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Have you heard of a new antipsychotic called abilifi? The spelling might be incorrect.
fritz johnson <fjohnson@bjvs.k12.oh.us>
dover, oh Canada -

Happy new year to everyone seeing this message!
Estefania
Canada -

This is a great site! As a social work student who have great interest in working with people with various mental health concerns, I found your site very informative. As a sister of two young men (my two younger brothers, aged 21 & 24) with paranoid schizophrenia, I found your passages empowering. God bless you.
Nina <ninjayee@yahoo.com>
Hong Kong, HKSRA -

It was really interesting for me to find someone on the internet with schizophrenia with a website but it was also encouraging. You seem to be doing well and getting better and I only hope that it continues to go that way. I have a brother who is schizophrenic and has been now for about two year maybe less. He has gottan alot better since his treatment and since he's been home. I pray for him all the time and hope that it will go away or at least gets to where he will not have to depend on the medication. Thankyou for creating this website of yours and I hope to hear something back from you.
Arlethia Austin <ArlethiaAustin@ yahoo.com>
VA Canada -

thank you very much for making this web site and being able to share your story with the world. i am currently making a movie for my psychology class that is based on a track star with schizophrenia and also ocd. we want to show ppl more about the diseases and that they should not be treated any differently so thank you for your wonderful story and i wish you the best of luck.
annie <jospheena@hotmail.com>
wi usa -

muguoooooooooooo
suleman <MUGU@GUYMEN.MUGU>
Canada -

really good site!! it helped me find out alot of infor for a skool project!! you did good!!
Danniebananie
mb Canada -

I did a web evaluation over this site for my Honors Introduction to Psychology class. I gave you a glowing review b/c I think your site is exceptional!
Sara Carlson
Siloam Springs, AR USA -

I enjoyed the site, i am a 24 year old schizophrenic living in albany ny, it's good for me to hear other peoples stories and hear that other people recover and do well
R. B. Eaton <koffeefrk@aol.com>
Albany, ny US -

Great site!
Logosharx Logo Design
Sparta, WI USA -

I have a 13 year old son with schizophrenia. He tried Risperdal and Geodon, now he is on Clozaril. He can go to school parttime now. Hid under his desk for an hour today though. Snipers in the heating ducts. Like your site, thanks. Keep on keeping on, Charles
Charles Singer <singercharles@aol.com>
W. Des Moines, IA USA -

is there any schools for wizardry? desto
deston <desto1776@yahoo.com>
?, Wi USA -

Hi everyone. I would just like to thank this guest book for allowing ALL of us to leave our various types of messages … A BIG THANK YOU !! “ Nothing will benefit human health and increase the chance for survival of life on Earth as much as the evolution to a vegetarian diet.” … ALBERT EINSTEIN… Best to ALL! S. N.
Shakira Nackt
Canada -

i'm intrigued that chovil studied anthropology. i have had an interest in that since puberty, except it was crushed by an overlyzealous grandmother who ditated religion.
martin baiada <martin@icpoems.com>
hamburg, PA USA -

I stumbled upon your site while doing research on schizophrenia. I am doing my research paper on this topic, and I hope your page will help me.
Teresa <icthus9000@hotmail.com>
Canada -

Hello Ian. Hello everybody. (^_^)�©a Japanese face mark.(^^;;; Sorry, I'm not good at English. So, I can't read whole contents of this page. My pen name "Kenju" means a "Cynic" in Japanese. Hokkaido is a north island in Japan. I suffered schizophrenia about 20 years ago. Now I'm 41 years old. I have no auditory hallucination and systematic delusion. I think my characteristic symptoms are depersonalization and a sense of ruin. I know about 15 web sites written by the person of schizophrenia in Japan. And there are well over 100 web sites about schizophrenia in Japan. We must face a problem of poverty besides the illness. I don't think that the schizophrenia will be a person's "identity". So, I identify myself as a Cynic. I heard that the ancient Cynics thought that the human happiness didn't depend on one's luxury, one's political power, and even one's health. I think this thought is suitable for us. Recently, I got a job as a tutor of a junior high school student. So I restarted studying English. So it is glad that someone teach me English, or study English with me. It is welcomed to send me an E-mail if you have time to spare. I want to be a good reader of English web sites. Good luck! (^_^)/~
Kenju <kenju@d3.dion.ne.jp>
rural(^^;;;, Hokkaido Japan -

Thank you so much for sharing with the world the details of your schizophrenia. I am a film-maker currently doing a film about a boy who develops schizophrenia as a senior in high school, and whose symptoms and characteristics are similar to yours. Reading your site helped me to better understand the disease and therefore caused me to make some changes in my film. Thanks again, your testimony will not be forgotten.
David Gage
Greenville, SC United States -

stay away!!!!!!!!
femi <ff@ff.com>
lome, kpalime togo -

This is a supurb informitive sute. I would like to thank you for putting such a site together to inform people of the real truth, and let ignorant people see the truth. I am currently in college and am studying threatre studies. We are putting a practical piece together on schizophrenia. I would be awfully greatful if you could email me at semiblondie201@yahoo.co.uk I reall would be so much help if you do have the time.
Kristy <semiblondie201@yahoo.co.uk>
England, England -

Your sharing of your life journey with schizophrenia has opened the doors of this disability internationally for understanding and compassion. I acknowledge the pain and hardships you experienced as you struggled to gain control over this 'disease'. The academic community is indebted to your contribution in understanding the complexities of this conditon and bringing hope to those with this disability. I consider you a valuable colleague in the mental health profession. Joan
Joan Laschenski-Claypoole,LSW <jclaypoo@uphs.upenn.edu>
Phoenixville, PA USA -

I just wanted to say thank you for all of the information that you could provide through your website. I also wanted to wish you the best of luck and let you know that you aren't alone..... Thank you
Meghan <Tappymeg@msu.edu>
East Lansing, MI United States -

Thank you for making your page it helped me with my psychology paper a whole lot.
Lindsay <LindsHack85@aol.com>
IN USA -

Your Homepage is very useful and nicely designed. Greetings from Germany Gerd Wallmann
Yello <Webmaster@namewinner.de>
Hamburg, HH Germany -

Hey, I love your page. One of the very few with some real content.
Anime
Canada -

I'm in the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee Occupational Therapy Program and for my Pyschosocial Dysfunction class we were to find a personal article or story on disorders we are learning. I picked schizophrenia because I have always been interested in this and found your website and decided to do my assignment on you. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your experiences with everyone and I think it's great that you educating people in the seriousness of schizophrenia and I thought your website was wonderfully created. I hope everything is getting better for you and I think it takes a strong person to combat what you have done-thanks for your experience!
Tina Potrykus <sunfirehottie@msn.com>
WI United States -

I must commend you on the great work. keep sharing your experiences so others can help cheryl
Cheryl Sankar <cherylsankar@hotmail.con>
Trinidad &Tobago -

a great site, God Bless you and I hope you are well
john <johnfitzgibbons422@msn.com>
woc, ma usa -

This is a nice page. Keep it up that way! Greetings from Malaysia :-)
andre guard
kelantan Malaysia -

Ted Williams <tedtedted60@hotmail.com>
Auckland, AK New Zealand -

Dear Sir, My mother and sister-in-law both have schitzophrenia. I is likely that my 16 years old son could have it as well? Many Thanks, gerard mcdonagh
gerard mcdonagh <gerardmcdonagh@vodafone.ie>
n/a, eire ireland -

I came across your site while condcting research for a school paper on schizophrenia. I am very impressed by the vast nformation you have included,and love the fact that you have included your personal journey. It always helps to have a personal touch. Great work. Keep it up!
Georgia Niarchos
Montreal, PQ Canada -

Good site! Very well done indeed. Enjoyed it very much. Best wishes! :-)
Smsbomber
Canada -

I have corrected the statement to read "some Scandinavian countries". It was my psychiatrist who told me this. I found it a bit hard to beleive, but recently saw a tv show on the program they have in Holland for disabled people. The women who make love for a living visit the disabled men where they are living on a regular schedule.
Ian Chovil
Guelph, ON Canada -

Dear Ian, I too came accross your website and found the following sentence: 'In Scandinavia disabled people are allowed monthly visits to the state approved brothels'. This is not true: I am not aware of the situation in all the Scandinavian countries, but I know that Finland DOES NOT have state approved brothels even for disabled people. I hope you will correct the misinformation. Best wishes, Paula
Paula <mepani@uta.fi>
Tampere, Finland -

Hi. I happened to come across your website while doing research on schizophrenia for a school report. I am very interested in studying mental illnesses and someday specializing in them. I would love to help treat people like yourself. Your story was an eye opener for me. You went through a lot of hard times and you should be very proud of yourself for being where you are today. Your story encouraged any intentions that I had of being a doctor. Thank you for the inspiration...Amy
Amy <ae_010@hotmail.com>
Columbus, NE USA -

Hi. I happened to come across your website while doing research on schizophrenia for a school report. I am very interesting in studying mental illnesses and someday specializing in them. I would love to help treat people like yourself. Your story was an eye opener for me. You went through a lot of hard times and you should be very proud of yourself for being where you are today. Your story encouraged any intentions that I had of being a doctor. Thank you for the inspiration...Amy
Amy <ae_010@hotmail.com>
Columbus, NE USA -

