The Experience of Schizophrenia

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great website, very informative, keep up the good work!!! i talked to you a while ago, you were good help, thanks!
jesse
fergus, ontario Canada - Wednesday, December 24, 2003 at 16:51:35 (EST)
i think its the word pschizophrenia thats driven us crazy trying to spell it is a bitch.im a paranoid pschizophrenic work drives me nuts but the pays good im on holidays now so lifes a bit better now
dominic myers
adelaie, sa Canada - Monday, December 22, 2003 at 23:19:46 (EST)
If anyone could help me know what benefits they get I would be most appreciative, especially in the USA UK Canada Europe Australia etc. Things such as disability allowance, housing benefit, medical costs. My email is szinquirer@hotmail.com I am writing a book on schizophrenia and it would be most helpful for othere. Thank you Liz W
liz wilder
southampton, hampshire uk - Monday, December 22, 2003 at 15:02:20 (EST)
Thank you for sharing your story with the world. My uncle has had schizophrenia since he was 8 years old. He's now 42. I especially appreciate the "meaningful activities" section. So many with this disorder are sentenced to a life of boredom and smoking cigarettes one after the other.
Amanda
Phoenix, AZ USA - Thursday, December 18, 2003 at 15:48:51 (EST)
good site, thanx for report material
matt spitz
ventura, CA US - Monday, December 08, 2003 at 13:40:09 (EST)
This is an excellent site. You know more about schizophrenia than the average psychiatrist.
Thomas
SLC, UT USA - Saturday, December 06, 2003 at 21:59:47 (EST)
Thanks for such valuable information.My brother is suffering with Pschizophrenia and i m trying to find out the best treatment for him and ur site has helped me alot.It has shown me the right direction for my future steps.
Rekha
Delhi, Delhi India - Friday, December 05, 2003 at 15:20:24 (EST)
Thank you for sharing your story and information. My ex-fiance deals with this disorder, that is how I discovered your site. Thank you again.
JJ
Frankfort, KY USA - Thursday, December 04, 2003 at 15:49:29 (EST)
Wow . Thank-you for taking the time to put this together . I feel for your story and am glad you are better now . I wish more doctors would visit you site to get an idea of what people actually go through . I am in the begin stages of my illness , but I think the caught it in time . I am 35 and this all started when I was about 30 or so . Anyway , thanks again for the site .
Derek R
Pickering, on Canada - Tuesday, December 02, 2003 at 10:58:32 (EST)
You are an insperation to all...your story has given me hope that my son...may find peace in the future at the moment at 22 with alcohol problems on top of schizophrenia we find everday a struggle..thankyou for your story
Denise Harris
uk - Monday, December 01, 2003 at 12:37:36 (EST)
Thank you for such a wonderful site.
Malia Leuck
Manteca, CA United States - Sunday, November 30, 2003 at 20:18:26 (EST)
I have just recently discovered a new medication called "abilify"-a drug that is only available in chemists in the UK and USA. I was surprised to find that the drug was also available in Australia prescription from a few Psychiatrists. I am currently suffering from psychosis and have used 3 different drugs. This one is undoubtedly the best. I am much more rational, my concetration has improved, my memory has improved and I am generally more "with it". My doctor has a very positive attitude and believes I could fully recover on this medication and a new form of anti-depressant. I am very blessed to have found this doctor and I believe that I am very likely to recover thanks to him. Ask your doctor about abilify.
Rose-Mary
Sydney, NSW Australia - Sunday, November 30, 2003 at 19:35:36 (EST)
nifty here again, I meant to say, talk slow! Sorry.
Bradley Peter Turner, B.Sc.
Perkinsfield, ON Canada - Friday, November 28, 2003 at 10:49:21 (EST)
I'm a schizophrenic. I got my B.Sc. Summa Cum Laude at Devry Phonex, Arizona, U.S.A., I did my first seven terms at DeVry Toronto, Finch and Weston, (Finch and 400, now moved to mississauga) and my last term at DeVry Collage, now DeVry University, in the states. (I'm not in the US class picture, missed it), after becoming scizophrenic. I also went to a comuter associates training center and got my Novel CNA, and database programmer certificate. We can do it! my friend's call me nifty, my e-mail is bradturner77@hotmail.com P.S. I think in pictures, and have trouble rememebering names, but do rememeber faces. I also think slow, and a friend of mine, Jimmy Wall said he had another friend who was schizophrenic, and had to to slow to him or he got confused and couldn't keep up. I'm the same way.
Bradley Peter Turner, B.Sc.
Perkinsfield, ON Canada - Friday, November 28, 2003 at 10:43:39 (EST)
live for Jesus
Jennifer
- Thursday, November 27, 2003 at 03:21:44 (EST)
Hi, I am a mental health advocate and recovering from a mental disease. I find your website very informative and useful. I also have a website concerning my illness but that's another issue...I was wondering where you found the movie "Angel Baby" because I've tried looking for it and haven't been able to find it in many places either because it's not available or because it's out of stock. Again, I've checked out your site thoroughly and it is well presented. Thanks for sharing your information with the world. :)
David
Hummelstown, PA United States - Thursday, November 27, 2003 at 00:27:50 (EST)
I am in need to talk to both a professional who works with people who have early onset as well as a person with early onset (Schitzophrenia) for an assignment. Is it possible that I might be able to talk to you via email, chat, or phone. Or do you know of someone I can talk to about this. I did have someone lined up but they cancelled last minute and this assignment is due Fri Nov 28, 2003. This would remain confidential and no names would be used. You can reach me at cnirwin@hotmail.com Thank you
Cecelia Irwin
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 at 19:29:42 (EST)
THANK YOU
liz
troy, NY USA - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 at 15:08:03 (EST)
I am a student trying to understand this problem. I have been learning and appreciate your input on the matter. Hope you stay strong and live a good life.
Charles Green
RailRoad Flat, CA USA - Tuesday, November 25, 2003 at 21:08:59 (EST)
Your site is excellent and very helpful. I wish you hapiness in your life. At the end, that's what is important.
Karim
Tokyo, Japan - Tuesday, November 25, 2003 at 20:30:48 (EST)
We are imvestaging schizophrenia as part of our pychology assignment. We found your site ans would like to say that you have done a great job, good luck in the future
Allirra Harrold & Sarah Azlin
TRARALGON, VIC AUSTRALIA - Sunday, November 23, 2003 at 22:58:33 (EST)
I feel your pain and sympathasise with u greatly.. we would like you to come to Australian to visit our church support group please contact me on the above email address.. God Bless
Bob john
Traralgon, vic australia - Sunday, November 23, 2003 at 22:56:12 (EST)
hello, we would like to congratulate you on all ur suceess :D haha
Sarah & Lirra
Melbourne, Vic Australia - Sunday, November 23, 2003 at 22:46:45 (EST)
At the moment I read your momorys of your life. A good friend of me had the same illness. I know it not long time ago. But know, I can handle the situations better. Much of thanks. Anita
Anita Rost
Hartenstein , Germany - Saturday, November 22, 2003 at 19:52:08 (EST)
I admire you, my son is 20 and we found out last year that he has schizophrrenia, it came on very fast. But in reading about how you lost all intrest in every thing early on. That is how it started with him also, it gives me hope to read how you have made the best of what you have been given. That is my hope for my son. Take care and thank you again for sharing information.
Marilyn
Gig Harbor, Wa USA - Saturday, November 22, 2003 at 19:21:13 (EST)
I am going to college to study schizophrenia. Your site was wonderfully eye opening and facinating. I admire you for all you have been through and all you have come over.
Alanda
Palmyra, ME Canada - Saturday, November 22, 2003 at 15:21:56 (EST)
I found your website very interesting. Thankyou
Debbie Huntington
Durham, Engiand - Saturday, November 22, 2003 at 11:44:40 (EST)
your story has made me more sympathetic to schizophrenia and i think God you made it and although i know it must hurt to tell the story because i begin to cry just typing this. thanks for sharing.
beverly
shreveport, la Caddo - Friday, November 21, 2003 at 20:23:18 (EST)
Jesus died for you
Jennifer
- Thursday, November 20, 2003 at 18:53:43 (EST)
Hello. I was very interested in this disorder. It has now come time for me to do a paper and presentation on a topic. My school requires a graduation project which must be completed in order to graduate. I was interested and very uneducated on this subject. This site has helped me tremendously. Thank you so much. I would also like to say how sorry I am that this has happened to you. I wish you much luck in the future. If you have time and any new information please e-mail me at jemba18_19@hotmail.com!!
Ashley
Nazareth, Pa USA - Thursday, November 20, 2003 at 16:18:53 (EST)
I HAVE SCHIZOPHRINA AND I AM ON MEDICANCIE FOR IT I AM GETTING BETEER.I AM 16 YEARS OLD I DID NOT FIND OUT THAT I HAD IT TILL I WAS 15
JESSICA
WHEELERSBURG, OH USA - Thursday, November 20, 2003 at 15:32:32 (EST)
I am very happy for you that you are able to be well. I wish you much luck with your disorder. Thank you very much for making such a terrific website. It really helped me with the information I needed for a pschology paper. Good luck and thanks again. Katie
katie T
stratford, ct usa - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 23:32:51 (EST)
i think i am a schizophrenic, and now i have one more way to communicate with people over the internet.
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victoria, texas United States of America - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 13:35:20 (EST)
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kenny
lome, toma togo - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 11:33:52 (EST)
ur site sux major ass! bitch!!
yo moma
nunya, miss afganistan - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 11:24:15 (EST)
Thank you for your insites. My brother is living in North Bay and is dealing with his illness. I am trying to help him move down in the Guelph area because in North Bay he is alone and the move would make him closer to the family. He is also dealing with the lose of Mom and Dad which is very very hard. I don`t think he can wait seven years to get a place. You have given my some hope though with your positive remarks of Guelph thanks.
Laurie
ottawa, Canada - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 09:58:56 (EST)
Hi… nice site! email me.
Linsy
na, na thailand - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 02:29:22 (EST)
I came over this site during my research on the illness and just wanted to say hello.
D.
Romania - Tuesday, November 18, 2003 at 14:28:36 (EST)
I have been under a doctors care for mental illness for 20 years. I have recently started back to college and am doing fine, thanks to a new doctor and new meds. Please wish me continued sucess as I wish all of you!
Laurie
Alton, Il United States - Friday, November 14, 2003 at 23:58:41 (EST)
Hi I'm schizophrenic and have been off medication for 2 years. I have a good support structure and God in my life and I can now work. I really enjoyed your website - sorry yours wasnt detected early for you as mine was.God Bless
Christine Thomaides
Pretoria, South Africa - Thursday, November 13, 2003 at 13:59:10 (EST)
IT SHALL BE GOOD FOR ALL OF USSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSIN THE NA?E OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFJAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
GUYMAN
LOMETOGO, 12 TOGO - Thursday, November 13, 2003 at 03:36:13 (EST)
God Bless You. Good luck in your future.
Allen Straight
Sioux Falls, SD USA - Tuesday, November 11, 2003 at 20:18:46 (EST)
I haven't had a chance to fully explore your website as yet, but I thought it important to just let you know that I am impressed with the professional, comprehensive, and personal nature of the website. I have worked with, been friends with, and am now studying in Grad school, people with schizophrenia. And it is important to note that your website is powerful in combatting the still existing stigma of mental illnesses. Thank you, and I look forward to continue exploring the website.
Brent McQuestion
Ontario, ON Canada - Tuesday, November 11, 2003 at 17:34:16 (EST)
is pschizophrenia is genetical
jawahar
chennia, tamilnadu india - Monday, November 10, 2003 at 00:39:41 (EST)
Dear Chovil, This is a great web-site.I had 2 experiences which I would either link to schizophrenia ( similar symptoms ) or ?.The symptoms went off by themselves. Thanks for taking the time and effort to create and maintain this web-site. DO emailat neutral4@yahoo.com if you have any circulars. Thanks. David
David
Singapore - Sunday, November 09, 2003 at 10:09:06 (EST)
ive been searching for a website that tell sme truly about the condition of scizophrenia and have finally found one! i want to know more about this as i am trying to research into my own thoughts and feelings to see if i have this condition. and i will admit it if i have unshamingly. e mail me anyone.
kayleigh lewis
blackpool, lancs england - Saturday, November 08, 2003 at 17:02:42 (EST)
interested
kayleigh lewis
Blackpool, Lancs England - Saturday, November 08, 2003 at 16:49:59 (EST)
Your website is very interesting. I am always looking for more stories and information about schizophrenia as my cousin was diagnosed with it a few years ago, got into drug use, and committed suicide not too long ago. It's very hard to understand, and I have to thank you for going into such great detail about the illness as I always need to know more about it.
Angela
Edmonton, AB Canada - Friday, November 07, 2003 at 14:21:37 (EST)
Hi Phoenix_moon9, Very good philosophy for life as encompassed in your name. You write: << Please excuse me if this feels disorganized. Is it possible to recognize schizophrenia (or any of the related disorders) in the process of their manifestation? I believe in the distinct possibility that i am "crazy". is that normal? >> FUTE7 RE: Everyone is sentient or has, as his/her primary nature of existance, that part of himself that says "I am", "I exist". "I am consciously aware of my existance". It is that "YOU" that is responsible for your actions - the choices you make in life. Yet, without guidance by a superior wisdom, you are likely to continue in a kind of limbo - never attaining to true LIFE and fulfillment in your inner being. Everyone, as begotten from birth, also has certain genetic or hereditary character and hormonal traits and balances, with possible mutations, that are extremely unique for you alone - as their are infinite combinations of such hereditary and genetic data. Yet, we are not so disimilar to others as to be alien. So, as a sentient being, you are destined to cope with life through the genetic and hereditary traits you inherite as to your temperament/disposition/cognitive energy - and physically as well - that are unique to you. You are not any more crazy, because of your uniqueness, then another person who is very different from you. This is not so hard to believe, since dog-trainers are well aware that heredity/genetics plays a big role as to the temperament and cognitive energy of a dog and how teachable it will be. Dogs that are born with a high strung temperament are not as teacheable as a mild tempered dog despite cognitive energy. That does not mean one dog is crazy and the other is not. Life experiences, especially as a child, play a big part in enforcing or inihibiting behavior, beliefs, emotional responses, etc. Therefore, as a sentient being, you are affected by your environment and experiences you have in it. You build the kind of character YOU have based on the limited information you have. But YOU [your sentient self] is able to adjust and grow in character as you gain more understanding and knowledge about critical influences in your life and the many cultures around you. This growing and maturing in character takes courage and also *Proper Guidance on why and how this should be done. You have to really believe that such changes are necessary for you and then you must have the courage and REASON/PURPOSE for making such changes. I have read your post and can identify with everything you have written as to your experiences. Before I give you my understanding on a solution to the questions or concerns you brought up, I would first like to comment on all you have written, which is in the following: You write: << I have a difficult time offering my opinion on things. When confronted on an issue for which i should take a side, in my brain i start thinking about either possibility equally, and come up with equally good reasons for believing one way or the other, more or less on two opposing ends of the spectrum. i simply cannot decide, so i agree with both. >> Fute RE: This is not a problem, but rather shows that you look at things in a more unbiased and righteous way. This will help greatly in your quest for truth and to find your innate identity, gifts and talents. You continue: << in some instances, both parts of my brain agree, and then I can actually offer an opinion. Have i confused you yet? I'm sorry. I don't think they are voices, it seems more like my brain trying to tear itself in half. >> Fute7 RE: Good insight. You continue: << Sometimes i don't mind my indecision, because it gives me an interesting view on things that other people just don't get. >> Fute7 RE: Exactly. You continue: << Someday i will become enlightened. >> Fute7 RE: I think what you mean here is that you have the hope that you will find the true meaning and purpose for your existance. And then, by living it out, you will achieve inner peace and zest for life. You continue: << I hate competition. I hate sports. I would rather be by myself than with a team. Thinking about it makes me cringe. >> Fute7 RE: I know exactly what you mean because I feel the same. In fact, I wrote those words at one time : ) Competition to me is, by its nature, alien to the expression of LOVE - the desire to sacrifice of ones self for noble deeds of noble benefits for the benefit of others. More on this later. You write: << I'm 21 years old now, 7th semester in college and academically doing well. >> Fute7: No doubt, at this time in your life, you are also struggling under the tremendous pressure of your libido - sexual craving. While there is nothing wrong with sharing intimacy, be careful not to do anything that makes your conscience condemn you. This advice is true in any area of your life. Concience is your judge and executioner or your acquitter and savior. True Life will be removed from you if you treat Conscience with disrespect. That is just how we operate. That is the Law of the great Infinite and Divine Wisdom. You write: << I have no plans; when people ask what i want to do i can only shrug. >> Fute7 RE: I will be blunt with you. From the atom on up, all things in the universe - visible and invisible - operate on the law of LOVE [the giving of ones self for the welbeing of the others]. If all things operated on the Law of Selfish Ambition, anarchy/death would be the result. And all things would repel each other in one big explosion - including your own body and every cell in it. LOVE [the opposite of Selfish Ambition] is the Wisdom of the Infinite. Although you are a higher life-form, you can never deny your destiny as a vessel through which the Infinite and Divine Wisdom works and expect to ever be enlightened. Beyond your flesh, and within your flesh, you are a Force of Good - the fulfilling of the Law of Love with the gifts, talents, temperament, etc you were made with. Now it is up to you to determine where you fit in in order to fulfill your destiny. What is you white hot buring desire, interest, talent, gift? Do you know? Once you stop resisting, or as long as you keep giving into the demands of self-preservation [mastered by selfish ambition] and, by faith, live your life as that Force of Good - becoming a helper/caretaker with the talents you have then you will know what True Enlightenment means - only by experiencing it. If you do not do this you will never be enlightened. LOVE = LIFE = TRUE WISDOM = Correct MOTIVE = TRUE MEANING and PURPOSE for LIVING = Building your HOME for LIFE = True Enlightenment - LIGHT. You write: << At this point in my life I believe the human race should no longer exist due to the devastation of the planet and really wish someone would blow it up/kill all the humans. >> Fute7 RE: It is not for you to determine why or how all human life should be destroyed. Rather, your purpose should be to help others on their way to achieving true meaing and purpose for living with the talents you have in whatever you do. In time, only those who achieve to that enlightenment will be bound with the Infinite Divine. Judgement will come in its own time. For now, consider this a grace period in which many have an opportunity to understand and to fight to acheive an enlightened existance against the opposition of our rebellious and selfish natures and the delusions of this system of things which cater to selfish ambition. You write: >> I don't think i have been suffering any psychosis, but i suppose i could be wrong. I am aware of some negative symptoms however that have been invading my life. I just don't seem to care about things anymroe. >> Fute7: Good. Let us not hide behind labels and drugs that bind us to man-made boxes and prisons for our minds. Rather, use whatever state of existance you are in, physically, to achieve the Meaning and Purpose of existence with the talents/temperament/cognitive abilities you have been endowed with. Phoenix_moon, look beyond your physical body - which is your tool and vessel - to the REAL YOU [that YOU which is sentient/consciousness]. Accept what you have been born with, be willing to adjust to your environment, and remember that you must fulfill your existance as a Force of Good upon this earth with the talent you have. If you do not fully understand your talents, or how you fit in, then face yourself and think. Talk to the Infinite Divine who is the source of all LOVE/Wisdom. Pour your heart out in speech to the Infinite Divine remembering that your existence, your heart, your very soul is laid bare before Him. Yes, I know with certainty, that the Infinite Divine is the God of the Holy Scriptures, and the Law of God is LOVE. You were meant to be like Him - in that you are a Vessel in which the Infinite Love/Wisdom is manifested - if you do not rebel to His calling. Sincerely, Fute7
Steven E Thompson
Waukesha, WI 53186 - Friday, November 07, 2003 at 11:20:27 (EST)
infact,i would like to view this site, i was informed by my friend that is quite interesting. keep it up. frank,
dr frank duke
malelane, 1320 south africa - Thursday, November 06, 2003 at 23:52:39 (EST)
Very nice sight....my mom schizophenic for years now, and i've been doing lots of research on this illness to help her in everyway possible!!!! She's been in and out of boarding homes and back and forth to hospitalization...These doctors are not helping much and throwing her in places that are giving her the improper care....(by not providing her with antipsycotics) My heart goes out to everyone that has any type of mental illnesses especially schizophenia's!!!! thanks for all your advice,charts etc...GOD BLESS anyone like to email me please do so AT moonlight1977@optonline.com
moonlight1977
nj usa - Thursday, November 06, 2003 at 22:45:48 (EST)
oh, and my email addrress is obscuraventura@eudoramail.com, if anyone would like to email me with their experiences. thanx again
jade halbert
london, uk - Thursday, November 06, 2003 at 10:50:15 (EST)
hi, i am writing a uni paper on schizophrenia, and am looking for some quotes from sufferers. would anyone be willing to let me use their quotes from this guest book? i will change all names, obviously. it would be a huge huge help! thanx
jade halbert
london, uk - Thursday, November 06, 2003 at 10:48:59 (EST)
nice story thanks for sharing i am on odsp for 5 years and tried hard to lobby politicians about the exact things you speak of my mental problems run deep as my physical problems increase i am bipolar nos(so some say) i have been told i am borderline personality(makes some sense)i suffer dissociative identity and diabetes and epilepsy and severe arthritis kidney and liver problems etc etc tried living commonlaw but odsp fucked us out of 3000 bux by the time we got it the financial stress had split us up she is also bipolar the stories i could tell you about their idiocy make you ill i pay 475 a month for a very small basement place cuz thats all i can afford and no gear to income available i am not going to get any better as epilepsy seizures have cooked my brain some i still have much of my faculties but memory suffers bad currently take 10000 + pills a year thats no shit i would like to talk more with you i may have something to add to the fight most days i just wish i was dead but somehow i have hung on sorry for run on sentences its the only way i can seem to get my messages down these days may God bless you
mike preston krazykritik@yahoo.ca
north bay, ont Canada - Thursday, November 06, 2003 at 01:32:32 (EST)
very very informative and a nice sight aturu_nkita@yahoo.com
aturu nkita
aba, abriba Canada - Tuesday, November 04, 2003 at 13:32:20 (EST)
This site is excellent and your story is all too familiar. I have a close friend (15) who is trying to deal with this and her story parallels yours, at least in the grand plots against her part - she still lives with her family and is closely monitored, so no drugs/homelessnes yet. I worry about her future though.
Walt
USA - Monday, November 03, 2003 at 16:22:23 (EST)
This site is a great resource if you get anyother information will you email me at jpsbby@yahoo.com thanx!!
Kya
Bristol, NH USA - Monday, November 03, 2003 at 16:04:37 (EST)
I'm doing a school report on Schizophrenia and this site helped me allot!!
Andrea
Bristol, NH US - Monday, November 03, 2003 at 16:02:17 (EST)
I am studying schizophrenia in school now and your site was very helpful! Thank you for sharing your experiences with the disease. If there are any new developments about schizophrenia, please email me! orangegirl4ever90@yahoo.com Thanks again!
Marissa
Westlake, OH USA - Monday, November 03, 2003 at 10:42:25 (EST)
awww this site made me sad... Your persitant delusions don't seem that delusional... they seem to make sense and that "neurovirus" idea isn't entirely unique, I definatly recall reading and freaking out about these parasites (of which viruses are a subtype) that alter behavior, generally against the benifit of the individual, like making fish expose themselves to preditors and crabs think that the parasites are actually trhir own babies and so take care of them as if they were to the expense of libido. And so on. Parasites may very well be responsible for a lot more than people realise. Sometimes I wonder if everyone is not paraites only using the human body (and mind) for the parasites ends without recognising the distinxction between parasite and human.
Girl of Girlenessiness
Aberystwyth, UK - Sunday, November 02, 2003 at 23:28:01 (EST)
Hi! I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I think that my behaviour..well..who knows.. is partly due to my drug use. I thínk that your 'delusions' were pretty hard core. I've been thru some strange phenomena too but those extraterrestial/separate reality aliens have yet to establish a connection with me. Happy trails and all the best! - Tomi
Tomi O. Lahti
Jyväskylä, Finland - Sunday, November 02, 2003 at 15:08:20 (EST)
Iam from India.My son of 20 is a recently diagnosed schizophrenic.Your pages were a delight to read.Thank you.
monica
Delhi, India - Sunday, November 02, 2003 at 01:03:44 (EST)
i'm not schizophrenic, but i am mentally ill. i wanted to thank you for your very thoughtful insights on ODSP and recommendations for improvement as i have also struggled to try and find suitable AFFORDABLE housing with no success to date. i encourage anyone who is able to write their MPP about these terrible injustices.
d.w.
