canada - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 11:35:14 (EDT)

419 on parade keep offff
abba 419
Canada - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 10:54:19 (EDT)

I really enjoyed looking around your site. I was wondering if I could receive email updates? jack_clark@bigmailbox.org -Jack
Jack
Indianapolis, In USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 at 22:02:19 (EDT)

Ihammerman@yahoo.com. You are a great person, nice site
Isaac Hammerman
Seattle, WA, Canada - Saturday, July 24, 2004 at 16:40:42 (EDT)

I just found out that my best friend has been diagnoised with this disease. It truly affects me deeply to see her suffer this way. In addition, she has added stress from an unhealthy family. My heart and prayers go out to all who suffer from this unfortunate situation.May God's power rule over your lives and heal each and every one.
Unknown
Unknown, MA US - Friday, July 23, 2004 at 19:06:05 (EDT)

I know all about the illness. I suffered from a psychosis, which has all the characteristics of schizophrenia, due to too much Ecstacy consumption. I also suffered from alcohol induced Manic Depression. Luckily I, not I, my family, was able to stop me before it developed into a longer term illness. It was the absolute worst 6 months of my life. I see people with schizophrenia always trying to expose the secrets to societies disfunctions, from the bouncing radio between the Earth and the Ionosphere penetrating into their minds to the TV constantly mocking you. Constantly talking to myself about world domination to having thoughts of being the Messiah. The telepathy was what really messed with my mind, I kind of played with that for a while just to mess with other people's minds. The psychiatrist has me on Zyprexa and that really washed out all the voices but one, my conscience. Now I'm stuck with repairing my shattered life. I went through Hell. Now I'm back and I stuck with wondering what the hell just happened.
James
Leamington, ON Canada - Thursday, July 22, 2004 at 21:44:18 (EDT)

There aren't words enough to describe the great respect I have for you. I came upon your site while doing research for an essay. Your story helped my understanding and emotions behind the illness a great deal. God Bless.
Raquel C Cervantes
Salt Lake City, UT United States - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 at 13:14:51 (EDT)

I appreciate a person like you. You have put yourself out there in an attempt to help others. You should write a book. You seem a very warm and intelligent man and I wish you all the best in life.
Sondra
Dallas, TX USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 18:50:04 (EDT)

my email is here, Please if you have any advice for me.. Exotic8princess8@yahoo.com Exotic8princess8@msn.com Exotic8princess8@aol.com
Tarik Hamzah
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:51:35 (EDT)

Ima get u sucka (tarik Hamzah) and the whole disney crew too oh yeah You ran out of pudding
Micky Mouse
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:40:47 (EDT)

hello, I am a 23 year old who suffers from schizophrenia. I have had it for as long as I remember. I find myself talking to people that I know dont exist and Micky Mouse always follows me around no matter how fast I run. He is to quick for me. And at night time Donald Duck squeeks at me. Goffy always is in my kitchin eating my food. I know it doesn't exist but it is what I see. When I eat the last pudding package they use a counter attack on me and rape me taking turns. Thankfully this site has helped me understand more about my condition Thank you, Tarik Hamzah
Tarik Hamzah
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:37:34 (EDT)

arth419@yahoo.com
arturo hemmingway
blaow, Canada - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:12:11 (EDT)

You've been through alot, in your photo you seem wise. I am schizoaffective, and am wondering whether I should go stay at a psychiatric institution for awhile, as my delusions and hallucinations are very strong, and am having trouble with all sorts of different kinds of spirits. Peace.
Malcolm
Hamilton, NZ - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 23:57:09 (EDT)

THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR COMMENTS ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA. I JUST RECENTLY DISCOVERED THAT THE MAN I AM ABOUT TO MARRY HAS THIS TERRIBLE DISEASE. I PLAN TO STAND BY HIS SIDE, AND YOUR STORY IS VERY ENCOURAGING. THANK YOU!!
Tareesh Anne
Alton, IL USA - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 18:27:25 (EDT)

I am very interested in your info about the prodrome period in schizophrenia. My son has schizophrenia and the prodrome period was exactly the way you described it. I wonder why the psychologists and psychiatrists that he saw never wondered about schizophrenia. They knew that I have a cousin with schizophrenia, so why didn't they put 2 and 2 together. interesting, huh? I wonder if we could have avoided his first psychotic episode. My son had extensive tests done by a psychiatrist hired by his high school because he was caught with pot and alcohol possession on school property. all he ever did was smoke pot! Where can i find more info on the prodrome period? thanks ps this is a great web site! sueshulo@yahoo.com
Sue Marasciulo
mount sinai, ny usa - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 08:57:44 (EDT)

Your website is truly inspirational. I have gained so much insight into the disease. I employ an individual with schiophrenia, and have learned how to assist and encourage her during relapse. Thanks for helping me to understand.
J. Smith
Grande Prairie, AB Canada - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 08:17:10 (EDT)

Hi Ian! I was wondering if you have finished reading my website http://voicewaves.tripod.com and if you have checked out my three books: (1) Little Voices: A True Paranoid Schizophrenic Adventure, (2) Illuminati: Healing and Developing the Mind, and (3) Sync My World: A SEA & Nautical Map to Relative Peace. If you have some time, please leave some comments in my mail, so that I can make the 4th and 5th book more people-friendly. Thanks a lot pal! Rodney St.Michael rodneystmichael@yahoo.com
Rodney St.Michael
Manila, Philippines - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 13:15:47 (EDT)

Kammajjaa
Onu Pervo
Sydney, Australia - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 06:53:47 (EDT)

This is a fabulous learning sight on this disease.. I am quite familar with this disease as I have a family member living with it.. Wow!! your story sounds alot like hers... especially the parts on wars,and aliens ect.. and religion getting mixed up into it as well.. I just found this site tonight and will add it to my favourites.. This is great work!!
Susan
Toronto, Ontario Canada - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 00:13:47 (EDT)

I have recently qualified as a psychiatric nurse in the south of england. Your website made absorbing reading coming as it does from a service user perspective. It is gratifying to hear that you cope as well as you do with your challenge. I come into contact with ucute mental illness every day (nursing in a psychiatric intensive care unit), but can only imagine the enormity of that challenge. All respect to you.
Lew Cope
England - Friday, July 16, 2004 at 17:43:33 (EDT)