HI I HAVE SCHIZOEFFECTIVE DISORDER I LIVE IN A CARTOON FILLED WORLD THAVE ESCAPED FROM THE TV RATHER INTERISTING LOTS OF VOICES TOO LOTS OF FUN THANKS RICKY
RICHARD L MINTER <carolm194@aol.com>
USA, AZ USA -

It's raining in Germany and it's a very bad weather. I surf and find your fantastic homepage, bookmarked it and will be back! Thank you for the resources. Keep up the good work! Greetings from Viren
Viren
Canada -

I am currently studying special education at Jacksonville State University, and in one of my classes we have talked about schizophrenia. I just wanted to let you know that your website has helped me understand lots of things that I didn't before. Thank you!
Mahala Godwin <mahalag1@bellsouth.net>
Jacksonville, AL US -

I am using this site as a reference on my report on schizophrenia, and I have found it very useful as well as an accurate window to what many schizophrenics go through. More people should know about this illness and you are certainly doing a wonderful job with the information. It's great to see that you are well, and I'll refer this site along with many others to friends and family. tnx~KL
AKA "Lillith"
United States -

Hi Ian I also have schizophrenia. Its nice to see that you are managing to live with your disease. I am probably in what could be called complete remission right now, although the electroshock that I had one year ago seems to have effectively killed my journalism career forever by getting rid of my creativity as well as the symptoms of my disease. Still, I am at university full time and working part time and doing well at both endeavours. I don't know why schizophrenia happened to me, but listening to all of the not so happy stories I know that God is giving me a chance. May he be as merciful to every one of you. There are a lot of us out there. One in one hundred. Every time you walk into a party, staff assembly, or Canada fireworks show, please remember that. One in one hundred. We're all out there, and no one remembers us as we watch from the darkness. If every person with schizophrenia had to wear an armband in support of mental health awareness, we would be amazed at the numbers. Canadian mental health policy has to take a new approach for us. They have to focus on supporting us in our everyday lives through general health promotion instead of waiting for a disastrous psychotic episode to strike before they offer help. Anyway, enough ranting! The very, very best wishes to you and all schizophrenics who read this. Jam
Jam
Canada -

There is a cure for schizophrenia. www.lakehamiltonbiblecamp.com. In the upper right hand corner under spiritual resources click Deliverance Manual. Than scroll down to the words View the Deliverance Manual here, click and read the entire manual. There is a section on schizophrenia. Also, there is a book online called war on the Saints. Typed the words war on the Saints in any search engine. Click the web site that says....War on the Saints-Contents, then Scroll down until you see the words War on the Saints ...click on the words War on the Saints in big letters at the top of the page or anywhere you see it. You can e-mail me. If you have questions. I will even talk to you on the phone. Helena Helena bayonne, nj usa -
helena <read_the_bible2001@yahoo.com>
bayonne, nj usa -

I am a chinese father and my daughter have gotten schizophrenia for three years. The first episode was in 1999, we treated her with risperidone, the effects were not good. After near one year we choised another old drug sulpiride, the most positive symptoms disappeared. But the negative symptoms still existed.In 2001's spring she relapsed. We added penfluridol the postive symptoms disapeared again.But now the crux is she deny taking the medications. What can I do? I eager to get your supporting now. Help me please because she will relapsed again in the spring! Thank you in advance for the trouble you are going to take for me, I am your sincerely Zhao Dongjiang My E-mail: zdjicu@sina.com
Zhao Dongjiang <zdjicu@sina.com>
Xinzhou City, Shanxi China -

thank you so much for starting this website. Im a student in Secondry school and im doing a project on your illness. I hope that your story will enlighten my class. Good luck in the future and again Thank You. Cat
Catrina
Cork, Ireland -

What a tremendous human being you are! And courageous! Keep up the good work.
Susan Slepski <sslepski@earthlink.net>
Chicago, IL USA -

What a beautifully put together website on something so relevant to our modern day society. I thank you for your very informative help, I am helping a friend that has this illness. My biggest fear is loosing my friend to suicide. It is heartwarming to see sites such as this one that help us to understand this illnes and therefore we can help others that have the illness. Best wishes for the future. Shazz
Sharon Ibbotson <sibbot10@tpg.com.au>
coffs harbour, NSW Australia -

Hello ,i just read your account and very helpful to read indeed.. My Girlfriend also suffers from the illness ,she is a 33 year old who has been diagnosed four years ago ,i have been with her two years now ,we met and i thought what a wonderful girl so softly spoken ,gentle and lovely.. ,Kistie has been rejected by her family they just tell her to grow up and stop being silly ,they are snobs personally speaking and for anyone to say anything about my Kistie i would be very angry..Kirstie also has`nt a friend on this earth what she was on her own i don`t think anyone spoke to her for long time very lonely ,i Love her.. Can anyone offer any advise to Kirstie and me ,she feels like ending it all cause of all the voices and paranoia ,she is on medications but feels whats the point any advise taken very well thankyou. brian collins sarsfield64@hotmail.com
brian collins <sarsfield64@hotmail.com>
belfast, UK -

Dear Ian, Thank you for sharing your story. It's heartbreaking to read that you compare your life to others and feel a lack of richness. I think you are a person of great character to have come through all that you have experienced. I hope you find solace in the fact that your website has touched so many people. You should be really proud of that.
Maril Murray
Canada -

I would like to thank you for portraying this web site for the public. I found your info very useful for my research paper.
Matthew
Pisgah, AL USA -

Well done on your website its good to see acceptance of living with the condition. My Mother has schitzhophrenia too which I have grown up with and lived through the experiences with her. Unfortunately she does not accept that she has the condition and therefore refuses to accept the medication or go to the doctor for help, probably more due to the fact of being in fear of being sectioned; which has happened twice now against her will. This also means she cannot claim the benefits she is entitled to because a doctor needs to sign her off. A bit of a catch 22 situation. I find this very difficult as it appears in the family that I am the only person helping either from fear of the symptons or not being able to cope due to mental illness problems themselves. I just hope I can hold out, I used drugs in the past and found that whilst on them I started to develop the same sort of conditions. For example voices in my head, telepathic thoughts etc. I am OK now as this was a few years ago however I still have frequent nightmares and a lot of anxiety from the whole thing. Maybe one day I will fully come to terms with it all, but the feeling of responsibility is immense. One thing I do know is that my mother is a very strong and she has overcome 2 lapses now. Also she has many artistic talents and her ability to understand other peoples emotions is incredible all be it she takes the whole worlds weight onto her shoulders. All the best for now and the future, and I would just like to say to all readers that either have Schitzophrenia or are related to somebody that is. You are not alone in the World with this, there are many others and remember the remarkable positive qualities that so many have.
Marc <mcolenski@hotmail.com>
Netherlands -

i liked this site. I think that it is great that you put all this info in one site so people can learn about this disease. I found it very useful for my report on schizophrenia
misty <babydoll_thestar@yahoo.com>
conway, ar north america -

just wanna say i hope you are ok...good site..
anna <as@darc-art.com>
preston, uk -

thanx lots im written a report on this disease
DeLainey <Gym07girl@yahoo.com>
mckinney, tx united states -

I think that your site is VERY helpful. I am doing a Psychology presentation on schizophrenia and you site aided me a lot. Your courage and determination are very inspiring. Stay healthy and my god be with you!
kristi <weenkrs47@earthlink.net>
MT United States -

Your story is really intresting and i am glad that i foudn your webpage. I love the topic of schizophrenia and i find it interesting to hear about people's lives as a schizophrenic. I don't knw why. I just do.
Stephanie <littleb16@yahoo.com>
Seaside, 93955 United States -

Hi, I am a second year nursing student currently on a rotation in a psych. unit. Most of the things I see daily are people who severly ill with schizophrenia. You are an inspiration. Thank you.
Robin <n/a>
Barrie, ON Canada -

Great web site. I am a PharmD student doing a psych clinical and it helped me understand more about my patients. Thank you
sammy
philadelphia, pa usa -

Your story is very inspiring and scary. It is scary in the fact that there are so many people who have to live with this. I am a nursing student doing research on this topic and your story gave me a lot of insight on what it can do to a person's life. It is very different than what you read in the text books. Good Luck!!!!!!!!!!!!
Valerie Mays
U.S. -

nice website it really helped me out on my research paper.
pat <patadams66@yahoo.com>
columbus, ohio usa -

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Canada -

I was once like you with added organic brain damage also I have mental health records with me. NEVER took anything for it. Don't take drugs or drink. Married with two boys mabe we can talk sometime.
bill <speedydad1@hotmail.com>
toronto, ont Canada -

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bill <speedydad1@hotmail.com>
toronto, ont Canada -

Hello Mr. Chovil! my name is Dawn and im a junior in highschool. I am writing a research paper on schizophrenia in my psychology class. I saw your site and have read most of it. I am really interested in your condition. I want to know everything i can about it. I would love to know more about it if you dont mind helping me out. Thanks for your time. Dawn
Dawn <eckohottie44@aol.com>
Colorado Springs, CO United States -

I just wanted to say thank you. You have a great & helpful web page in your hands.
Astrid
Thunder Bay, ON Canada -