Hamilton, ON Canada - Friday, October 31, 2003 at 23:00:23 (EST)
Ian, Iam in my final year of nursing school. Your experience has touched my heart. I admire your strength and ability to face the reality of schizophrenia. Thank you for sharing this portion of your life to the public. Iam beginning psych rotation this semester and will be performing a skit based on an schizophrenic client. Your story is informative. You should consider publishing a book.
mary
OH United States - Friday, October 31, 2003 at 05:31:12 (EST)
Hey, I was just visiting this website at school because I am doing a research paper on it, so thanks fot being so helpful:-)
Sarah
Hickory, N.C United States - Thursday, October 30, 2003 at 08:11:18 (EST)
Sammi, and others going through the same: THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THE WAY YOU ARE. You are part of a seeding planted 100,000 years ago to bring Humanity back into Movement (Evolution). You need not to "believe" this, but you might as well take it as a token. Nothing is wrong with you, and you are not "crazy". You have been born with accute senses, for you are meant to pierce the darkness around you, and eventually bring an end to the destruction that humans are creating around them. None of you is the saviour of the world, and none of you is expected to do more than finding yourselves back again. Courage, man! Trust your Heart! For in the truth, the "world out there" has less power than it appears. And it is obvious that people like you will meet with stiff resistance, for many humans today are engaged in the status quo of extinction of life upon Earth, and they do not wish to change this. Nonetheless, they have much less power than you imagine. Hear me well: THERE IS NOTHING WRONG! Hear me well again: LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT TO LIVE IT! LIVE THROUGH YOUR HEART! Cast aside all appearences and the bullshit that society around you has built, and trust what your guts say. You will then prove to yourselves that Humans are powerful and beautiful, and that they can become peaceful, and caring, and loving. However, BEWARE! Never hate what is around you, and never hate other humans for being whatever they are at the moment. Remember that you are not superior or special. You are simply what you are, THAT which is you, and that is enough. Embrace EVERYTHING around you, and forgive it. Embrace the pain, the confussion, the fear, the loneliness, and the incomprehension of people. And then forgive it. Accept it. Let it be what it is. And intend that such things that hurt will dissolve. You were meant to be what you are right now, and you are meant to go through it. This is the journey that each one of you chose before coming to this lifetime. You know this. And so never a step back! Always ahead, with courage, unconditional love, and resolution. You need to know no more. I could talk endlessly about my own darkness, my own experiences, my own fears, pains, and hatreds, and in the end, I would only end up giving you a picture of yourselves again. You need no more of this. Just know it. Know that I have gone through the same night you are going, and that I am seeing the light of the morning now. Nobody told me what to do. And nobody walked my path for me. My Heart told me all I needed to know. And I will say no more, for your own Heart will teach you what you need. Speak to no doctors, angels, spirits, ghosts, etc. about your journey. Seek counsel with no one but yourself. Hear me when I say that all you need is to listen to yourself in the wind, and ocean, the river, the tree, the sky, and all that is alive. Yes, listen to me when I say that I have gone through those dark paths under the mountain, I have suffered much, and yet I would not change a tiny little bit of my journey, for in it I found and keep finding myself every day. Little by little you will eventually stop being cowards (yes, because most humanity is nowadays sunk in cowardice, like or not), and stand up to anything. YOU HAVE THE WILL TO DO IT. Not because I or anyone else gives you a nice speech, but simply because I know you have this power, for I found it in myself. YOU WILL WALK THIS PATH AND YOU WILL MASTER IT. I will say no more. I think you get my point, huh :>) You came here to do this. NOW DO IT!!!
eldan
halifax, ns Canada - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 at 20:02:55 (EST)
Never give up. Indeed you are ahead of your time, that is why you find it so difficult. But you are not meant to "save the world", only to change yourself. Breath, and intend to transcend. Simply say so. Say "I will transcend", and ground to the Earth. Faith is useless, and so is Hope. Your Force of Will is what is going to make you go where you want to go. And yes, your mind and heart are powerful, perhaps in a more evident way than most around you. Never give up! There is never such thing as "too difficult", "too late", or "that is the way it is". Never give up! Tell the voices in your head that you have now decided to take control, and call upon your ancestors for assistance. Nothing more you need. Believe not in what the voices or the aliens say, as this is only manipulation. And above all, allow yourself to feel whatever there is to feel, be it pain, anger, or fear. There is nothing wrong with that. Feel, Breath, and Transcend. You are more sensitive than most humans these days, but that is only because there is a few people like you who is "ahead" of your time. I know how hard it is. But I also know that you can master your destiny. LET YOUR WORD COMMAND YOUR LIFE, and nothing else. Be courageous, and send away anyone or anything that supports you not. Please, look not for faith in these words, nor on anything else, simply DO IT!!! Little by little you will start discovering the Power lying in you. It will not be easy. But that is why you are here for. And no, you are never alone. There are others like you, fighting their way through such darkness. Fear not the dark, for all fear is simply fear of your own power returning to you. Let fear and pain come to you, breath, and embrace who you are, embrace the fear and pain and everything else. And then you will see how peace returns. As for what you call "hallucinations", there are many things that you have said about viruses, Atlantis, and the darkness surrounding human beings that are very real, and so they are not "crazy" delusions. You are extremely accute and perceptive, that is all. Embrace yourself! The fact of the matter is that most humans are lazy and do not want to think about the past and the future and the universe. That is why your theories are not considered "normal". Send the voices preaching death and destruction to wherever they come from, and accept only voices speaking of LIFE, FREEDOM, AND BEAUTY. In the end, DO ONLY WHAT YOUR OWN HEART TELLS YOU, and take back any power you have given to others. YOU ARE THE ONE MASTER OF YOUR DESTINY. AND IF YOU CHOOSE TO FOCUS UPON LIFE, SO WILL YOU LIVE. There is no need for complexities. Life is in the Sun, the Water, The Mountains, and everything that is alive. Send away all religions, traditions, theories, etc. for they are not alive anymore. Choose life, and you shall live. Invoke peace, and peace will gradually come. And Embrace and Forgive All that is what it is, for ALL IS ALLOWED, AND ALL IS FORGIVEN. This is all you need to know. The Power is in You to overturn Darkness and bring the shadows into the light. You are not "special" nor "better" in any way than any other human, you simply have a journey to make that includes other things. That is all. And, brother, do not "believe" in my words. Just try what I talk about. Force of Will, and you will see it for yourself. Accept nothing else, but that you are resolute to find yourself again. NOTHING CAN KEEP YOU APART FROM PIECING YOURSELF BACK. Oh, and there are no such things as "Superior" Beings. Whomever tells you that is lying to you. Nothing nor anyone is superior nor inferior. We all are equally powerful, sovereign, masterful, and beautiful. Embrace your weakness, tell the aliens and voices to fuck off, and piece yourself back every day. I am doing so. And I know you can do it too. Best of Blessings to you, and may the Sun and the Earth bring you all that you need. Courage, Man!
eldan
halifax, ns Canada - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 at 19:36:24 (EST)
Hey Ian. When you came to GCI and talked in Mike Schells class, I was there. I thought your presentatio was great. Thanks for coming in and informing us about Schizophrenia.
Bobby Dunlop
Cambridge, ON Canada - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 at 18:59:26 (EST)
Please excuse me if this feels disorganized. Is it possible to recognize schizophrenia (or any of the related disorders) in the process of their manifestation? I believe in the distinct possibility that i am "crazy". is that normal? I have a difficult time offering my opinion on things. When confronted on an issue for which i should take a side, in my brain i start thinking about either possibility equally, and come up with equally good reasons for believing one way or the other, more or less on two opposing ends of the spectrum. i simply cannot decide, so i agree with both. in some instances, both parts of my brain agree, and then I can actually offer an opinion. Have i confused you yet? I'm sorry. I don't think they are voices, it seems more like my brain trying to tear itself in half. Sometimes i don't mind my indecision, because it gives me an interesting view on things that other people just don't get. Maybe i'm special--maybe everyone else is special and i'm not. Someday i will become enlightened. I can't figure it out. I can relate to some life experiences that people talk about. I was sexually abused when i was young by a relative. I've only really told one person about that, but since I feel anonymous here, it doesn't matter so much. I hate competition. I hate sports. I would rather be by myself than with a team. Thinking about it makes me cringe. I'm 21 years old now, 7th semester in college and academically doing well. I have no plans; when people ask what i want to do i can only shrug. At this point in my life I believe the human race should no longer exist due to the devastation of the planet and really wish someone would blow it up/kill all the humans. I'm not saying that should be me, I don't plan on that, but i think it would be a good idea. When i first heard about SARS i thought it would be, no maybe i was hoping, that it would be the end-all be-all of viruses. I was wrong, but it is coming. I don't think i have been suffering any psychosis, but i suppose i could be wrong. I am aware of some negative symptoms however that have been invading my life. I just don't seem to care about things anymroe. Appearance, the future, things like that. I found out in the last year that my mom was in a mental hospital was she was a kid, but she wouldnt tell me why. My grandfather shot himself in teh head when I was ten. There are times when I think i should go to the therapist on campus here, but i hate doctors. They make me nervous, not sure why. When I was thirteen I was convinced I was dying from cancer. My mother took me to the doctor cause I was so messed up and they did a physical but found nothing wrong. It didn't make me feel any better. Any response would be helpful. Anyone who can relate is welcome to email me. Thanks for listening. phoenix_moon9@hotmail.com
sammi
usa - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 at 14:28:59 (EST)
can schitzophrenia be caused by video games? i'm just barely starting a relationship with my dad at 13 years old. he's now re-married to a woman with three kids. i went on a trip with them a few weeks ago and discovered that her son, 23 years old, had jumped off a cliff in vernal, utah and killed himself three mos. before. i had no previous idea as to where her third son was and i was shocked when i found this out. i was with them on the 3 month anniversary of his death and i caught many pieces of conversation about him. he was a relatively good kid. but a year before his suicide, he had become addicted to a computer game called black and white. at the, 2002 olympics, he became angry at one of the guards at an event. he lashed out and the city made him see a psychologist. he was diagnosed with shitzophrenia. his family hadn't looked into this and they had barely mentioned it. being from vernal, none of them had much of an educaton, obviously. they had no idea that schizophrenia can lead to suicide. i didn't want to mention this because they were all very sensitive about the subject. they think that he just had an idea in his head to kill himself because he hated his life. he had grown up with two alcoholic parents and the oldest of two other sisters he probably felt he had to protect. could this have had anything to do with his diseaese? e-mail me if you have any inormation that could help- carleestar87@yahoo.com. i understand shitzophrenia and what was going through his head. this website has helped me more than any other website that i've been to.
carlee
ut united states - Tuesday, October 28, 2003 at 12:51:28 (EST)
My son was diagnosed with the illness after he turned 18 years old. When he was about 16, he just started wanting to get high (smoke pot) and drink beer. At first I thought he was just being a normal 16 year old, but he is now almost 21 and his illness has progressed rapidly. He talks of unspeakable things, and sees and hears things, and is being "raped" constantly by men/women that are not even there. It is like he went to bed one night about 4 years ago and just never came back. He started talking differently, dressed differently, and just started acting really weird. I did have him baker-acted several times after he became 18 years old, but they only dope them up and throw them in the streets. Here in america, no one cares about mental illness. I did not realize until AFTER he was 18 years old that he was sick. And, well, like a judge told me "he has more rights than I do (with him being mentally ill) so that people like me can't take advantage of him." He refuses to take his meds, all he wants to do is drink! I am so afraid he is going to die...if not by his own hand, by the bottle. People, please don't let anyone tell you your child having nightmares almost everynight or having school problems is "something he will outgrow," or "it is just a side effect of the asthma medication." If you can help your child BEFORE they become 18 DO IT! He refuses to commit himself into any program to help him, right now he lives in the woods with my parents, and I fear day and night that he may hurt them, or he may get hurt. People do like to take advantage of people like him. I just want my son back....is there any advice you can offer? I sometimes think putting him out of his misery is the most merciful thing I could do for him, but very rarely, I hear the real Richard speak to me, and I know he is still there. I feel like it is all my fault, it must have been something I did as a parent...Richard's life has been total hell and chaos since at least 3 days before he was even born. Thank you for putting this page out and giving me some hope that my Richard may try to return someday......if not in whole, at least in part. His whole family has turned away from him (his Dad, brother, friends), and I am simply the guilty complexed mother trying to cope. I have a brother in jail for the rest of his life for first degree murder, I only want to help Richard before he ends up living his greatest nightmares daily......but what can you do for them, if they refuse to do anything for themselves...
Nona
Tampa, FL US - Monday, October 27, 2003 at 21:50:16 (EST)
Hello and thank you so much for the amazing information about schizophrenia and your courage to share it with others. It has been extremely helpful to me as I am portraying a paranoid schizophrenic in a short film. I feel the information you presented on this site will be the most helpful in creating this character. I hope I can portray her realistically in this film while she struggles through a severe period of her disease. Again thank you.
Molly Benson
West Hollywood, CA USA - Monday, October 27, 2003 at 19:44:56 (EST)
Thank you for the information. It has been very helpful to me.
bunny
us - Monday, October 27, 2003 at 15:41:18 (EST)
Thanks for the great info. i am doing a paper on schizophrenia, so i apreciated the in depth info. My e-mail is Jass_2005@hotmail.com, and if you think up any other interesting news or experiences that i could use, or just want to talk, email me. Jasmine
Jasmine Morris
La loma, nm U.S. - Monday, October 27, 2003 at 11:41:23 (EST)
Intersting read
Fiona McAlinden
Melbourne, Vic Australia - Sunday, October 26, 2003 at 18:36:00 (EST)
I found this page very informative. I am still doing research on the disese.
Leah Ross
winnippeg, mb Canada - Friday, October 24, 2003 at 13:06:06 (EDT)
"Rosemary's experience is similar. She has much stronger family relationships. She met her first major love at age sixteen. Seven years later he "moved on" as she developed schizophrenia." I copied this from your writting. 5 years later I am the one "moving on" and I feel the need to defend myself. I believe my ex boyfriend has scizophrenia, or some other phychotic disorder. for the last year he has insisted two people have been following him, buging his car, and my car with tracking and recording devices, listening to our conversations, watching us through planted cameras, and recently they have even become able to read his thoughts with special hightech equipment. he even damaged his own property to get at the hidden cameras, of course there was none. His family, my family and myself have tried everything we could think of to convince him he needed help. for a year I have been on an emotional rollarcoster that showed no signs of stopping. Finally after the 1 mollionth argument we had about the issue, I broke up with him. It broke my heart, he is a good man, but I couldnt keep going, I couldnt force him into treatment until he hurt himself or me phsycally, and for myself I couldnt sit around and wait for that to happen.
Anon
- Wednesday, October 22, 2003 at 15:24:59 (EDT)
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GUYMAN
GYTR, Canada - Wednesday, October 22, 2003 at 04:22:24 (EDT)
What a wonderful site. I work as a support worker in a rehab and am finding it hard to forfill the needs of my client group. I find that there is to much doctor stuff and not a lot of social help. the main stumbleing block is that people just shrug them off as being mad when all that is needed is a bit of help. I understand that there is a lot of lonleness and that people who suffer isolate them selves. all i notice from the doctors is that they would rather up thier dose of medication rather than accept that all they need is a friend. I would love to hear from anyone who suffers how they have managed to get on with a day to day living rather than being left in the corner of a mental hospital. I work in a small unit and my role is that of helping rather than pushing. Please dont hesitate to contact me at martynkauri@yahoo.co.uk Sorry for they way this is worded as i am rubbish with words. cheers and god bless.
martyn kauri
weston s mare, uk - Monday, October 20, 2003 at 15:30:57 (EDT)
Hi ive just come accross your web site as i was looking for infomation about schizophrenia, i have got to do a presentation in college and thinking of doing it on schizophrenia. i love the homepage, you have written it as first hand experience. i hope i can use your some information on this site to help give my talk if i choose to do this subject. thanks. zmortimer@hotmail.com
Zarina
Surrey, England - Monday, October 20, 2003 at 10:13:25 (EDT)
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abidjan, Canada - Monday, October 20, 2003 at 07:14:45 (EDT)
I had no idea that Schizophrenia was so common. It's nice for me to air my views without fear of some difficult treatments used by doctors and nurses at treatment. I hate the Victorianism of the hospitals in Britain. Don't you think the word "Shrink" used for psychiatrists has ugly connotations? Thank God, hopitals and society in general are changing for the better.
Gordon
Perth, Scotland, United Kingdom - Monday, October 20, 2003 at 06:17:35 (EDT)
hi Ian. my brother has been diagnosed 3 yrs ago as schizophrenic... he is doing much better now than the previous years.... he was in and out the drug rehab 4 times... he is home now with our family...... i have read somewhere in the internet when i tried to pull out DOGMATIL for further infos... that this medication has helped a schizophrenic patient..... my mother's dr prescribed DOGMATIL for her anxiety attacks...... curious, i tried to find out more about the meds she is taking..... after learning that DOGMATIL has helped a schizophrenic patient... my brother starts taking DOGMATIL, though its just 4 months now, my brother's improvement is very promising...... we still have some ups and downs.... but the most important thing is EDUCATION OF THIS DISABILITY. the more informations are outhere and the more we are educated- we can better understand our enemy--- TO WIN A WAR YOU SHOULD KNOW YOUR ENEMY! GOD BLESS AND MORE POWER TO YOU AND ALL YOUR LOVE ONES! In Christ's Love, Theresa
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mathet73@yahoo.com, Oklahoma Philippines - Monday, October 20, 2003 at 02:14:02 (EDT)
Very interesting
Katlyn
kansas City, kn US - Sunday, October 19, 2003 at 17:03:18 (EDT)
Hi Ian, Just finished looking through and reading some of your website. The site ws recommended by my intstructor(I'm taking a mental health issues) course at the NSCC(Nova Scotia Community College) and just wanted to say you are a remarkable man. To put yourself out there(on the web) for the world to see is very couragious. I'm sure you have helped many people and will continue to do so. I wish you well!!! Shirley
Shirley
Port Hawkesbury, NB Canada - Sunday, October 19, 2003 at 15:50:20 (EDT)
Dear Mr. Chovil. You gave me some advice once and I followed it. I can't say life is perfect now but it's better and I am making headway through the murky waters of finding help for my daughter. Just want you to know I come back to your site again and again. I have tried to get her to look at it but she does n't seem to have one bit of desire to learn about her illness. I am her keeper for now. Anyway, just wanted to commend you for your invaluable service to the internet community and those of us struggling with this disease. God bless you. Cindy
Cindy
GA USA - Sunday, October 19, 2003 at 13:07:30 (EDT)
Hey thanks a ton for your website. I'm doing a paper for my psych. class and your site has been very helpful. Thanks again and God Bless!
Emily
Dublin, OH U.S.A. - Saturday, October 18, 2003 at 13:57:10 (EDT)
Thank you for telling of the prodrome phase. My son does not exist any more, and I have been trying to think what really was wrong, when everything should have been all right. I think that what I saw was a prodrome, and I did not understand. I did not understand !
a mother
Finland - Saturday, October 18, 2003 at 12:40:38 (EDT)
A very informative web-site I shall visit very often.You have performed a service you should be proud of.As a board member of the Windsor I have access to a lot of Information you covered and I find it truly remarkable what your Web-Site has covered.Keep up the good work. Lloyd Campbell S.S.O.-W.S.X. Windsor,Ontario
Lloyd Campbell
Windsor, Ont. Canada - Saturday, October 18, 2003 at 09:11:10 (EDT)
I just wanted you to know you have a great web site. I am doing some research for a thesis in my english class. Our teacher had asked us to do something from one of our other classes and since in my phyc class we are learning about schizophrenia i have to do my paper on it. Your site was so helpful and i got alot out of it. I am so sorry that you have this illness but because of you having it you may help others with your site and it does help to see the other side of the story from some one who has it. Thanks again! Stephanie Clark
Stephanie Clark
Avondale, AZ USA - Friday, October 17, 2003 at 20:04:35 (EDT)
We really enjoyed the great informational guide you have provided us, for we are both nutts!!!!!!!!!
Fred & Wilma
Seattle, OR usa - Friday, October 17, 2003 at 00:51:54 (EDT)
I am a a college student and am currently taking up Psychology. For this class the class was asked to do a research paper on a disease. I chose Scizophrenia...I found your site to be very helpful..I just wanted to say thank you.. Debbie(bibi527@aol.com)
Debbie
Bronx, NY US - Thursday, October 16, 2003 at 13:46:27 (EDT)
It was interesting to read your story. I just hope it helps me to understand my son. He really needs help. He has not been diagnosed with schizophrenia but he is truely showing signs and im at a loss.Hope all goes well with you.
sue oshea
Melbourne, vic Australia - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 at 19:01:07 (EDT)
This may sound shocking to some people. I belive many people who behave like Schizophrenics were not happy before the symptoms started. It could be because they feel badly they didn't measure up to their mother or father's expectations or just wanted to avoid the pain of being rejected by a potetial mate. You see, everyone hopes to makes choices in life that will lead them closer to their own happiness. It's when we make the worng choices that move us away from our happiness that the brain tries to correct ,if it means making up something that's not there , but seems very real, without you knowing. If people can believe in themselves or be more positive with themselves , trust themselves, they'd see their life's would improve. I know this becuase I know what happened to my father before the symptons of Schizophrenics showed up. He wasn't a happy camper and he got down on himself a lot and other people around him. He slowly went into a shell and threaten people around him to the point they put him away with "tranquilizers". This is not to say they didn't do the right thing. People in society shouldn't have to feel threaten or subjected to that behaviour nor should he be a danger to himself. But it's important to know that before you start taking any real hard drugs to control your symtoms or even if you do, ask yourself what you were not happy with in your life. try not to tell yourself it's becuase of the voices you hear. Ignore those those. Look instead deeply into your life when you felt pain and you tried to bury that feeling deep into yourself and then mask it until enough time went by when the brian just had to deal with it on it's own without you knowing about it. Face that feeling ask yourself why you feared that feeling and then ask yourself if you have the courage to accept it happened and that you know that's ok. Accept your total behaviours, good or bad. Try not to split your mind. It'll take work and support . But I know you can heal yourself. Here's a book that got me going and it'll do a better job of expalining this than I can. "Warning: Psychiatry Can Be Hazardous To Your Mental Health" by William Glasser, M.D. Read it, It's worth it. Make the right choice today to understand yourslef better and be real about it.
Rick Hawkens
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, October 15, 2003 at 00:53:18 (EDT)
What i think about schizophrenics´haluzinating: If it does not disturb nor make the one caught by them suffer, it shouldn´t bother anyone, nor have a stigma. A disease is a disease. I heard of American Indians they used to consider and treat schizophrenics as holy. They were supernatural beings, able to hear voices of an interesting fantasy world!Our kind of society is sick in itself, so it cannot afford to treat the sick a dignity-way.
evi
Michelstadt, Hessen Germany - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 at 19:09:36 (EDT)
I really enjoy your website. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about 2 years ago. your website has helped anwser alot of my questions. I write poetry about what I go through on my website.www.geocities.com/splitdogg
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indy, in usa - Tuesday, October 14, 2003 at 15:05:15 (EDT)
Thank you for your site, I have a brother who has schizophrenia, and cried lots over the years about some of the stuff you talked about. Mostly the life he could have had. I am 50 now, but wish I had your site when I was a teen. Seems like we had nothing then, and it seemed like we were going through this all alone. My brother is a great guy. I have sent your site to family and friends. Thanks for a great site and for sharing! Roselyns@yahoo.com
Roselyn Quinn
Grayson, Ga USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 at 20:13:45 (EDT)
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hilda
perth, wa australia - Monday, October 13, 2003 at 11:28:08 (EDT)
I know they're out there. They put things through my letter box. First it was leaves and grass. Then it was stones. They ring my doorbell and run away. My holy hammer of smiting shall stop them. This is War Against Terror.
Ian B.
England - Monday, October 13, 2003 at 09:52:53 (EDT)
I recently have been to a doctor about my disorder and are alittle scared of what was happening to me i am smart but could never keep a job and been in pain for years its good to see i am not the only one with this problem keep up the good work ........cheers julian
julian
melbourne, vic australia - Monday, October 13, 2003 at 04:04:57 (EDT)
You and your site are inspirational. I was visiting various sites concerning schizophrenia because my four-year-old daughter takes after her grandfather who had been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I know it is too early to worry about it but she is my only child and so I wonder. Your story, though sad at times, actually made me feel better. I wish the best for you and will periodically visit your site for any news about your journey through life. Thank you.
Vikktoria C
Minneapolis, MN USA - Friday, October 10, 2003 at 18:01:47 (EDT)
Thank you
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st lucia, Canada - Wednesday, October 08, 2003 at 20:08:50 (EDT)
The website is great! Im 15 years old, going on 16 and ive had psycotic schizophrenia since I was little. Ive never talked to another schizophrenic so it would be cool if someone droped me an email. Ill tell yall more when I talk ot ya! hiphopgoddess8@hotmail.com
Hannah Cooper
Kennesaw, ga USA - Wednesday, October 08, 2003 at 12:02:19 (EDT)
I slipped into pshyzophrenia gradually over time. It used to happen once in while when i was extremely drunk. Then it happened some times when i was sober. Then i started hallucinating full time when i was sober. I developed thousands of past memories that couldn't possibly have happened but do to the hallucinations and the esp i started to believe all these false memories of the past. I would watch tv and i could have told you what was going to happen next because i had been brought into these scenes, on the tv, years ago, and i had been part of the making of different scenes from different tv shows. I had been brought into a world by a bunch of recurring characters that were from around my area some i had seen before and some i hadn't. They were not human but could take the form of any human. I could talk for months about what happened but i still couldn't tell you all because so many things happened in such a short period. The best way i can describe the world i was in would be like comparing it to an lsd buzz only the hallucinations and the storylines and false memories and the ability to see into the future all tied in together and all supported each other fact wise. It was like a cartoon world in a way. Almost anything can happen in that world. And everything is real even though it is unreal. Severe pain and physical torture can also be administered by the voices(something like your consciences voice it's there in your head but it is not audible) this adds to the realism of what is experienced. The main theme of my main storyline was if i didn't join these beings that said they created me, then i would be tortured or tormented until i did. I had taken drugs like lsd and marijuana and hash over the years but i did it infrequently. Plus i had quit drugs altogether a year before my first drunken hallucination. So i don't think the drugs caused it. I developed my first hallucination at 30 years of age. and went into it full-time at 31 years of age.
creator
Canada - Tuesday, October 07, 2003 at 21:50:40 (EDT)
I am currently working on a paper on schizophrenia for my RN diploma and found this website to be most helpful. I would some day like to work with people to help them to the kind of recover that you have had.
Donna Organ LPN
AB Canada - Saturday, October 04, 2003 at 17:23:09 (EDT)
This is for all schizophrenics out there. Read this essay of mine on schizophrenia, if you're not cured right away my name isn't Beena anymore!!!!! My research on schizophrenia Inside the mind of a true schizophrenic Schizophrenia relates to a chemical imbalance in the brain. This I believe essentially results from some deep emotional trauma, sudden or otherwise. Because life is full of different kinds of emotions, so emotional pain could result from any of the following: Hunger/food Thirst/water Love/Hate Desires/denials Security/insecurity Etcetera People experiencing schizophrenia, hear voices; see visions; feel someone is watching them most of the time; experience delusions in the form of a belief, form conceptions that can mislead or deceive them; experience hallucinations in the form of voices and find their brain bombarded with brilliant ideas at a time, etc. Some can also begin to feel they are superior to others on earth and few will go so far as to actually believe they are God or were sent here on earth for a purpose and preach the same. If you don't mind my saying this, personally I feel this is what gave rise to "Jesus Christ," "Prophet Mohammed," "Mahavir," "Rama," "Krishan," etc. whether by themselves or by another, because logically "God" or His messenger "cannot be ethnic" in any case but only universal. A note on voices above, they are not as such sounds but rather thought perceptions invading a schizophrenic. Different schizophrenics can experience different symptoms or their different combinations. The movie, "A beautiful mind," if it was entitled, A brilliant mind, instead, it would be closer to the truth because that's essentially what a schizophrenics mind becomes, brilliant! To perceive schizophrenia as a stigma in my view is wrong. Why? Because, when life is all about emotions, then emotional disturbances or upheavals in life are to be expected and only natural. And if they result in a chemical imbalance in the brain for a time causing schizophrenia, then we must find a cure and not label it as a stigma or even a mental disorder. Since an emotional upheaval (prolonged or sudden) in the life of a schizophrenic is the root cause of the chemical imbalance in the brain, I think, therefore, medicines or drugs will not cure a schizophrenic. A loving environment with a lot of companionship probably would help in all certainty plus the realization that others out there experience similar symptoms so they don't feel they are alone in their misery. Stress will trigger schizophrenia I believe, only if this stress takes the shape of emotional trauma, whether sudden or long term. Personally, I feel that the kind of emotional upheaval in our life dictates our problem. For example, an upheaval relating to the emotion of hunger for food can cause cancer; one relating to desire for love and companionship (any kind) can cause schizophrenia; another kind relating to, I have no idea what (sorry), could contribute to our becoming homosexual for a time, etc. All these problems I believe are due to certain emotional upheavals in our life that cause a different kind of chemical imbalance in our brain. In this essay I was going to talk about a schizophrenic, so here goes: All that you perceive through the senses is because of the brain. So a chemical imbalance in there can trigger a perception or vision by you (schizophrenic) that actually may or may not have any basis. When you hear voices that project thoughts that hurt you and you wish to lash out in the air or react otherwise, do so for a while, keeping in mind other peoples' rights though. But sooner or later, you must accept defeat - in the sense that when these voices project thoughts of any kind, you don't react to them at all. Because when you lash out or react, you are really lashing or reacting on yourself, so that won't help you in the long run but only make you worse. When you accept defeat then the voices accept defeat too, simply because the voices are just you although in different forms or guises. Therefore these voices will go away when you stop reacting to them. Also, these voices have their basis in some fear existing inside you. If you let go of that fear, the voices should subside. Also, voices inside a schizophrenic's mind are very different from ideas in their head. They are completely two different things. Voices are always active and speak directly and almost always bother you to an extent they can drive you crazy, rarely are the voices loving. Ideas on the other hand are just that, ideas, not any particular voice. They are not ideas in any real sense to be specific either. They are just your own knowledge, conceptions, ideas, understanding, etc. that you find you can now put together in a rational and logical manner. But the feeling you get is that you had a brilliant idea, when you only put the facts together in your head. In this sense the chemical imbalance makes you brilliant! I also believe that the best person that can help a schizophrenic is the schizophrenic himself/herself through awareness of their problem and by becoming their own mental health official by not taking any medicine or drugs to cure themselves 'cause those can only add to their chemical imbalance in the brain in the long run because schizophrenia is not a result of some virus or bacterial infection. Another way for cure is to keep oneself busy throughout the day. Yet another way is to rise early in the morning whether you feel like it or not, not because that is healthy but just so you will be tired out enough by night time to go to bed early and sleep well because it's imperative that you get the right amount and fashion of sleep. And of course the most important thing that will cure a schizophrenic is I believe a loving environment together with a lot of companionship. In this way chemical balance in the brain will be restored gradually. And when balance is restored, any perception in the form of voices, visions, ideas, delusions, etc. will disappear. Beware though that you will be returning to a very simple world now, which will appear perhaps even dull and ordinary because there will be no more brilliant ideas bombarding inside your head. But you must return to this world and not become addictive to those ideas because life is essentially all about living a simple life. Upheavals in life come and go and bring misery and rewards accordingly. But the only way to live life completely is really to just live it simply! This is what I believe. Some thoughts and words from schizophrenics and others: "I know that they are also experiencing attacks from me as they will respond in a way that shows their increase in the frequency and intensity of these 'voices'. " "I like attacking them as well because they are ALL my enemies." "I don't think they are really "Voices" as there is certainly no sound waves impounding on the ear drums...oops , I am getting a little scientific. But I had tried covering both my ears with my hands and the " voices" still existed...so they are not voices, so don't worry about persecution by someone, agree? Anyway, it does not matter what words we use to describe the phenomena, as long as we understand its meanings. " "These "voices" can feed fear, anger and anxiety or nervousness, it may be like this: I feel people whom I know whispering bad about me and always observing me. I feel strongly, this is not delusions it is real. Then I react and interact with the thoughts (delusions), and am not only annoyed but could also be violent...in extreme cases." "Normally, it is advisable not to "counter attack" these thoughts in order to get well. I believe the voices, or rather the thoughts, are caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain." "The 'negative voices' will try to cause chaos to my thoughts and feed fear and anger as well as interrupt my flow of carrying out a task like that of reading and writing. " "Some 'voices' are very close while others are at a distance. Both male and female 'voices' are heard taking turns to persecute me, but mostly female. The male ones would make sounds or suggestive ideas. The ones that duplicate members of the family and friends and some other familiar voice are the most frequently heard and these 'voices' will try to doctrinate delusions and beliefs that are contradictory and annoying." "Some signs of the illness are abnormal & aggressive behaviour, hearing imaginary voices, suspiciousness, withdrawn behaviour, strange imaginary fears, lack of sleep, lack of concentration...." "Inability to cope with emotional strain, he says, is one of the main factors that leads to the development of these illnesses. Stress stemming from failed relationships or depression due to feelings of loneliness can push one over the brink, too. " "Patients suffering from schizophrenia are less violent than normal people." "Support from family, friends and neighbours enhances improvement." "Schizophrenia affects 8-10/1000 people all over the world." "About 1 percent of the population is schizophrenic." That's about 50million schizophrenics in the world. "Try to get the patient into meaningful activities as he/she gets better." "[Schizophrenia] SZ produces a myriad of symptoms in its victims. These range from hallucinations (eg. hearing, seeing, feeling things that are not there) to delusions (eg. believing you are Jesus or that the authorities are after you) to depression and apathy. A significant percentage of SZ sufferers attempt suicide." "1. Schizophenia is not a split-personality as thought by many. There is no Mr. Hyde or violent side to one person. It is simply a disease that brings up ideas and thoughts via voices in the mind. These voices, described by John Nash, the famous MIT mathematician, are dubbed "superior."" "You will find that people with Schizophrenia can be very productive in life if given the chance. I believe everyone should educate themselves on this disease so you can help others and make a difference until this disease can be conquered permanently. Let your voice be heard in person so that the voices in their heads can be stomped out." ~ Beena My website: www.tizzytulip.com
Beena
Calgary, AB Canada - Friday, October 03, 2003 at 23:58:07 (EDT)
Thanks for a lot of great information. Appreciate the personal insight. We are just starting to learn about this illness as our family member has recently been diagnosed.