Thank you so much for your wonderful work and capacity to stay alive. My lover killed himself 7 months ago. Living me 8 months pregnant with his little unborn then boy. Very possible that my lover had disability of your spectrum. But he did not talk about his mental problems at all and kept a big very well guarded secret about his personal plans like "killing himself on the morrow". Let me give you my E-Mail:vita6748@hotmail.com Best wishes. Keep on living to the fullest. You are still a brilliant man with that "in the top 3%" mind.
Victoria
New York, NY USA - Friday, July 16, 2004 at 03:32:16 (EDT)

Ian, thank you for sharing your personal story with our class. I would like to take this opportunity to tell you that your story is of great value to myself and others as not many individuals have demonstrate the courage to share their personal experience with others. It has certainly changed my perspective of how to view mental illness. I greatly respect and appreciate your bravery.
Jen
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 22:40:42 (EDT)

good, informative page :)
bacca lao
Norway - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 20:25:53 (EDT)

I have not read your experience to comment willdo so after reading thanks
anita
mumbai, india - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 15:58:51 (EDT)

Hi Ian! Just wanted to jump on board with my fellow classmates and thank you for your time today and coming out to speak to us about mental illness and your own personal experience! It was kinda cool reading up here on your hobby (sound systems!) although i'm not an audiophile myself (yet...) i do enjoy a quality sound system! ANYWAY, I wish you all the best as you continue to educate others about mental illnesses!
Jeffery Wong
Miss., ON Canada - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 01:22:02 (EDT)

Ian, along with Natalie I would like to thank you for coming to speak with us today at the University of Waterloo and for sharing your personal story. Your courage has helped us in our quest for further learning and for that we thank you.
Angela
Waterloo, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 21:35:44 (EDT)

Ian, you came today to speak to my Family Violence class at the Univesity of Waterloo, and I found your story about schizophrenia extremely intriguing. I loved hearing you speak about your experiences, and you opened up my eyes to a world that I could never imagine. Thank you.
Natalie
Kitchener, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 19:05:53 (EDT)

Happy now that I can spell schixophrenia.All you add is LOvE.....That is all.....that is all.....that is all....
stillnotgodever
bloomfield, iowa united states of america - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 16:29:14 (EDT)

hi, great site - keep up the good work keeping people informed about this terrible affliction.
Yura
Kansas City, Mo USA - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 07:52:27 (EDT)

Hi Ian, Your website is getting better and better. It is so well laid out and it was so easy to access information that I was interested in. I enjoyed both of the new additions - compliance and the story of your musical 'addiction'. This is a fantastic site - how awesome that is is on the web and the world has a chance to view it. Regards, susan scadding
susan scadding
guelph, ont Canada - Sunday, July 11, 2004 at 15:01:01 (EDT)

As the father of a young woman who has schizophrenia, I found your website fascinating. I plan to return, to read more of it. My schizophrenia site, which I am still developing, is at http://nzsf.com
Alan Ireland
Palmerston North, North Island New Zealand - Sunday, July 11, 2004 at 06:10:04 (EDT)

I feel compelled to write you after having spent the past few weeks poring over your website. I recently found out that the person I have been seeing for the past few months has schizophrenia. I am trying to learn as much as I can about his illness and the resources and information you have provided have proven to be very valuable in getting me on the right track. Thank you for sharing your experiences and insight.
jenny
coastal, OR USA - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 13:34:10 (EDT)

I've entitled my website "Understanding Mental Illness from Inside It" and it may be of interest to you. The address is... http://mentalhealth.fateback.com I'm sure that "straight from the horse's mouth" insight would be of some worth... I hope so anyway. Thank you.
Glen James Thomas
Katoomba, NSW Australia - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 12:09:18 (EDT)

Very interseted in your website, by the very nature of it's enormity and it ramified works. Both hand in hand.. They represent a man and many works.
Darius Leshko
Tigard, OR USA - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 02:38:46 (EDT)

Hello , i came to this site for help and information. My boyfriend has been diagnosed with bi-polar with phycotic rage.... And he has too many different moods.. I love him with all my heart he is 19 years old i am 27 he has no immidate family near by. And I want to help him he refuses medication. And I don't know how to bring things up in our relationship with out setting him off...... please if anybody has any advice will you please use yahoo messenger and messege me at big78silverados_woman at yahoo.. please i need help to keep my relationship going
Jill Hendricks
Eldorado , KS USA - Tuesday, July 06, 2004 at 15:18:43 (EDT)

Thanks! I enjoed the time on your site! Sincerly yours, with .......
bildhauer
de, - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 19:27:00 (EDT)

Hi Ian: I came across your story in a book I am reading at this time, Beyond Crazy: Journeys Through Mental Illness. I heard about this book via the Family to Family Newsletter for First Episode Psychosis Families. I came across the Newsletter at an Early Psychosis Intervention Workshop I attended here in St. John's on June 17th. I called my local library a week or so ago, they ordered the book in, and here I am. I want you to know that your story has brought me a greater level of insight into schizophrenia (as have the other stories printed in Beyond Crazy). I feel indebted to you and to the others who so bravely shared their stories (and to those who made this book happen). I am not sure why I am writing you. I have no agenda other than to say thanks. So, here it goes "thanks". A little about me. I am a social worker. I've been working in the field of child welfare for the past 11 years. I attended the early psychosis workshop last month because I am interested in mental health related issues, personally and professionally. Personally, because I have suffered from depression for a long time. I was diagnosed twice. The first time was in 1997, just after my wife had had a miscarriage. I dismissed this diagnosis and tossed the prescription for anti-depressants in the garbage. I took some time off work and started doing some things for me (I began reading more, I visited a counsellor, I restarted my journaling efforts, I started walking more, etc, etc). I bounced back, pretty much. I continued to have low moods, quite regularly, as I've had for as long as I can remember. However, I hit a really low point in November of last year. My wife had just given birth to our third child, two months premature. Six weeks later my wife suffered a heart attack, supposedly related to the pregnancy (a blood clot 100 % blocked off an artery). Having three young kids, a sick wife and some heavy resposnibilites on me at work took it's toll. I sought help and was diagnosed yet again with depression but this time I filled the presciption and started taking the meds (Celexa). I found that they worked. I stopped thinking about ways of killing myself and my mood changed for the better. I've been off meds for a couple months now. I returned to work in January. My wife is doing better but still suffers from chest pains, almost daily. We try to live in the moment more these days and we are more grateful just to be alive than I think we used to be. Sorry for the long shpiel about my own life. I guess I wanted to give you some background on the kind of people your story has affected. Mental health issues are so important. It is encouraging to read a story like yours. So many stories end so sadly. I know several people who have died in relation to their mental ill-health. Keep up the good work Ian. You are an inspiration. Sincerely, Rob Wadman-Scanlan
Rob Wadman-Scanlan
St. John's, NL. Canada - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 11:54:39 (EDT)