I thought i was the only one! thank you so much, for you have put some light into my dark,lonley,and cold path! What makes the illness worse,and forms more problems is the fact of no help for human beings(and i speak for all schizo's)such as myself. I would like to voice my opinion! Rather it be the illness talking or by chance some truth. Is, we are the normal one's, and the others are the ones with a mental problem! What is normal anyway? sincerly, lost and confused!!!! marsha
marsha <marsha.jackson@sbcglobal.net>
amarillo, tx united states -

Your site was very helpful. Thank you so much!!!
Kristin <Sk8erBoiRawk@aol.com>
Hood River, OR U.S -

hallo finde es einfach schade dass die leute von geisteskrankheit sprechen das hört sich so abwertent an bin seit 1 jahr betroffen.bin sehr gut auf medikamente eingestellt die ich jetzt ohne nebenwirkungen gut vertrage. nebenbei mache ich noch eine gesprächsteraphie die mir geholfen hat mit beiden beinen im leben zu stehen mit freundlichem gruss u. beyer
beyer uta <beyeruta1@freenet.de>
oschersleben, deutschland -

Ich finde es eigentlich schade dass die leute von geisteskrankheit sprechen das höhrt sich so erniedrigent an.Bin seit 1 jahr von der krankheit betroffen bin sehr gut auf medikamente eingestellt auch die nebenwirkungen sind weg zur stützung mache ich noch eine gesprächsteraphie die mir sehr hilft und sehr geholfen hat wieder mit beiden beinen im leben zu stehen mit freundl.gruss u.beyer
beyer uta <beyeruta1@freenet.de>
oschersleben, deutschland -

Hi Ian, I must say I was inspired by your story. I just finished reading "Beyond Crazy". I couldn't put the book down. I love those kind of books. I have a brother who has been diagnosed with bipolar and I have a sister who has been dealing with a mental illness as well. It's good to see that people such as yourself are trying to dispel the stigma that goes along with mental disorders. I say to you keep up the good work. Sincerely, Terri Bear
Terri Bear <tbear@sktc.sk.ca>
Saskatoon, SK Canada -

Your website is great and very usefull. Keep up the good resources. Best greetings from Germany
Wer wird Millionaer
Canada -

I have discovered the way to cure schizophrenia and the biological basis of it.I suffered schizophrenia 14 years ago and I cured myself forever using a combination of vitamin 12 and copper and another vitamin.Pease e-mail to me.It is impressive. cansuun@yahoo.es
Richard Deli <cansuun@yahoo.es>
barcelona, Spain -

send me more information.
elaine pruneau <elaine.pruneau@target.com>
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i think it is really brave of you to tell people of your own experiences. i am doing an assignment on schizophrenia at the moment and with your website it makes it alot easier, but i would also be interested to find out how schizophrenia used to be handled. When i am older i am planning to study either clinical pyscology or clinical physciatry. (I don't know how to spell either)THankyou for the use of your site and i hope all goes well in the future. Yours sincerely Jade Mari
jade mari
perth, W.A Australia -

Hi! My name is Lorraine and I would like to know if you know, when Schizophrenia was first diagnosed?
Lorraine
Adelaide, SA Australia -

I thought that your website was extremly helpfull in my research of schizophrenia. God bless and stay strong
bryant mormon <rap_star_83@yahoo.com>
chicago, IL USA -

I am retired from the los angeles police department. In my old department there was a mental health division. We supervised all the mentally ill in the city of los angeles. Apparently mental illnesses cannot be cured, only arrested. Anti-social personality disorder is a recognized mental illness. Modern methods of the treatment of criminals has long been recognized. The reasons for vagrancy and drug addiction etctera have been studied ad nauseam. The Hollywood portrayls of police work are quite a bunch of lies sold to the public. In real life it is not exciting, nor glamorous nor fun, being in law enforcement is a living hell, it makes you psychotic sometimes. Sometimes we have false beliefs and delusions also that so and so is guilty when in fact he is quite innocent. Many mistakes are made and we have to humbly admit our faults and stupidity. Policemen are not perfect either. We are not infallible. Some of us become mentally ill because of the job we do and have to be fired and retired or seek treatment ourselves. Some of us make mistakes and shoot innocent people or beat people up just because we are angry at the world. We wish everyone would behave themselves too. Our scientific investigation division is trying very hard to cure mental illness. There are many societies to join like the society for the cure of insantiy. The mentally ill have flooded our lock-ups. There is not enough money in the city treasury to take care of them all. That is why they are released back into the community to shift for themselves where they end up taken care of by the good Christian people of los angeles and the good jewish people and the good muslim people. The homeless shelters are dying for volunteers to keep them alive. As I write this letter someone is literally starving to death in downtown los angeles. The lapd sends out investigators who are like social workers to see what is going on out there and it is not a pretty sight. Some of our finest cops have had to be fired and have become homeless also. Its a heart-breaking decision for a supervisor to make. Some of our finest people have gone bad and have had to be arrested and do time with career criminals. Talk show hosts continually badger law enforcement and tear down morale. Many law enforcement officers these days are sick and tired of all the anti-cop talk and the gangsta rap. We're all ready to resign or just do a blue flu and let you citizens just---do your thing, cause you love freedom. We're tired of being the people's patsy. Don't like law and order??? Don't like speed limits??? Well, you can all go right back to the Jungle and live under Jungle Law then. In my opinion, mankind is going back to the Jungle, he is deevolving rather than evolving, he is going backwards now not forward. The music stations remind me of a bunch of natives out in the Bush. If your loved one has schizophrenia he needs a quiet place to sit with no rock music and needs lots of kindness and mercy. Many of them do recover, if they have the capapcity to be honest. The National Alliance for the Mentally Ill is a good organization for them. Its for consumers, families of consumers and providers of care. Unfortuantely nowadays, the family is the prime caregiver. The government does not have the funds to provide for them anymore. No one wants to pay taxes. And the State is broke. Good luck. Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to work we go.
Sergeant Friday <Yrret301>
Los Angeles, CA USA -

I really value your site and I hope it will teach a lot of people. I am also a paranoid schizophrenic and my symptons are very mild. I hope and pray for all my fellow patients. Don't forget you are not alone ...
Dimitrie Bohle <drw.bohle@quicknet.nl>
Hoorn, Noord Holland the Netherlands -

i need more mugu to sign this guestbook. Thanks
plato owulezi <plato_owulezi@yahoo.co.uk>
mbaise, imo Nigeria -

This is a very interesting website, I have added it in my favourites. Greetings Ed
Canada -

Your Homepage is very useful and nicely designed. Greetings from Switzerland
anonymous -

your site is brilliant and hugely informative. My son had sz and took his own life in April. The shrink said his illness was caused by taking drugs, is this possible - likely;? We know he smoked pot and took extacy and had amphetamines while at uni before he first heard voices. Eventually he thought he was an alien clone and going to become an alien. We also wondered where sz comes from as lots of sufferers do not have children. Is there some story about older fathers or grandfathers being a problem. Has anyone any knowledge about the liklihood of this. Our son had a grandfather of 54 years old. Any info on these would help us. Keep up the good work. gailworthy9@hotmail.com
gail worthy <gailworthy9@hotmail.com>
salisbury, wiltshire england -

There is a cure for schizophrenia. www.lakehamiltonbiblecamp.com. In the upper right hand corner under spiritual resources click Deliverance Manual. Than scroll down to the words View the Deliverance Manual here, click and read the entire manual. There is a section on schizophrenia. Also, there is a book online called war on the Saints. Typed the words war on the Saints in any search engine. Click the web site that says....War on the Saints-Contents, then Scroll down until you see the words War on the Saints ...click on the words War on the Saints in big letters at the top of the page or anywhere you see it. You can e-mail me. If you have questions. I will even talk to you on the phone. Helena
Helena <read_the_bible2001@yahoo.com>
bayonne, nj usa -

I have schizophrenia. I am on clozeril. I believe clozerli gives me severe stomach pain, however the doctor will not acknowledge that. He said he would acknowledge my stomach pain, and switch to Geodone sooner, if I can find evidence online that my medicine damages the body. anyone with simuliar experiences, i would appreciate u contacting me. Email: Yadeda@aol.com
Stacey Leigh <Yadeda@aol.com>
Portland, ME USA -

Thank you for your very informational website; I am a student and have to do a research paper on any topic I could choose in the health industry. I chose schizophrenia to help others and myself have a better understanding of how this disease effects people both young and old. Thank you again. All my wishes to you and your family.
Michele Karas <mkaras@town.winthrop.ma.us>
Winthrop, MA USA -

Congratulations on a masterly site. I found it while searching for information on when new generation psychiatric drugs would have patent expiry, so that generic atypicals would become more affordable / available. Thankyou for your excellent research and generous exposition.
siew chua <sechua@hkucc.hku.hk>
hong kong, china -

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ingridiento
Canada -

Great Site - Help Us if you Can!
Spina Bifida <guestbook@sbacf.org>
Heathrow, FL USA -

greetings sir, i am finishing caregiver student at shalom in las pinas city, and we are ask to report schizophrenia case. i myuself don't know what the illness is about and currently making a brief research on it. I found this web site and hope to get the information i need. I will look further on the illness and hope to find what i need. Am looking forward to hear from u and maybe share ur experiences. Roselle
roselle buzon-ting <lele11@hotmail>
manila, philippines -