Lynn Haugen
Dawson Creek, BC Canada - Friday, October 03, 2003 at 19:19:06 (EDT)
My 14 year old daughter was just officially diagnosed yesterday. I got comfort and hope reading your story and will share it with my daughter when I think she's ready. kellylynnspears@hotmail.com
Kelly
USA - Friday, October 03, 2003 at 12:09:20 (EDT)
thank you for being so honest i hve manic depression and am in recovery for heroin addiction, it can be hard explaining to people. you help people to understand and hopefully become less judgemental of people with mental illness.
olenka
leeds, england - Friday, October 03, 2003 at 06:32:53 (EDT)
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LAGOS, LA NIGERIA - Friday, October 03, 2003 at 05:23:17 (EDT)
Your story was incredible...i wish you a wonderful life..and you are such a strong person for overcoming this illness. Best of luck.
Renee Deslaunais
north bay, Ontario Canada - Wednesday, October 01, 2003 at 22:45:41 (EDT)
As you have noticed I am sure that I am not from Canada I am from Australia. Thank you so much for your personal insight, it has taught me a lot. I am currently a student from RMIT University in Melbourne, and I am researching schizophrenia and this has really helped me. Thank you once again. Nicole
Nicole Johnson
Victoria, Australia, Vic AUSTRALIA - Tuesday, September 30, 2003 at 04:35:43 (EDT)
Thanks for sharing your personal journey. Your site is very informative and your recovery process has prompted me to finally seek the help I have desperately needed, but avoided, for nearly 30 years.
S.S.S.
United States - Saturday, September 27, 2003 at 14:47:20 (EDT)
I just want to say how amazing your story is. I can't even begin to imagine what you have gone through in your life. I'm sure your story will help many sufferers of this illness and maybe give them some hope. The information on your site has been very helpful as I'm currently doing an assignment on schizophrenia for my year 11 psychology class. I just wanted to wish you all the best for the future. xxxx
Nicole
Melbourne, Vic Australia - Saturday, September 27, 2003 at 08:08:22 (EDT)
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owensboro, ky usa - Saturday, September 27, 2003 at 08:07:20 (EDT)
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IGBUZO, ABA-U.S.A - Friday, September 26, 2003 at 19:52:58 (EDT)
I visited your website and found it extremely imformative. Thank you.
E.Summers
Wales, UK - Friday, September 26, 2003 at 15:16:27 (EDT)
Hi Ian, I was please to meet you at the Round Table Forum earlier in the month. I have shared you web address with colleauges at NHQ in HRDC. Your work is very inspirational and demonstrates that disability can be prevented by providing the right supports in a timely way. Thanks!
Barb Taylor
Toronto, On Canada - Friday, September 26, 2003 at 13:38:14 (EDT)
hi my name is chelsea and im doing a report on schizophrenia with my friend brittney. love always, chelsea & brittney 671-6354
chelsea
sutter, ca USA - Friday, September 26, 2003 at 12:26:51 (EDT)
My website is www.geocities.com/medusa_rages I'm trying to write more about my experience as a schizophrenic. Hopefully it can be like yours too. Bye!
Elaine
AUSSIE land, Australia - Thursday, September 25, 2003 at 23:13:22 (EDT)
Just feeling lonely. My psych is changing my meds around a little bit. I see some of my syptoms coming back but it may all just be in my head. I'm tired of dealing with this problem by myself.
curley
Baltimore, MD USA - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 at 21:18:31 (EDT)
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LOME, TOGO - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 at 06:47:02 (EDT)
I am only 18 years old and I know this is strage, but I am starting to think that I am schizophrenic. My mother just stuck me in a mental hospital. I refuse to take meds because she thinks I'm bipolar. I don't think I'm bipolar. I am always happy. I know schizophrenia doesn't manafest itself, most likely until your mid 20's, so why am I experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia right now? I believe I am a Paranoid schizophrenic. I am very much like the characters on the movies, "Donnie Darko" and "Fight Club." I use comedy as a coping mechanism with the few friends I have, but this is really starting to scare me. I am starting to hear voices in my head. I do not see images of people yet. So, I think that maybe these are warning signs for future schizophrenia. But isn't schizophrenia hereditary? My parents aren't schizo. I am very similar to you. I got caught shop lifting, done drugs, been raped, etc, had a very hard life. I can relate. Yet, on the other side I am also a straight A student. I am curretly pulling an all nighter in the UCF computer lab. Oh man, just give me some advice. My E-mail is Nirfoochile@aol.com. Thank you so much if you even read this! PS. another similarity is that I am starting my own webstie too. It will take a while. I have'nt even had a chance to read yours yet. I have a test today in 5 hours and couldn't get the voices out of my head. PSS. I need to get on some sort of medication before I start seeing images of bunny rabbits or Brad Pitt!
Donnie Darko (don't worry, just an alias)
Orlando, FL United States - Wednesday, September 24, 2003 at 04:34:52 (EDT)
My daughter was diagnoised in November,I have tried to find someone to talk with ever since then. I was glad to find your site,I at least get to here there are some other people who know what we all are going through.It has been heart breaking...Thanks for beeing here.
wanda
Canada - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 at 19:49:01 (EDT)
My sister has symptoms of the disorder and I'm am trying to help her. This site has made me understand alot about the disorder. Thank you!
Amy
Hammonton, NJ USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2003 at 14:32:22 (EDT)
what an inspiration! What an example of self-valuing coupled with generosity to help others! willingness to trade victimhood attitude with game of life lived regardless!the fruits of effort and dedication! may providence power you on and guide you for the benefit of us who need what you able and willing to share. thank you.-
uncle joe
melbourne , victoria australia - Thursday, September 18, 2003 at 18:07:55 (EDT)
Hi there, dear Ian Chovil ... How are you doing? First of all, I gotta say that I´m from a place that you probably will never hear about: Sananduva, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil. Isn´t it weird for you that a girl from the real ‘middle of nowhere’ found your page on the web? But it would be great if my place didn´t make any difference to your answer, I mean, I have noticed that American people usually avoid Brazilians.. (I´m sure that it won´t happen in this case). Well, I´m studying Psychology and I´m developing a homework about Schizophrenia… it is almost complete, but I´m guiding my attention to questions like stigma, psychological comprehension of the disease and so on.. I have to tell you that unfortunately the prejudice is still significant in here.. So, can you leave a message to Brazilian students about how American people usually face this disease, if the stigma is still a difficulty in the United States? Your opinion will be definitive to the success of my homework!! Thank you so much …!!!! Thamara Müller Camozzato… PS. I didn´t find your e-mail address, so I had to send it by the guestbook… My email is: Samadhi_tha@yahoo.com.br
Thamara
Sananduva, RS Brazil - Thursday, September 18, 2003 at 13:33:51 (EDT)
I find it very interesting that a great number of people who get diagnosed as schizophrenic excel at maths. Has anyone done a study on this? I believe that schizophrenia is to an extent hereditary and/or induced/exacerbated by environment (particularly taking drugs). There seems to be a fine line that one can choose to ignore and proceed along the schizophrenic path (ie. the inability to accept that one's thoughts are not reasonable or logical). As an example, one of my father's brothers became convinced that his next door neighbours were deliberately tormenting him by sending messages through the pipes in the house - he was so convinced about this that he rigged up some electrical wiring to the pipes which resulted in his own wife receiving an serious electric shock. I recall my own father speculating as to whether our neighbours had drilled a hole in the wall so that they could listen to the goings on in our house (no hole was apparent anywhere), although when the story about my uncle spread my father seemed to realise that this was unreasonable behaviour on the part of my uncle and (I think) recognised his own suspicions as possibly going down the same path. He certainly checked himself after that. The other thing I noted was that both he, my uncle and apparently their father all had 'persecution complexes' in that people didn't like them or were against them in some way and I can see this trait slightly in at least two of my own brothers (that's three generations). On reading your guestbook I do wonder whether some people really become 'demonized' because they allow their minds to constantly dwell on negative thoughts (rather than dwelling on wholesome thoughts)and that allows the demons in.
Jan Hearn
London, UK - Thursday, September 18, 2003 at 09:16:34 (EDT)
I just wanted to thank you, because I'm in nursing school and planning to work on a psych. unit at a hospital and helping me understand what a good, helpful thing I would be doing makes me sure I am going into the right profession. The reason I logged on to your site was for an informative speech I am doing on Schitzophrenia and your site helped me a great deal. I used alot of quotes from you and also some of your charts which really helped me get your point across that Schitzophrenia is a serious, life threating disease that affects many people.
Kelli Guthrie
Palatine, IL USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 at 17:01:33 (EDT)
I love your sight. I am really interested in schizophrenia. I am doing a school research prodject. my e-mail is jjanen@gaggle.net
Jasmine
Clavet, Saskatchewan Canada - Wednesday, September 17, 2003 at 11:53:29 (EDT)
Hi, can I contact you by ICQ ? Spasibo.
Julia
Canada - Tuesday, September 16, 2003 at 13:51:28 (EDT)
you should see the movie "donnie darko" it is sort of related to the others
Dave
Adkins, OH united states - Monday, September 15, 2003 at 21:55:15 (EDT)
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TOGO/9JA, LA Canada - Monday, September 15, 2003 at 21:04:02 (EDT)
i really enjoyed reading what you had to say. i have a brother with schizophrenia and your story and his have similarities. your story helped me and i'm writing to him to give him your web page. he probably won't pay any attention to me, so at least your work has helped me. he uses marajuana and drinks and now lives in the skid row part of los angeles. he was in prison for three years then got out and lived with our mother. while on probation or parole, he did real well, because a probabation officer tested him for drugs and alcohol every week. then, when he got off probation all the trouble started again. my mother finally got a restraining order because things got so bad. he's fifty years old now (i'm 59) and time seems to be wearing him down a bit, but the substance abuse still hurts him. anyway, i really appreciate what you had to say and your web page is a real contribution and a good work. thank you. if you want to send me some goodies i might pass on to my brother my e-mail address is armandorh@earthlink.net
armando r. hernandez
gila bend, az usa - Monday, September 15, 2003 at 06:58:38 (EDT)
I thought your site was wonderful and an inspiration. I fully believe some of the ideas about disease you had. I think it is also possible what you thought about aliens and the beatles could be true. I have been living with schizophrenia for over a decade and even now I still have delusions. If you would like me to send you a copy of a book I wrote which I feel, deals with schizophrenia issues. Why don't you try and send me a snail mail address? That way I could easily get it to you. I don't want to put it on the net.
Peter Doolan Chronos
Hobart, TAS Australia - Sunday, September 14, 2003 at 19:57:45 (EDT)
Hello! I am glad to have found this website. My son is newly diagnosed with schitzophrenia. He had a psychotic ephisode while trying to register at school. He almost got run over by a car while trying to cross the street in a psychotic rage. He hardly remembers the day. I thank God that somebody had the insight to activate the EMS. My son was taken by ambulance to the hospital where he went AWOL. The police brought him back to the hospital. He is an involuntary patient in an adolescent psych unit. He has just been given the privledge of wearing his street clothes. The psychiatrist was a good listener. He understood my fears of psychiatry and mental health being extremely subjective. I am a cardiology nurse and with my branch of nursing there is a lot of objective evidence to back up our assumptions. I have a lot to find out but I am glad that I can use this website as a resource.
Laura Lesser
Toronto, ON Canada - Sunday, September 14, 2003 at 14:57:47 (EDT)
i have mental disorder my doctor think its schizoaffective disorder but he do'esnt know i was fine until the age of 15 than i had nightmares i saw scary pictures and heard voices than i was so scared i knew it was just in my imagination i took olanzapine for one and a half year i gain many kiograms i stopped it because it did me nightmares weird?than i took risperdal it was a good medicine it helped me a year but it sopped working than i took seroquel it did me agrression it was'nt me than i stopped it and switched to geodon it helps me now but i'm not very relaxed but the best thing it does'nt cause weight gain well mothin'gs perfect in this world what should i do i'm 19 years old now i even did'nt finish my teenage i love singing and i love music it helps me like celine dion chaka khantina turner and m,any mor does anyone knows what should i do to feel at my best help me thank you
sharon
jeusalem, Canada - Saturday, September 13, 2003 at 05:19:28 (EDT)
i have mental disorder i want biferpunox
sharon
jeusalem, Canada - Saturday, September 13, 2003 at 05:11:35 (EDT)
Hi, Thank you for the time it took to write your story. I do not have any mental disorders, but am very interested in the disease. I have a 1st cousin with this disease. My heart cries for him. God Bless You and Thanks Again, Cindy
Cindy
Memphis, TN Canada - Thursday, September 11, 2003 at 20:42:01 (EDT)
Excellent informative website. I think it's absolutely amazing what you have done and what you have endured. Perhaps some day I will meet you. I believe someone very close to me has schizophrenia and/or a severe mental illness with one known case of psyhosis. I'm very afraid and determined to find the proper diagnosis for this person. God Bless you and the work that you do
Lydia
Guelph, ont Canada - Thursday, September 11, 2003 at 18:46:03 (EDT)
Thank you so much for taking the time to put this site up. I am a freshman in high school and i was assigned a report on schizophrenia, this site was a really, really big help. I just wanted to let you know i'm sorry for all the pain and struggle you've had in your life. Once again, thank you
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tampa, FL United States - Thursday, September 11, 2003 at 14:35:01 (EDT)
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MN, MN USA - Thursday, September 11, 2003 at 12:49:04 (EDT)
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guyman@yahoo.com., Canada - Thursday, September 11, 2003 at 02:03:44 (EDT)
Being a freshman in high school and not knowing much about Schizophrenia and having to give a speech on it wasn't exactly a good situation. Your website provided everything I needed. Thank you soo much!
Karolyn
Nebraska United States - Wednesday, September 10, 2003 at 19:28:02 (EDT)
I'm 25 and schizophrenic and have been this way since I was 18. I would be interested in talking to others with mental illness, so feel free to e-mail me at toxteth666@hotmail.com
Mark
Liverpool, Merseyside England - Tuesday, September 09, 2003 at 16:46:43 (EDT)
Just stop it is bad advice. It is like telling a drunk to stop it or telling someone to stop smoking. After thinking about it it is great advice life can change in a moment many have quit smoking/drinking etc. JUST STOP IT.
Suzanne
Australia - Tuesday, September 09, 2003 at 02:47:22 (EDT)
My twin is in the hospital right at the time of reading this. And there are similar things in his delusions...the WW2 stories, voices, mind reading ghosts...and he somehow puts them all in one story. I have a lot of empathy and listen. All of his delusions are in the twilight zone, meaning I don't know if ghosts are real, I don't know if the government controls our minds...etc. We all know the power of the media and as for the dead, religions etc. it is an unanswerable unfinshable topic it is like you get stuck in a loop in these topics...who knows, secret societies exsist... weird things happen...who gives a rats ass. That's what I tell my Bro. if you got powers use them change the world for the better. He is very passive I tell him work out see the world, donate your time, see a priest a healer a budist monk do something. He can read minds and is clarvoint (so he thinks) What is the lottery ticket numbers? What number am I thinking...he tries lol ...he is in to CIA,FBI,LSD,MDMA,POT,WW2,ALIENS All stuff that keeps you in a loop of sh*& You get no answers and half truths. I feel I can talk him out of this...but you know what it is a crazy world and it seems like great minds like these topics as well. I say stay away and plant a garden join a club learn about health and your body...use your focus for the betterment of the future write a book or make a great website...like this one...if you read this bro I love you! I know it is hard to hear this again but just stop it...lol Love ya all!
River
Canada - Tuesday, September 09, 2003 at 02:28:33 (EDT)
YOUR WEBSITE WOULD HAVE BEEN A WONDERFUL GIFT IF I COULD HAVE VISITED IT IN 1986 WHEN MY ONLY DAUGHTER FELL PREY TO SCHIZOPHRRENIA.THIS DISCEASE DEFIED EVEN THE 12 DECIPLES AFTER THEY GOT AUTHORITY FROM JESUS.PLEASE KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND GOD BLESS YOU.
CAPTAIN JOHANN SAMUHANAND
BANGALORE, KARNATAKA INDIA - Tuesday, September 09, 2003 at 00:44:32 (EDT)
Dear Ian, could you, please, help me. We came to Canada 7 years ago as new immigrants. My son was 15 at this time. After one year in Canada he was diagnosed with psychotic depression, which is very close to schizophrenia. After several years of treatment he is doing well, but because of this illness he completely lost his ability to socialize with people. He suffers a lot, because he has nobody to even talk to him. He is a young boy, just at the beginning of his life. He definitely needs people of his age around him. My question is if you know anyone in Toronto or Greater Toronto Area, who could help us? I mean to help him starting to believe in him self. Some kind of supporting club or group. Or probably you know someone with the same health problems, who just needs friends too. Ivan is a good guy actually, good artist, likes sport activities like tennis, soccer, fishing. Back to our country he had a lot of friends, but not here. Please, answer me, my e-mail address is irinaf@vif.com. Thanks at advance Irina
irina
toronto, on Canada - Monday, September 08, 2003 at 01:32:17 (EDT)
As a student trying to better understand Schizophrenia I have found your site fantastic!! Informative and with a human persperctive. Congratulations and thank you.
Sue Leppan
Jerrara, Australia - Sunday, September 07, 2003 at 23:48:29 (EDT)
I recently started "hearing voices" and "having delusions" and was hospitalized twice for schizophrenia - but finally found the right doctor and the right medication, which for me was abilify. I don't work for the drug companies - I am just a patient - but I have to say that the stuff basically changed my life. I also cannot stress how important it is to find the right doctor. There are some that have a degree but don't have a talent for it - but do see a doctor and Stay strong. There is hope out there.
Michele Yearian
Lilburn, GA USA - Sunday, September 07, 2003 at 16:36:01 (EDT)
I've just had a tremendously enjoyable and informative trip visiting your site. My Home page is 'Nemesis Chronicles' and can be found at: http://www.geocities.com/wolfdeck2003/index.html Like yourself I started out with a single page (In my case -my philosophy) and then started to add personal pages with links. www.peoplewho.org/personalpages.htm was one of the first links. I have added an autobiographys page and came back for the link to your story of the lost years. As I am appealing for ODSP, I also read Therapeutic ODSP and added this link to the National News page. Hopefully this will be acceptable to you. I began my website as art therapy and discovered that it was/is a tremendous stress reducer and anger management technique. It has also been a tremendous aid to memory recall and elemental in my evolution as a consumer-survivor and mental health advocate as a trauma-survivor. Although we characterize the word 'recovery' differently, I believe that we have a similar attitude to the use of the word by the mental health establishment. I consider the word indicative of the 'victim-blaming' that we are persistently subjected to by the professional community and the general public alike. For me the systemic demand for recovery has become a kind of 'pressure-cooker' promoting a 'quick-fix' into the labour force, which is taken for granted to be 'only' and 'totally' encased within the public domain. Unfortunately for individuals like myself freedom of movement between 'solitary confinement' and 'seg', while bypassing 'general pop' (I use criminal justice terminology descriptively.) are a basic mechanism by which we maintain psychological stability i.e. a high priority for stress-reduction in the prevention of acute episodes of illness. From my viewpoint, recovery is never possible, but always there is 'healing'. A major aspect of any healing is 'acceptance' of who and what we are today. After 9 years of disease-progression, I no longer put any effort into re-attaining the who and what I was. I attribute the ease with which I released my past to be the major foundation for my positive attitude and rare bouts of melancholia or depression. By choice I do place alot of effort into expanding the capacities and potentialities of the who and what I am. Although on a superficial level the parameters of my existence appears to have shrunk considerably, in some ways my present living is alot more expansive than the who and what I was and therein lies my innate potential. Just as it takes time, work ethic and willpower to obtain an academic degree, it takes all of these plus control and power over self as we exercise self-determination through the re-creative act of self-genesis into the quality of life that stems from being a productive member of the community.
Kathleen (Katie) M. Hill
Thunder Bay, ON Canada - Sunday, September 07, 2003 at 06:16:35 (EDT)
I was just looking around for information on schizophrenia. My father suffers with this disease and has since 1978. I am 22 and have learned a great deal about it within the last few years but i am always looking for new developments about it. I found your sight very informative and it provided me with insight from someone elses point of view. I thank you for showing people that those who have schizophrenia are normal. I hope one day those who do not know of the disease or are ignorant towards it can learn to accept those who have it more and understand that if they sometimes act strange or have different reactions to everyday situations its because of the diseae and not to label them retarted or insane because we know they are not. Again i thank you!
Jody
NL Canada - Friday, September 05, 2003 at 20:07:39 (EDT)
include more of your personal experiences when you are not well. This will render your title more meaningfull.
golden
london, england - Friday, September 05, 2003 at 14:53:45 (EDT)
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San Giovanni Rotondo, FG Italia - Friday, September 05, 2003 at 14:15:02 (EDT)
My son is 12. I think he is showing signs. It is very scary. Your website has been enlightening. Thank you.
Brenda
OH US - Friday, September 05, 2003 at 11:33:42 (EDT)
Wowa! I should be writing my paper on schizophrenia, but instead i'm bein' a dumb *** twidiling my thumbs. This site ROCKS, and thanks :) My friend brandon is sitting next to me right now almost done with his paper while I have an oversized title and one sentence down with 30 minutes left to complete my paper- wish me luck!
Charlie (chuck)
Canada - Thursday, September 04, 2003 at 15:55:24 (EDT)
Hey i love your site im researching shcizophrenia right now in school im in 9th grade and god this site has helped me out alot so yeah...THANKS!!
Brandon Brigance
McKinney, TX USA - Thursday, September 04, 2003 at 15:22:59 (EDT)
Privet. Alex, please send me email
animated
Canada - Wednesday, September 03, 2003 at 12:16:04 (EDT)
I would make an appointment with my family physician and tell them what I was experiencing Jen.
Ian Chovil
Guelph, ON Canada - Tuesday, September 02, 2003 at 18:53:56 (EDT)
If you have conversations with voices in your head and have flash backs of the pastor have visions of the future, is that schitzophrenia? and if so how bad does it sound?
Jen
UK - Tuesday, September 02, 2003 at 15:38:40 (EDT)
Hello, I have been interested in schizophrenia ever since I was told that a cousin of mine suffered from it. He was much older than I and I never knew him. He ran in front of a truck and killed himself. It made me sad to think that such a talented and bright person felt that death was the best choice. Anyway, I have read a lot about schiz and mysticism and how the two are very similar. you should read more about the pineal and it effect on schiz and other disorders. I reccommend books by Terrance McKenna and also by R.A. Schwaller de Lubicz(he has more to do with egypt and alchemy) although they may seem disconnected, they really are related to the perceptions described by those with schiz. Anyway, I wish you success and peace in your journey. please feel free to email me at gorilla_monsoon@hotmail.com Sincerely, Jason
Jason Gill
Fayetteville, Ar usa - Tuesday, September 02, 2003 at 13:17:29 (EDT)
What an amazing that must have taken a long time to produce, but rest assured that you will have helped thousands of people with the disease or those simply interested in it. I known you will have helped me loads with my college work!!! What i have red so far has given me such an insight and your will and drive should humble everyone!!! Keep up the fab work and good luck with everything else you intend on doing.
Gemma
England - Tuesday, September 02, 2003 at 12:45:25 (EDT)
I found your website very insightful and it has helped me understand the different aspects of Schizophrenia. Thank You.
Michelle
Thunder Bay, On Canada - Monday, September 01, 2003 at 21:25:34 (EDT)
Thank you for using your experience to help others. It is a bold move. As a psychiatric practitioner I appreciate the collection of links you've assembled here.