Although your site is tremendous, I cannot find information on how to get a schizophrenic to take medication. This person thinks that she is fine, everyone else is an idiot, and that medication is bad. Although her unacceptable behavior is escalating, it is not "dangerous" to herself or others per se -- except that she storms into their work places and lies about them. Examples are saying that someone is an unfit father and should not have custody of his children -- the supervisor of a friend, someone she doesn't even know -- and coming to her sister's workplace to demand to know her hours and also telling the other staff that they are idiots and cannot stop her. She controls her family's time, demanding that they write letters to attorneys, handwriting experts, etc. She leaves as many as 50 messages per day on the attorney's answering machine. All of her behavior is understandable in light of her multifaceted illness, yet I think that all of it could be controlled through medication. I will greatly appreciate any suggestions that you make for getting this woman to take medication.
Maggie Maguire
Carolina Shores, NC USA - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 07:17:12 (EDT)

Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
deutschland luftbilder
de, - Sunday, July 04, 2004 at 22:41:14 (EDT)

THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. I REALY ENJOYED READDING ABOUT YOU. GOOD LUCK TASHA
TASHA
HOPATCONG, NJ USA - Sunday, July 04, 2004 at 21:41:01 (EDT)

Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
Chatten
de, - Saturday, July 03, 2004 at 20:28:38 (EDT)

I really appreciated reading about your experiences coping with such a highly stressful disease. I am starting on an ACT Team in New York City and your words have given me more insight into what my consumers/clients may be going through. You have come very far down such a difficult path. Thanks for this website and best of luck to you.
Katherine
New York, NY USA - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 10:46:31 (EDT)

Thanks! I enjoed the time on your site! Sincerly yours, with .......
Geschichten
de, - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 06:39:33 (EDT)

pls keep off ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
corporal
lome, togo togo - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 05:37:34 (EDT)

This site has helped me a lot on a research project I am currently doing for school. Thank you for sharing your experience with the rest of us.
Dena
ME United States - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 20:18:11 (EDT)

thx for good site Chovil, very informative
Emil Lazarian
AM, AM AM - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 19:32:59 (EDT)

great site ian, your obvious wealth of experience in this area will let you help others greatly when u fully recover
ken
lurgan, ireland - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 00:16:55 (EDT)

One look at your photo and I knew I was looking at another Trent Alum. We all look so "granola" regardless of our personal intrabiodiversity and psychophysiology. My sister has "something" that the "family" won't divulge to me (I immigrated to Canada from the USA--they renounced me). She telephones me when in crisis and I believe it is Schizophrenia. She is always so terribly frightened I will disown her, that is her big concern, "promise you won't stop talking to me if I am crazy. Mom and everybody else won't take my calls anymore. Mickey (my brother) got an unlisted telephone number and changed his e-mail....bleah, bleah, bleah....It's crushing; not just for her but for me. There is a reason I immigrated to Canada. A political boundry doesn't appear strong enough to keep the nastiness out...<> I hope that even if you cannot be physically present for your family member with schizophrenia, or any mental illness,you can support them through their hospitalizations by assuring them that their illness doesn't mean they are any more or less lovable than before diagnosis, relapse, hospitalization, etc. It does give explain some behaviours and thoughts that once things have stabilized (doctors, meds, hospital routine, home--someone is watering the plants, etc.) can be discussed in a family meeting with their Social Worker/Primary Care Psychiatric Nurse/Staff Psychologist. My little sister knows that she can call me any time of the day and I will take her call. I will also get help to her, if she needs it, from where I am here in Canada. George W. will have to break his piggy bank to treat "another indigent American with no health insurance." (one of my bio parents was Canadian, my sister's wasn't.)
MJ Prairie Waif
Brandon, MB Canada - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 23:21:42 (EDT)

I am finishing a dotorate in clinical psychology and have never heard anyone talk about their experience with Schizophrenia quite so deeply. It is one thing for me to be educated about mental illness and how to help, but your presentation of your journey allowed me to have a truer sense of the experience of Schizophrenia than any classroom or textbook could ever teach me. A most sincere thank you.
Danny
San Diego, CA USA - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 20:13:57 (EDT)

Congratulations on a great site! Keep up the good work.
Francis
England - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 15:36:41 (EDT)

I found your website in search for basic information about schizophrenia for my site and therefore use a little of your text about it on my english section of my site at http://psletschert.nl Waanzinnig! About an exeptional experience, come and see under medical if its proper and not an issue in wich case \I will remove it but actually I would like your permission to make a copyright like © 2001-2004 Waanzinnig! by Ian Chovil
muppel
zoetermeer, zh netherlands - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 05:33:33 (EDT)

You have showed great courage in revealing your own experiences of this disease and should be applauded for your innovation with this website. I was diagnosed in 1991 with paranoid schizophrenia, though since then several other "definitions" have been put on the sicknotes ie. schizoaffective disorder/bipolar etc etc. I am still persevering with a neuroleptic and an antidepressant and have the resulting weight gain but being fat and happy and leading a relatively productive life now is a small price to pay for coming off the meds and suffering a relapse.... with all that entails. Meantime, I am endeavouring to put something back into the system that helped me and now work in an administrative role in the NHS in England. However, I would say that we all still have a long, long way to go to fight the stigma that is attached to this disease even though we are now in the 21st century. The media is particularly guilty I believe in their "sensationalising" any story where a schizophrenic is involved. I hope your site will continue to educate and inform those who have had little or no experience of this devastating illness and I am glad, very glad, that you have come out of it the other side. Good luck with your future, thank you for sharing your experience and I will recommend your site to others. Carolyn - London - UK
carolyn
london, united kingdom - Saturday, June 26, 2004 at 20:55:32 (EDT)