Sir: Thank you very much for your efforts of helping people with Schizoprenia by putting a lot of information resource in your website. You are indeed a great sign of hope of this world. My nephew, I suspect, is Schizoprenic. I am tryig to understand this with the end of being able to help him live a productive life. I pray that God the source of your goodness will be merciful to you by healing you completely of your disease. Again, thank you.
Julito Oyan Tabalba <julitotaalba@yahoo.com>
Pasig, Philippines -

i am a schizo please send me info to help me
steph <little_madzy@hotmail.com>
Australia -

i am a former victim of schizophrenia i had it for 6 years before we could control it, i really feel for you guys send me any information you have please and i would like to hear from you.
Karl <farq_now@hotmail.com>
Australia -

your all insane
sane
iraq -

wow this is really a great site! **smoochies*** xoxoxo erika
>my free pics <erika3127@yahoo.com>
Canada -

Very good website I enjoyed it and it helped me with my u.i.l. debate report.
Dziuk
Poth, Tx. 78147, TX Canada -

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GUYMAN <guyman@mugu.com>
COTONOU, ATLANTIIC benin -

Dear Chovil, Im going through yet another diificult time of my life and feeling on a verge of a breakdown every day, even though im on Paxil for major depression. Your courage and openness and website have given me a lot of much needed support. After reading your website & some research, I think I fit the Borderline personality disorder. It's hard to find support or treatment without the stigma/ difficulties looking for work where i live so i'm very hesitant about seeking help. But i know i have suicidal plans and do need help, especially after NOvember when i may not be passing my university exams. I have extreme difficulties with interacting with people without letting them hurting me and then I would go on punishing myself for letting them do so. I have tried so hard to break away from this cycle for the last 10 years but feeling that I'm on a verge of a final breakdown. I'm trying to hang on to your words that you can either choose to be bitter about having landed on Siberia or learn to enjoy it. GG
GG
Sydney, NSW Australia -

Thank you so much for your valuable site. It was very useful for my report on Schizophrenia for Health class. I gave your site credit (of course) and recommended it to the class for furthur reference. It really is quite a website you've created here. Thank you again! -Mandy
Mandy <Mandy11588@hotmail.com>
USA -

Wow, what a site!
Webcams <anja-online@gmx.de>
Canada -

yep
suonerie e loghi samsung <samsung@yahoo.com>
Canada -

What a brilliant, candid look into someone's life. Your website covers in layman's terms everything there is to know on the subject of schizophrenia in the most personal way possible. Thank you for all the insight. I'm sorry that you gained it by having to live through it. You are however, helping so many people. I couldn't imagine what it must be like to have wanted to pick up the pieces of your life but to find that they are just fragments. Thanks for the site. It has helped me a great deal.
Yvonne <ylm10@hotmail.com>
Australia -

gREETING FOR YOU vERY HAPPY TO SEE YOU IN YOU WEB.i AM A PHYSICIAN WITH SPECIALITY OF pATHOLOGY GENERAL AND INTEREST IN PSYCHATRYY.i HOPE YOU TRY TO PRACTICE MEDITATION AND MINDFULLNESS OF BUDDHIST FAITH.YOU KNOW BUDDHA WAS THE FIRST COGNITIVE BEHAVIORAL THERAPIST.I HOPE THAT THE SIMPLE MINDFULLNESS OF BREATH WILL BE OF MUCH HELP TO YOU AND TO SCHIZOPHRENIC PATIENTS.dEFINITLY ONE NEED MEDICATION;hOWEVER i THINK THAT THIS SIMPLEWITHOUT COST MINDFULLNESS AND MEDITATION EXERSICE WILL BE OF MUCH HELP. tHANK YOU AND i HOPE AN ANSWER
KORSHEED <KRTAHA@HOTMAIL>
FAIRFAX, VA USA -

Hello, I found you at Altavista. You have wealth of information on your site and a nice design. Greetings from Germany - Paul
Paul
Germany -

Bravo.I only came on this site to get a little info.I found however a man that has touched with care and knowledge through his teaching anyone that cares to listen.Thankyou for the story,photos and information that out shines all other similar sites. Daniel 12v3.
Manchester UK BA student
Canada -

this is a very cool website
foto <tom@yahoo.com>
usa -

Thanks for sharing your story with the rest of the world who may be sufferring in silence. Congrats, you have done a great thing here!
Michelle <mclynch@hotmail.com>
Fredericton, NB Canada -

Your site is great. I just happened to have a moment to surf the net and came across it. I like your web page I am going to tell my friends about it.
Anime
Canada -

I read some parts of your web site and visited a few links. I wanted to say to you that i find empathy for your position, though i would never disrespect your position for saying that i understand it. I believe that until i live and experience an impression of your life, i would never know, like Hume would say. I was thinking, through out my visit to your web site, that you are an intellegent man that has a positive outlook to the future. You disclosed so openly, giving us an opportunity to have empathy. That is courageous of you. I want to also say that those living with schitzophrenia are those with an illness, a mental health issue, however, they are people with personalities, dreams and hopes just like everyone else. I liked what a reader said, that delusions in the movie "Beautiful Mind" existed and yes, we all have delusions. I agree we do have delusions. We all participate in distorting reality as defense mechanisim to deal with our cognitive dissonace and reality. I have respect for those living with this disease and others like it or other type of illnesses. It is not easy. Thank you for sharing and also for letting us share. LOVE
Parmis Shafazand <parmis88@hotmail.com>
New Westminster, BC Canada -

Congratulations! Your site is great and I´ll be back soon! Greetings from Nackte Stars
Nackte Stars <nackte_stars2002@hotmail.com>
Canada -

great site
KPH
UK -

Greets & Best Wishes!
<anna.lieb@e-post.de>
Canada -

Hey man! I am what you are. I have been diaged since 1995 early detection. Trouble staying in AA. It was the first hit of LSD i think which was a major catalyst for later problems. I am 33 now and in the process of applying for social security. My therapist has fought me on it for years. I guess that is strong language but he thinks i can do without it. But I cant keep a freaking job. I like the space alien part of yer story. You seem very intelligent. I know its sad the incredible poverty. But, i have to laugh at some of it. I havent had any really strong positive symptoms since late 95 but when smoke the herb wheewew!! My therapist is really after me to do AA but i am drawn towards dark amusement and brinksmanship. Basically i am bored and my self esteem is at an all time low again after quitting my latest job at a restaurant. My dad will come back from his cruise down the St Lawrence and and Montreal (yer neck o the woods) and be freekin upset at me. I just cant keep it together. I am hoping to get social security before to long and then try to get back into AA once some of the financial pressure is off. Vivent les space aliens!! Ben
Ben Cri- <bencri@juno.com>
Baltimore City, MD USA -

After reading your story,one has to conclude that it is a extremely cruel world in which we exist.The ultimate hope is that of a future life in which all (and only) the best of the human race will be exhibited without disease-mental or otherwise.Many dismiss this idea as mere wishful thinking.But if we take the time to really look, there exists an overwhelming amount of evidence all around us-even within ourselves (as evidenced by your eventual upward swing from such a dark mental abyss)that there exixts a kind loving and inteligent creator who's love and beauty are beyond our comprehension at present.When it is all said and done nothing will have occured in vain.I'm 39 and have suffered from much dark depression,feelings of low self worth and have done many things out of these negative emotions that have damaged my life socialy and otherwise.I've nearly come to the conclusion that I suffer from bi-polar.I have never sought treatment though-partly because of cost and also because of the inescapable feeling that I would simply be a comodity and the likelyhood of finding a doctor who'd actually care would be slim.I want to get help but don't know where to start.Please send advice-any appreciated.
william meadows <bmead144@yahoo.com>
tennessee -

I have never seen so many guestbooks. Your site must be one of the most visited site on the net.
Herbsbee
Canada -

Thank you! I am a medical student and the information in this page have been a extraordinary resource to me to understand schizophrenia. Thanks again!
Carlos Salguero <casalguero@costarricense.cr>
San José, Costa Rica -

I dated a guy for a year when he was diagnosed with this disease and after that we stayed together for 2 more. I always wanted to understand what was happening so I could help him and reading your story really hit home with me and has helped me to feel the anxiety and pessimistic attitude many people with this disease have. I feel so compelled to help somehow and want to put together an awareness/fundraising campaign in my city because people define schizophrenics as crazy and that disgusts me. It seems like the people who should be helping can't take the time to evaluate this disease and understand what it truly means for those who have it. I hope to read new pages soon and that I'll be able to make a remarkable difference in the schizophrenic community of Winnipeg. Thank-you so much for you personal experience and insight.
Bekki <bex_boozey49@hotmail.com>
Wpg, MB Canada -

i would just like to say that your website has amazed me. i am currently working on a project on schizophrania for college and i had no clue what it was all about. your website helped me to relize just how serious this is. if you read this i am hoping you or another person could e-mail me and give me some info aswell. i need to present a movie any suggestions. i wish you luck in the futur and i hope all stays well. thank-you. i found your website by browsing and i am very happy i found it. ashley
ashley <achelchowski@hotmail.com>
on Canada -