John
Frederick, MD USA - Monday, September 01, 2003 at 16:14:07 (EDT)
the mouse ran up the clock and the hands met with the number 12 and then there was a loud noise. the mouse jumped and to his surprise began to fly. he called superman but no one was home so he watched Superman II and was brainwased by General Zod who kept saying, "kneel!" to people and so he tried to kneel but he was still flying and so he turned into a ball of string and the string tied itself into a beautiful bow that smiled and the smile turned into the sun. The sun shines but it will one day stop shining, or so science tell us. Isn't it interesting that people can graduate colleges and get things on pieces of paper that tells others how educated they are but none of us, not a single one can say for sure (without using faith of some sort) how the world came about, the origin of man, where is the proof? and they push stories that could be proof into the myth category. Someone has to have the truth. But we will circle the mountain as servants of the dollar instead of climbing to the top of understanding humanity.
august
2003, how Canada - Monday, September 01, 2003 at 15:54:06 (EDT)
I am 23yrs old who just recently got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. It kinda scares me, I am afraid that people will think I am crazy. I am afraid to date and make new friends.I feel very alone ....I was just wondering if I will be able to function normally in the world? And how can this happen to me no one in my family has had this condition why me.
Alexis Salgado
Fort Riley, KS USA - Monday, September 01, 2003 at 03:33:50 (EDT)
you are a top bloke well done mate i hope you are tip top now
perin breakell
perth, wa australia - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 at 21:16:13 (EDT)
Good website. I'm a 25 year old schizophrenic and would be interested in talking to other people who suffer with mental illnesses. Feel free to e-mail me!
Mark
Liverpool, Merseyside England - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 at 16:43:33 (EDT)
Hi IAN, u have posted a really nice and helping website for all the people around the world suffering from pschizophrenia.My brother (25) recently joined into ur team.and i wish and pray that a well organised drug formulation and treatment therapy develops for help .anyway nice effort !!all the best.
NAVIN
INDIA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 at 08:45:05 (EDT)
I AM 23 AND TRYING TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH A 25 YEAR OLD WITH SCHIZOPHRENIA FOR THE PAST FIVE YEARS WE HAVE A THREE YEAR OLD LITTLE GIRL IT IS REALLY HARD MY PARTNER JUST RELEASED FROM PRISON IS VERY DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH REFUSES TO TAKE MEDICATION AND IS VIOLENT CREATING MORE PROBLEMS FOR HIMSELF EVERYDAY I FOUND THIS WEB SITE TO BE VERY INTERESTING AND HELPFUL I WILL USE THIS INFORMATION TO HELP MYSELF UNDERSTAND MORE ABOUT HIS ILLNESS AND TO HELP MY FAMILY THANK YOU CHEERS
KYLIE
COFFS HARBOUR, NSW AUSTRALIA - Wednesday, August 27, 2003 at 01:02:15 (EDT)
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TOGO, LOME TOGO - Monday, August 25, 2003 at 17:46:09 (EDT)
I need your help. My mother was diagnost with paranoid schizophrenia about 30 years ago and after shock treatments resumed a functional life. She took medication (tegritol) to maintain function with success for many years. Then in March 2003 at age 67 years she fell and broke her leg. Had surgury to repair it and was fine for a few weeks. Then came the big decline in function. Not wanting to do physical therapy, not eating, nothing smelled good or tasted right. She was angry, and non compliant with proffessionals and was very mean to my father and family.Her behaviors are illrational and she delusional and is convinced she is going to die.She has been in the psychiatric hospital since July 2003- in kansas city, Missouri. The doctors have ran all physical tests and can't find anything physically wrong with her.PLEASE Can you help me find the right treatment for her. My e-mail is handtherapy1@msn.com
Helen Sims
Hollister, Missouri USA - Sunday, August 24, 2003 at 23:53:54 (EDT)
Hi... I'm 13 and I found your website helped me alot. i found this disease very interesting, wanting to write a book on someone with the disease, I had to get info. first. Your website helped me get a first hand look at what someone with this disease had to go through. Now my book is a big succsses, all thanks to you! So all i have to say is thank you so much! **Chelsea**
Chelsea
calgary, AB Canada - Friday, August 22, 2003 at 20:31:27 (EDT)
I appreciate your web site. My daughter in high school had to write a report on schizophrenia and your web site was a great resourse for her. Her sister has been diagnosed with bipolar desease and as these two deseases are related, your information and testimony has been of great interest to us. Melinda Kortney
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anchorage, ak usa - Friday, August 22, 2003 at 08:25:55 (EDT)
Dear Ian, This is a truly wonderful wesbite. I am delighted to see you so well-informed and willing to share this information to help everyone who needs it. I am a neuropharmacologist. I am the head of a lab within a pharmaceutical company (Solvay Pharmaceuticals) working on the neurochemical changes underlying psychosis. We have just discovered that a very small part of the thalamus (the telephone-exchange area of the brain) is overactive following drug-induced psychosis (PCP, amphetamine, etc.). This overactivity is blocked by both typical and atypical antipsychotic drugs. This may mean that if we quieten down this part of the brain we may be able to have antipsychotic activity without having as many side-effects. On a drug point of view, we have been working on a drug we hope will be better than Abilify and the exisiting atypical antipsychotics. This drug (Bifeprunox) is still in clinical trials but we have high hopes. One of my friends is schizophrenic ... he's a wonderful person and plays a mean game of chess! We'll keep struggling in the lab and in the clinic for him, you and everyone else we can help out there. Look after yourself.
Dr. Jeffrey Glennon Ph.D.
Weesp, The Netherlands - Wednesday, August 20, 2003 at 16:30:06 (EDT)
Privet, thanks for good work.
HentaiCartoons
Canada - Tuesday, August 19, 2003 at 21:08:01 (EDT)
I'm so happy I found your site. It's very informative and easy to work. I have Multiple Personality Disorder (among other things) and was misdiagnosed as schizophrenic for many years, overmedicated in state hospitals. Terrible experience. I wish you luck with your site and, again, I thank you for the information. :o)
Michele
MI USA - Monday, August 18, 2003 at 17:15:51 (EDT)
I will add this page to bookmark.
anime-girl
Canada - Sunday, August 17, 2003 at 20:59:45 (EDT)
I'm 25 and suffer from schizophrenia. I would love to hear from anyone who suffers with mental illness, so feel free to send me an e-mail! My address is toxteth666@hotmail.com.
Mark
Liverpool, Merseyside England - Sunday, August 17, 2003 at 16:50:10 (EDT)
is there anyone from Russia?
Svoloch
Canada - Saturday, August 16, 2003 at 21:40:04 (EDT)
Hi Ian, My name is Michele and i am 20 years old. I am currently studying mental health as a part of my counselling and communication course. I have an assignment due next week, which as you can see i have left until the very last minute. I was looking through your website and found schizophrenia to be very interesting so have chosen that as my topic of disscusion. I was wondering, however if you could possibly help me out. I understand if you are busy at the moment or don't feel like revealing your feelings to me. However, if by chance you are able to help I need to do a case study presentation. The presentation should include information like:

* Occupation, education,health, ethnic background and major life events.
* Current family/living situation and family details and marital status
* Brief Family of Origin Description
* The presenting probelm as you would describe it
* Symptoms as observed outside any helping session as observed by yourself
* Symptoms which perhaps occurred in a heping session
* How you see, explain and think about the problem
* How you feel about the problem and about yourself?
* How you act in response to the problem
* And your identified resources, strengths and coping strategies
I can see i am asking a lot of you and since you have don't know me, perhaps this is too much. Again, I understand that my request may not be possible and i thank you for taking the time to read my comment. I look forward to hopefully hearing from you soon. thanking you Michele
Michele Leis
Sunshine Coast, Qld Australia - Thursday, August 14, 2003 at 02:14:04 (EDT)
Nice website Dan http://www.dq3.com/
Dan
Fountain Valley, CA USA - Thursday, August 14, 2003 at 00:10:32 (EDT)
this is my last post. Thanks to all of you.
anime
Canada - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 at 21:03:22 (EDT)
Hello, I am a mother of a 16 yr old girl who was born with Down's Syndrome. At the age of 12, I began catching her acting as though she was talking with someone.....at the time I passed it off as her having an imaginary friend in possibly not getting the attention that she needed. But as time went on it became worse and she would do it in public. Then I & her dad began disciplining her for doing that. Then she just tried really hard to hide it. We didn't even think that it was pchizophrenia....even though my father had it and ended up killing himself when I was 2 years old, then his sister at the age of 13 came down with it also. (Like it was passed on to her when he died?) She is now forty something and is successfully on medication as I have heard. But Brittany got worse ever year, she began saying really strange things that didn't make any sense, & we could never tell when she was lying or telling the truth, our house felt like a house of confusion and frustration. When her teacher in the 8th grade told us that he KNEW that she was hearing audible voices and that we needed to take her to be treated. I knew that we should take this seriously. My husband, however, felt that she was just playing and making it all up and was just rebellious about it all. But knowing my family's history....I knew something was wrong, so I began to ask questions from Brittany and tried not to lead her, because she had a reputation for trying to tell you what she thought you wanted to hear! Anyway, I was spying on her at one time and asked her later if when she is talking with the voice, does she see anyone? She said yes, and I began asking her about this person, according to her, this man was tall, thin with dark hair and blue eyes, and good looking--she decribed my father to a tee. Yet, she didn't know about my father, she only knew of my ex-step dad and my adoptive father. She had never even seen any pictures of my father, then I asked her the man's name, she said, "David". I gasped, it was my father's name! Then, since I am a strong believer in the Bible & Jesus, I started feeling as though this was a demon I was dealing with. Later on this "David" character got really nasty and ugly and had horns in his head, bad breath, and was constantly attacking her and saying horrible things about her, and telling her to DO horrible things. So I began praying about this and over Brittany from time to time........2 more years passed and I fluctuated back and forth, over whether it was a demon or a chemical imbalance that just needs to be medicated. After speaking with someone who had family members who were schizophrenic and had been delivered by the Word of God and prayer, I decided to have Brittany confess scriptures everyday over herself, and I also typed out a prayer that I know the Lord led me to write. I came against both situations demonic oppression and chemical imbalances according to scripture. Finally after being completely dedicated to that for at least 6 mos or so, I came to God in prayer about the issue of the fact that Brittany shouldn't have to suffer this anymore, and asked Him if I could put her on medication. I felt it in my heart at peace about doing this, so I made an appt.....and shortly after, she was diagnosed & they made her an appt with a psychiatrist for medication to be prescribed. Well, 2 days later, we went to something called the "Southwest Believer's Convention" in Ft. Worth, TX, we live in Frisco, TX. This convention has been going on for awhile all around the US.....with teachers including Kenneth Copeland, Jerry Savelle, Creflo Dollar, and Jesse Duplantis. To make a long story short, after Jerry Savelle finished his message.....he said, that the Holy Spirit spoke to him that there were people in the meeting that have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and to come down to the front if that was you. So after hesitating a moment, because I wasn't sure that she would get the manifestation of freedom(unbelief), then my husband said, "Go ahead and go!" So we went, and she had hands layed on her and Jerry Savelle yelled "Go!!" To my surprise, I know at least 75-100 people also came up there to receive deliverance. Here we are 5 days later, and Brittany not only knows she has been made free, she is experience COMPLETE and total freedom with NO side effects!!!! No voices, no hallucinations, just total freedom. And she will tell you how excited she is about it that, "that devil got PUSHED out of head!" (her quote) I am not against the medication for others. But if you don't want to have to be on medication or spend the money on it, or have the side effects. Jesus offers a MUCH better treatment that lasts. We will not, however, stop our confessions and prayer according to scripture, she wants to keep her freedom, and I want to help her. Thank you for listening and I hope this blesses someone. The key is to NEVER give up, God is no respector of persons, what He does for one, He will do for another. Sincerely In His Love, Dusty R. Farmer Frisco, TX
Dusty R. Farmer
Frisco, TX USA - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 at 13:00:35 (EDT)
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mugu
lome, lome togo - Wednesday, August 13, 2003 at 08:31:54 (EDT)
It\'s look interesting. Thanks.
linda
Canada - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 at 15:37:47 (EDT)
I know all about schizophrenia. I know all about suffer. Pozdrawiam wszystkich tych, których jak mnie przywiod³o tu cierpienie.
Dorian
Poland - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 at 09:44:04 (EDT)
Thank you for this nice and informative site. I have a brother with schizophrenia. I hope this site will help him and our family especially. Thank you very much again
Saharun Said
Seremban, Malaysia - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 at 06:08:06 (EDT)
I LOVE YOUR SITE MY SON IT HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH THE HORRIBLE ILLINES. AND THANK YOU FOR IT
BERTHA MENDOZA
INDIO, CA U.S.A. - Tuesday, August 12, 2003 at 00:59:50 (EDT)
Don't Give up! Congratulations! You've done so much so far! Isa
Isabelle Dionne
Heredia, Costa Rica - Sunday, August 10, 2003 at 17:06:46 (EDT)
Let me preface with the fact that I'm posting here to help promote a web site I've developed. That said, I think this site is just terrific. I enjoyed the piece about meaningful activity, and found that we've shared many of the same thoughts on the topic. In fact I treat the same topic in an article at http://www.EFHM.com which is my principal mental health advocacy site. Empowerment For Healthy Minds is a peer-directed advocacy and computer empowerment organization and a site brimming with various angles on our challenges and triumphs. My other, new site, features my mental rock music as well as diversions such as a quiz about mental people and an Empowerment Demonstration Device. This http://www.marcusplanet.com site offers CDs for sale and if this means that I'm commercial please forgive the plug and delete this text. I'd love either or both of my sites to be listed at this wonderful resource, Kevin, and I'd enjoy discussing with you current developments such as the upcoming SCI (http://www.mindfreedom.org) Fast for Freedom which I will be participating in. Thank you for the fine work with this site. Marcus Planet (aka Marcus Cowgill)
Marcus Planet
Blacksburg, VA USA - Sunday, August 10, 2003 at 13:22:29 (EDT)
Nice Site. greets from Germany. http://www.gif-shop.de FlyingRi@aol.com
Richi
Munic, Bavarian BRD - Sunday, August 10, 2003 at 07:40:23 (EDT)
I just want to say thankyou for advice you gave me by email. In the past few weeks I saw my doctor as you (and my friend) suggested and he prescribed me olanzapine, and was definitely convinced of my being "ill"- though I can't believe it. the world I know has been turned upside down, but it seems what I know and believe is only "in my head". I suppose I just want you to know that your advice has helped me. Being still alive after everything I am going through is a miracle in itself, but now there's more... I have discovered free will for the first time and I think I like it. Thankyou so much! Dani. :-)
Dani
York, England - Wednesday, August 06, 2003 at 19:04:59 (EDT)
I appreciate your story. My mom has been diagnosed with schizaphrenia but refuses to believe it. Could anyone have said anything to you to make you believe it? Could you or a person with schizaphrenia tell me if there is anything I could say lovingly to my mother to convince her to take medication?
Tina
Cedar Rapids, IA USA - Monday, August 04, 2003 at 17:25:59 (EDT)
Your Site is really interesting, I'll come back.
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Andrea Brinzhammer
Bad Cannstadt, Germany - Monday, August 04, 2003 at 14:26:05 (EDT)
I currently work with Individuals with Mental Illnesses in providing direct care for them. Although most of the people I work with that have schizophrenia also are M.R. I find this site is helpful in helping me to understand what they are going through. Which will help me to provide better care for them. I am also attending college and was doing research on Schizophrenia and came across your web site. It has been very helpful in providing information for a research paper I have to write. Thank you for sharing your life and experiences with the world.
Melissa
Terre Haute, IN USA - Sunday, August 03, 2003 at 22:18:48 (EDT)
Thank you so much for maintaining this web site. I have found it helpful in understanding aspects of schizophrenia that I hadn't even thought of before. This is a good site for friends of schizophrenics to visit!
Kenna
Victoria, BC Canada - Friday, August 01, 2003 at 12:52:22 (EDT)
would like to thank you for this ubique and inspiring site , Im a psychiatrist in Jordan , Iwas extremely happy to see such site , this gives hope to all patients and even doctors that things might be better,I will advise all my patients and families to visit this site of insight.
Jamal Khatib
Amman, Jordan - Wednesday, July 30, 2003 at 12:01:32 (EDT)
You'r website is very nice and informative, I've been looking for information regarding borderline schiz. (my mother could be hiding this secret). My brother was paranoid schizaphrentic, and took his life 6 weeks ago! He was taking chlozaril for 8 years and was recently (past 2 months) switched to abilify, was experiencing the voices in more of a megaphone type of sound,stronger, louder, this was privately discussed with his counselor, not DR. who also advised my brother to increase his respiradol! I am seeking a suicide support group, I miss him so much!!! d
carla
st.l, mo Canada - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 at 22:07:17 (EDT)
Thank you very much for your website. I am a special education teacher who has a student with schizophrenia. I want to assist him in every way possible. Your experiences have given me great ensight to this issue. God Bless You!
Liz
Kingman, AZ USA - Tuesday, July 29, 2003 at 19:10:42 (EDT)
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john
canton, ct usa - Monday, July 28, 2003 at 23:22:10 (EDT)
I just wanted to say thanks for posting what you went through online. I'm currently very concerned about a friend of mine, and your story helped me understand just what might be going on in his head, as well as some reasons he seems so reluctant to discuss schizophrenia as a possible reason for some of his feelings, actions, etc. This made me much more sensitive to his thoughts and needs. Thank you!
Courtney
Guelph, ON Canada - Monday, July 28, 2003 at 12:50:11 (EDT)
i am 16 years old and over the last year and half i have smoked about half ounce of canabis per day. over the last few months i have moved on to pills, pills called blue dolphins and mitsubishys. i also lost a brother 3 years ago, this lead up to my abuse of these drugs. i am concerned that the stress of loosing my brother and using these substances has affected me and the only "illness" i can relate my conditions too is Skizophrenia. over the past few months i have felt seperated from the world and depressed. My thoughts have completely changed and i have been told that i have changed emotionaly and that i have lost my pation for playing sports.
Jack Jones
Cardiff, UK WALES, UK - Saturday, July 26, 2003 at 18:31:34 (EDT)
IM A PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIC.I TAKE LOTS OF MEDS.MY STOMACH KILLS ME.IM GLAD YOU HAVE THIS SIGHT.HALLUCINATIONS AND VOICES I HEAR THEM ALL THE TIME.balak@directcon.net
LARRY
RESCUE, CA USA - Saturday, July 26, 2003 at 03:05:12 (EDT)
Have you read "The Day The Voices Stopped" by Ken Steele. This is the first book I've read on schizophrenia. I am concerned about one of my children.I believe their father and his mother were/are schizophrenic. I recently was told by my child's psychologist to have her evaluated at a Mental Health Hospital. This is hard to accept and deal with. Thanks for listening.
Marshall
USA - Friday, July 25, 2003 at 16:47:40 (EDT)
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mugu mugu
lomé, Canada - Friday, July 25, 2003 at 06:26:05 (EDT)
I have schizophrenia.I can remember hearing voices when is young. As I got older,the voices got worse.Now I m 25 years old and is on ablify.I took other meds. but the current meds. I m on are the best for me . Ablify could react differently in other folks. Since then I don t see pictures or lights or colors but still hear my conscience as the doctor would call it "delousions". For some odd reason which was good , I did not suffer in a "mental jail" as I call it; for very long like other people with this handicap or diease or illness. I personaly think that , but my voice in my head really says it, the young the person is that finds out what is really going on in there head the better. I was in a world similar to Ian for 10 years, It got bad after drug usage and drinking. Somehow trough all the years I never did anything to put myself in a deeper hole than I was already in. Ablify has almost zero side affects and I m much better than I was.Schizophrenia is a deceving diease and the person with it will beleve any thing the voices say and it will mix reality with the dellusions and make sence of it. It s so hard for us to make it in this world. being normal or being mentaly ill. Ablify brought me to my sences. I still hear voices but I know it my brain.Ian I hope it is a complete cure for us and others oneday because reality is funner than being in a "mental jail". Thank you for having this website.
shun
philadelphia, pa u.s.a - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 at 21:44:18 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing.
Sheila
Canton, CT USA - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 at 10:55:43 (EDT)
Thanks for having the strength to share your life with us. I am a psycholgist in Israel doing work stress and trauma and often find myself seeing people slipping deeper into shizoprenia-like conditions. Knowing that there is a way out gives me the strength and emotional support to keep trying to help my clients.
Leibel
Jerusalem, Israel - Wednesday, July 23, 2003 at 08:39:48 (EDT)
Thank you very much for such wonderful site! I am also diagnosed with disease now for 10 years, and have to struggle to maintain myself in good order. Actually I feel quite good for last year, and anxious to learn more about symptoms to prevent relapse. Some experience of shizophrenia can be quite exciting, but is heavily paid for afterwards. My primary concern are lost opportunities, which almost never return... You helped me to better understand myself. Thank you for your courage - it is necessary to all of us. Pavlo
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Ukraine - Saturday, July 19, 2003 at 05:04:30 (EDT)
You have created an important resource with your website and study. You seem to have a similar degree of illness that I have and it is comforting to learn of your understanding and experience. In regard to your discussion of competitiveness, I've experience people who are unwilling to play a competitive role to someone who is mentally ill because what shame if the mentally ill person was more capable. That's been my primary experience in the workforce. They won't fight fare and I believe that sometime in the future there will be laws mandating they do so. Thanks again for the visit. jging@swbell.net
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Kansas City, MO United States - Friday, July 18, 2003 at 22:34:39 (EDT)
Don't do street drugs - if you're not already psychotic they can make you psychotic. BTW, there's nothing wrong with schizophrenics watching the matrix (I am sz and have seen the Matrix 1 & 2). You might get some strange ideas. You might not. Neo should have told them to sod off when they offered him a blue pill and a red pill.
Ian B.
Morpeth, U.K. - Thursday, July 17, 2003 at 08:22:14 (EDT)
Thanks for the very informative website.
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Blackpool, Lancashire UK - Thursday, July 17, 2003 at 07:41:03 (EDT)
I have a friend who suffer's from Paranoid Schizophrenia, she tried telling me back in febuary, just told me she was ill and it was before she started taking drugs, she had me watch Pink Floyd's the wall to help me understand what her memories were like a mixed up bag of truth's and deliusion's, but I only half understood, but somehow guessed right when I then suggested we watch a Beautiful Mind, she confused me again by saying "Whats this got to do with me?" after buying things for her at her request things got very out of hand. Weed, E's, MDA, Acid, Mushroom's and of course Alcohol used quite regularly. Now I am beginning to understand I wonder if buying her Weed to help cope with the argumentative side of her personality is right or wrong? Sometimes she ask's me to and sometimes she tells me I shouldn't buy her anything. I wonder if she has multiple personalities as well and that's what confuses me so much. I know the right thing to do for sure is for her not to take class A drugs anymore and have that blood test for her white blood cell count, so she can get the correct medication too.
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ORLANDO, DESTIN UNITED STATES - Thursday, July 17, 2003 at 05:26:21 (EDT)
Hi Just visiting your site My son has schizophrenia Doctor is still not sure Might be bi-polar hope not Bye for now
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Bonn, de Germany - Wednesday, July 16, 2003 at 19:22:14 (EDT)
I work for the Penticton Branch of the Schizophrenia Society and we have your site bookmarked and view it often. Great website!!!! Keep up the good work! TTFN
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Penticton, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 16, 2003 at 16:14:28 (EDT)
i very much appreciate your site and how open you are in sharing your story. my family has several members with schizophrenia and i have seen them suffer. thank you for telling your story.
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usa - Wednesday, July 16, 2003 at 11:32:23 (EDT)
First off, congrats on being so open in "my story". It takes real guts to be so honest with oneself. Guess that's the first step towards healing. Myself I've been a member of a new age religion and lots of things that you mention (e.g. telepathy, inner visions, hearing voices of masters etc.) are not discouraged there, rather the opposite. You are also taught to see messages of "spirit" everywhere, even on number plates of cars! You also use mantras, which I realize now, put you in a state of hypnosis, which makes you highly receptive to visions, which I now understand I created myself in the brain. Now, it really made me think that in a limited way - though I never had breakdowns or problems - everyone who subscribes to beliefs that have no validity in real life, e.g. the beliefs in superpowers like telekinesis, telepathy etc., could also be in some way mentally ill. I still do not know if psychosis and spiritual experience are the same but there seems to be at least a relationship. Personally, I guess it's not so much the experience but the effects coming from it which may determine that. I have started to study in earnest the origins of religion and find lots of clues in fields like anthropology, evolutionary psychology and also this new field memetics. I wonder if clues on schizophrenia and other forms of mental illness might also be found there. It's not like this is a new thing. Mental illness must have probably surfaced at the same time that consciousness has surfaced. OK. Sorry about that monologue. Just to finish: a reminder on all of those who are still convinced that they have superpowers. Be sure to hop over to www.randi.org and pick up U.S. $ 1 million in James Randi's paranormal challenge. He is really serious about this, so you have to follow some tough rules to get the money. And if it's only to prove to yourself that you are just normal like everybody else including me: no powers, but maybe some "common sense" (whatever that is), grin! Take care everyone!
Andy
Cyprus, Europe - Tuesday, July 15, 2003 at 15:39:08 (EDT)
I personaly think that we schizophrenics should't watch movie "THE MATRIX". With experience of schizophrenia one can clearly see that we are just buggy software. I hope that (P)programmer will send us some patch for all this bugs. 1 out of 100 is rather bad software quality control (but still much better than Windows and other human products). My personal opinion is that if God exists, then he could patch old bugs first before he developed new functionality.
Georg
Milky Way, SPACE - Tuesday, July 15, 2003 at 10:33:54 (EDT)
This is a very inspiration website and I thank you for your words and insight. My son has schizophrenia.
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Kansas City, MO United States - Monday, July 14, 2003 at 16:20:23 (EDT)
Your page is completely great. My mother has this disease and was effected must the same way that you were. Growing up with a mother like her was hard but I can't imagine just how difficult it would be to have this. Thank you for this page
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Thompsonville, IL United States - Monday, July 14, 2003 at 10:45:57 (EDT)
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Ian, first of all let me say thank you for shairng your story with the world. It's not an easy task to allow others to know you have a mental illness. Secondly, I think it is absolutely wonderful that you have taken such an interest in your illness. I work in a state operated psychiatric facility in my hometown and the patients I see are chronic repeaters who, unfortunately due in large part to non-compliance with their meds, there is no chance of recovery. It's wonderful to see someone who is actively living with this d/o rather than someone who is actively consumed by it. Thank you.
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Fredericksburg, Va USA - Wednesday, July 09, 2003 at 06:26:12 (EDT)
Hi Ian, I happened upon your story in Esquire magazine. Guess what, your not the only one who thinks that Mount St Helen's was their doing, apparently neither am I. I too suffer from schizophrenia, and have been for 11 years now. If you met me, you'd never know it. I agree, that isolation is a large factor in the playing out of events. I'm not on any medication. My rationale: show me a rat who thinks he's Jesus Christ. I absolutely don't trust the methodology of the how medications are tested. I guess I don't see either how they can possibly work. They don't give me the love, nourishment, or self - esteem that I need to build a strong life. I practise yoga, I'm an artist, my friends don't understand me, or anything I've been through...and continue to have conversations with me such as...it's not like you have cancer or aids, then your life would suck. Anyways, I commend your courage, and all of us, for coming through this devastation.