PLEASE IF ANY ONE CAN HELP....READ ME Hello, My finace was diagnosed with paranoid schitzophrenia - possible bipolar. We have tried Risperdol and Geodon, currently trying Abilify & depakote. If anyone has any suggestions or can just talk to me please write. It has been a long time stressing months. Im sure just the begging. this website was great!...I'm just trying to find a medication that will maybe help him...so far no luck...he's getting very discouraged and is coming againest us....its becoming harder every day...if anyone has any advice or has any suggestions on treatment plans for this disorder please write...some12write2@yahoo.com
Gen
Cape Girardeau, Mo USA - Thursday, June 24, 2004 at 19:58:56 (EDT)

Your website was a Godsend! My brother-in-law has recently had his first psychotic episode and is now recieving help and taking Zyprexa. We're hoping we'll get our friend back. Your story is inspiring. Thank you for all your hard work, Dana from LA
Dana A.
Los Angeles, CA US - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 23:58:13 (EDT)

great web site
Amanda
kansas city, Mo. usa - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 20:10:19 (EDT)

really nice to inform people, great work!!
d.blanks
sweden - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 15:22:35 (EDT)

i am studying performing arts. i have wrote a short play about a girl with schizophernia. this website has helped me sooooooooooooooooooooooo much. thank you
harriette wight
London, UK - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 10:13:17 (EDT)

I find your website to be very informative. I am currently writing an informative speech and I chose to write it on schizophrenia. My older sister has been experiencing this mental illness for almost 20 years now. She is currently going though a relapse at this time. I believe more research needs to be done about this disease. Because many people may be suffering from this disease and do not know it. I wish you the best of luck with everything that you are trying to accomplish and I now know to include you in my prays every night when I pray for my sister to get better that you remain healthy. God Bless you. O'Linda Bates lynn27bates@yahoo.com
O'Linda Bates
Dallas, Tx US - Monday, June 21, 2004 at 23:52:05 (EDT)

I am preparing a paper for a course in drugs and human behaivour and on your webpage i've found some useful clarification on the disease schizophrenia. Thank you.
Karen
Toronto, ON Canada - Saturday, June 19, 2004 at 11:15:29 (EDT)

Hello, it is very cool site. I am from Russia and I am love him(your web site of course). Best regards, Sergei. My home page - http://www.filosof-chel. narod.ru
Sergei
Cheliabinsk, rus Russia - Friday, June 18, 2004 at 09:14:29 (EDT)

My brother came over last Saturday evening, and I knew there was something wrong when I asked if he came over to pick up the asparagus my husband forgot to bring when he went up north(my brother lives 60+ miles north of us and we also have a cabin near where he lives). Then I could see tears in his eyes, and he just cried and then started talking about his wife. He started telling me of things about her that I never would have guessed she would have done, and it has been going on for years! I listened a lot, and let him do most of the talking. I also have a friend that has paranoid schizophrenia, so a lot of what he was telling me was so familiar of what my friend had gone through. They have been to counseling in the past, but neither one of them seem to have a lot of confidence in seeking more counseling. When "Dave" told me that he had considered suicide the week before, I was devastated that my brother wanted to do this! I told him his two children, sisters, along with so many others, needed him here with us and he needed us right now. How can a person do something with this 45-year-old woman that refuses to believe she has any kind of problem(s)? Or, for that matter, seek any counseling. Any suggestions, Ian? Betty
Betty
Oconto, WI USA - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 12:15:14 (EDT)

MANDY FROM ENGLAND, please do contact me if your brother is still not recieving help. It is possible for someone to 'discover' their schizophrenia in their thirties. flowers_364@hotmail.com
Rose
UK - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 11:03:23 (EDT)

MANDY FROM ENGLAND, please do contact me if your brother is still not recieving help. It is possible for someone to 'discover' their schizophrenia in their thirties. flowers_364@hotmail.com
Rose
UK - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 11:03:21 (EDT)

Marvelous site. Thank you!
Tan Kock Wah
Kuching, Malaysia - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 at 02:28:37 (EDT)

I have read your story. My sister is also ill with schizophrenia. It has been hard on the family. It doesn't help that I am bi-polar with severe manic episodes. I found your story inspiring. I hope that someday my sister will take her meds and come home to her family instead of thinking that we are plotting to take her life all the time.Keep up the good fight. I know you must struggle everyday. I do. Good luck to you and your family.
Callie Hamilton
Piedmont, sd USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 22:07:14 (EDT)

I have a ten year old son and his father was never involved. About two months ago, he called and wanted to make things right. We have spent quite a bit of time with him and he and my son have bonded really quickly. My son’s dad was diagnosed with bi-polar and schizophrenia and I honestly felt that God had brought me into his life to somehow help him. Its been heartbreaking to see and hear of some of the things he tells me and as hard as I try, I can’t seem to fully convince him that he isn’t this “bad man”. I have been praying for him and he is seeking the Lord also. His mother bought a book called “The Brain Chemistry Plan” and I honestly feel that this may help a lot of people. It talks about Vitamin Deficiency and it makes a lot of sense to me. I have been studying up on all of this and have read that schizophrenics have a deficiency in Niacin which is a Vitamin B-3. It also talks about high copper levels can cause delusions. If we look at how our society lives we can see why mental illness and also other diseases such as cancer are so normal now. Its so much easier to run through Taco Bell or McDonalds and grab something quick that has so much fat and NO NUTRIENTS or Vitamins. We tear our bodies down by not taking vitamins and eating only what tastes good without considering what it is actually doing. Since what we put or don’t put into our bodies goes to OUR BRAINS, of course, we are going to have depression, fatigue, confusion, delusions, etc. We go to the doctor and we try this medicine or that and we deal with this effect and that one. I fully believe that God has put things on this earth that are natural and curable for diseases. I am adding on two links to this message and am hoping that I can help people with the information that I have found. I would love to do a study on this. Another great things is Flaxseed Oil (Omega-3 oil). It works in so many ways, including thinning your blood so that nutrients from (vitamins, better foods) will get to your brain faster. It also helps lower blood pressure, helps with arthritis and if mixed with cottage cheese (which is sulfar based), it can help cancer patients. Here are the two links that might be somewhat helpful. www.beckwithfamily.com and http://mentalhelp.net/books/books.php?id=959&type=de&PHPSESSID=9bd653827fae96dfd6e6bd6be5a4cf03 I honestly feel that there are answers beyond the psychiatrists and doctors. The natural things just don’t bring in as much money and of course, if it did, it would be shouted from the rooftops. I would love to help and if I can answer any questions that anyone has about the book that I am reading about this disease (schizophrenia) , please feel free to email me….and I hope that this helps someone. We went to the vitamin store and got zinc (which lowers copper levels), niacin, calcium, vitamin B-1, B-2, B-12, etc. and he started on it three days ago. I will be in touch to tell you how it is working. The Number one Key is GOD. He still heals today…and he has given us these things. Unfortunately most of the food is either processed or refined or has a lot of pestisides so that is where vitamins come in. My email address is brandee028@yahoo.com
Brandi
Tyler, TX USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 18:10:49 (EDT)

i love to see you and tell you the goodnews of god
don sarar
lometogo, Canada - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 08:46:19 (EDT)