We feel sad for people like you, and that guy in the movie... We're so glad that you did not kill yourself, that's neato. It makes us happy to know that you are getting help. You are a special person. We are not allowed to pray in school, but when we get home we will say some prayers for you. The sun will always shine, JESUS love you, this i know.
Mr. Jensen's Health class reps
ny usa -

Well done. A great site. Well organized. I too am suffering from the illness for several years now. I have lost everything that I have because of the illness. I use to have a family, a house, a good paying job, all the luxuries of life. Sometimes, I think that there no reason for me to live anymore. Now, I live alone, renting a small bedroom, always worrying about tomorrow. Always thinking that I might end up on the streets. Reading your story made me realize that I am not alone in this illness. There are others that suffer from it. All that I have experienced, others did too. Your story gave me hope that one day I might get back to a "normal" way of life. I hope the best for you and your love ones. Joseph
Joseph Montecillo <jmontecillo01@hotmail.c om>
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Im proud that you didn't kill yourself. I think it will help people with schizophrenia want to live on.
Cameron Hancock <hancock5ca@yahoo.com>
napa, ca USA -

Your website is great and very usefull. I'm bookmarked it. Keep up the good resources. Best greetings from Germany - Helmut
Helmut
Germany -

I have undaiagnosed schizophrenia, I am 100% sure. I will get help once I can get the cash. But, this is something funny I notice about people with the problem I have. How come you all are so into god? You cannot rely on religion or prayers to save you, you got to do it yourself.
Joey Hibbard
Canada -

Hi!! My name is Victor.Have faith for faith as small as mustard seed can move a mountain leave alone Schizophrenia ,so have faith in GOD. I like your website design very much. You have wealth of information on your site. I recently got into learning web site promotion, submission to search engines for free and online internet marketing myself. I am doing research on improving my skills in search engine optimization and placement, keyword marketing research, and pay per click management. I have made small websites where you can buy discount inkjet printer ink cartridges, cheap refill kits, laser toners for HP Epson Canon Lexmark printers and another site where you can free direct tv dish satellite network. You may send flowers silk roses wedding bouquets to your loved ones, immediate delivery. I like to play and copy playstation and ps2 games and copy dvds videos cds divx decss. Don’t forget to visit my site if you ever need to buy discount remanufactured ink jet cartridges, cheap refills and laser toners for HP Epson Canon Lexmark printers . Thanks for your time and keep up the good work.
victor_ronald007@yahoo.com <victor_ronald007@yahoo.com>
LA, CA USA -

Thanks for sharing your story and keeping such a good website. I am 20 and was diagnosed with schizophrenia very recently and am still having a hard time coping with what that means. I take my medication (Geodon)everyday and have no psychotic symptoms and no side effects. In this respect, I am very lucky and I know I am. But I am also very lonely. Over the past couple years my relationships with friends have deteriorated and I cannot say at this point that there is anyone i feel close to. I desperately want a girlfriend, but I am too afraid to ask anyone out. Plus I think that even if I did ask a girl out she would say no or eventually get sick of me cause of my bad personality. Once I asked a girl out in highschool but she already had a boyfriend. She said it was "bad timing". Then I asked a girl out to my prom, and it was not bad, but we never went out again. Beside a few flings here and there, that's all the experience I've had with the opposite sex. I am in mortal fear that I will never marry and die lonely and miserable. It's like when I was a little kid I used to worry I'd never learn how to ride a bicycle. But I eventually did, so maybe I'll eventually feel better about myself and get married and have kids. If I do, I'd rather not marry a schizophrenic because the children of two schizophrenic parents have a 50% chance of being schizophrenics themselves. I wouldn't want anyone, especially my kids, to have to go through the misery that i have suffered. I see a psychiatrist twice a week and i suppose it helps a little. Its like a foundation around which i build the rest of my week (i know, its sad that i have no life). He says I need to start thinking differently about how my illness affects me, and this is very frustrating because its like he's telling me my experiences aren't real and that i have my head up my ass. He really does tell me i have my head up my ass. He and some of my friends have also told me that I am too serious, and don't laugh or smile enough. I guess I don't roll with the punches very well.... Well, I ended up taking a year and a half off school because of my illness. I go to college but I live at home now instead of the dorms because of too much social stresses. It really hurts to feel like I don't fit in with most of my peers. I hope to return to the dorms at some point because i don't want to turn into one of those guys that lives their whole lives with their parents. You have to be independent if you ever want to really feel self-respect.
Ben <bman94025@yahoo.com>
San Jose, CA USA -

Thank you for your helpful input.
Lynn Gooch <lynn_gg@hotmail.com>
Iroquois Falls, Ontario Canada -

PLEASE JUST LISTEN YO ME. I am alone and scared. My voices are tormenting me and i have no one to help me. I have yet to get help for my true problem. I,m so scared my boyfriend will be home and all he asked me to do was to record his foot bal game and i forgot. i just misssed the first 45 min. but i understand how important this is to him. I know when he gets home he will be angry and say things he may not mean. I don't think i can handle it i don't have any one to talk to or confide in besides him and he knows all my problems and is trying to help me. but he is alone too. please GOD help me of little faith.
Emily
U.S.A. -

Hello fellow labourers in the Lord's vine yard.Keep the Good news of our Lord Jeusu Christ flying despite all odds. God bless you all that Love Jesus today,always and forever.
Ehibe Solomon <ehibe_solomon>
Abidjan, Canada -

Hi, very well maintained site... I know how it feels... take care..
Prashant <psycofanatic@yahoo.com>
Pune, India -

Every once in a while I run across a site such as this. Too many webmasters spend so little time organizing their content that when I find a site like yours it's a treat. Personally, I operate a number of sites in the industries of: golf clubs, stair steppers, water filters, hair care, laptop batteries, cleansing diets, sunglasses and even inkjet cartridges. Good job!! 

Jack Moss <jack_moss@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, BC Canada -

God Lavished His Grace On Us To lavish something on someone is to give in excess with an extremely generous spirit, to give in exaggeration of what is really needed. Can you imagine? God has LAVISHED many great things on us! The American Standard Version of the Bible reads as follows in Ephesians 1:7-8: “...in whom we have our redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace, which He made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence...” God assures us that we have been cleansed thoroughly in this passage. We are redeemed (made new) through His blood (the atoning sacrifice that pacifies the anger of God). Now when God sees us, He sees us as redeemed people. No longer does He see our sin, because we are justified in His sight by Jesus’ sacrifice. Isn’t that amazing! All of our sins are forgiven, past, present and future, when we remain in the grace of God. And teaches us that He has not just given us “some” grace---He has LAVISHED the riches of His grace on us. That is a lot of grace! I guess that’s how much grace we really need!! Now imagine, would you be ashamed of someone who has given you so much attention and has made everything new for you? I wouldn’t! I would want to share all these incredible and great things with everyone! How often have you thought of these things and shared them with those you work with or those you spend time with? How excited are you about sharing these things? Let God’s grace motivate you! The Preacher of the Good News asks, If Jesus were to come today, would you be ready to go to Heaven to be with Him forever?
The Preacher <cocabj@yahoo.com>
abidjan,ivory cost west africa, yop Ivory coast(west africa) -

Thank you. Know I know I'm not allone. I can see many parallels between our lives. But still I have to say that I'm too affraid to go to a doctor. I have an IQ of 145 but I'm to stupid to help myself. I'm going to die this weekend and nobody can stop me. This is the wrong world. I hope for the Third World War. Mankind is the worst thing God ever invented. C U in hell (?)
René Bürgel <Margot.Buergel@freenet.de>
Rendsburg, Germany -

Thank you so much for sharing this informatin I'm doing a research paper for a college psychology class and I've chose to learn about schizophrenia- I found the movie "A Beautiful Mind" very inspiring.
Linda <reyni17@aol.com>
Chesterton, In USA -

Great site and I like all the detail. I have a hobby and a project to do on this subject and I am glad to get a person whos lived threw its advice. This site is very informational
Diane <diben@2sweetforyoubaby.zzn.com>
MI USA -

I wish to present my humble thesis to the group for discussion at this time. In my humble opinion, the cause of world war 2 was schizophrenia. Schizophrenia must be cured if homo sapiens is to survive. Adolf Hitler, a beaten veteran, homeless and despised by all, overcame adversity to create the Third Reich with fantastic illusions of grandeur, a true symptom of paranoid schizophrenia. At this time, one of those types rules Iraq. He dreams of vast conquests, the restoration of Babylon to its former days of grandeur. He too came from very humble origins and believe Allah has given him the Divine contract to rule the Heavens forevermore. If Hitler had been given psychiatric treatment perhaps World War 2 never would have happened. If Saddam Hussein is not givenm treatment soon, world war three may happen. In my humble opinion a team of psychiatrists disguised as soldiers must sneak into the palace of Hussein and somehow medicate him and give him some good talk therapy and talk him down from his dizzying heights of manic-depression and paranoid schizophrenia. I know that this is a minority opinion. I know that the majority believe we should bomb the living out of him and all those countries. In Operation Anne Frank, what would all those who died senseless deaths in world war two have us do to prevent another holocaust??? I know this sounds like Donovan's universal soldier and a conscientious objector position but it is paramount to the issue of survival. I have had schizophrenia for most of my life and know the dizzying heights of grandiosity it has led me into. I was finally 'discovered" and treated at 18 years of age. I am now almost 52 years of age and after much hankie pankie and adventure i am almost a great great grandfather. We who have been through a mini Mein Kampf know that the struggle is long and hard. Well, its almost time for my medication. I wish all schizophrenics a speedy recovery and back to the daily grind of whatever you like to do for a living. If a research psychiatrist happens to read this message in a bottle or sos you must act before we all go kaplooie. There is not a second to lose.---
John Doe
Canada -