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Toronto, ON Canada - Tuesday, July 08, 2003 at 11:59:59 (EDT)
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Rotterdam, Netherlands - Friday, July 04, 2003 at 18:22:38 (EDT)
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Vienna, at Austria - Friday, July 04, 2003 at 16:52:10 (EDT)
I have schizophrenia for about four years. With experience of this disease I began to study world religions from different perspective. Many experiences (hallucinations, voices, talking with God etc) found in religious books could be explained by medical condition like schizophrenia. If this is true, then history of this civilization had been written by ... What is your oppinion? Email: ankhorg2001@yahoo.com
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SI - Friday, July 04, 2003 at 04:15:55 (EDT)
No one knows for sure. My usually reliable researcher has stopped guessing. I think it has been approved in Japan already. best wishes, Ian
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Guelph, ON Canada - Thursday, July 03, 2003 at 22:55:23 (EDT)
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piscataway, nj usa - Thursday, July 03, 2003 at 12:51:09 (EDT)
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Lafayette, TN United States - Wednesday, July 02, 2003 at 15:05:01 (EDT)
I have just finished reading a wonderful booklet called "Gluten Intolerance" by Beatrice Trum Hunter. There is a great piece on schizophrenia in this little booklet that confirms what I entered about how schizophrenia happens. I urge all of you to read it. The incorporation of the information in this booklet can really help save lives! If you would like, please contact me at: dkazmitchell@aol.com Thank you, Kathie
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Tucson, AZ USA - Wednesday, July 02, 2003 at 14:32:46 (EDT)
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. You're a hero! A.
Andrea
New Zealand - Wednesday, July 02, 2003 at 05:14:27 (EDT)
Thank you for shedding some light on this illness & telling your story. My sister has suffered for years with what I thought was illicit drug abuse. With myself stumbling upon your website I am now more understanding. God Bless You! :-)
Michelle
Jacksonville, FL USA - Tuesday, July 01, 2003 at 22:50:33 (EDT)
Thank you for your website. I'm a nursing student, and we get so little education in mental health, which is unfortunate. Your site has been a great resource for me to understand the experience of schizophrenia. Thank you.
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Vancouver, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, July 01, 2003 at 19:12:52 (EDT)
You have created a wonderful site. I only wish more people could be informed about schizophrenia before it is too late. My friend was diagnosed with it recently and commited suicide on June 25th, 2003. I am so glad that you are here to help people and spread your wealth of personal and gathered information. I have a newfound understanding of the seriousness of the disease. I am a 1st year nursing student and have decided to dedicate my life to working for people with schizophrenia. God Bless you, I can not immagine all the things you have been through but I am so glad you made it.
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LOME, LOME TOGO - Tuesday, July 01, 2003 at 09:42:19 (EDT)
I am a nurse in graduate school and recently found this web site while searching for some answers to questions I haven't even clearly formulated. I find the site to be a wealth of information about how real people manage (or don't manage) with schizophrenia. What I was hoping was that there would be some family members out there that would be willing to share information about stigma. I have no doubt that the individual with schiz. experiences stigma but I have found limited information/personal experiences pertaining to stigma and family members. Anything you would care to share on the topic would be greatly appreciated but if there is none, just finding the website has increased my understanding and appreciation of the struggle of mental illness.
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Anchorage, AK US - Monday, June 30, 2003 at 20:40:32 (EDT)
Thank you so much for this site and all your efforts and wisdom that you so freely share. I will be using this site as a reference for my students. God bless you. Jim
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San Diego, CA USA - Saturday, June 28, 2003 at 01:42:02 (EDT)
Hi, I was inspired by your site to create a web page about life as a mental patient in England. Its at http://schizopanic.blogspot.com and I can be contacted via there. Take care. Ian
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Morpeth, England - Friday, June 27, 2003 at 06:16:51 (EDT)
I would like to share information with everyone that can help you all to get completely well from schizophrenia. In the book, "Encyclopedia of Natural Medicine", by Michael Murray, N.D. and Joseph Pizzorno, N.D., they say this about schizophrenia, "Wheat gluten components have demonstrated opioid (opium-like) activity. This activity is believed to be the factor responsible for the association between wheat consumption and schizophrenia. The hypothesis that gluten is a causative factor in the development of schizophrenia is substantiated by epidemiological, clinical and experimental studies." Casein in dairy products is also a contributor to schizophrenia. By eliminating all wheat products and all dairy products, and by eating mostly fresh fruit, vegetables, nuts and seeds, one can get completely well. Many people have done so. If anyone would like further information, please contact me at: dkazmitchell@aol.com Thank you, Kathie
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Tucson, AZ USA - Thursday, June 26, 2003 at 17:35:40 (EDT)
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, CO Germany - Thursday, June 26, 2003 at 08:47:03 (EDT)
You are crazy! Do you really believe that an influenca virus caused people to make war on each other in World War 2? So you are saying that all thoughout history wars have been brought on by viruses. Why don't you talk to some real medical experts instead of dwelling on this nonsense. Come on this is pure crap!
Tobias
NA, NA USA - Thursday, June 26, 2003 at 01:18:17 (EDT)
Thank you. My older brother was diagnosed a several years ago. Unfortunatley for him it ended with him commiting suicide last night. I have been searching for answers and your site has helped me a lot. thank you very much.
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Joplin, MO USA - Tuesday, June 24, 2003 at 05:24:23 (EDT)
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Canada - Tuesday, June 24, 2003 at 01:09:44 (EDT)
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Rogers, AR USA - Sunday, June 22, 2003 at 17:36:02 (EDT)
I enjoyed reading your material. VERY informative. I have this disorder but don't admit it to anyone. I've had psychotic breaks and still won't admit it. Maybe....your site helps.
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Corpus Christi, TX United States - Sunday, June 22, 2003 at 13:54:31 (EDT)
I have several dear friends with schizophrenia. i am bi-polar myself. Thank You from the bottom of my heart for making help more acccessible. God Bless You. Rennie
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Schuylkill Haven, PA USA - Sunday, June 22, 2003 at 12:58:18 (EDT)
This was a touching thing for me to read. I've had schizophrenia since I was young, at least as far as I've been told, I'm still undergoing recovery. I have not been in trouble and I've never lived alone, being too young to do so, but I have had some scares. For example, I was in my college dorm having a psychotic episode in which I was afraid to talk or "they" would "get" me and it frightened someone that happened to be there. She called the head of the counselling center on campus. He told me to talk or I would be sent to the hospital (of which I was extremely paranoid and he knew of this paranoia) so I talked to him, and told him I wanted to sleep as I had taken medicine and was fairly sedated and falling asleep. His response was to say "Well, I want to sleep too, but I can't because of you, can I??" So he decided to send me to the hospital. The psychiatrists there decided that I did not need to be admitted at the time. When I went to return to school, I was not allowed by school policy. I had to meet with the dean of student life. He told me that people had to "heal" after this experience. He then told me that I had to live alone among upperclassmen because of the incident. There I was lonely and isolated and prone to suicidal thoughts (I even made a noose once) Stigma against Schizophrenics needs to stop, and one goal of mine is to stop it. Whether that's a delusional goal or not is up to the reader.
Liz
Norwell, MA US - Thursday, June 19, 2003 at 18:14:42 (EDT)
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london, Canada - Thursday, June 19, 2003 at 14:27:20 (EDT)
Hi Ian,Thankyou for your website,which was mentioned in Surviving Schizophrenia(szp) by E.Fuller Torrey.I'm 39 and have had szp since about 20.I'm a patient representative on the psycho-social intervention group of NIMHE,National Institute of Mental Health in England.I take part in research and enjoy Sahaja Yoga meditation and reading.Check out www.divineknowledge.co.uk(a site for Sahaja Yoga,both free things,not for profit)-I have a few bits under "experiences".
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Harrow,London, England - Thursday, June 19, 2003 at 04:18:43 (EDT)
hey now understand more about schizophrenia since I started helping out at the Mental Health Clinic once a month . At least it can be controlled by drugs.
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Canada - Thursday, June 19, 2003 at 02:35:57 (EDT)
Hi, Thank You for this informative web site. I'm doing a research paper on schizophrenia and you have helped me out a lot. Thanks, Monique and the crew
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Fayette, MS United States - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 at 19:52:08 (EDT)
Never did I expect I would suffer from Schizophrenia. Have been undergone treatment for 1 year. I hope this disease can be curable and researchers do more reseaches and find drugs with less side effects for us. I cannot lable myself as a special kind of people in this society, and we should live on with optimistic thinking in our rest of life. Cheers~
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lon, england - Monday, June 16, 2003 at 21:27:21 (EDT)
can some1 please help!! my mum is very bad me and my older sister have discovered that she has schizophrenia and its is a real struggle living with her she has , she keeps moving housee for some reson at the moment were sharing a 2 bedroom flat for her and her bf and 3 kids and thats hard but i can put up with that its jus like 2days shes jus flipps and starrts talkin about hertful things and people are after her the police,pope,her family and its really hard on me her husband and my 2 little brothers 5 and 6 i really need some advice on this ....i found out that %10 comit suicide and it would kill me if she done that ...im findin it hard on life its hard to have relationships with friends and family i used to be a very socialble person but im not anymore and i feel very confused about life i think sometimes that i might get it aswell but i dont have the affects of it. she dosnt want to go to the doctors , if i try and take her she goes MAD and starts arguin fightin runnin away its sooo tough if any can contribut anything i will be greatful thanks
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Lon, england - Monday, June 16, 2003 at 21:25:15 (EDT)
Thanks for the website. Keep fighting the good fight.
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Douglas, Isle of man - Monday, June 16, 2003 at 15:29:17 (EDT)
THANK-YOU I am glad for the success meds have for you. You are very smart as all the schizophrenics I know have been. You should write a book get it published I think you'd never have to worry about money again. I have a large family 5 commited suicide. They self medicated. I did for a long time. Been on meds for over 20 years now. jan 2003 lost it again. I worked 25 years looks like that is over, my company only pays mental illness as long as they do drug addicts and acholics. I hope I will get social security. All the best to you. WRITE THE BOOK YOU HAVE MOST OF IT HERE. K. Sherrill
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I read with interest your commentary of such drugs as Stellazine.It appears there are some that need that sort of medication in order to perform daily functions "normally",however, don't you think perhaps large H.M.O.'s might jump to conclusions in prescribing such medications? I for one was one a rather large dosage of stellazine, along with other so called "anti-psychotic" meds.It wasn't too late for me to go elsewhere for a second opinion only to find that the second opinion stated someone was nearly trying to kill me.Sounds ridiculous, but true. Thank you for your time.Good luck.
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Woodway, Tx. U.S.A. - Friday, June 13, 2003 at 21:07:04 (EDT)
I am currently a student who is working on a class presentation and research paper about Schizophrenia. After weeks of wading through studies and Definitions I found myself asking "How can I make this huge pile of data REAL for my classmates?" My gratitude for your courageous and candid story is immense. You answered my pressing question, and gave me fuel for the thousand questions that create my desire to understand more. Thank you so much.
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Chicago, IL USA - Friday, June 13, 2003 at 04:14:33 (EDT)
I am A job developer for people with disablities, as mental health funding has been cut in my area I have been getting refferals for people with schitzophrenia. Your site is the first that I have read that brings it to a personal level. Thank you very much for your beautiful web site.
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CA USA - Thursday, June 12, 2003 at 18:59:48 (EDT)
Dear Ian, Because of my mother's recent paranoid schizofrenia diagnosis (she is 52, a french teacher living in Bucharest, Romania), I came accross your extremly well-documented site. Even if I extensively perused its content, I couldn't find an answer to my questions and, as I really trust your knowledege, I was wondering if you can help me. Almost three weeks ago, her crisis started: first slowly, with a light incoherence and agitation, then after 2 weeks it became more intense: yelling, agitation, verbal incoherence, phyiscal violence, etc... Since then, she is in hospital, being treated with Zyprexa (30 mg/day) and the ilness' evolution is extremly strange: one day she is 100% lucid (without however any memory of the recent episode, she believes it was a nightmare) and the next day totally agitated and at the peak of the crisis. This good-bad day pattern has repeated itself for a week now.The doctors' only comments are "we have to wait and see, she'll get out of the crisis". In your chart, the theoretical outcome for people with repetead relapses is frightening. My only hope is that her age was not included in the statistics. 1.Could you please tell me if this is a normal evolution and what are her chances of getting better? I believe her ilness was misdiagnosed ("psychotic episode", I don't remember exactly) 10 years ago when she had a first episode: extreme agitation, violence, yelling...At that time she was in this state for 2 days, then she slept 20 hours and when she woke up she was 100% back to reality. The differences were: 1. she couldn't sleep at all during those 2 days (now she sleeps every night), 2. her treatment was different (Haloperidol) and 3. she didn't have relapses after waking up. In 10 years, her life went back to normal, she went back to work, has never been hospitalized again. She increased the dose of her medication every time she felt she might have another crisis and she managed to keep her ilness under control. However, some two months ago, she took by mistake half of her maintenance Zyprexa dosis for 30 days. After 30 days, she realized the mistake, started to take the right dosage, but she still had this last crisis. Is it possible that the cause of this crisis is medicine-induced? How does this affect her chances of getting better? Thanks a lot for taking the time to go through my message. All the best. Anda Paven
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bucharest, Romania - Thursday, June 12, 2003 at 06:18:21 (EDT)
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Meridia
NY, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, June 10, 2003 at 07:54:40 (EDT)
I was only into my boring job as a diet pills web site designer until I came across your site -thanks, it is great!
adipex bontril
Santa Monica, LA US - Tuesday, June 10, 2003 at 07:31:36 (EDT)
nice site
omenka
lagos, Lagos nigeria - Monday, June 09, 2003 at 15:38:57 (EDT)
i just started going on the internet & i still have not figured out how to use my e-mail, anyways, i am 40 years old & as a teenager have suffered from schizophrenia, i just want to tell you what a great accomplishment this website trully is!
Elmar Theisen
Toronto, ON Canada - Monday, June 09, 2003 at 08:26:55 (EDT)
Do schizophrenics on meds not taking street drugs or misusing alcohol still have a 30% relapse rate? I'd really like someone to clarify this for me.
Ian B.
Morpeth, U.K. - Monday, June 09, 2003 at 05:59:30 (EDT)
I loved the web site, truly, thank you very much.
Phentermine
LA, CA USA - Sunday, June 08, 2003 at 04:14:04 (EDT)
dhanbir
new delhi, nd india - Sunday, June 08, 2003 at 02:12:27 (EDT)
Hi Just visiting your web site . My son is in the hospital in Regina . I had the police pick him up 3 weeks ago . He doesn't know that I was the one behind getting him to the hospital but it was for his own safety . Some day I'll tell him but not yet . He tells me a lot of things and is very open with me . He's on his second 3weeks at the hospital . So I came to your website to get more info .
Maggie MacPherson
Wapella , Sask Canada - Sunday, June 08, 2003 at 00:07:35 (EDT)
i am 22 years old and i have been suffering from schizophrenia for six years. and to let all of you out there who do drugs and drink on your medicines...hear it from a long time user now recovered... it will either land you in jail or most commonly make you worse! so PLEASE, DONT DRINK or USE.
Alicia Smith
ruston, LA USA - Saturday, June 07, 2003 at 19:35:58 (EDT)
Hi,,, I never understood this desease, till these year, when my brother join to the hospital, and he started to work with people with mental disorders... Yesterday, I was in the church praising my Lord, when a young man told us his testimony, last year he was very ill about esquizofrenia, but now hi is fine,,, I know that it maybe sound crazy but I think that God is giving you the opportunity to be heal,,, I m 21, and He healed my life... Look for Him... Jesus is the answer, if you want to write me : yeshuavive@hotmail.com... God loves You
Margarita Carvajal
Iquique, Chile - Friday, June 06, 2003 at 12:07:45 (EDT)
Thank you for your efforts in operating this website. I have just started researching schizophrenia, and yours is the first I have found that addresses the issue of "meaningful activity". My ex-husband has just been started on an atypical antipsychotic, and I am taking a class for family members from NAMI. Even when we divorced, I have always loved him. I am trying to determine whether it is feasible for us to get back together. I'm frightened by the 30% relapse rate per year even for people on medication. After 2 or 3 weeks on his medication, he is still delusional, but can now converse without his train of thought "derailing", which is an improvement. I am learning everything I can and trying to figure out whether or not I can handle this. Thanks for all your insight. Also, I wanted to mention one movie about SZ which I did not see on your list, "The Attic Expeditions". I have watched this DVD 10+ times and am still not sure how to interpret it. It is definitely dramatic, and in some ways I imagine it does a good job of capturing the experience of paranoid delusions, but I would love to hear your thoughts on it. Thanks again, please keep up the good work, and best wishes for all your goals!
Nicole
Atlanta, GA USA - Thursday, June 05, 2003 at 16:09:05 (EDT)
Thank you!! Your story and courage is helping me better understand and help a friend. Thank you again Ian, and I wish you the best on your life - now and forever!
Ibrahim A. Al-Ghamdi
Dhahran, Saudi Arabia - Thursday, June 05, 2003 at 04:10:11 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your story. May you always find strength & courage. My thoughts & prayers. God bless.
Victoria
San Diego, CA USA - Sunday, June 01, 2003 at 16:47:47 (EDT)
Its great website and great information....thank you for sharing ....God bless you
Dhaniel
WA USA - Sunday, June 01, 2003 at 00:40:03 (EDT)
Great website... I am enjoing the reading. There's another great movie about schizophrenia you may like to add to your list. It's called "spider". More info here: http://us.imdb.com/Title?0278731
Peter
Sydney, NSW Australia - Saturday, May 31, 2003 at 11:03:59 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your story. As I was reading it I couldn't stop crying. It reminded me of my brother. You see in 1980 my brother at 18 he was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. He was an extremely gifted child and adolecent before he became ill. When he became sick he had a very difficult time getting the support he needed. As well he stopped taking the medication because of the side effects. Your story touched me because of the simularities. Unfortunately, his story did not end happily. In 1982 he went travelling and has never come back. Nobody in my family had ever talked about it. It was only in 1990 that I found out that he had schizophrenia. I wished that I could have supported him. I am glad that you shared your story. It gives me a little insight into what he might have gone through. I think if my brother whose name was Ian were to have read your story he would not have felt alone. Thank you again
Corbo
Toronto, Ont Canada - Friday, May 30, 2003 at 15:35:38 (EDT)
thanks for sharing your story with me....My son is 19 and in mental health hosp this week. today he was moved to the third place in 9 days and perhaps they will figure out what you and countless others have learned ...I hope to share this site with him someday, I have enjoyed reading and learning....again thank-you!...dave's mom in USA state of Washington
Dave's Mom
ocean shores, WA USA - Friday, May 30, 2003 at 03:02:38 (EDT)
Hi Daniel, From, Naci. Hey Daniel. Thank you very much. You have helped me a lot. I think this is the best way to say it because I am all day expecting at your answer to say thanks again. I believe you have helped me a lot (though I am still feeling a little bit sad from time to time, but not now, so it is a good chance I cannot waste). I hope we can keep on with the mails but I think you have a lot of work to do so is your choice. I am going Sympton Free for 3 days now but I am sure it will come back quickly. I just want to say to everyone how fabolous this web is!!!!! Thank You very much!!!!. God be with you Always. Naci.
naci_10@hotmail.com
- Thursday, May 29, 2003 at 20:23:37 (EDT)
I would like to share with everyone that there is a root cause to Schizophrenia, as there is to every disease. In the book, "Encyclopedia of Natural Medicine", by Michael Murray, N.D. and Joseph Pizzorno, N.D., they say this about Schizophrenia, "Wheat gluten components have demonstrated opioid (opium-like) activity. This activity is believed to be the factor responsible for the association between wheat consumption and schizophrenia. The hypothesis that gluten is a causative factor in the development of schizophrenia is substantiated by epidemiological, clinical and experimental studies." Casein in dairy is another factor, as casein is an adhesive the same as gluten is an adhesive. The small intestine, where 85% of our food is digested, becomes damaged from gluten and casein, and the good nutrition from food being digested cannot get to the cells. The cells starve and die, and we suffer from many diseases. I had Trigeminal Neuralgia, which is also associated with the consumption of gluten and casein, and is also known as "incurable". Once I changed my lifestyle, by omitting these substances, and becoming a raw-foodist, I was able to get completely well. Rheumatoid Arthritis, Multiple Sclerosis, and Celiac Disease are other diseases that are caused by gluten and casein. We would never intentionally drink a bottle of glue, but we are doing so through the ingestion of wheat products and dairy products. Please read more information at NotMilk.com. If anyone would like to contact me for more information please e-mail me at dkazmitchell@aol.com
Kathie
Tucson, AZ U.S. - Thursday, May 29, 2003 at 16:38:13 (EDT)
My wife has been diagnosed with schizophrenia about 7 months ago, your website has been a great help while I was trying to understand schizophrenia. Another good resource that has been really helpful is http://www.mentalhealth.com/book/p40-sc01.html This handbook is really a good guide for families/friends of people suffering from schizophrenia, however please remember each situation might be different and every suggestion/observation may not work in all the cases
HOFW
Los Angeles, India - Thursday, May 29, 2003 at 03:46:08 (EDT)
Thanks for this site! IT helped me to understand more about Schizophrenia. -Rebecca
Rebecca
Cupertino, CA USA - Tuesday, May 27, 2003 at 19:26:00 (EDT)
nice
richard lewis
hilliard, oh usa - Tuesday, May 27, 2003 at 07:47:59 (EDT)
my little boy,ten has been in the hospital for the past 3 weekd. he is just now showing signs of improvment. he is taking risperdol.zyprexa and zoluf. a lot of drugs for a someone only 10yrs. i am just trying to learn as much about schizophrenia as i can,but it is starting to depress me....thanks for your website,u r doing good!
heidi
okc, ok usa - Monday, May 26, 2003 at 15:37:55 (EDT)
Thankyou for some really helpful humanised information. I wish you every bit of luck for your future.
Rebecca Woods
U,K - Thursday, May 22, 2003 at 15:16:11 (EDT)
Hi, interesting web site. I've a friend called Toni who wants to do a site for Borderline Personality Disorder. I'm impressed that you survived living it rough. A friend of mine, Sid, went AWOL from hospital and ended up dying on the banks of the river Wansbeck. I wrote up my psychotic episodes in a short story called Schizopanic. I found your site via Google News UK - I searched for Schizophrenia on that and found your site. I noticed that some visitors to your website like Olanzapine - I'd just like to point out that it can give you a big appetite leading to unwanted weight gain - despite that my experience with Olanzapine has been very positive although these days I'm on Amisulpride and Reboxetine. Have you ever noticed that too much reality is toxic and you can get "reality poisoning"? - maybe its just the blues.
Ian B.
Morpeth, U.K. - Thursday, May 22, 2003 at 10:17:44 (EDT)
Ian, I thank you for sharing your life experience's with the Schizophrenia Illness. I came to your site looking for knowledge & information. My sister has recently been diagnosed with this illness at the age of 36. It is comforting to know that this illness is being better understood & accepted.
Debbie
Vancouver, BC Canada - Wednesday, May 21, 2003 at 14:02:25 (EDT)
Very good story, I had to look up stuff for a report, and i found your site, it was very usefull...thank you for everything. My email: Renkenkellie@hotmail.com
Kellie
North Platte, Ne USA - Wednesday, May 21, 2003 at 12:57:32 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your story. I was looking for something and your site came,then I red your story. Recently I recougnized that two people that I knew and lost theire lives possibly had the problem that you have. I know friends and family members will not talk about them and theire problems. Even if friends have doubt in their mind they may never talk about it to each othere. They both looked kind of normal with some social and economical problem. But when I got to know them more I found out that they live in theire dreams. they new charachters that were not real. I wish i knew more and I care more. I wish you best. Thank you again. Nahid
Nahid
Fairfax, U.S.A. - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 23:38:03 (EDT)
I represent a lady who has a child 3 and a half years old.The child's father is schizophrenic, and his last mental hospital stay was less than two months ago. He wants visitation, and the mother wants to give it to him, but only if supervised. WE are concerned that the father will be in and out of the child's life, depending on which cycle he may be in. Any advice, or information you can provide?
beth morgan
columbus , ga united states - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 21:43:22 (EDT)
I have a friend who has the same illness and decided to do my psychology project on it to get a better understanding of what my friend goes through.Your site helped a lot!And I now have a gained a clearer understanding of what my friend strugles with.Thank You very much for sharing your story. May God bless you.
Shantae Henry
Crum Lynne, PA United States - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 17:27:50 (EDT)
I have a friend who has the same illness and decided to do my psychology project on it to get a better understanding of what my friend goes through.Your site helped a lot!And I now have a gained a clearer understanding of what my friend strugles with.Thank You very much for sharing your story. May God bless you.
Shantae Henry
PA United States - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 17:26:29 (EDT)
I am about to embark on a journey in an attempt to help my sister who has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I am terrified but I am confident that this is something I must do. Your website has given me hope. Thank you.
Armida Armstrong
Boston, MA USA - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 13:17:12 (EDT)
Thank you for your help on this mental illness. I do not have this disease, but I used it for a research paper. I just wanted to say thank you for giving me a little bit more information on the subect Thanks again Megan
Megan Boardman
Springdale, NL Canada - Tuesday, May 20, 2003 at 07:33:53 (EDT)
Lots of information here, congratulations. Rodrigo
Rodrigo
Santiago, cl Chile - Monday, May 19, 2003 at 18:12:12 (EDT)
I Have suffered from Schizophrenia for over 2 years now after suffering a psychotic break while on holiday. I'm much better now after being prescribed Amisulpride and the voices are quite low now. Just like to say recovery is possible (I work full time as a lecturer/researcher)with the right medication and support from family and friends. S.Roberts@livjm.ac.uk
Steve Roberts
Liverpool, Merseyside - Monday, May 19, 2003 at 10:47:44 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I don't suffer from schizophrenia myself, but was very concerned my ex partner was and found your site while looking for info on the subject. Thank you again.
Nicola
Newcastle, England - Sunday, May 18, 2003 at 16:42:22 (EDT)
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mugu boy
lagos, LAGOS STATE NGI - Saturday, May 17, 2003 at 11:06:17 (EDT)
i have recently been diagnosed with the disease and am having alot of trouble. I can relate to alot of things that are stated and said and its nice to know im not the only one with these problems
jordan shaff
lafayette, in u.s. - Friday, May 16, 2003 at 14:18:39 (EDT)
I can certainly relate to your story. I have the same disease. I have still not learned how to deal with it even though I have been living with it for 20 years. Psychologists and counsellors won't even attempt to take on a counselling role, saying I am more advanced in dealing with it than psychology. I feel as if the mental health system in Canada is a failure. I was misdiagnosed for 16 years and given wrong medications until I was finally sent into a psychotic break and lost everything. I am most depressed about the impact it has had on my financial well being.
Kerry
Dartmouth, NS Canada - Friday, May 16, 2003 at 13:01:55 (EDT)
I used your site as a resource in a paper I had to write for my psychology class. Thanks for your information.
Kellen Hennen
Olivia, MN USA - Friday, May 16, 2003 at 11:37:19 (EDT)
My son used your site as a resource (including the graphs and diagrams throughout) for his school term paper on schizophrenia. Great site! A.S. -www.decidio.com
Alan Shearson
Canada - Friday, May 16, 2003 at 11:12:34 (EDT)
i am a student pysciatric nurse studying the symptoms of schizophrenia, in particular negative symptoms. I found your story both amazing and useful. I would like to commend you on your efforts to overcome what has obviously been an extremely difficult struggle. You are an inspiration to others especially those suffering from schizophreia. Thankyou.
darren
birmingham, england - Friday, May 16, 2003 at 06:49:49 (EDT)
Ur site is interesting.....but do u think tht there can be a computer software tht can make diagnosis of a schizophrenic patient easier and accurate.If u think a far reaching thing in ur mind then do share ur views with me tapinder13@rediffmail.com
Tapinder
Liverpool, England - Thursday, May 15, 2003 at 20:36:31 (EDT)
I found your site to be very interesting. I am a full time nursing student and my Abnormal Psychology teacher assiigned us tdo a research paper on a mental disorder. I chose Schizophrenia because i find it very interesting. I wanted to let you know that your site helped me out tremendously, and i wanted to thank you!! I also want to wish you the best!!