Your web site is really great. I have a term paper this semester on this topic. I am in the Occupational Therapy program at my college. Your web site will help me out so much.
Cassandra Owens
Summerville, SC United States - Monday, June 14, 2004 at 21:51:29 (EDT)

You should keep up the great work, i can see from the responses that youve made an impact on a lot of people. :) Good luck.
andie
Melbourne, - Monday, June 14, 2004 at 07:18:05 (EDT)

Nice site thank you
Heza
Dubai, UAE - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 19:17:22 (EDT)

Thank you very much for share all of your experiences!! I truly believe it will help people and their families....take care!!! Bye
Carolina Rosas
London, ON Canada - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 13:26:05 (EDT)

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Farid
Canada - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 04:48:50 (EDT)

FROM: ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI TEL/FAX: 448701278173 EMAIL: adedeji_02@yahoo.com SIR, I AM MR. ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI FROM EKITI, NOW IN LONDON UK AS A MEDICAL DOCTOR HERE IN UK FOR 36 YEARS NOW, AND I CAN NOT LOCATE MY FAMILY IN EKITI NIGERIA, AND I WANT TO INVEST MY MONEY IN MY OWN COUNTRY NIGERIA, ON FILLING STATION BUSINESS, PLEASE ANYONE FROM 45YEARS WHO CAN MANAGE A FILLING STATION BUSINESS IN EKITI OR ANY AREA IN NIGERIA, WITH HONEST CAN CONTAC ME. THANK YOU ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI
ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI
LONDON, UK - Saturday, June 12, 2004 at 12:48:40 (EDT)

Thank you so much for creating this website. I am 34 years old and will be meeting my father for the second time in my life. My mom left him when I was six months old (she was 20 and dad was 22). All I knew as I was growing up was that he was mentally ill. He tried to commit suicide several times and he believed he was in a famous rock band. I was always scared of him and afraid I would turn out the same way. I initiated contact and met my father a number of times when I was sixteen. But, I lost interest and did not maintain contact with him and his family. Last weekend I tracked him down and spoke with him for the first time in 18 years. He sounds much worse now than he did when I was 16. He rambled about the "bureau" being after him. I have many, many questions. First, I know he is not taking medication. Is it too late to start? Will he ever be able to have a normal conversation with me? I have so many questions. Also, as I now think of having children of my own, I wonder if I will have a schizophrenic child. Any input would be appreciated. Anyway, thank you so much for your website. It is very informative and gives me hope that my father, like you, can get better some day.
Curious
Los Angeles, CA United States - Saturday, June 12, 2004 at 01:46:03 (EDT)

Your story and the information on this site helps me to be more sympathetic to my father who is paranoid pschizophrenic. He was never a part of my life and for a long time I was angry and hurt over him not making an effort to be in my life. As far as I know he was clinically diagnosed, never took medication, an alcoholic, and has been in and out of jail. This helps me to look at things from his perspective and consider what he goes through. After doing some reading in this site I feel less angry and hurt. This is a wonderful site. Thanks!
Tifphanie Rivera
Killeen, TX USA - Friday, June 11, 2004 at 01:33:57 (EDT)

Ian, Thank you so much for providing Mothers, like me a place to go that offers personal information, strength, encouragement and hope for my son who has been hospitalized for the third time after his attempt to take his life. It has been very difficult to watch him becoming more distant from the world and is an up and down battle, however, he will survive this battle for I will always be at his side and with the help from your site and others I will do all that I can to continue to learn about his illness so I can stay strong enough to help him conquer his fears. God Bless You and Thank You for Your Strength and Courage!
Many Tears
Mt. Airy, MD USA - Wednesday, June 09, 2004 at 10:44:52 (EDT)

i love this sit
sam
owerri, ow Canada - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 10:41:41 (EDT)

I just want you to know that I think you did a terrific job on this websight.
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NY, NY USA - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:57:58 (EDT)

I am suffering from Paranoid Schizoprenia. Time to time I write articles in Nepali Times. You can visit me at http://www.nepalitimes.com Then I go wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ashutosh Tiwari
Kathmandu , Nepal Nepal - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:35:32 (EDT)

Dear Ian, I really like your Website. I run a Nepalese restaurant in Adelaide called Sagarmatha Nepalese Restaurant. Please visit http://www.sagarmatha.com.au I am also suferringfrom "Dependent" and "Narcissistic" Personality Disorder. Time to time I smoke Ganja and go UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Deepak Bahadur Bista
Adelaide, SA Australia - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:33:09 (EDT)

Hi Ian I have just read your story, I was looking for information on Schizophrenia for an essay, and came on to your wedsite "wow" what a story. The information was all encompassing and informative I thank you, and will email you for dates regarding referencing if thats OK
Hilary
Christchurch, south New Zealand - Monday, June 07, 2004 at 05:29:49 (EDT)

I just want you to know that I think you did a terrific job on this websight.
Italian Charms
NY, NY USA - Sunday, June 06, 2004 at 01:14:36 (EDT)

Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
Chatten
de, - Saturday, June 05, 2004 at 16:25:01 (EDT)

fantastic web site ihope one day my son will be able to express freely how he feels living with schizophenia and find inner peace.I think if non sufferers are educated about mental health issues then the less the stigma there will be.thanks for sharing your experiences in your website i know i will be visiting it many times just learning all i can about schizophrenia at the moment so that me and my family can try and understand my son who has recently been diagnosed with this illness and be able to help him recover and be able to return to some kind of quality of life.I realize my son is going to have some tough times ahead of him and if Love could cure schizophrenia My son and many others would already be free of it.anyway back to the reality of it, i cant thank you enough for your website it is and im sure will be in the future a great source of comfort and insight.if there are any parents of sufferers who would like to share thier experiences iwould like to hear from then. It would also be great to hear from young adults with this illness because i am hoping in time that my son will be able to talk to people who can relate to him.my email address is ady_regan@hotmail.com.P.S thanks chovil for giving me the priviledge of joining your guest book.
adie
lancashire england - Saturday, June 05, 2004 at 10:51:18 (EDT)