You are very ill, but i too, ha ha ha ha
Thomas <elmerromerro@aol.com>
gelsenkirchen, Germany -

this is a great site:)
jennifer <JSEJHALLS@MSN.COM>
Akron, OH United States -

i think this is really neat i'm doing a project for school and it's nice to se someone with first hand experience writing
liz
Canada -

Great website! Thanks for the information, I think it has made me more aware of my disease and the consequences it has on my life. Thanks a lot!!
Michiel Peeters <michielpeeters@hotmail.com>
Schijf, The Netherlands -

Great website! Thanks for the information, I think it has made me more aware of my disease and the consequences it has on my life. Thanks a lot!!
Michiel Peeters <michielpeeters@hotmail.com>
Schijf, The Netherlands -

Well, it's Monday and I'm sitting near my cat, sipping on coffee and surfin' for interesting sites. There are not many good homepages in german internet to this topic. Thank you for the resources. Keep up the good work! - R. Kredit
Ratenkredit
Germany, Germany -

What a thorough website, I found so much valuable info. to use in my work with chronic schizophrenics. I also am providing sensitivity training for the staff to the need of people with a mental illness. Thanks again, Lee
Lee <Ldaudt@msn.com>
Philadelphia, PA United States -

I liked your web site. I also have schizophrenia. I have had it since 1991 and Iam now about forty. Once again thanks for the good info. Steven Southern Oregon Coast
Steven <DOKA@webtv.net>
U.S.A. -

Help
Peter Cavanaugh <pcavanau@hotmail.com>
Kaneohe, HI USA -

It's raining in Germany and it's a very bad weather. I surf and find your fantastic homepage, bookmarked it and will be back! greetings from " Krankenversicherung Hans "
Krankenversicherung
GERMANY -

I realize that I may suffer the penalty of excommunication from the website for being so bold as to impersonate a writer and journalist of such stature as Ian Fleming. The Flemings are a very famous family. One of them invented the wonder drug penicillin. I beg of you kind chovil not to excommnicate anyone from the website for exercising the right of free press. In the Church of James Bond there are many saints. It seems to be rather Anglican. May your stocks and bonds be profitable. Saint Felix Leiter was of course the famous CIA agent who lost his arm in the story Thunderball and had to take a demotion to Pinkerotn's to keep horse racing honest. Of course there is the great saint of Diamonds Are Forever---Tiffany Case who was won over to the side of goodness and finally betrayed the archfiend who dared to launder diamonds and jewels. The US Naval Academy and West Point and the Air Force Academy and the Coast Guard Academy and of course the United States Space Academy are favorite targets of drug dealers and foreign agents. They wish to destroy us before we can even get off the ground. May they receive Divine Protection and then realistically may a shield be put around them to keep our cadets and future protectors safe. Some of the cadets will fall and fail. May there parents not be too hard on them should they stumble. May they fall back into the safety net. Thank you Ian Chovil for being part of the solution not the problem. You were targeted years ago on a war map. Remember your imaginary numbers men and women of earth. The square root of negative three is what. It is an imaginary number for a negative times a negative is a positive. This always bugged me. It just goes to show that unreality is in the set of reality also. Do the Venn diagrams. Don't forget to eat three meals a day if you have the money. If you don't have the money get Thee to a homeless shelter. In my opinion in the great Saga of Chovil, I think he should have gone home to his parents house admitting defeat. His story kind of reminds me of E.T., call home E.T. your parents wonder where you are and they are worried sick about you. Thank you ian chovil for your return to base of sanity, perhaps you will be knighted some day. Rise oh knight of the realm, right away sir ian, yes sir ian. All these have remained loyal. There is one for the Crown. Two to get ready and three to go. I wish I owned a Morris Minor. Out of gas, out of breath, broke and living entirely on charity---yours--ian fleming
Ian Fleming
Canada -

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Canada -

I'm an cadet at the RCMP training Academy, and we're doing a quick project on mental illnesses and I found your site to be quite helpfull.
Lynden Morrison
Regina, SK Canada -

hello
hopmanhop
Canada -

Here is my address. I would like as much reading pamplets or info you can give me. I have schizopherenia. My address is Robert Wampner At: Martin-Boots Apt.s 619 W3rd Apt. 13 Marion Indiana 46952 Thank you for all your help. Bob
Robert Wampner <bobwampner@hotmail.com>
Marion, 46952 Indiana -

Thanks Ian for your presentation to the Schizophrenia Society in Ottawwa on Sept. 25. As family members we are concerned to hear from other family members about problems being experienced with ACT teams in Ontario. Through the course of our son's illness we have become strongly of the view that family members are an important part of the treatment team and should be considered as such. For this reason we welcomed your comment that, next to maintaining medication, the most important factor in helping people with schizophrenia keep their illness under control was family education and support. Unfortunately, there seems to be a trend in ACT teams in Ontario to exclude family members or keep them on the margins, even though many family members have many more hours contact per week with their relative who is an ACT client than the staff of the ACT team. This seems to run counter to the basic principles of Assertive Community Treatment as set down by the folks at NAMI in the United States. Do others have this same experience? Have some of your correspondents come up with protocols or methods by which they can be kept in the loop rather than being excluded from treatment decisions for their relative on the grounds of confidentiality or professional ethics?> Please keep up your good work - Mike Cassidy, Ottawa
Mike Cassidy <mkcassidy@sympatico.ca>
Ottawa, ON Canada -

Your generosity of spirit is so apparent in this website. Thank you so much for your honesty in presenting how this illness has affected your life. And, thank you for providing so much useful information in such a well written manner.
Pat
VA USA -

Hi I'm a pupil from Germany who red your sad story in a german website. I fell very sorry but I will pray for you today before I go to sleep,...
ISSA
Pforzheim, Germany -

I am swamped by so much information on schizophrenia. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years had a psychotic episode 4 months ago (his 2nd in 12 years). He has not been diagnosed with an illness yet but is on stellazine and is suffering greatly from depression. I too am beginning to feel depressed as I don't know how to handle the situation. Can you recommend any counsellors/groups/contacts in England?
Andrea <andrea211071@yahoo.com>
Liverpool, L32 England -

SB271046 by GlaxoSmithKline, a 5HT6 antagonist, developed for schizophrenia (& Alzheimer's disease) is in phase II (out of III) testing trial. Hope this will be the medication for those, who are not tolerating or not responding to dopamine blocking antipsychotics. I have some info about other medications that are being tested, if someone is interested.
P. <longshine@pobox.sk>
Bratislava, Slovakia -

Hello! I have spent quite a while visiting your site and I think that it would be a fantastic addition to The Seven Wonders Of the World Website Competition! This is the place where you receive prizes when you win the highest level. We have lots of fun and plenty of teams to choose from. And great prizes! Come by and check us out . Scroll down the page and click the "Join" link. Press the graphic below to visit us. ...Tell them Lizz sent you!

Hope to see you there!

Lizz

Lt. Governor of Seven Wonders Of The World

Lt. Governor Lizz <LtGovernorliz@thesevenwondersoftheworld.com>
usa -

hello sir, my name is lindsay. i was researching for my psychology and came upon your site. i too deal with a dissorder such as your called dissosiative dissorder which deals with split personalities. i have started to lose faith in finding a cure. the sad thing is i am only 15. i have read your story and think it is remakable that you have made it so far for i have given up dozens oof times.suicide seems the only way sometimes, but i know better. thank you for being an inspiration.
lindsay
md united states -

Just surfing. A wise man will always change his mind . . a fool never will
Peter from Merchweiler / Saarland <Peter from Merchweiler / Saarland>
Germany -

Today is the first day that I actullay found out what schizophrenia is, and all because of a speech that I'm going to be given. I truly I'm amazed at some of the info that I have found in just an 1 hour. I have learned that it is not just a disease were people hear voices but much more. WOW!!
Jenny <jenny_bennett>
Brookfield, WI US -

Schizophrenia is a bad disease to have.I just can't wait for mine to go away.But you gotta have hope that it will.I just wish i could get some piece and quite,and i know when its over im gonna be happy 24/7.Thanks for readin this if you do. KEEP YA HEAD UP-TUPAC SHAKUR
Nicholas <nikenik20@aol.com>
Anadarko, ok U.S.A -