Rebecca smith
Pomeroy, OH United States - Thursday, May 15, 2003 at 11:33:28 (EDT)
Hi everyone!
Bob Spooner
Quebec, Canada - Wednesday, May 14, 2003 at 02:44:24 (EDT)
What a wonderful website. Thank you for this insightful information and stories.
Barbara Graziano, LMSW
Grangeville, ID USA - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 at 13:40:59 (EDT)
I'm a schizophrenic!So am I! Thank you for your awsome information, it'll help us soooo much.
Kimberly
Rialto, CA - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 at 11:05:41 (EDT)
I have schizophrenia and due to medication and psychotherapy am beginning to lead a productive life. I encourage all people who reject diagnosis and treatment to believe in the reality of ALL things and set goals and follow dreams. I do.
Sean A. Heath
Norman, OK US - Tuesday, May 13, 2003 at 08:57:46 (EDT)
this is an awsome website! It really helped me a lot with my essay i apreciate you putting your time in to this your an awsome person mky God bless you in many ways love in christ Nancy
Nancy
Carthage, Tx United states of america - Monday, May 12, 2003 at 12:22:06 (EDT)
I have a new website www.juanitafranklin.com. The name of it is Mental Health Issues & Et Cetera. In it I have started some of my history and symptoms with affective-type schizophrenia. I have started on some of my road to near normalcy. Thanks for your website. My email is nonnie@juanitafranklin.com
Juanita Franklin
Winter Haven, FL usa - Saturday, May 10, 2003 at 16:45:52 (EDT)
Thank you for this wonderful site. My teenage cousin has just been diagnosed. Our family is very scared for him. You give us much to think about and to hope for. God Bless You
JennGod Bless You
Jenni
OH United States - Friday, May 09, 2003 at 20:38:08 (EDT)
my schizophrenia is caused by CTD or chronic tempo driving. You should do a study on this, as it no doubt afflicts many other teenagers forced to drive these pathetic pieces of obselescent machinery. Thank You and Dog Bless!
Judiah The Messiah
Ainsworth, Iowa usa - Friday, May 09, 2003 at 15:31:26 (EDT)
This site was f'in awesome. I am a schizo and I have learned a lot about myself looking at this web site. There are a lot of f'in schizos in my town and now I can make fun of them and myself even better than before.
Jayson
Riverside, IA U.S.A. - Friday, May 09, 2003 at 15:26:48 (EDT)
I'd like to thank you for your web site. I am 17 years old and I am doing a project on schizophrenia for my Physiology class. This page has been a huge help to me. God bless!
Sarah
- Friday, May 09, 2003 at 10:00:52 (EDT)
I'd like to thank you for your web site. I am 17 years old and I am doing a project on schizophrenia for my Physiology class. This page has been a huge help to me. God bless!
Sarah
- Friday, May 09, 2003 at 10:00:19 (EDT)
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Krankenversicherung
Europe - Friday, May 09, 2003 at 05:57:20 (EDT)
Thank you so much for your courage, for it is what gives those with mental disorders hope.
Emily
Cleveland, OH USA - Thursday, May 08, 2003 at 21:22:25 (EDT)
you are a strong woman and a brave one at that
kelly
denison, tx united states - Wednesday, May 07, 2003 at 20:22:59 (EDT)
I really liked your website. It has really given me an insight into my illness (schizophrenia) and has inspired to become more positive. Thank you.
Darren
Belfast, Ireland - Wednesday, May 07, 2003 at 19:26:23 (EDT)
Hi! Just wanted to say i'm amazed at all the things you've been through and how you've managed to survive it all. Another thing is that this is a good website. I'v been looking for more but they hardly have any good ones. I have a big term paper do on schizophrenia so i'm on the web searching and i found this one so i decided to comment and enter your guest list. I also have an aunt who has schizophrenia and i get very interested at knowing more about the mental illness. well goodbye
alexis aparicio
riverside, ca CA - Wednesday, May 07, 2003 at 18:38:07 (EDT)
I don't have schizophrenia myself and I just happened to come across your site while I was doing research for this topic. I read your story and although I don't know you personally, I truly find your life to be very unbelievable!!! I have never known that a disease could do and cause so many changes to one's life!!! And reading your story just let me understand the effects of the disease better. And for the most important of all, YOU let me understand people with schizophrenia more!!! Thank you and I truly love your site!!!
Ting Ting
san francisco, ca United States - Tuesday, May 06, 2003 at 15:50:23 (EDT)
Hi. I have read most of your story and found it very interesting, as I am diagnosed for the same illness. However, you say that taking antipsychotic medication could lead to problems over the years (20, 30 yrs... of use). I hope that they find a solution to this problem because I don't want to get cancer or whatever when I grow older, because of the medication. I must say that you are lucky to have had this type of recovery. I don't even know if I will be able to work again and live a decent life. But thanks for the information.
Laurent
Québec, Qc Canada - Tuesday, May 06, 2003 at 10:24:06 (EDT)
I love your site! My mother suffers from Schizophrenia as well, and reading your story helps me to understand her better. Thank you...and best wishes to you!
Rebecca
Madison, WI United States - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 23:45:18 (EDT)
Hello, My name is Hayley, My mum has this illness and so does my dad... I am 13 years old.. How can I deal with them? my mum most of all.. I thought your web page was great too... please if u could help me with anything write to me at hayley_38@hotmail.com thanks
Hayley
B, vic Australia - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 23:17:26 (EDT)
Hi! i am doing a project like lauren down there and im 13. your site is very good! thanx!
Jasmine
Santa Monica, CA United States - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 20:51:51 (EDT)
hi, cool site but i saw your picture and you look like a geek dont tell the geeks, they'd be insulted
jeremiah
Las Vegas, NV North Ameria - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 20:49:28 (EDT)
I think I am a survivor of schitzephrenia! 52 years ago when I was 7 my previously loving and nurturing mother suddenly became very wildly "ill" with this disease after bearing her forth child. Our family consisted of mother, father, and four children, of which I was the elder of 2 middle boys with a slightly older sister and a much younger sister at either end. We lived in rural Quebec, forth generation descendants of irish immigrant "farmers" who homesteaded in "the bush" in the early 1800's. Nobody in our family had ever finished highschool and there was no understanding of what was happening to us. There was no professional intervention for at least ten years. We survived by the grace of Almighty, Loving and Merciful God. My Dad, who died peacfully of old age in 1999, at age 83, previously had most of his stomach removed due to life-threatening bleeding ulsers when I was only 4. I have yet to fully understand just how he did what he did for us. He did not drink. He did not swear. He did not use physical punishment to correct us. He did not complain about his fate. He did not weep very much publicly, although he was occassionally very frustrated and depressed. By any comparison he was a frail and gentle man. Of necessity he became father, and mother to us. He learned to make meals. He learned to endure great embarassment in public. He had put his faith in The Gospel of Jesus when I was about 1 and so he found much strength in reading the Bible daily. Especially the books of Job and Psalms of David. He prayed a lot in his room on his knees for hours. He led us as a family of six, in a little Sunday morning worship meeting weekly in our living room. He even lead the singing that my mother could no longer do. He taught us all to read the Bible and we shared our personal thoughts, sang hymns and prayed each Sunday morning and wednesday evening. When I was 17 he fell into a severe and deep depression and stopped eating. We had to take control and initiate action to forcefully commit both he and mom to a mental institution far away in Montreal. This was a dark and terrifying day for our family, but as it turned out it was the beginning of some rather basic level of help from outside, and some rudimentary treatment for both of them. My Dad recovered and lived out his days in realitively fair health. My Mom has been in and out of hospital and on and off various medication ever since. She is still alive in a nursing home and calls me daily to tell me that she loves me. I think that some day soon I may be able to tell her that I love her also. It has been more than 50 years now! For many years I didn't even realize how much we had suffered. But, aging has a way of taking us back, doesn't it? So, now I have become more accutely aware of the miricle that God has worked in my life to bring me this far. Like my dear Dad I too pray a lot and read my Bible. And yes I weep sometimes in private when I re-live those days. I am blessed with a wonderfull loving wife who rescued me more than 37 years ago and we have 3 wonderfull grown children and grandchildren too. I think I may yet live long enough to get over the hurt from schitzephrenia. My heartfelt compassion goes to families which are struggling with this little understood disease. May God hold you in the palm of his hand. May we look to Him for the what he does best...Love! ....thanks for listening.....i feel better already. Keith
Keith McDonald
St. Catharines, ON Canada - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 17:16:18 (EDT)
i was just looking on the computer for info on schizophrenia. I have a friend with the illness and she never takes her medicine like she is supposed to. What suggestions do you have to make me convince her to take her medicine on time?
annalee monts
terre haute, in america - Monday, May 05, 2003 at 15:36:42 (EDT)
I just have no idea if a have schizophrenia. Sometimes i hear voices, but i'm not sure they are for real, sometimes i hear sounds like for example the phone ringing, but none of this is happening. Sometimes i hear my sister voice yelling at me or screaming for help but nobody is at home. I had seen some of the symptons of schizpphrenia and i have the dellusion and hallucinatory symptons but i just don't have the disorganized speech symptons. I just want to know what i have or if this is going to dissapear with the pass of time?. Also, everyday gets worse and i`m starting to have visions of people that isn`t there. I just want to know if everything is alright or if i should go with a psychiatrist. I also practice roleplaying, does that has anything to do? Please someone send an e-mail to me, i just want some advise. I also have the maniac symptons and by the way, the webpage is great. Well Done
naci_10@hotmail.com
- Monday, May 05, 2003 at 13:33:41 (EDT)
I am a 21 y/o female that was just diagnosed and now on Seroquel. I have been resarching the disease and my medications. This site is very helpful. Thank you
Olivia
Sarasota, Fl U.S. - Sunday, May 04, 2003 at 15:42:50 (EDT)
On your site I have found that for what I was looking for. p
Claudia L.
tzu, tz Canada - Sunday, May 04, 2003 at 08:48:18 (EDT)
Dear Ian, I´ve read the german translation of your story and it touched my heart. I have to live also with the diagnose shizophrenia, in the moment I take RISPERDAL CONSTA 25mg, but I want to quit taking medizine. From 1989 up to 1998 I took Haldol, a dosis of 0,5ml all 4 weeks continuilly 9 years. In my oppinion psychatric drugs make your mind need them, so it´s hard to withdraw taking them. Anyway, I had my last episode in November 2002 (of course) and I hope it was my last visit in a psychatric hospital. I hope you will keep not too much damage to your brain by taking neuroleptika. I would be pleased if you can e-mail me, my ad. is martin.as012@t-online.de Best regards, sincerly Martin Jerchow
Martin Jerchow
Hohn, Germany - Friday, May 02, 2003 at 08:26:56 (EDT)
Dear Ian, I´ve read the german translation of your story and it touched my heart. I have to live also with the diagnose shizophrenia, in the moment I take RISPERDAL CONSTA 25mg, but I want to quit taking medizine. From 1989 up to 1998 I took Haldol, a dosis of 0,5ml all 4 weeks continuilly 9 years. In my oppinion psychatric drugs make your mind need them, so it´s hard to withdraw taking them. Anyway, I had my last episode in November 2003 and I hope it was my last visit in a psychatric hospital. I hope you will keep not too much damage to your brain by taking neuroleptika. I would be pleased if you can e-mail me, my ad. is martin.as012@t-online.de Best regards, sincerly Martin Jerchow
Martin Jerchow
Hohn, Germany - Friday, May 02, 2003 at 08:22:42 (EDT)
Sometimes i wonder if delusions of grandeur are delusions to those who don't know... or if they are blatant smacks in the face of reality which you can choose. Maybe you paid attention to the wrong signs, but maybe they are right. I'm a Psych major in the USA.. i am planning to get my doctorates in BC, Canada when i am done with undergrad. I notice that many "schizophrenics" have delusions of grandeur involving aliens... why aliens? Do you think aliens are actually us in the future? Why are they so significant in such a disorder. Maybe you can let me know?
Vicky Paez
New Providence , Nj USA - Friday, May 02, 2003 at 02:34:28 (EDT)
i am 14 and doin a project about schizophrenia i have found your site very informative thanx xx
laura
bolton, uk - Thursday, May 01, 2003 at 17:39:17 (EDT)
I found your site to be very informative and personal. I'm a student of psychology and learned a bit more from your site. Thx, and good luck in the future. ~Shawn Arntz
Shawn Arntz
Seattle, WA United States - Thursday, May 01, 2003 at 17:15:53 (EDT)
I WANTED TO WRITE AND TELL YOU THIS GIVES ME HOPE, I HAVE A SON WHO IS 25 BATTILING HIS ILLNESS FOR 8 YRS,HE ALSO HAS HAD NUMEROUS RUN INS WITH THE LAW, LAST ONE WAS BREAKING OUTOFA MENTAL INSTITUTION, IN WHICH THEY PRESSED CHARGES. HE HD BEEN THERE AT LEAST 40 TIMES SUICIDE ATTEMPS AND ALSO JUST TO TRY AND GET HIM HELP. HE ALSO WAS A BRIGHT BOY GROWING UP, MY FIRST BORN SON, AND HAS A MOST COMPPASIONATE WAY ABOUT HIM. BEING HIS MOTHER, I TRYED IN EVERY WAY TO GET HIM HELP, BUT INSTEAD, HE ENDED UP IN THE COURT SYSTEM IN FL WHERE HE IS DOING 36 MONTHS IN THE HOSP PART OF THE JAIL. I REALLY WISH THE GVERMENT WOULD HELP WITH FUNDS FOR PEOPLE, SO THEY COULD GET A MORE ACTIVE AND QUICKER START IN GETTING HELP. HE ALSO HAS NO FRIENDS OTHER THAN ME AND MY DAUGHTER.AND IT DOES MAKE ME SAD, SOMETIMES I FEEL OTHERS THINK HE WILL HARM THEM ALTHOUGH HE HAS NEVER HIT A SOUL, HE GETS ALONG WELL WITH ANIMALS, AND SMALL CHILDREN, MABE BECAUSE HE CANT RELATE ENOUGH YET. HOPEFULLY EVEN THOUGH HES IN PRISON, HE WILL AT LEAST CONTINUE T SAY ON HIS MEDS, INSTEAD OF GOING ON AND OFF THEM.ANYWAY THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY, IT HELPS ALOT TO KNOW THERE MAY BE A LIGH AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.ALSO IT MAKES YOU STOP AND THINK HOW LUCKY A PERSON IS TO BE HERE, AND DO ALL THE THINGS WE TAKE OR GRANTED, WITH EASE.ALSO I DO FEEL BLESSED THAT I AM HERE FOR HIM, I WOULD NEVER WANT TO SEE HIM GO THIS ALONE. I WISH YOU PEACE AND HAPPINESS FOR ALWAYS THANKS LOIS
LOIS MCMILLAN
OCALA, FL UNITED STATES - Thursday, May 01, 2003 at 16:03:08 (EDT)
Just surfing through. Keep it up!
Simon
Liverpool, Liverpool United Kingdom - Thursday, May 01, 2003 at 10:33:00 (EDT)
Just surfing through. Keep it up!
Simon
Liverpool, Liverpool United Kingdom - Thursday, May 01, 2003 at 10:32:58 (EDT)
I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia about 2 years ago and have been able to participate in profesional treatment for a year now and with a combination of psychiatric help and drug therapy am getting much better. Your story is powerful and I am glad I found this site, I really relate to your journey. Thanks, Andy
Andy
Calgary, ab Canada - Wednesday, April 30, 2003 at 23:09:36 (EDT)
I have recently discovered that my brother is schizophrenic. I love him and will support him; always encouraging him to see life as it really is through my poetry. I know he will make it. This site has been a blessing.
Meghan Gallagher
Seaville, NJ USA - Wednesday, April 30, 2003 at 15:49:22 (EDT)
I found your site by accidence, impressive. Will return to it soon. For now, you say in the part about alternative stuff that there has never been any dubbelblind placebocontrolled proof of effectiveness of any alternative. For fishoil this is not correct. The trials have been small but there where severall of them. In all cases the results where statistically significant. I'm using it myself and only two capsules a day does it. Three year,s ago I stopped my medicine by reducing the dose little by little, (it took me almost a year to arrive at no anti-psychotics). Now I,m functioning much better, working, no more need fore any treatment or special care at all. I have a website about schizofrenia also (www.hersenbries.nl) unfortunately it,s not yet in english, maybe in the near future..... But if people are interested in fish-oil there is enough information on yhe net. Some links to english websites about fish-oil (for example to university of sheffield) can be found on my website.
Marc Mercuur
Groningen, Gr. Netherlands - Wednesday, April 30, 2003 at 11:39:44 (EDT)
Hello i'am seek and a will not better ,maby i go to the dead ,nice page's help
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Leveroy, limburg netherlants - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 19:36:48 (EDT)
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Canada - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 19:06:22 (EDT)
I am researching Schizophrenia for a research paper at school for my pychology class. I would like to learn more about this disease. I appreciate you letting information out about yourself so that students like myself can learn first hand. Thank you.
Ashley Gardner
Rancho Cordova, CA USA - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 16:52:31 (EDT)
Good job. I wish you the best
future psych.
Odessa, Tx U.S - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 16:04:26 (EDT)
Hey there, I just want to tell you that it is very encouraging to hear that you have not given up and that you are struggling to keep on living and breathing. Keep up the good work. For now we are imperfect and have to deal with the calamities that are involved with this. I am doing a research paper at school on this subject and I encountered your address. Hope you the best. And remember that there will be a time when we will be perfectr again.
Joseph Luna
Belen, NM UsA - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 10:24:52 (EDT)
Because of this wonderful web site, I can relate to my uncle who suffers from schizophrenia. Your story is silmilar to his. Now we talk and enjoy eachothers companie. Since i was a child my mother never let me really see him, i think she was scared of what she didn`t know. thank you Eric
eric lavoie
Orleans, on Canada - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 09:32:19 (EDT)
This page is the best i've ever been too, and for all the people who have Schizophrenia KEEP TRYING!!!!!
Chelsea Kinzer
Sembach, Germany - Tuesday, April 29, 2003 at 02:44:26 (EDT)
A very interesting and enlightening accout of schitzophrenia.
T. Woodfield
Christchurch, N/A New Zealand - Sunday, April 27, 2003 at 22:05:41 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your story with so many strangers. Good luck to you and your struggle. I now have a new perspective on schizophrenia.
michelle
caldwell, tx united states - Sunday, April 27, 2003 at 19:31:04 (EDT)
I'm a nursing student and want to specialized in psychiatry nursing. I did not know very much about mental illness untill this school term. I get very touched and sad every time a hear a story and complishment but more conviened that this is what I want to do. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Nana Yaa
St. Louis, MO USA - Saturday, April 26, 2003 at 02:28:25 (EDT)
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Excellent. I am working in a day service/group home setting with a 33 year-old schizophrenic man named K-- and am online tonight looking for ways to assist him rightly. We work on the computer an hour each week and I may see if he likes your site. Would you consider email correspondence? Or would that open a flood of requests? He is so isolated here, living with people with disimilar disabilities. I have copied your favorite movie and book recommendations (knowing that he is a person with individual tastes, but just maybe...) and my most important question is: did you suffer a lot from food compulsions/anxiety? How can I help? K-- is on Clozapine but not very well managed -- lots of pacing, stealing and gorging on food, conversations with voices. Thanks again for your perfect site and if you want to respond, email is moosman@inetnebr.com. God bless and good night.
Mrs. Moosman
USA - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 23:45:15 (EDT)
I´ve been reading your site and I could learn a lot. Thanks.
Mark Henderson
Miami, FL United States - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 23:40:09 (EDT)
Thank you for your site! I'm not schizophrenic, and I don't directly know anyone with the disorder. I am however, working on a mental health site of my own (I am a psychotic bipolar, among other things), and I am looking for schizophrenia links to add to the links page. And I stumbled on this wonderful site! I learned a lot, and I'm sure my visitors will learn a lot also.
Annaleigh
Delano, CA USA - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 18:57:06 (EDT)
I am glad to see that someone else on ODSP has the sense enough to realize that we are getting the shaft when it comes to having a normal life. You are correct in saying basically that what incentive does anyone have to be with someone on ODSP ??? They basically make the spouse or gf foot the bill and then punish the spouse or gf for it by taking a large chunk of their wages earned. It is ridiculous and quite honestly I wanted to get a petition started to have these laws changed or at least addressed in parliament.
Sean DeMarco
Sarnia, ON Canada - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 17:04:53 (EDT)
Ian, Your web site is wonderful. I'm glad you have put it out there so people, like me, can learn what schizophrenia is and how people in deal with it. Thank you soo much for the helpful information, Elise
Elise
Fergus, Ontario Canada - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 16:23:14 (EDT)
I'm a second yr medical student studying schizoprenia and I'm always trying to work humanism into my studies. Thank you for the opportunity to add your experiences to the dry facts I'm learning.
E Gilbert
New Orleans, LA USA - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 14:23:56 (EDT)
thank you for letting me read you frank life story of living with schizophrenia.
kay
manchester, united kingdom - Friday, April 25, 2003 at 09:58:27 (EDT)
My father is schizophrenic. After 40 plus years of observation and study I am reluctant to label him as such as I believe that schizophrenia has become a generic label applied to people whose behavior is not overtly rational. About 10 years ago, my father said that his doctors had told him that the medicine that he had been taking to suppress his brain's dopamine levels had conditioned his brain neurologically to begin to function as if he had Parkinson. Instead of calling his detoriating motor skills Parkinson, the doctors called it "Parkinson Syndrome." The purpose of his conversation was to tell me that he had decided to not take his medicine anymore. I am writing this because I am angry that his doctors did not give him more of an advance warning so that he could have experimented with his medication. Shortly after our conversation, he allowed his madness to consume him and since then has lived in fear of the demons that dominate his hallaucinations. He was a man once, and now to strangers he is stereotypical parody of a B grade horror movie. I miss my father, and I wish I could share my happiness of being a father myself with him..to comfort him in his waning years to let him know that his life did matter, and he did matter. And so, if you have children someday don't take that long walk by yourself if someday you are faced with the same choice as my father.
David Petersen
Calgary, AB Canada - Thursday, April 24, 2003 at 01:00:46 (EDT)
Wow, your site and your story are truly amazing. It's an inspiration to see all the work and thought that went into your site. I am currently researching Schizophrenia as a highschool biology project, but it has deeper meaning for me too, as I am the daughter of someone who has schizophrenia. I'm glad that I have been able to learn more about this illness. Keep up the good work and best wishes.
Charlene
Windsor, On Canada - Wednesday, April 23, 2003 at 11:22:02 (EDT)
I am a 17-year-old highschool student who was assigned a research report on a social issue. As a result,I chose schizophrenia as my topic and was asked to reprisent the issue under three different viewpoints. Your site helped me greatly with the "Patient Viewpoint" of my report. I would just like to express my gatitude. Your site offers wonderful insight into the personal aspects behind this afflicton, and your links page served to speed my search for relevant and updated resources. Thank-you for sharing your story with the world. I greatly admire your courage. With respect Rachel
Rachel
Whitby, ON Canada - Tuesday, April 22, 2003 at 13:56:06 (EDT)
thankyou so much for sharing your experience with us. I am currently doing my degree in nursing and found the information informative and hopeful for others who have to live with schizophrenia. Thankyou again for sharing your insite.
nina
sydney, australia - Tuesday, April 22, 2003 at 05:39:27 (EDT)
I'm so sorry about your illmess.
Carri
Seattle, Wa Uninted States - Monday, April 21, 2003 at 15:08:04 (EDT)
Thank you so much for this web site! It is the perfect happy medium between so many sites that are much too technical for a lay person, on the one hand, and those other sites that are so personal and anecdotal, on the other hand. Thanks!
Ann Baker
USA - Sunday, April 20, 2003 at 20:33:08 (EDT)
Surfing around some great sites - another one here for sure. So many sites people spending time on. I don't have a guest book but maybe visit my breathalyser breath tester site sometime. DRINK DRIVING KILLS! - Spread The Word.
Mr Breath Tester
London, Kent United Kingdom - Sunday, April 20, 2003 at 20:24:13 (EDT)
Hey i was wondering if anyone has detailed info on schizoprenia. need it thanks. You can email me theinfat Samd62690@aol.com and mak the subject schizophrenia
Samantha D
BLM, IL USA - Sunday, April 20, 2003 at 20:10:20 (EDT)
I have a friend with Schizophrenia and i think that it's great that you have this website. It helped me to better understand what he's going through and how i can be more supportive of him. Thank you.
Alexandra B.
Palos Heights, IL US - Friday, April 18, 2003 at 20:21:50 (EDT)
Hi, i'm 29 years old and my english is not the best but i´m reading your story of life and remember my last 10 years living with schizophrenia. Since 4 Years my situation is getting better because of new atypic neuroleptica "Zyprexa". I wish you the power to tell the story to the young people to remind them what can happens without the help of friends & family... Many greetings from Germany :o) Ralf E-Mail: info@ralfhofmann.com
Ralf
Wuppertal near Düsseldorf, Germany - Friday, April 18, 2003 at 13:28:28 (EDT)
You were one of the one aliens had contact with. I believe I am part of a sub race of humans with enhances mental abilities. I was once imprisoned by forces that seek to destroy people like us. I believe that saddam hussein too is one of us but was targeted by Bush because Bush hates and fears people like us..which is the reason why he invaded Iraq. Soon he will take over the world and send his agents to eliminate systematically people like us or capture us and use oure abilitities for hios own ends. Bush is a demon from another dimension. He drinks human blood ,IS PART OF A CULT CALLED skull anD bones society and is implanted with a computer chip that enables him to psychically read peoples minds. He is building a super weapon of mass desturction....a WARHEAD that infects people of your kind with a virus that kills only those with that particular gene coDE. hE IS Also funding NASA to destroy an alien shutTLE orbiting earth in space...so he cAN Have COMPLEte control of earth aND enslave thge human race. my email is kannadigarebel@yahoo.com CONTACT ME IF YOU HAVE any queries.
grindorr
hidden, Canada - Friday, April 18, 2003 at 12:43:24 (EDT)
You were one of the one aliens had contact with. I believe I am part of a sub race of humans with enhances mental abilities. I was once imprisoned by forces that seek to destroy people like us. I believe that saddam hussein too is one of us but was targeted by Bush because Bush hates and fears people like us..which is the reason why he invaded Iraq. Soon he will take over the world and send his agents to eliminate systematically people like us or capture us and use oure abilitities for hios own ends. Bush is a demon from another dimension. He drinks human blood ,IS PART OF A CULT CALLED skull anD bones society and is implanted with a computer chip that enables him to psychically read peoples minds. He is building a super weapon of mass desturction....a WARHEAD that infects people of your kind with a virus that kills only those with that particular gene code.
grindorr
hidden, Canada - Friday, April 18, 2003 at 12:40:51 (EDT)
Reading your story made me cry, cuz i knew what it must have been like. My fiance is skitzophranic and i think were about to break up. Ive been with him for almost 8 months and its getting to be to much for me...i love him and care and do anything i can for him. I just pray he gets better, cuz i do love him id like to talk more if u want my email is heartbreakuh@yahoo.com thanks for the story
angie
akron, ohio usa - Thursday, April 17, 2003 at 07:52:35 (EDT)
thanks a lot for your informative story! take care!