Thanks so much for this web sight it has been of great help to my presentation. Thanks again.
Starsha
On. Canada - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 17:42:32 (EDT)

I just found out that my fiance's mother has schizopherenia. I came across this web site and it has been very helpful. Thank you for your contribution and may God Bless you.
Hanifah
College Park, MD US - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 15:28:02 (EDT)

reading this is so fascinating.... i've been searching online for stuff about schizophrenia and im glad to read a real story... im so sorry about how life delt your hand of cards... but atleast u made it! late is better than never... take care of yourself....
Beth
Il US - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 01:57:15 (EDT)

nice site.guys am here.
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attlanta, georgia usa - Monday, May 31, 2004 at 11:44:03 (EDT)

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tobs
Canada - Monday, May 31, 2004 at 10:59:08 (EDT)

i have to write an report about people, who have to live with schizophrenia and schizophrenia itself; your report about your life is very interesting and it will make my work interesting for my teachers, too. I hope so. Thank you very much
Cermid
Stuttgart, EU germany - Sunday, May 30, 2004 at 09:14:47 (EDT)

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ABA, ABIA NIAGERIA - Friday, May 28, 2004 at 13:07:02 (EDT)

i need help for schizophrenia in india?
shri
pune, mh india - Wednesday, May 26, 2004 at 11:44:35 (EDT)

Thank you for putting up this site. It was been really informative, and i was able to complete my 45 minute presentation because of this site. thanks for the list of the movies too! it helped so much! Thanks to you i can now complete my certifcate in youth work!!!
Lauren
Sydney, Australia - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 at 20:18:58 (EDT)

me@newtolinux.org.uk Nice site.
Jimmy Timmins
Canada - Monday, May 24, 2004 at 22:29:11 (EDT)

You cannot imagine how informative your website has been...congratulations on the work you have done....will certainly be reading it again and again.....thank you
nihal
portugal - Monday, May 24, 2004 at 18:00:40 (EDT)

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holly hill , fl uniteed states - Sunday, May 23, 2004 at 18:00:33 (EDT)

Thanks for your site! I am writing a paper on schizophrenia and greatly value and appreciate the time and energy you have put into sharing your knowledge and experience.
Jessie Lyle
Canada - Saturday, May 22, 2004 at 18:30:41 (EDT)

This website is fascinating! It helped a lot with my psychology research paper and having a personal story told made quite a nice addition to my paper and presentation. Thanks! Best of luck to you!
Jenn
Canada - Friday, May 21, 2004 at 12:00:48 (EDT)

thank you - and all the best for you!!!
mirjam walser
Mieming, Tirol Austria - Friday, May 21, 2004 at 09:45:06 (EDT)

Well done!!! Wish you the best of luck.
Abdallah Farraj
Amman, Jordan - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 08:51:56 (EDT)

Hi there Chovil. A great site. You are very articulate and obviously too clever for your own good! Please could you contact me at jrf119@hotmail.com I have some treatments that you might be interested in. Jules
julian fearon
Newcastle , England - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 05:09:04 (EDT)

Good information source for parents.
R.Sivagnanam
Tirunelveli, Tamil Nadu India - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 03:00:03 (EDT)

wonderful information - thanks for the time you've invested with the details. l.
laurette
livermore, ca usa - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 at 09:33:47 (EDT)

Ian, you have a marvellous web site here. Thank you for sharing your story, yourself - your delightful self - with all of us. Blessings to you - and I've no doubt there will be more awards and accolades in your future.
Susan James
Listowel, Ont Canada - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 at 00:43:42 (EDT)

My heart goes out to you and to all that suffer from this illness. Unlike many, many others it's great that you have beaten this illness. I understand it's a constant eternal struggle as there is no known cure, but you are a ray of hope for those who struggle. You are proof that schizophrenia doesn't have to ruin lives or worse, end them. Your story is inspiring and makes me appreciate my health; it's never to be taken for granted! Thank you so much! Sincerely, a future acute care nurse practitioner student, Charity
Charity
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 17:11:19 (EDT)

Thank you for the information! My child is going through the initial stages of this disorder and your site has helped me understand what is going on. Good luck and take care. Jan
Jan
pa usa - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 11:33:04 (EDT)

Hi! What a very informative and moving site. I have been struggling with my illness for nearly 2 years now. It gives me hope that one day i will get through this!
eric
Canada - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 10:23:40 (EDT)

I found your site while doing research for my english paper ^_^ it gave me a lot of info~ i do hope you're doing well! *waves* Pray that i get an A? :)
jen
MS United States - Monday, May 17, 2004 at 02:08:47 (EDT)

I have a son who is 25 and had a been diagnosed with undifferentiated schizophrenia.He was 22 at the time. he would like to email people who have the same condition but still feel that they are normal, who can help and understand this Illness.And give understanding and support to each other. He wants to speak to people who dont take drugs or drink, as just about every time he did this it has landed him in trouble. Its been a year and a half that he has been seperated with his girlfriend that he had been with since he was 16 and has 2 children. Since taking the medication he saids that he hasn't been as passionate about things (eg) he used to fish a lot. He is just looking for hope and someone to relate who knows what its like Email kimbyr2@hotmail.com.au
Dion
country, SA Australia - Sunday, May 16, 2004 at 07:39:17 (EDT)

Well done!
Roy
Mayville, Wi USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 15:25:05 (EDT)

I pray for you and also for young Chandan Goswami, please sign his guestbook at http://www.savechandan.org/
Malcom Stebbins
Manchester, PA USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 14:25:35 (EDT)

thanks for helping me understand schizophrenia.
Trinity
Canada - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 10:56:52 (EDT)

Just writing to say thank you for giving me an insight into the terrible things that people have to experience. I am using the idea of schizophrenia for a GCSE solo dance, and was merely doing research, but am amazed by what I have discovered! Thank U!!! :)
anon
Oxford, England - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 at 16:13:00 (EDT)