Dear comrades: I have been held in Union of Soviet America;s facility or gulag for some time now. I was arrested for impersonating a British Secret Service agent. I know that I am psychotic. You see comrades, my Dad had me read all the James Bond novels when I was 12 year sold. He wanted me to pattern my life after that of the famous British agent James Bond. I got so into the novels and the character and the music of the Bond movies that I totally flipped out and thought I was Bond, James Bond. You see when I was 8-13 and got out of acting in kiddie porn and got into straight movies like Danny Thomas and Inherit the Wind and the Birds I acted out so many roles of characters that were not me that I did not know what my own identity and character was anymore. It is a common symptom amongst actors, artists, writers and musicians. Sometimes we get soooo into our roles we become the character and cannot come out of it. Personally I feel that fiction is not good for the People. I recovered many times from psychosis by doing simple arithmetic problems and then progressing on to more difficult problems like algebra, geometry and trigonometry and calculus. If you have a friend or relative who has been diagnosed I recommend he not just lay around and watch tv and become more morose and psychotic but realize he has regressed to a child-like state of mind and needs to be re-raised. It is like a person who needs to be re-educated and re-trained from the simplest nursery rhyme back to reading very difficult material like the Wall Street Journal. I do not recommend the Daily Worker however as readinbg material. This is just my opinion. Perhaps you dear reader feel that your loved one has a political-religious psychosis, this is partly true. Perhaps he used to be into sex drugs and rock n roll. He wanted to be free. He or she thought of joining the armed forces, he did not quite know what they wanted to do in life and they began to question authority. Well in the Bond series, Bond's parents had been killed in a skiing accident in Chamonix and was raised by his Aunt Charmaine Pettbottom. Some of us out here are adopted. Some of us know that we are adopted others do not. Some believe life to be a tragedy, others believe it to be a drama, others a comedy. Perhaps as Shakespeare said: tis a tale told by an idiot. My grandfather was arrested for his political beliefs and nearly executed. And that was in the allegedly free country of the USA. There is much intrigue, and it can confuse and irritate and annoy people who wish things to be more simple. Life is very complicated these days and very stressful, but its better than plowing a field with a horse. The cost of living is very high. Class structure can be quite hard to endure. Thank you for listening. One of the masses.
Rick Westwood
Canada -

nice site! keep up the good work and best wishes from germany :)
tom
germany -

pls i don land here all guy men.
mugu <mugu@mugu.com>
lagos, nigeria Canada -

Great site!
Sergei
Canada -

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Canada -

Hello from Germany, I have find your URL in "Kompetenznetz Schizophrenie" and I am searching for people like you to talk about schizophrenie. I hope you join my homepage...by Frank
Frank Schoenfelder <schoeni@fbe.hs-bremen.de>
Oyten, Germany -

My bestfriend has all the symptoms of schizophrenia. Last night i was with him and he kept referring to me as a "suit" and that i need to make the switch. He asked me to stop time, and to allow GOD to give him what hes asking for by tomorrow. I have tried to tell his parents but they are ignorant and basically shut me out. His only other friend that knows thinks its all spiratual and can overcome it on his own. How can I help him??? I told him that he probably has schizophrenia and he told me to stop talking. I know hes thought about suicide a lot and i am VERY worried.... Any suggestions??
Sara <saroakes83@yahoo.com>
Shelton, CT usa -

I am studying your life story as part of my theatre studies a-level exam and would very much appreciate it if you could e-mail me with a bit more infomation on your childhood so that I can understand you a bit better much obliged-David Watts
David Watts <wu_diddy@hotmail.com>
Chelmsford, Essex England -

There is a cure for mental illness in a deliverance manual in the upper right hand corner on the website www.lakehamiltonbiblecamp.com. Scroll down until it says view manual. than scroll down until you come to schiz section. The mind is in another section. The manual has over 350 pages...
helena <read_the_bible2001@yahoo.com>
bayonne, nj usa -

heart warming..i am doing my masters in clincal psychology and this was a very informative site.
barkha bajaj <barkhab@hotmail.com>
pune, india -

my boyfriend's brother is schitzophranic. he's been through a lot. before being diognosed, he would come home, and tell his mom how the rocks that he ran over yelled at him with pain when he rode his bike, and things like that. he was really frightened because he thought that if he left his home, someone would kill him. he has become very manipulative too. although when he was young, he had an abusive father, who is now dead, i think that the drugs that he did in high school were what did him in. things like meth, acid, speed, weed, and so on. it really f***s with your head you know? just some small addvice...don't let your controlling mother ruin your mind, or a drunk alcoholic father, and expierimentation is one thing, but to much can ruin your life. steve, my boyfriends brother is just now getting over his sudden fear of toilets which backed up his valves so much that he needed a caphider, and oral/anal enimas. it is pretty aweful. remember this: schizophranics do not have multiple personalities. Thanks! ~Allie Buell
Allie
Ca U.S. -

Are there any web sites dedicatet to alternative pharmacological treatment strategies for schizophrenia (incl. double-blind proofs etc.) ? I have read several sites about psychosis associated with dementia in the elderly and in many of them people are saying that 5-HT3 antagonists and cholinesteraze inhibitors may be effective also in normal schizophrenia, but there are no references in normal sites about schizophrenia about these; just antipsychotics. But when they fail ? I have seen many cases where it happened. It looks like that nobody really cares about these people.
P. <longshine@pobox.sk>
Bratislava, Slovakia -

A Special Person A close friend of my family lost a special person last year to schizophrenia. It a secret known only to his family, he refused to continue his meds and kept relapsing. The odd thing is that he was so psychotic, but he knew enough to keep certain things a secret and knew the consequences of his actions. A kind person and very discreet, it was only after his suicide that the entire story was revealed as all his friends and family finally got to meet each other and exchange stories. It is critical to be open to people that may be hurting and desperate but unable to explain what is happening to them. My friend believed that he was very alone, in deep, dark space with no body, but had a consciousness. Terrified, he sometimes held a gun to the door of his car while driving. Telling only told pieces of the story to different people; his friends did not really put it together or know how serious it was. He was a good-looking guy with many girlfriends that were close to him that met each other for the first time at his funeral. After this experience, I researched this type of thing; a good book is "The Man Who Thought His Wife Was A Hat". There are a truly person that have odd beliefs that are very real to them, that is what psychosis is. We all needed to educated on these matters and have been able to help him more. I am not sure if he thought there was nothing anyone can do to help him. According to his family, he would hold the pill and a glass of water for an entire day, debating and questioning about why and why not. While in the process of changing his medication, it was only afterward that his family found out that the new drugs would not be effective until weeks later. Falling into his abyss, with no one to help or understand, he killed himself. The police said that the gun he had was a police issued weapon. He was quite clever and resourceful. I spoke with him all night until the wee morning hours a week before he passed on and he didn't express a thing. The thing that bugs me is that he already knew what he was going to do but didn't say anything. Very coherent and kind, he was talking and listening to me for hours about a dating problem. An ex-girlfriend of his expressed that he had told her that he could not eat, sleep or clean his room for two months. Everyone, please educate yourself and people around you and take special care in these matters. Now I more clearly understand what my friend was experiencing. This site has the best information I have seen on this disorder. WORLDGATES 20/20 http://www.worldgates.net
Worldgates <worldgates@bigfoot.com>
Los Angeles, CA USA -

Thank You for information on schizophrenia.It has helped me with a research paper I need for school.My dad was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was still a little girl.Researching on your website help me to understand my dad's condition.He is doing much better now and has been taking many pills since I can remember.Inever really got to know my real dad though.Keep up the good work and I'll keep you in mind!
Andrea <urebel87413@hotmail.com>
Kirtland, NM North America -

Hi.I was surfing the net for reasearch and I stumbled upon your site.It is very informative. THANKS!!
tanya <tanyanault@skaw.ca>
saskatoon, sk Canada -

i made a mistake on the website to access the deliverance manual with help for mental illness. It's www.lakehamiltonbiblecamp.com. Remember the deliverance manual is on the upper right hand corner. After clicking the deliverance manual scroll down to view all the info.
Helena <read_the_bible2001@yahoo.com>
bayonne, nj us -

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Canada -

I am gay and I hate this website~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A.J. Malone
Columbus, GA USA -

Indeed, mental illness is highly stigmatized. That is unfortunate. I suffer from depression and take medication. However, I do not openly tell people this. My sister was diagnosed with paranoid schitzophrenia when she was 16 along with mild autism and retardation. Up until that time my parents were told that they were making my sister behave in this way. At fourteen she was labeled emotional disturbed. This was a frustration to my parents who did not know how to work with my sister in making her life better as well as theirs. So when she was finally diagnosed with schitzophrenia it was a relief to finally know. It was a starting point. The unfortunate thing is that limited information was given on how to work with her. It wasn't until I started to work in special education that we could better help her and our relationship with her. I believe with a better understanding of what causes her to lose her temper and what to do when she does has saved our nerves and relieves some of the pressure off her. We so need to educate people that mental illnesses range in so many different ways.
joanne Wells
Canada -

I think that your website is very helpful and interesting. I Hope everything works out for you.~Jenn~
Jenn
Columbus, GA USA -

Is there ANY hope for my son who is on the run from the police for not turning up for enforced medication whose side-effects he CANNOT tolerate and would rather stand in front of a train. I know there is in the long run, but this is urgent. Has ANYONE ever been helped by lawyers to gain the freedom to choose their own alternative healing? Haven't time to read all your letters. Perhaps SOMEONE out there may benefit from my little website dedicated to Carl Jung and OTHERS here in Australia trying to get the law changed. Thanks. Anne.
Anne Dornay <anne22k@yahoo.com.au>
Brisbane, QLD Australia -