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If you think between the layers - you're clean. x9one9x@hotmail.com
Justan Lee
Tulsa, OK USA - Thursday, April 17, 2003 at 00:46:25 (EDT)
I find your site very informative and helpful. I am doing a project on Schizophrenia because i think a lot of times it is misunderstood. thank you
Mandi
Wilmington, NC united states - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 at 11:14:48 (EDT)
Wow! I was really impressed with what you had to say. Schizophrenia, seems like a living nightmare. I would like to find out more ways to help people with this frightning disease-ecopsychology, postmodern psychology? If you have any advice please e-mail me @ jdmitchell@fortlewis.edu Thanx! Joe
Joe Mitchell
Durango, CO USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 at 00:53:13 (EDT)
I am a nursing student in new zealand that had to submit an assignment about someone that was suffering from a mental illness. I was surfing the internet and I came across your touching story. I was suppose to do an assignment about someone I know, but I don't know anyone. Your story helped me understand your illness and how you are overcoming the hard years you experienced. I hope you don't mind I used you... you have been a blessing to my developing knowledge in the mental health area. Thank you for sharing your story online for other people like myself to read. Take care
Amy
Auckland, 1701 New Zealand - Tuesday, April 15, 2003 at 00:03:35 (EDT)
Oh, my email is sooz62350@aol.com
susan collins
dallas, tx usa - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 22:32:47 (EDT)
I have been a psychiatric nurse for 23 years. I am always searching for information for my patients. This is wonderful. I printed out some of your pages for a very intelligent but very ill man with schizophrenia today and he read them with great interest and was eager to read more. This is the best resource I have found for my purposes. Thank you so much for this fine project. Susan Collins
susan collins
dallas, tx usa - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 22:31:37 (EDT)
I am a student at the University Of New Hampshire, currently enrolled in an Epidemiology class. I have decided to do my 26 page term paper on Schizophrenia because I have an uncle who is still suffering from the disease. He is 55 years old now and has been diagnosed since he was 18. I wish there is something I could do to help people with Schizophrenia. After reading about the Borna Disease Virus(BDV) I do not believe this is a cause to the disease. The lastest findings show a possible resemblance, but I think not. THis web-site helped me understand a lot! I plan to use some of this information in my research paper in a case-study format. Thanks, and goodluck! ~Emily (emijjacobs_82@hotmail.com)
Emily
Durham, NH USA - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 17:26:04 (EDT)
I am a 20 college student who has a very close cousin dealing with theis same diesese. He refuses to stay on his medication and has been back to the Mental Hospital 3 times in 2 years. This is the first website that has push the issue of medication so strongly. I want to thank you and I will keep on praying for you and your health. I have some questions. If you read this e-mail me at MaverickRowdy41@aol.com. Thanks
Joshua Guinn
Burleson, Texas US - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 16:11:22 (EDT)
Ich bin Gott und der Teufel!
Ich bin Gott.
NY, NY USA - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 15:57:37 (EDT)
I AM CURRENTLY RESEARCHING MATRIACHIAL SOCIETIES AFTER AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION WITH A FRIEND, WHO INSISTS THAT ALL SOCIETIES HAVE TAKEN A DOWNWARD CYCLE WITH THE APPERANCE OF PATRIARCHIAL SOCIETIES, WHICH REPRESENT WAR, AGGRESSION, ETC. IT WAS ALSO STATED THAT WHEN WE RETURN TO THE WAYS OF THE MATRIARCHIAL SOCIETIES WAR WOULD BE NONEXISTENT AS IT WAS DURING A THOUSAND YEAR REIGN OF THE MATRIARCHS. WOULD YOU HAVE ANY INFO ON THIS PERIOD OF TIME, OR IS IT JUST MYTHICAL? THANKS, JAZIBEBI@AOL.COM
JAZI GERSI
LOS ANGELES, CA USA - Monday, April 14, 2003 at 14:46:08 (EDT)
I found your website very enspiring. I have had trouble with disorganized schizophrenia. A while ago i thought i was cured and stop taking clozapine but your website tells how important it is to do that. Thank you.
Faceless
U.K. - Friday, April 11, 2003 at 23:44:26 (EDT)
Gidday Ian, Awesome site!
Eileen
Upper Hutt, New Zealand - Friday, April 11, 2003 at 04:24:21 (EDT)
I am a high school psychology teacher, and your website provided me with such valuable resources that I have used in my classsroom. Thnak you so much. Your courage and determination are inspiring!
Sean Gaiser
Kensington, MD USA - Tuesday, April 08, 2003 at 22:33:12 (EDT)
FIGHT FOR LIFE PROJECT. I'm a social scientist/journalist living in Alberta, Canada searching for 1) personal stories on people living in Alberta who have had a family member suffering from any psychiatric disorder whose life ended in suicide, 2)personal stories from Alberta psychiatric patients/family members who have not been able to access an ethical standard of medical care for themselves/their relative, 3)stories from/about Alberta patients who have relapsed after going off medication on doctors advice/tacit permission. Any stories on the failures of the Alberta Medical system to provide ethical, accessible service to psychiatric patients Stories should be detailed yet concise, double spaced and written under a pseudonym to protect patient/family privacy. I am looking for facts rather than writing style.Include a telephone number and/or e-mail address so that I can contact you if I need further details. I do not open files so please send cut and paste e-mail or mail hard copy to Fight For Life c/o 9848 Oakhill Drive SW, Calgary, Alberta T2V 3X2. The collection of stories will be used to build the foundation of the province-wide Fight For Life Campaign in memory of all those that the system has failed. I am assisted in this project by a number of members in good standing of the Schizophrenia Society of Alberta, Calgary Chapter. Please feel free to circulate this notice far and wide. E. Matthews.
E. Matthes
Calgary, AB Canada - Tuesday, April 08, 2003 at 20:20:17 (EDT)
same here I agree with charity!
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fgj, jsg Canada - Tuesday, April 08, 2003 at 15:18:43 (EDT)
i am yet another student studying this subject and i find it very interesting i like this subject and i want to thank you for putting all this info on the net for us too find
student at southridge high school
beaverton, OR America - Tuesday, April 08, 2003 at 15:18:37 (EDT)
Hello I am a freshman student researching schichzophrena in freshman and I find this very interesting and I want to thank you for providing all this information. Chloe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Chloe
Beaverton, OR America - Tuesday, April 08, 2003 at 15:06:03 (EDT)
I am a college psych student doing research on schizophrenia, and, like Daisy, have found your page very useful and informative. I also think its great that you are using your first hand knowledge about this disorder to educate and help others. Hats off to you...you definitly have my respect and best wishes...
L
Buffalo, NY USA - Monday, April 07, 2003 at 21:50:37 (EDT)
Hello, i am a college student doing a research on schizophrenia, i became very interested in this particular disorder after taking a psychology course and reading a short story on a person with this disorder. Thanks to references i have found your home page very useful for my reasearch, it is a very good source because i get the view of a person who is living with this disorder. Thank you.
Daisy
Buffalo, NY USA - Monday, April 07, 2003 at 20:03:52 (EDT)
I have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophenia and I found your information to be very informative I am currently taking Risperidone my symptoms are controlled but I have a very dry mouth every morning, and a sore tongue. I am wondering if there are any other atypical medications that don't have these side effects. Sincere best wishes Timothy Christopher
Timothy Christopher
Ottawa, ont Canada - Sunday, April 06, 2003 at 22:13:40 (EDT)
Ian, my name is kellen. You were suppost to attend my class on April 3. Due to the weather i was unable to attend school. I dont know if you came or not but i wish that i could have made it. I found your site and in that class i am doin a project on Schizophrenia. If you are unable to attend. I will share you story in class. My Old best friend was diagnosed when i was about 13 or 14 years old. He was kicked out of his house and now lives in kitchener. Glad to hear your story and hope to see you someday.
kellen allison
Guelph, on Canada - Sunday, April 06, 2003 at 20:46:49 (EDT)
hi.. glad to see this website.. my brother, 20, is suffering from paranoid schizophrenia for abt 2 yrs plus but he never admits that he has this mental illness. i am at my wit's end as to how i can help him. He has been admitted into a mental hospital for 2 times already. He started to refuse medication these few weeks and i am very worried that he will have a relapse soon... He feels that my dad and elder sis are harming him. believed that my sis is a vampire.. Can someone help me? he strongly believed that Risperadol harms him.. I really hope my brother can take his med so as to control his condition.. can email me at soapie88@hotmail.com? Hope someone can reply me and give me some advice.. Thank You very Much!
Soapie
Singapore - Saturday, April 05, 2003 at 09:11:46 (EST)
You have a wonderful and informative site. I learned a lot reading what you have here. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you much success in your recovery. Many people will benefit from the information that you have taken time to type out. I will think of you often. Keep up the good work with the site and keep hanging in there! Angel Annie (Random Acts of Kindness)
Angel Annie
Canada - Thursday, April 03, 2003 at 20:06:36 (EST)
we were doing a project at school and this is really helpful
chelsea and melanie
christchurch, New Zealand - Thursday, April 03, 2003 at 19:25:47 (EST)
hey, remember me? my mom is Schizophrenic and bipolar, is there any chance that she could be normal again?? I wish someday I'll be able to see her and how she used to be. Now she seems so lost, I cant see her ever being able to take care of herself. It seems like prayer can be the only way.. am I wrong? my email is anglbaby72@hotmail.com thanks again for the info.
Christine
Thousand Oaks, CA USA - Thursday, April 03, 2003 at 19:11:19 (EST)
I was wondering if a person who has been diagnosed as schizophrenia and is on medicine, can ever get their same mind back. Do these medicines change the mind completely. I don't think that a person is ever normal again after they have been on medicine.
jim johnson
seattle, Wa usa - Wednesday, April 02, 2003 at 21:15:41 (EST)
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Wonderful website, great insight into something which is very misunderstood.
Billy
Edinburgg, Scotland - Monday, March 31, 2003 at 23:57:42 (EST)
My names melissa and i have a friend that has this disease. He is the nicest most gentle person i have ever met. I just want to know how i can handle this disease better. He has accepted it but i have not and i would like to help him more then anything. if you have any suggestions please e-mail me at missy_144@yahoo.ca. I love this web page it helped me understand him more. thank you so much for all the good information.
Melissa
prince albert , sk Canada - Monday, March 31, 2003 at 21:52:50 (EST)
Thank you for taking the time to compile all of this info for people with Schizophrenia and their families. I found the online resources pages to be very helpful. You are very intelligent and insightful. It is rare to come across someone with Schizophrenia who is aware of their own illness. I too suffer from Schizoaffective disorder. I have been suffering for about twenty years. Risperdal and now Abilify have been very helpful. I also understand that my beleifs may well be delusions and I try not to take them so seriously. I beleive that I have been abductd by aliens and that I am thought broadcasting to other people and that I can read other peoples minds. I feel as though I have no boundaries and that I am on a stage for all the world to see and hear. I feel as though I have no privacy, and that everyone in town knows I am mentally ill. I am trying to turn that into an asset rather than a liabilty. I am hoping to become a peer counselor. I lived in independant living for nine years and regularly counseld and helped my fellow Schizophrenics. I enjoy helping people understand the differnce between reality and fantasy. I also enjoy reassuring people that there is hope and help in taking medications. I am a writer and am working on a novel about a woman who recovers from mentall illness. I also write short stories. I am trying to put my florid imagination to work writing fiction, so as to channel my fantasies into something financially rewarding. I am trying to get off of disability and go back to work. I have injoyed your website and will recommend it to other people with this illness. Thank you for taking the time to help others.
rae coleman
lynchburg, va usa - Monday, March 31, 2003 at 05:20:25 (EST)
Thank you for taking the time to compile all of this info for people with Schizophrenia and their families. I found the online resources pages to be very helpful. You are very intelligent and insightful. It is rare to come across someone with Schizophrenia who is aware of their own illness. I too suffer from Schizoaffective disorder. I have been suffering for about twenty years. Risperdal and now Abilify have been very helpful. I also understand that my beleifs may well be delusions and I try not to take them so seriously. I beleive that I have been abductd by aliens and that I am thought broadcasting to other people and that I can read other peoples minds. I feel as though I have no boundaries and that I am on a stage for all the world to see and hear. I feel as though I have no privacy, and that everyone in town knows I am mentally ill. I am trying to turn that into an asset rather than a liabilty. I am hoping to become a peer counselor. I lived in independant living for nine years and regularly counseld and helped my fellow Schizophrenics. I enjoy helping people understand the differnce between reality and fantasy. I also enjoy reassuring people that there is hope and help in taking medications. I am a writer and am working on a novel about a woman who recovers from mentall illness. I also write short stories. I am trying to put my florid imagination to work writing fiction, so as to channel my fantasies into something financially rewarding. I am trying to get off of disability and go back to work. Thank you for letting me share and good luck to you. Keep up the good work.
rae coleman
lynchburg, va usa - Monday, March 31, 2003 at 05:10:04 (EST)
My life is a love story. I never did marry before and then when i did i think for the first time in 26 years of sickness i will make it into remission something others in well developed countries may of always had. I had toxic parents. Best days of my life. We met in a boarding home and went out on are own. I have worked all my life and because of decreased human rights on American military bases had to leave my job. I did get paid disability. I, however, was so haughted by my abuse in leaving my job, then I sought hospitalization in a mental institution. I was rejected and just lived by myself. I then sought a boarding home and was kindly admitted finally. After I readjusted what was happening I left and figured out a strategy for fooling the mental ward into admitting me so my medicine to be worked on. After I got through that I left the area so they could never do that to me again. Such is life in Jersey Shore, Monmouth County, New Jersey, United States. This is only one small chapter in my life and the marriage is just beginning to be another, but that will private. I must admit if you study my case I am not a well educated person even though I am a college graduated. My doctors and Jersey Shore and Marlboro Mental hospital have asked me to die to save social security disability and I never expected that to happen in my life. I went into such a slump I never did live in reality for a long time. Some people just do not need to, so it seems.
Frank Kurian
Toms River, NJ United States - Sunday, March 30, 2003 at 20:11:32 (EST)
I was recently reading about omega fatty acids and schizophrenia and wanted to tell people that they do not work. I was recently diagnosed as having schizophrenia, and prior to that I had been a health nut taking lecithin, flaxseed oil and everything because I wanted good brain health. Unbeknowst to me these are the things that caused my schizophrenia. I started becoming delusional. Although the delusions wer not severe I feel that taking these health supplements made it worse.
kim kershaw
indianapolis, ID Canada - Friday, March 28, 2003 at 20:38:15 (EST)
My son got sz at 19. No diagnosis for two years, then he made a suicide attempt. No meds helped much. Seroquel slowly helped get rid of the voices but he put on lotsa weight so stopped taking them and instead took up meditation. Last year he died of suicide at 25. I had many questions and this site answered so many but I would still like help to understand some things. If anyone has time, could you answer : How sz started for you. What info if any did docs give on first diagnosis. How long does one usually stay on meds which dont work before changing. Why do some people get issued with antidepressants and sleeping pills. Do older dads or grandads commonly crop up in the ancestors of sufferers. My email is szinquirer@hotmail.com
jin boggins
toronto, ontario Canada - Friday, March 28, 2003 at 14:27:29 (EST)
Hi, i am doing a project on schizophrenia for school and i found your site very helpful. thank you. twizzler703@yahoo.com
Michele
Columbia, MD US - Friday, March 28, 2003 at 14:20:22 (EST)
Excellent descriptions of schizophrenia. Will recommend this site for others wanting information on schizophrenia.
Harry Snyders
Chilliwack, BC Canada - Friday, March 28, 2003 at 11:54:44 (EST)
Thank you for your amazing information.
Matthew Fullerton
Coarsegold, CA California - Thursday, March 27, 2003 at 22:37:01 (EST)
i am a schizophrenia patient too! please contact me! my email is wwlam70@hotmail.com i have that experience in 1999-2002 it was weird and went to several hospital in Vancouver. (i don't want to name them) :) very infomative site!
wendy lam
vancouver, bc Canada - Thursday, March 27, 2003 at 17:34:48 (EST)
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Canada - Wednesday, March 26, 2003 at 20:55:45 (EST)
Hi I just wanted to give you my correct e-mail marfinno@yahoo
maureen
ny usa - Wednesday, March 26, 2003 at 00:35:22 (EST)
I am bipolar and I was recently given a haldol injection for 5 months. I am now off it but I feel like I cannot continue with life. I feel brain dead and I cannot come up with thoughts for writing papers for college. I was wondering if you know when I will get back to normal. Your ability to write is excellent. How do you do it while on drugs? I know Olanzapine does not interfer much but what happened when you were on stelazine? Great web page maureen mfinno@yahoo.com
maureen
new york, usa - Wednesday, March 26, 2003 at 00:29:40 (EST)
I was born with this problem too. i have hallucinations of my dead grandfather choking me at night. sometimes i talk to aliens in my head. once i even talked to a piece of meat. you web site helped me thank you
Brittany R
Pikeville, KY US - Tuesday, March 25, 2003 at 21:26:03 (EST)
This site really helped answer a lot of questions I've been asking myself for awhile. My biological mother has Schizophrenia and is bipolar. I was adopted when I was three but I still am really close to her side of the family. I met her recently for the first time, last Christmas 2002. I was warned ahead of time what she would be like, but I had no idea just the same. Surprisingly I was immediately accepting her for who she is now, but angry and sad for her because of how much it had destroyed her. I had seen pictures of her before and how beautiful she used to be, its unreal how something can change a person so much and have the power to basically steal their life away. She's on medication, but to me it feels like she doesnt have the ability to feel. She can never make up her mind about anything and she lives with other people who have mental illnesses. As far as I know, I will only know her this way. Lost, just waiting for someone to rescue her. My grandparents (her parents) think that one day there will be something that can help her. I'm hoping their right. Wow, I wasnt planning on writing a whole life story, thnx for taking the time to read this, I still have a lot to understand about this illness, but this site answered a lot of questions others werent able to answer for me. always~ Christine
Christine
Thousand Oaks, CA USA - Tuesday, March 25, 2003 at 08:27:07 (EST)
very interesting site - Oh bugger. I meant to say that I now believe treatment would NOT turn me into a vegetable. (While I'm feeling confident, I've not yet started treatment and I'm distracted.)
Nick Argall
Australia - Monday, March 24, 2003 at 05:06:38 (EST)
Thank you for putting this site up. When I watched _A Beautiful Mind_ and identified with John Nash, I thought I was in trouble. This site convinced me that the help available from the professionals was worth getting, and that I would end up being turned into a vegetable or having my remaining quality of life destroyed. I saw my GP today, and was only halfway through my story when he started ringing psychiatrists to make an appointment for me. I've already lost my job, but this help may be just in time to save my marriage. Even if it doesn't, for the first time I can remember, I have a feeling like there is a net to catch me if I fall. (Also, the obvious intelligence of this site reassures me that the anti-psychotics won't turn me into a smiling idiot.) Has anyone researched a possible connection between improved remission rates in undeveloped nations and polytheistic religion? I managed to achieve a partial remission without drugs from my (mild) episode last year. One thing that helped (I think) was my belief that I was communicating with spirits, not angels or demons. Anyway, thanks again for a site that has been a vital help at a very difficult time.
Nick Argall
Australia - Monday, March 24, 2003 at 05:02:07 (EST)
Hello Very nice site . I have already bookmarked it. Best wishes for You, Mike Me
Mike
Cracow, - Poland - Monday, March 24, 2003 at 04:09:00 (EST)
hi Ian do you have any information on the use of allopurinal a medication used for Gout in combination with antipsychotics to eliminate negative symptoms of schizophrenia thanks BC canada
katie
Canada - Friday, March 21, 2003 at 14:37:45 (EST)
Loved your story. I'm just starting out in the mental health area in Scotland and am working with homeless people with mental heath problems.Your story , being in the first person, was very informative and I've passed it on to all my collegues. I think it would make a great short film aswell and I felt there was a great deal of humour and empathy there. Wishing you all the best....Gavin O' Keeffe
gavin okeeffe
glasgow, scotland - Thursday, March 20, 2003 at 08:02:08 (EST)
Nice Site! Thanks.dvd
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Canada - Thursday, March 20, 2003 at 03:33:30 (EST)
Hi- I'm a counselor who works with folks who deal with many troublesome disorders off and on meds. My heart just warmed when I stumbled onto your site trying to research some info for one of my current patients. I just wanted to say thank you. I have met and spent time speaking with many people diagnosed with schizophrenia and for the most part I have met many fascinating and highly intelligent folks. Thank you for being articulate, hopeful and informed. It heightens my awareness concerning possibilities and I will also be steering people to your sight to have their own hearts warmed. Again, thank you for your openness. Venice
Venice Gallegos
Pueblo, CO usa - Wednesday, March 19, 2003 at 00:03:17 (EST)
i still have all my imaginary friends from when i was little plus more. i am now nineteen am i a schizo oh plus i see de,ons and shit email me at spike_918819@fastmail.ca
Scarlett Angel
Prelate, sk Canada - Tuesday, March 18, 2003 at 21:35:29 (EST)
Hey, great job on this webpage. You seem to display a very high knowledge of schizophrenia, and all of its aspects. May God bless you and all of those stricken with such an illness.
Zak
United States - Tuesday, March 18, 2003 at 20:21:58 (EST)
VERY SCARY STUFF MAN. THE KID WHO LIVES WITH ME CARRIES ON A CONVERSATION WITH THE THIN AIR. ONCE I SAW HIM SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF HIS LUNGS AND SWEARING AND HOLDING A CONVERSATION WITH A BUILDING OUTSIDE. I WAS TRAVELING BY IN MY CAR AND HE HAD NO IDEA I SAW HIM. WHEN CONFRONTED ABOUT THE TALKING "YELLING" HE TELLS ME HE IS "TALKING OUT LOUD". HE WAS A VICTIM OF "THE SYSTEM" BOTH AT HOME AND "IN THE SYSTEM" NOT TO MENTION A VICTIM OF PARENTAL INCEST AT AGE 5 WHICH HE ADMITS TO "SOMEWHAT" BY SAYING HE'LL TAKE HIS SECRET TO HIS GRAVE. HE SAW HIS 1 YEAR OLDER THAN HIM SISTER GET RAPED REPEATEDLY BY THEIR FATHER. THE FATHER IS DEAD NOW. THANK GOD. HE DIED OF EMPHYSEMA. ANYWAY, HE HAS NOT SEEN THE MAN SINCE 8 YRS OF AGE, ANYHOW, CAN THOSE EVENTS CAUSE THE KID TO BE SCHIZO? ANOTHER MAN I KNOW IS AND IS MEDICATED WHERE AS MY FRIEND IS NOT. I HEAR SCHIZOS DO NOT LIKE TO TAKE THE MEDS. WHY? THIS GUY TURNED OFF ALL THE ELECTRIC IN THE HOUSE BECAUSE HE FELT LIKE IT. HE USED TO BE A NORMAL POSTAL WORKER, ALTHOUGH A LITTLE STRANGE I HEARD. WELL MISTER, THANKS FOR YOUR SITE, I WILL READ UP MORE ON IT, I SAW "A BEAUTIFUL MIND" THAT IS WHAT THE GUY HAD RIGHT? WHAT A TERRIBLE DISEASE.
KASSIE ANN
NY USA - Saturday, March 15, 2003 at 21:30:24 (EST)
My fourteen year old son was hosptalized two years ago--diagnosis, schizophrenia vs schizo-affective vs bi-polar--the doctors seem to have divided opinions. Nevertheless he takes massive amounts of medications and still has recurring symptoms. It's been a nightmare. Thanks for your informative and encouraging site.
Rose
USA - Saturday, March 15, 2003 at 10:47:23 (EST)
Hi You have given me more information about this disorder than any doctor ever has. I have had schizoaffective since I was 19 years old and the doctor I had then kept skirting around the question. I hace had this disorder with bi-polar type. Sometimes it is very hard to explain to anyone how to help. So thank you very much. wendy
wendy
fullerton, CA United States - Friday, March 14, 2003 at 18:07:10 (EST)
thanks for your honesty and courage in living with your disorder, I am a master's level student wanting more information on schizophrenia and found your website really helpful. Best of luck.
jennifer
chicago, il us - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 at 16:08:29 (EST)
This is one of the best websites I have seen on Schizofrenia. I am 19 yrs. old, and have always been reading up on the illness because my mom has it. My family and I haven't been in contact with her for 13 years, but just trying to understand the disease makes it easier to understand what she might have gone through.
Katrina
Golden, CO United States - Wednesday, March 12, 2003 at 15:38:06 (EST)
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Pat Goodson
Canada - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 at 19:52:04 (EST)
Hiya Im a 19year old drama student and we have been given a task to produce a piece of drama of wateva content we want, we were put in groups of 6 and we had a 5 hour meeting of brainstorming an we have decided to research into different ways that people go through War, Schitzophrenia is 1 of the areas I have picked to go in depth with. I would really love to have a proper talk with you if you are willing to because we dont want to portray Schitzophrenia in a funy or offensive way so we mite need sum 1st hand knowledge. Please get back to me on: ejfd4eva@aol.com Thank you very much for your excelent website xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Ellie
Abergele, North Wales, U.K - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 at 15:09:44 (EST)
I am a Theatre Student at Plymouth University in the UK and for my final performance, Claire - who i am working with - and I have decided to explore the mind, concentrating on Schizophrenia. Your story has fascinated both of us. As a result of being gripped to every page we would very much like to use some of your stories. Thank you for writing such inspiring stories. Anna.
Anna
Devon, UK - Tuesday, March 11, 2003 at 10:36:49 (EST)
Mr Chovil, I have created a website www.schizophrenia-the-experience.com It is not yet complete, but I am curious what you think of it. I admit it is not nearly as good as yours, but I am working on it. I also admit it has only been up one or two months, but I have recieved absolutly no traffic. I would have thought I would have received at least one guestbook entry by now. I actually corresponded with you a while back, you were instrumental in helping me identify where I could get a guest book which I thank you. I am interested in finding out what you thought of the site. Your opinion is considered of great value. Thank You Lucky Lou E-mail:lsiano@optonline.net
Loris P. Siano
Edison, NJ United States - Monday, March 10, 2003 at 19:23:45 (EST)
I HAVE FRIEND WHOSE MOTHER HAS SCHIZOPHRENIA, AND EVEN THOUGH I HAVE WORKED WITH THE MENTALLY ILL (MANY YEARS AGO)--I HAVE FORGOTTON MANY OF THE ASPECTS OF THIS DISEASE. MY FRIEND GET'S VERY FRUSTRATED WITH HER MOTHER, SO, I'M ON YOUR WEBSITE TRYING TO HELP HER AND HER FAMILY WITH INFORMATION, ANYTHING I CAN FIND. THIS HAS BEEN A WONDERFUL HELP. YOU HAVE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF THE RESOURCES THAT ARE OUT THERE FOR YOU TO USE, AND PERSONALLY, I AM VERY PROUD OF YOU FOR NOT JUST ACCEPTING THIS DISEASE, AND NOT HELPING YOURSELF. YOU HAVE DONE VERY WELL FOR YOURSELF. YOU SHOULD BE VERY PROUD. GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS
LEIGHANN PARKER
MONROE, NC USA - Monday, March 10, 2003 at 09:05:11 (EST)
I am a pharmacy student at Auburn Universtiy and I am taking a class on schizophrenia. Your website is great and has given my a lot of insight into the disease. Thank you!!
Katie McLure
Auburn, AL USA - Sunday, March 09, 2003 at 23:36:39 (EST)
Kudos to your website. I, myself, have had 3 psychotic episodes since 1999 and my diagnosis is not too clear. I had been diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, bipolar, schizoaffective, and the doctor I have now thinks it's not important to label me. Coming to terms with my illness and my past experiences has been difficult but reading your story was inspirational. You have been through so much and it sounds like you've come out on top. Thank you sooooooo much for sharing your story. It's important for people such as myself who are coming to terms with our illness to see another's experience and success. Thank you so much.