Great stuff!
negytizenkilenc@yahoo.com
Canada - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 at 09:51:17 (EDT)

i am very depressed and scared i am showing mental health issues my family all hve metal issues from a long bakround of drugs i do not do drugs but have had a very hard life i hve been hearn and seein things lately and am havn mood swings all the time im on medication cuz my hormones r very unbalanced but i feel there is more to it then that can anyone help
monique
auckland, new zealand - Tuesday, May 11, 2004 at 09:06:35 (EDT)

i love ur shizzaphrenia site! i learned so much from it1 it helped me with my project for psych, and i got a B!!! yeah, so thanks 4 the info!!!
Di Nunotsie
Eagan, MN USA - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 12:47:25 (EDT)

I am a schizlphrenia suffer.I think life is precious even disaster has happened.Illness is not horrible perse if we know how to control it.However losing hope is more horrible .I think finding your interst is important as well.So don't idle your life .My E-mail is :qimin120415@yahoo.com.If you like ,you can contact with me.
qimin
xianyang, shannxi china - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 04:41:09 (EDT)

hello....i chanced upon this site while collecting material for my final thesis...very informative..n touching:)) keep up the good work and good luck:) -shalini-
shalini
kuala lumpur, malaysia - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 03:00:39 (EDT)

thank you. i find this web very useful. ur work has help a lot!
siti
brunei, brunei brunei - Sunday, May 09, 2004 at 23:51:00 (EDT)

In doing research, I came upon your site. It is so wonderful to find a testimony of a man recovering from schizophrenia. I hope the next years of your life are wonderful. It's time for you to write a book, go for it.
Mandi
Tx United State - Sunday, May 09, 2004 at 19:54:01 (EDT)

Hey i read your story and used it for a prject in Psychology Class. Thanks alot i got an A+!!
Becky Moya
Goddard, KS USA - Friday, May 07, 2004 at 12:30:26 (EDT)

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st.greg, ca amerika - Friday, May 07, 2004 at 12:08:53 (EDT)

I don't have Schizophrenia. I'm a manic depressive with a schiophrenic mother. Believe me this website made me realize how much it would help her to talk this out with a psychotherapist. She used to wake me up in the middle of the night and tell me to get rid of the man at the door when there was no man. It happened quite frequently. I just moved out and I hope she doesn't do damage to herself.
Raven Jade
Rogers, AR United States - Thursday, May 06, 2004 at 23:10:45 (EDT)

I've read many times your story. Thank you for sharing your experience with people, by doing so, you are offering help. I do believe you have now completely recovered.
Lee Li
Beijing, China - Thursday, May 06, 2004 at 09:33:38 (EDT)

i like ice-cream. walks along the beach. sand between my toes. god loves every single one of you, even the ugly ones.only children believe in you, then they're told not to, stuck in a fairy tale, being the silent heroes.
Michelle Vincent, Allirra Harrold and Brylie Ponton
Traralgon, Vic Australia - Tuesday, May 04, 2004 at 00:16:55 (EDT)

My son recently suffered a psychotic episode days after his 21st. birthday. It was the most heart wrenching experience I've ever gone through. He had moments through this episode when he looked at me with the eyes I have always known & asked in a terrifying voice, Mom whats happening to me? He has recovered quite quickly & is taking 3 mg. of respiredol for now. Naturally I was hoping there was still some hope that it wasn't schizophrenia, however after reading your story, I see that it cld almost be my son's story re your delusions. His father is also schizophrenic. My son's Dr. is very impressed with his recovery from his psychocis, however my son tends to disagree with the dxes believing that it is actually schizoaffective disorder. We have decided to go for a second opinion. Just a little confused because he is functioning fine, his personal hygene, upkeep of his room, seeing his friends & has even worked several days since his release from hosp. And he talks quite easily about what happened to him. I am very greatful to have found your sight. Good luck to you!
Aileen Pinto
Ont. Canada - Monday, May 03, 2004 at 14:07:23 (EDT)

I am studying the nature of Schizophrenia for an AS level theatre studies production myself and some friends are creating, and your story inspired us with many moving ideas, thany you!
Anna Stubley
Middlesbrough, England - Monday, May 03, 2004 at 12:34:11 (EDT)

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NIGERIA, OWERRI NIGERIA - Friday, April 30, 2004 at 05:15:22 (EDT)

Thank you so much for sharing all of this with everyone who is lucky enough to visit your sight. Your story has inspired me and many others in so many ways. God Bless You, you are a truly amazing man.
MacKenzie
Houston, TX USA - Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:21:45 (EDT)

currently working on paper for schizophrenia for finals week. this was a great site...you are truly amazing...god bless.
brandie
pittsburgh, pa usa - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 02:29:25 (EDT)

Using some graphs for Psych-Nursing presentation. Great site Ian! Very informative and well written. Be back to read more when I have time. Have you written any books yet? Well, GO FOR IT!
Georgia Braley
Lorain, Ohio USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 23:49:48 (EDT)

I work at the Schizophrenia Society in Red Deer, AB. We have recently made a website for our chapter and currently have your page as a link. I think your story is very interesting as many people with Schizophrenia stories are. Thank-you for reaching out and telling your story. It is a great website. Our website is www.ssard.com if you would like to pass that on. thanks again! Kendra Bauer SSA
Kendra Bauer
Red Deer, AB Canada - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 17:45:05 (EDT)

My brother has been in treatment since February 2004, in and out of the hopital three times already. He is currently at home suffering from anxiety. He is suppose to be in a partial treatment but he cannot make it throught the day he gets extremely anxious. Is this normal, How long does it usually take for somebody to recover from their first pshycosis episode? Please help me! cecymandujano@yahoo.com
Cecy
Los Angeles, CA USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 13:40:44 (EDT)

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aba, noon Canada - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 13:38:15 (EDT)

Excellent site. I learned a lot. I appreciate the fact that your site is written in plain english. It is also encouraging to see your own experiences published here. I work at Mental health and will bookmark your site, as I think it will be very helpful to those who wish to educate themselves.
Holly Stowell
Courtenay, BC Canada - Monday, April 26, 2004 at 01:24:01 (EDT)

I read your story and I am surprised it is a natural one. It is not suprising. You should not feel strange about it. Some other people may like you went through that illusionary worlds and might get benifit of it. The fact that your story is not unique drove me to a conclusion that I many times escaped beleiving in it. The devil. Many times I resisted the fact that the devil can have an access to any mind. But after going through pure science I discovered that that is possible. Actualy the devil can move in his dimensions every where and still beside you. We are humans are not simple intintities that don't have an origin. We are God creation. And you may take that as a conspiracy in an illness like yours. The point that I want to say is that the reality is what we see not what others tells. Many usefull experiences are catogorized as illnesses in modern psychology. Actualy I don't beleive in psychology as a science at all, completely. Beleive me there is people who think in more weer thoughts than yours and yet considered rational. Back to the devil. I think that every human with your semptoms is a target to the devil projects. Imagine that no one can trvel through time except through somebodies perception. After all the perception is something that nobody have reached its technology. It is simply that something in a universe that cannot be reached except with perception tried to go through you and as we don't see any implications have failed . He will try with many many people untill he reaches a breakthrough. khalnobani@yahoo.com
KHALID ALNOBANI
IRBID, JORDAN - Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 06:18:57 (EDT)

It's inspiring to know that there are people that feel the same as I. It feels as though the wait of the world does rest on our shoulders individually but looking at the reality of it, it must be coincidental. There have been too many times that I let my subconcious get to me and talk me out of partaking in activities that will help me grow as a person. I just turned 24 on Friday April 23 and my mom told me she felt old but I flipped it around making myself feel old and I had cancelled my plans for the weekend. You have to be real with yourself and not bring yourself to a screeching halt. I realize this now and reading your article makes me feel like I'm not the only one who thinks outside my conciousness. To all who feel alone: There are plenty of us out there that feel like you and we must reach within ourselves to become apart of reality. You are the biggest part in helping yourself and those who love and care about you are there to help as well.
Rodrigo K. Huerta
Salem, OR USA - Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 16:00:32 (EDT)

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imo, ade Canada - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 17:32:55 (EDT)

BUDDHIST MEDITATION Lord Buddha accorded supremacy to mind in his precepts. According to BUDDHISM real form of mind is void and all mental formations are subservient to this ultimate GOVERNING truth. Obviously mental make up is elemental factor in all Buddhist practices. Ultimate realization of absolute truth is not a subject matter of any practice. Perception of absolute wisdom is incidental to Buddhist MEDITATION PRACTICES.. More than perception of ultimate wisdom or state of BUDDHAHOOD, lord has laid emphasis on wisdom warranted in day-to-day mental makeup for the larger benefit of humanity. This is the reason behind BUDDHIST stronger orientation towards compassion and altruism. Applied BUDDHISM carefully investigates such practices for creation of useful positive values. POSITIVE ENERGY— Very simple objective of permeating knowledge to this world by the LORD BUDDHA And other BODHISATTAVA is to develop positive culture of thinking in this world. When BUDDHA after awakening thought to permeate his perception to this world, he was haunted by this thought. “This would not be comprehensible to this world hence unacceptable.” This simply implies that the level at which, in natural course, this creation EXISTS BY VIRTUE OF CAUSE AND CONDITION, Negative energy is much activated and its perception is more comprehensible to sensual world. In fact this fact is beyond any doubt that whatever creativity is visible or perceivable in this world, it is magic of positive energy exclusively. Still why negative energy is so activated and is so impressive in its outlook, wonders us. The fundamental reason of our devastation lies here. As we are naturally born to die, hence our creativity is also subject to extinction in the same way. Negative energy makes it possible AS existence and extinction cannot LIVE TOGETHER, HENCE religion HAS TO PLAYIN VITAL ROLE FOR THE FUNCTIONAL existence of our creativity. So now we well understand the natural role and need of negative energy. Conceptual VOID structure of mind is representative ultimate state where all positive and negative energy is merging into each other and no charge is residual. But our mind and we do not represent such VOID state, so we are representing ourself in typically charged state. Sometimes positive, another time negative. So typically our representative moment has to pass through such 3000 charged states. Our sincere attempt to mitigate negative perceptions averts reciprocating conditions further generating newer realm of negatively charged complex. BUDDHISM does not believe in negative mode of life due to this reason exclusively. OVERALL life cannot be a moment of DEATH. Though death may be a realm of such moment. So LIFE is never meant for negative ENERGY. It IS always to represent positive energy. This is culture propounded by the BUDDHA. True definition of compassion and altruism should be coined out from this understanding exclusively. BUDDHA should be understood in worldly functioning along these canons. Why Buddha denounces criticism in day-to-day behavior. Because this implies negative thought explosion which would result in nuclear type fission through chain of reactions and ultimately conditioning to devastation. So our human race has never got LIFE through such fission. How can we perceive our satisfaction over other’s destruction? Our existence in this world is relative existence. So other’s destruction simply means our own amputation. This may not be realized immediately but sooner or later we have to face vacuum. Here lays the objective functioning of compassion. It means pity with self. . Deities ARE OUR REPRESENTATIVE THOUGHTS. More strongly we represent positivism; more powerfully creative deity incarnates. So welfare of our race is represented in PEACE, COEXISTENCE AND MUTUAL RESPECT. We nowadays witness typical unrest everywhere. Despite all round economic growth, worldwide depression is perceptible. In the name of USE value creation; our energy is engaged in exploiting craze values. This has given an UGLY TURN TO OUR CONCEPTUAL GROWTH. Although after Second World War, we perceived devastation from NEGATIVE ENERGY of political persons. That even alarmed us to castigate fascism. But this outflow was again represented in the concept of economic growth that misrepresented improperly defined growth as ultimate objective of our development; and concept of growth along objective VALUES was never put to rational standardization. So ultimately again unchecked unwarranted flow of negative values is prime cause of world’s unrest. ENERGY AUTO TRANSMISSION THROUGH DAKINI MEDITATION [Samantha]Samantha: 'tranquility', serenity, is a synonym of samádhi (concentration), cittekaggatá (one-pointed ness of mind) and avikkhepa (undistracted ness). It is one of the mental factors in 'wholesome consciousness. Cf. foll. And bhávaná.[Courtesy biona library US] As your FIANCEE starts looking after you automatically--Identically energy fission automatically takes place in course of DAKINI MEDITATION [core energy] through Samantha practice. In fact its application is nowadays more relevant specifically for fighting against negative energy culminated through religious fundamentalism. ZERO HOUR Dakini meditation results into spurt of energy reinforcing our all activities in desired channel. Since meditation activates energy flow in aut