Michelle
Redondo Beach, CA United States - Sunday, March 09, 2003 at 23:23:58 (EST)
I had the pleasure of workiing with Ian for several years in Guelph. Ian has been an example to me of how to relate to others, and of compassion. His ongoing recovery has given me the hope needed to continue supporting people with mental health difficulties in the community. Thanks Ian, and next time you're visiting in Kitchener, give me a call. -Rob.
Rob Martin
Kitchch 09, 2003 at 09:19:31 (EST)
hi! good day my friend i'm also a schizopronic man i am 28 years old and i'm so much thankful that i learned to deal with it, i also experienced the things you experienced and i have got a courage of myself. firstly, i pity to those people who are like us but as i read your column i realize that there is still beauty in the life of schizoprenia victim, theres still hope... thanks for your column it really encourage me. wiping my tears and face the truth and deal the truth. we are the captain of our soul and we ourselves is the the only way to know the truth and to know that it is not..... thanks my friend
geffen panganiban
cebu, cebu city philippines - Sunday, March 09, 2003 at 01:23:44 (EST)
My son who is 27years old has been detected by a pshycatrist here as Schezoprenia. He was being treated for this since then. He was prescribed espazine,Parkin and Olienz tabs. He is very pesimist now and says that he will never be recovering from this illness. He says some power within his body and whenever he is out of engagement this power speaks to him. He is getting sounds.etc. Any body comes across this please be in touch with me and explain whether this desease can be cured by medication. If with what kind of medication. My mailing address is oxfordsindia@hotmail.com. My son is completed MBA at Karnataka Open University recently
abdul salam
Cochin - India, ke INDIA - Friday, March 07, 2003 at 07:57:16 (EST)
I really like your website..it's very informative...i'm currently doing a research and it helped me a great deal. thanks! myra@myra-hissami.com
Myra
Laguna Niguel, CA USA - Friday, March 07, 2003 at 02:14:08 (EST)
I was looking for some info. on schizophrenia for a project for my high school psychology project and came by your sight and it helped me out alot. thanks alot.
carleen jensen
west jordan, ut usa - Thursday, March 06, 2003 at 19:11:57 (EST)
Hello Ian, Ive suffered with chronic schizophrenia for the past 24 years,also chronic alcoholism because of the symptoms of the disease.Ive read your web-sites And I can identify!I would like to help people with the personal story of schizophrenia and how to break the stigma here in the U.S.Its really like a foreign language here.I admire what Canada has done for you as far as your accomplishments there.Iwould like to do that here in (little Pekin IL)or educate people more in the United States obout this devastating disease.Keep up the good work!
Todd Wytcherley
Pekin, IL. United States - Wednesday, March 05, 2003 at 22:37:56 (EST)
A copy of your essay on meaningful activity was sent to me by a colleague, I enjoyed this very much. Visited and have bookmarked your site as there is so much to read. I am a mental health worker developing resources in southern England and I am trying to get people to change the way they think about people who have had episodes. Recovery!
Penny Wilkinson
Winchester, U.K. - Wednesday, March 05, 2003 at 09:50:43 (EST)
Wow i didnt know anything on this disease untill i read this websight. it was amazing and i learned alot. Im doing a class project on this subject and it help alot Thanks soo much
Alexa Watt
Victoria , BC Canada - Tuesday, March 04, 2003 at 14:47:37 (EST)
i don't really have any comments but to say say thanks for having a web page. I am a college student and my major is psychology and i found your web page very interesting
Libbey Gibbs
united states - Monday, March 03, 2003 at 15:44:55 (EST)
I was very moved by your history. I have many freinds who takes medication for psyiatric deseases ( I'm not sure that was the right spelling of the word) but I'm surprised that it seems to be almost impossible to get a longtims medication. At least if I'm lokking at my friends.
Ulf Larsson
Umea, Sweden - Monday, March 03, 2003 at 07:14:48 (EST)
Thank you so much for an inspiring story. Truly it's GOD who put you in that situation.YOU'RE the MAN!!!
grace urquia
quezon city, Philippines - Monday, March 03, 2003 at 00:21:55 (EST)
i came across your website looking for case studies for schizophrenia for a senior seminar presentation and paper. your story will be very useful and your privacy will be protected. congratulations of your recovery!! good luck in the future.
Marino Apollinari
Livonia, MI USA - Sunday, March 02, 2003 at 15:50:15 (EST)
Hi Ian, I should have visited your web site before now (March 2/03). I am working on a project with Conestoga College for an upgrade for RPNs on mental health. I came across your site when I was searching for schizophrenia. It is absolutely wonderful. I am sure you are very proud of your accomplishments. Take care Ian - by the way - I will recommend this site to students. Best Regards. Tricia Stiles
Tricia Stiles
Guelph, \ON Canada - Sunday, March 02, 2003 at 12:30:58 (EST)
Thank you for sharing your story on the net. I'm a nursing student and I chose to do a presentation about schizophrenia. I will use your story as the case study that we are required to present. Sharing your personal experience with others is a great educational tool. Once again, thank you kindly and all the best to you.
Marzena Mlynarski
Coquitlam, BC Canada - Saturday, March 01, 2003 at 23:50:07 (EST)
Hi it was an interesting article to see. I am interesting on this topic because of this,
Jessica Narvaez
Orlando, Fl Florida - Saturday, March 01, 2003 at 21:29:00 (EST)
Great, informative. I have schizophrenia. I don't take medications, maintain by force of will for the most part. It gets a bit old, having to constantly insist upon the rights and dignity other's seem to take for granted, but I'm not alone. I am proud of everyone of us who manages to deal with this and is a good person, doing their best. I am not ashamed and I won't accept anybody's damned stigma. You neither, don't let anybody define you by your condition, but by your character.
Richard Smith
Silver City, NM United States - Friday, February 28, 2003 at 20:27:12 (EST)
Hi. I was very..very impressed with your page.My best freind has scizophrenia, and I wanted to know more about it. I looked on some sites, but i have to say yours was one of the best. I admire your dedication. Great job!!
Jeanette
Halifax, ns Canada - Thursday, February 27, 2003 at 12:00:35 (EST)
http://www.successfulschizophrenia.com/articles/issues.html http://www.successfulschizophrenia.com http://www.schizophrenia-help.com/ http://imaginewhatif.com/Pages/double_bind.html#schizo There is more than one side to the story of schizophrenia above are some alternative links. Is it a biochemical disorder? Maybe, but to treat by useing what are essentially heavy tranquilizers seems prehistoric to me.
Jonathan Gibson
Juneau, AK United States of America - Wednesday, February 26, 2003 at 19:37:50 (EST)
I've found this site to be very helpful to me and I'm sure glad that I not the only person to have this disorder. Many Thanks Patrick
Patrick Terry
Centralia, IL USA - Wednesday, February 26, 2003 at 12:51:30 (EST)
http://www.familyfirstaid.org - is our site check it out.
kent o.
lv, nv usa - Tuesday, February 25, 2003 at 19:10:59 (EST)
Informative, up to date website! Great job! Thanks!
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Thank you for you informative website, I found it extremely interesting. I have Panic Disorder, so I realize just how little help there is from government funding for mental disorders. There is one other movie you didn't mention from the Hallmark movie collection called "The Promise". James Woods Plays a brilliant role as a schitzophrenic. You should check it out, it is a very good movie for people who don't understand the disease.
Laurie Morefield
Salem, Or United States -
Very impressive web site! God bless you for sharing your story. I am a lawyer who works with individuals who are mentally ill (Consent and Capacity matters, Criminal matters) and I have found your site to be very helpful. I suffer from depression, OCD and ADD myself, and I think that it's important for us to share our stories and especially our hope.
Paul Ianni
Hamilton, Ont Canada -
You're right about schizophrenia. I survive on 700 dollars a month in disability;hence,i live in a rooming house in a city I despise. I'm hoping my recently widowed father lets me move back home to Bayonne,N.J. so that I can be closer to him and my brother.
Greg Niewaidowski
Reading, Pa U.S. A. -
i really like this site. lagos boy.
obi lagos
canada, ca usa -
Hi!I Have gained a lot of information from your wonderful website,and also you have been a great source of inspiration for me as my friend is battling each day from the stigma and discrimination,I am fighting it and trying to gain more knowledge and also educating those who understand a human being than just mock at his illness. Thanks a lot for sharing your wonderful thoughts as I believe that an extra-ordinary is always possible. Good luck to you and once again you've made your mark to the world. With best regards, Oona Roy.
Oona Roy
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Hi, Mr Chovil. We are grade eleven students from Sisler High School in Winnipeg, Manitoba Canada. We are doing a science project on Schizophrenia and we found your site to be very informative. Thanks!
Sisler students
Winnipeg, MB Canada -
Thank you for this site. My father is schizophrenic and now I am beginning to understand what he was going through for so many years.
Irene
LeagueCity, TX USA -
Thanks so much for creating this website you helped me and my friends so much on our report we had to give for school your information was great and your story we used as an example in class thanks once again
Jessica
Canada -
Great Website!!
Monique
Washington DC, America -
That was great to know you,really.Thaks a lot !!! Mashka12@yahoo.com
Sergei Sorokin
Aspen, Colorado USA -
Well done, good job presenting info, thanks!
Chritian Novak
Anoka, MN USA -
I am a 19 yr. old female who was just recently diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and prescribed with zyprexa. i believed that I could deal with the symptoms and make them go away myself but seeing your page and "The wizard of Hope" I realized that my hallucinations would just evolve and instead of 90% of my mind believing them that my whole life would ultimatley become cosumed by this conspiracy in which I had no control. thank-you for helping me take myself seriously.
Danielle
St. John's, N.F.L.D Canada -
You are a very courageous gentleman! As a social worker with severely mentally ill people, I commend you on your effort to educate people and help others feel not so alone. Thank you! I will try and take some of my consumers to the library so they can visit your web page.
I
OH USA -
Hi i am doing a school report and i was wondering waht teh physical social and mental symptons are if u could please help me
Katie
Kirkwood, Mo USA -
I used your graphs and diagrams to help me do a presentation on schizophrenia in school.
Andrew
Moose Lake, MN United States -
I have been diagnosed with depression, schizophreniform disorder, schizophrenia, paranoid schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and schizo-affective disorder after spending five weeks in the hospital in 1984 when I was 25. After two years of depression I had a life changing religious experience and I was no longer depressed! I was born again and came to know God. I saw human society as being evil. I fell in love and pursued a younger student but was rejected. I became depressed again and then became psychotic. I believed the Anti-Christ had taken over the world and I was being raped by Satan. Not a pleasant experience. Eventually I ended up the hospital with delusions of grandeur and intense euphoria. When I was released I thought God had abandoned me and was suicidal. I still feel a little depressed at times and anxious and resentful but I am more or less O.K.
Ninanos Mymemaha
Babylon, Ont. Canada -
As chair of the ODSP Action Coalition, I was interested to read your page about the Ontario Disability Support Program. The points you make are certainly a few of the worst problems with this program (although there are a lot more). Others from Ontario who are interested in this issue could visit the web site of the Income Security Advocacy Centre (incomesecurity.org) for more information
Nancy Vander Plaats
Canada -
I am not schizophenic but I got high and was thinking what would it be like. I want to know if you have experiance with the "sitting and just looking out window" thing, you know. Not really there. please E-mail me. girlmagnetmaster@netscape.net
Adam
schenectady, ny usa -
i read about your ilness on a german homepage and i must say that i liked the report very much. we´ll gona hold a referendum at school about shizophrinia and i want to say thank you, because you helped us very much with you´re homepage
Kathrin
Wattenbek, S-H Germany -
Great Website, spent a houlf hour here!! Betty K.
Susan
york, NY USA -
Thank you for sharing. I am 21 I was dignose paranoic-schizophrenic at 16 it was like hell and nothing no drugs,no doctors,no religion, but the Lord Jesus himself talking to me,teaching me what was going on , got me out of my own mind,and today I am free. I will like to be able to share and help others. thank you
Carlos
Fort Lauderdale, Fl USA -
i also am diagnosed but with no medication so my message is dont give up!
veedar
dunfermline, scotland -
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Munich, Canada -
Thank you for your site. Its just amazing. I am so proud of you for taking the time to do this for all of us who have family Members who are ill, and for the ill ones themselves. I am going to print out some of this info for my son. God bless you. Akroban
Robin
Palmer, AK USA -

Andy Sanford
Vero Beach, FL USA -
Your website was very informative. You are very brave to put your story out there and I thank you for that. I have a friend/co-worker who is a diagnosed Schizophrenic. It is very hard to deal with her condition and constant pleas to believe that everyone is conspiring against her and that the fence is sending her subliminal messages. Some days I just can't deal with it and avoid her, but I truley hope that she can come to terms with her illness some day and make the best of her life, as you have done. Thank you
Julie
Litchfield, AZ USA -
Thank you for your story, it really helped me out! I was diagnosed with schizophernia when i has little and i know that it is very uncommon for a girl to get it when they are young but it happenes. I suffered for to long, sometimes i just want to give up but reading about someone that suffers with the same disorder and that are doing well is a plus. I'm 18 years old now and i'm seeking help. Yes i do still have some ups and downs but i have the love and support of my family, friends, and my wonderful husband. Life is finally getting better!!! Thank you again for your story it really helps to here when someone can live though the horror of the mental disorder that i have to deal with known as Schizoprenia. danielle
Danielle
Winston-Salem, NC United State -
What a very interesting and informative website you have. I am currently going through a psycotic episode and have found myself able to relate to what is written. It helps me believe that there is a light at the end of this long,dark tunnel. Once again, thanks Lee
Lee
Leeds, UK -
I think your very brave. I am pleased that you are feeling more positive now and have some nice friends.
Jon
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Thank you for sharing your story, my long time friend has been diagnosed, can not accept that he has a treatable illness and has disappeared, only to leave a message "that he is fine and on the west coast." Your story helped to explain many of the things that he does, good luck. Waht would be your advice as the best way to help someone in this condition accept treatment?
Chris
Detroit, MI USA -
Thank you for your willingness to open you live so that others can find the path to healing. Our Son was recently diagonised and it's been a hard road. thanks for making it a little better! Questt@excite.com
cheryl
New castle, DE United States -
Your are brave and your site is marvelous!
Ellen
San Francisco, CA United States -
I need to get in contact with you as soon as possible! This story made me cry! I am seeing a man now and think that he may be schizophrenic! I don't know if i'm just letting my mind run wild with the stories he is telling me or if there is something wrong. I don't want him to get mad so i need to speak with someone else for some advice! Please anyone that can help me email me as soon as possible!!!! Lyric07@aol.com thank you!!!!!
Kim
USA -
Your story should be told to everyone who suffers from this sickness. This story would certainly help them!
Robert
Ried, Upper Austria Austria -
Amazing story you have. I completly admire your will to go on and I hope that your recovery continues. =)
Amy
Sumner, WA USA -
I am a psychology student at the university of Malta and thus I found your story very interesting and most of all very informative. i think that you are a very courageous person and you deserve all the admiration in the world. through your courage you are helping people who are in the same situation as you are and have lost faith. hope the new year will give you joy and happiness.
elaine
Malta -
I am a psychology student at the university of Malta and thus I found your story very interesting and most of all very informative. i think that you are a very goregeous person and you deserve all the admiration in the world. through your courage you are helping people who are in the same situation as you are and have lost faith. hope the new year will give you joy and happiness.
elaine
Malta -
Thank you so much. I have found the most informative insiteful information on your webpage..As a mother with a 24 year old son with schizophrenia there is little info out there for the family. This has given me great insight on his illness and how to help him. It was like readind about him. Thank you job well done!
Amy herman
Connellsville, PA usa -
i really like the fact that you put your picture on the site, i can see that you are just a normal human being and the mystique of the illness is lost and one can see the plain truth of how anyone can be affected by mental illness. usually i would not bother to take the time to write something like this but i like your site so much and the fact that you are recovering and putting your story out on the web so that people can understand the often destitute plight of people with schizophrenia, i just had to tell you. thank you for your compassion and endurence in putting this site up for others. and i hope you find peace of mind and happiness in the rest of your days.
vanessa
toronto, on Canada -
Great information. It is just what I needed for a school paper. Good luck to you and my God bless you.
Pat
USA -
What can you tell me about split personalities or multiple personalities. As I have a loved one who has been experiencing problems for a number of years. It has recently gotten worse and she is currently in the hospital. As much information on this subject would be appreciated. Thank You
John Hill
122 Ellis St., Ft Leonard Wood, MO U.S.A -
Thanks for all your information and it has helped me a lot to understand people who are suffering from 'Schizophrenia'.
Cho
Seoul , Korea -
I do not have any mental disorder. I agree with much of you points, especially about AIDS being a way to keep our population in check. Your points are much thought out. Do you write books?
Cherrie Sage
Manchester, tn USA -
Your page has been very helpful. Ten years down the road and I'm starting to stabilize. It's an inspiration to read your site. Thankyou Damian
Damian
Brisbane, QLD Australia -
Good luck
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Montreal, Qc Canada -
Good luck and happy new year! http://www.logo21.com
Dan
Montreal, Qc Canada -
I was born to a mother with the disease, a mother who for years I was made to feel ashamed of. I also wasted many of my adolescent years waiting, as I put it to go "crazy". Unfortunately my mother is now in a grouphome and I was raised in the fostercare system. I am no longer ashamed of my mother nor do I sit and wait to go "crazy". I am glad that the medications are working for you, and wish you much success. I am now a junior in college, hoping to be a social worker. I hope to one day work with people that have mental illnesses, because I feel that they are our forgotten angels.
Afi Byrd
Durham, NC Durham -
I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR TREATMENT AND STUFF. I AM 13 AND I AM DOING A PAPER ON THIS AND THIS SITE IS GREAT FOR A PRIMARY SOURCE. I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND I WRITE ABOUT YOUR EXPERIENCE. MY FRIENDS MOM HAS SCHIZOPHRENIA AND IS CURRENTLY TAKING MEDICATION BUT WON'T GET BETER SHE KEEPS TRYING TO ESCAPE. WELL THANX
JESSICA
RATHER NOT, CA USA -
hello i am a senior in columbia high school i have to do a senior project and my topic is Schizophrenia. i have to write a short story as if i had schizophrenia. if u would like to help me with some ideas please email me at babyg_27925@yahoo.com thanks jess
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columbia , nc united states -
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zach
st clair shores, MI USA -
Thank you for all the info. I wish you could write to me because theres some tinhs i don't undrestand. I got married 3 months ago and i'm expecting a baby and my spouse resently came out with this sickness and i don't know what to. Is the realtionship going to work now?? is he going to be a good father?? well i hope you write back. My e-mail is Jezag618@aol.com
Jezabel Rentas
Union Beach, NJ USA -
Hey! Thanks for all of the information! I've learned a lot, and it also helped me in a play/trial thing I had to do in English. Always, Nicky
Nicky
Clovis, NM USA -
My brother was diagnosed today. Thank you for your honesty and testimony.
Sister
Tempe, AZ USA -
Your site helped me out in a term paper. Thanks!
Nick
Minot, ND United States -
Thank you for putting a site like this on internet. It was an interesting read for me.
Morgan
Strasburg, VA USA -
I really Appreciated all the information on your site. I was doing a research project on Schizophrenia, and this brought it into a new perspective for me. Thank you.
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Ian Chovil
Guelph, ON Canada -
I just want to thank you, you came to talk to my gym class earlier this year, and it taught me a lot, because of your story I chose to do my final summative on Schizophrenia. Coincidentally I found your site and it helped me again to find the information I needed!! So again thank you for sharing everything, if I was in your situation I'm not sure I'd be able to do what you do, your story was truly inspirational, and I think it's just amazing that you are taking the time to share everything, and to educate others. yours sincerly, Caitlin
Cailtin
Cambridge, On Canada -
This is super! Much faster loading. I periodically go through the pages and re-discover things that are important to me. Happy new year to everyone seeing this message! - http://myhome24.info - Bob
Bob
South-West Germany -
Excellent website, very informative. Keep up the excellent work - - Harry.
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lou
united states -
I am a 16 year old student and I have recently been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I've probably had it for a while. I'm living in a group home. This is a great site. Anybody feel free to email me. Bye.
Jenn Seguin phantomphase@hotmail.com
Cornwall, ON Canada -
helped me a lot for social studies project. very interesting
kaylyn skitso
belle vernon, pa united states -
I am about to open a new website about my life experience with schizophrenia. I thought I would check and see what other websites are saying about the subject. I found your website among others. When I get my site up and running, may I refer to your website for another opinion? I live in the south and there is still a lot of misunderstanding about the problem, including the belief that the medication is satanic. I am 68-years-old and my life is so much better now--especially with the better medication. Thanks for your site. Juanita
Juanita Franklin manger@tampabay.rr.com
winter haven, fl usa -
I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I am 63 years old. I have been on atypical antipsychotics for 15 months now, and I am greatly improved. I no longer hear voices or suffer many delusions. I lost 7 years of my life though, and I feel like my brain failed me at a time when i needed it most. I was abandoned by my family, widowed and my mother died. I was disinherited, and I feel terribly cheated. I wound up broke and in a homeless shelter. I lived in a state of terror. Today I do not feel threatened. I have been in my own apartment for 14 months now, and I am trying to resume a normal life, but the memories of my experiences haunt me. Good luck to you, me, and all others that suffer schizophrenia, a terrible disease.
Virginia Farrell vfarrell20022002@yahoo.com
Honolulu, HI USA -
Hi My granddaughter is 12 and has been going thru some very bad times. It seems to get worse as she gets older. She has had "fits", which we used to think were like epilepsy, but then we began to think she was "possessed". We even considered taking her to a Catholic church to be "exorcised". As she got older, she began "seeing" things and dead people, whom she said scared her. Eventually she ended up on Paxil and Risperdol, but not until she was much older. The RIsperdol had bad side effects, causing her to gain an extremely large amt. of weight. At this time she is on an increased dosage of Paxil and Serequil. Her "episodes" are not as bad or as frequent, but much more scarry. When she is having one of these "episodes" she threatens to kill herself. She tells her (divorced) mother she hates her and wants to be "locked up" to find out what is wrong with her head. She is well aware that she is "out of control" but no one can get thru to her or "help" her. Eventually ( last nite it lasted 4 hours) she MIGHT either go to sleep or eventually "calm down" After her episode last nite, this morning she told her mother she "tries to be good, but sometimes something makes her be bad and say and do things she can't control." It is a very pathetic situationhasn't gone off the "deep end". This child is her whole life. Her ex husband ( the childs father) had been diagnosed as manic depressive. Unfortunatly, my daughter never knew this or she might not have married him. In any case, he was supposed to be on Lithium and would never take it. With HIS moods swings and my granddaughters' mood swings, my daughter had to get out of the marriage. At this time the father is in jail on some kind of assault charge, and my granddaughter is having a problem coping with that, also. Not that she and her father were close, but she wants a father like everyone else has. The problem is, no one can cope with her when she gets in one of her "moods". I call her mother a Saint because she has put up with so much. And I am so afraid there is more ( and worse) to come. My daughter is going to talk to the dr. in a few weeks and see if she MIGHT be schizophrenic, and if she is, if there is anything that might help. The problem is, up until this point, there hasn't been a dr. that will officially diagnose her with anything. I am wondering if there are "support groups" anywhere. I am worried about my granddaughter doing something to herself, but I am more worried about my daughter reaching the end of her rope and not being able to cope with this child. We have considered hospitalization, but can't bring ourselves to do that to this beautiful, suffering child. Thank you for listening. Any advice you, or anyone else can offer would be greatly appreciated. There is so much more to all this suffering she is going thru, but I am not going to go into all that. It would fill up volumes of books. Thanks again for listening Joyce in Tennessee
Joyce citygirl_43612_58@yahoo.com
nashville, tn usa -
I love your story. It helped me to understand why my x-boyfriend and I didn't work out. Thank you and make sure that you take your medication.
jean ann jeanannrapp@aol.com
new orleans, la usa -
i love your web page, not many others give insight to how it it to live through it like that, and this web page really helped out with my project for school! Thank you, and good luck!
Nicole jadeamber17@yahoo.com
exeter, nh U.S. -
It's great that you have been able to talk about your troubles to educate others.
Louise
Briton, England -
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kashif mahmood philanthropy
quetta., balochistan. pakistan. -
THANK YOU FOR BRINGING HOPE TO WHERE IT IS DESPARATELY NEEDED. I'VE HAD SCHIZOPHRENIA FOR THIRTY YEARS. IT'S A LONG, LONG, LONG ROAD. THANK YOU AGAIN!
LARRY J WILLIAMS LJWILLIAMS@BCREMC.NET
COLUMBUS, IN USA -
Hey. Have you ever considered speaking at a school somewhere else, say Calgary? I'm a grade 11 student, and before schizophrenia was greek to me, But I've learned through your struggles how hard it is. I think everyone would. Email me. Rose
Rose br0ken_s0ul@gothcities.com
Calgary, AB Canada -
i think that that its great that you arent afraid to talk about your illness and that you inform others on it. i have become very interested in it and this was a good help!! thanks
lindsay
uxbridge, on Canada -
Hi this is a nice site i am schizophrenic also i think that those damn Americans are all around me trying to kill me. Sometimes i even think George Bush is raping me.
Osama Bin Ladnen BinLaden@yomama.com
kabul, Afghanistan -
I give you snaps for putting your story on the net. I congratulate you on your recovery (so far) as you say. I have always hoped to be doctor and your story helped me better to understand the disorder. Thank you and I hope everything gets better for you.
mandy x_mandy_shell_xx@yahoo.com
U.S.A -
I appreciate your web site. My daughter in high school had to write a report on schizophrenia and your web site was a great resourse for her. Her sister has been diagnosed with bipolar desease and as these two deseases are related, your information and testimony has been of great interest to us.
Linda Fortney alaskaninna@yahoo.com
anchorage, ak usa -
Thank you for posting this website. I'm sure that it gives many, including myself, a valuable insight into the condition. I have much to share and will email you soon. I salute you.
Paula mylibres@yahoo.com
AZ USA -
If you would like to correspond I would like that. We have a lot in common. I had a friend with this disease who unfortunely didn't make it. My hat is off to you and your wonderful site. Great work and continued success. I know it's hard. Jill
Jill Zimmerman
US Canada -
Thanks for all your hard work ! I needed info that I could understand as it will help me in the line of work that I do. This is all very new to me ! and again I thank you for the indepth of it but in words I can read. I well keep in touch with your site. Audrey
Audrey <
Barrie, ontario Canada -
hello my brother adam has schitzophrenia and has had it about 2 yrs now. my mom is very worried and needs some support and prayers and help....could some of you please email her for some support to her...her name is carol and email is carolstoltzfus@hotmail.com ----my brother is getting worse and she is so worried. he keeps leaving the house and going to london and she is afraid he will not come back one time!! tks so very much...rachel
rachel
ft myers, fl usa -
I just wanted to thank-you for posting this site, it is very helpful and it makes me feel as if I am not alone, I believe that one my family memebers has this disorder ( they can't admitt it) someone very close, that I love very much. They don't want to speak to me and they only makes me feel terrible, they are a very angry person. I wish they would come back, I miss him, but your web site is conforting to know that no one is alone. Thank-you
kins
Canada -
THANK YOU FOR YOUR VERY WELL PRESENTED WEB-SITE. I GOT IT FROM A BOOK BY E.FULLER TORREY - SURVIVING SCHIZOPHRENIA. I PARTICIPATED IN A RECENT GOVERNMENT INQUIRY INTO MENTAL HEALTH HERE IN SYDNEY AND HOPE THE GOVT WILL PUT INTO PLACE THE MANY WONDERFUL RECOMMENDATIONS.
dianne
Sydney nsw 2089, australia -
Thank you for your extremely informative and introspective site. As a parent of a 26 year old daughter with schizophrenia, I will look forward to revisiting your pages for new data.
Susan Cothern
Chicago, IL US -
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