Hey everyone reading this.....My name is Phillip and I have been diagnosed with a type of schizophrenia. Paranoid in the begining...But then diagnosed as effective. All I want to say is that there is hope for us and the family members that care for us all. In the begining of my treatment..I was sceptical that there was no illness worse than schizophrenia....But understand...we see the world in a different perspective than others...Our projected reality when we go through what we go through without the aid of medications to control it is more or less a gift from God...We see the world differentley than most...Does that not make you special? Medications are given to keep us in touch with reality...or from hurting ourselves. The mind of a schizophrenic= Gods way of showing a certin few a "different" reality. May he touch us all.
Phillip Farley <gotthecheezwha@yahoo.com>
Hinesville, Ga. Georgia -

What a great site - thanks for this valuable resource. I highly recommend E. Fuller Torrey's "Surviving Schizophrenia" for family members of schizophrenics. And a I agree with some of the other comments about a possible spiritual cause in SOME cases - no one is absolutely sure what causes this illness (it's probably not just one thing, but a cluster of things), so I wouldn't rule out demonic activity. I worked with schizophrenics for years and the predominant delusion my patients had were very frightening religious delusions, most often involving Satan. Who knows? I wouldn't rule it out. But I would recommend a combination of medications and prayer - it can't hurt.....
Amy <lance@1scom.net>
TX USA -

I know more today about the disease than yesterday thankyou for your input ( I am writing a research paper)
Michael Farey <charliefarley111@ aol.com>
Canada -

great
123 <cdavis@travelsavers.com>
NY, NY Canada -

thanks soo much for all of the information contained in this site! you have helped me more than you'll ever know!
Jamie Ruloph <crow3217@yahoo.com>
Hermiston, or usa -

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Canada -

I got shizo when I was eighteen and i'm almost twenty-two now. It's been hard to convince myself that i need medication. I've tried to quit several times but then I can't sleep. Zyprexa is also sleeping pill that I'm addicted too now. If anything helps bring back my emotions it's a band called nirvana that I listen to sometimes. It's just the pain in his voice. I've learned that's it's much better to feel bad than feeling nothing. Another bad feeling i get is the awareness that time is passing very quickly and I'm not living any of those moments. It's like my life is slipping away. I've been getting better for several years and time has finally begun to lengthen to the point where I feel like I can live life. I used to be very sensitive and blush at everything and that's starting to return which is a good feeling. At this time I'm not so sure if I added up all the good and bad in my life that it's been worth living. For the remainder of my life I'd like to prove to myself life is worthwhile and there is beauty in it. Thanks to Chovil for a wonderful site. I'd like to start a site primarily for artwork and poems by people with this disease.
Steve <vohaul2376@aol.com>
US -

I find your site very interesting and informative. I will certainly visit it again when I have more time. Thank you!
Helene Thoms <helene.thoms@css.gov.on.ca>
Sudbury, ON Canada -

hey there :) its not my language and maybe thats the reason why i haven't yet read the whole page in hours...: greatfull and so nice to realize that there are people out in the world that experienced the same whole stuff like me - 4 years ago and it dured till now that i learnt to accept that illness. im luckely "healthy" now and i know i had the biggest luck of this earth - i didnt become very religious though, but im very thankfull i laid my priorities in aspects like caring for myself and so on. im so thankfull and one of the sadest things for me is in that moment that there wont be many people in this world that can understand such a big gratitude... but i have my family and some really special friends and someday ill loose my fears and become that part of our society i dream of *** -if someone would like to write me im really looking forward. it would be the best to learn the language your page is written in. that oneday i can overfly all textes... *CONGRATULATIONS* katrin
katrin <kw_katrin@hotmail.com>
switzerland -

Your website is informative and provides an insight into the nature of schizophrenia for sufferers and their carers which is invaluable. I was diagnosed in 1990, and put on depixol injections eventually due to non-compliance. I'm still on depixol, but a minimum dose, and have in the meantime returned to fulltime work, got married, and had a baby this year at the age of 35! My work colleagues are not aware of my condition, and I managed to get my job (Civil Engineering Assistant) just 1 week after being discharged from hospital after a particularly intense but short relapse in which I managed to get it back from insisting in being wrapped naked in a sheet because I was the first ever mummy to persuading one of the three required signatories not to agree to a 6 month section just the next day! This is how quickly some sleep and a return to medication can help you funtion as a normal human being - there is hope for the most deluded of sufferers with a little insight into your own condition. This insight can be gained from websites like your own - acceptance and understanding are key.
Vicki Garratt-Walters
England -

I have always loved this site. Way to go! I have a book coming out (about madness and me) that is available now. I don't want to SPAM here so if you're curious, e-mail me at JGrrr@juno.com to find out more. Julie Greene
Julie Greene <JGrrr@juno.com>
Boston, MA USA -

When we bring problems out into the open they tend to diminish. I hope you site helps.
David at Payday Advance Services
USA -

I like your site. You state that there are 2 kinds of people suffering from Schiaophrenia, those who take meds and those who do not. That is too simple for me. There are also two types of people who take meds, those who are rendered functional on meds and those who are not. Some people do not get enough relief from the meds to function in society. My son is one of those. Even on the optional dose of Clozeril, he is psycotic. He is worse off the meds but on the meds he has the side effects to contend with. He is now off the meds and is completely out of it. He is living at Queen Street so is physically safe. What would you do if you were in his position. Too sick to live without meds and too doped to be able to even put out your web page. Other than that; great site. Errol
Errol <errolyoung@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, ON Canada -

I am going through what so many of the letters describe with my 21 yr. old nephew who I've raised since his mother died five years ago. Right now all I feel is helpless and heart-broken. I don't know what to do. He won't take his medication and has regressed. On medication he was a "normal", happy person. Is there still hope for him? All I can do is cry. Nobody seems to care
Joe B. <bahrjoe@hotmail.com>
Winnipeg, MB Canada -

Hi. Thank you for this site and good luck to you. I have a brother with Schizophrenia and it has been the most devastating experience of me and my family's life. It's as though we have lost him and the person infront of us is no longer the boy we once knew. He had been taking Haldol but he just started taking a newer drug called "seroquel". I hope this works for him better. To all the dear people out there affected by Schizophrenia, PLEASE, PLEASE, TAKE YOUR MEDICATION. YOU WILL LIVE A HAPPIER LIFE.
Shirin
LA, CA USA -

I am interested in the similarity [or indeed difference] between schizophrenia and delusions of manic depression. I have manic depression, and I believe (and it is said that) manic depression is easier to deal with than schizophrenia . My trivial site includes http://www.geocities.com/totierne/hammer9.html . Thank you for putting this information together.
Turloch O'Tierney <totierne@hotmail.com>
Ireland -

Nice site, very informative and very brave. I hope to follow your example and produce a similar site as well. All the best, Chad.
Chad <sagacitoma@hotmail.com>
Regina, SSSSK Canada -

A great site; offering information to those struggling to understand this illness that steals lives. You shine a light into the darkness, allowing glimmers of perception that only can be shared by those who have confronted those dark caverns. Keep the light on and God Bless.
Dixie <dsorenson@snet.net>
South Windsor, CT US -

My mother has had paranoia schzophrena since I was 1 years old. I am now going on 23 and my poor mother is still dealing with this disease. I love my mom with all my heart,and I hate to see her go through all of this. My father has been there for her every strp of the way (they have been married for 32 years). Just recently they have found "new" medicine to help her out. But the thing is her dr retires and now she has a doctor that does care about her needs as a patient. It hurts my family and my mom to go through this over and over again. We want to help her as much as possible, but there is only so much we can do; then the drs have to take over. PLease can or if anyone out there has any ideas or drs. that we could contact,please email me ASAP. Thanks, Holly, VA
Holly <hollylh@hotmail.com>
herndon, va USA -

Very helpfull and thankyou.
T.Rawlinson <trawlinson@lineone.net>
Blackpool, UK -

Hello, My father is currently a director of the CIT program with the police department, Crisis Intervention Training, and what it does is teaches all of the other officers, medical, and fire staff about different disorders and how to defuse a situation and work with the individual. One disorder that particularly stood out to me was Schizophrenia. I am doing a pursuasive speech, what I hope to accomplish is for people to get involved and learn about this particular disorder. I also would like for them to not be afraid to interact. I currently work at a cafe' and there is a man that is a paranoid schizophrenic and he is one of the sweetest men I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. This has sparked an interest in me and I wish to know more and would love to get involved. If you know of any organizations, volounteer groups or other affiliations that I could get involved in I would love to make a difference in someones life. You are a true insparation.
Janet <jtails20@attbi.com>
olympia, WA USA -

Your site is very well written, and I thought your story was extremely poignant and remarkable. I'm sorry you have been through so much. I certainly hope that you keep on looking up - you have a tremendous amount of courage and resiliency. Thank-you for sharing those difficult times in your life.
Emily
MA USA -

HI.im actually 15 and i was seraching for something related to the book "Sybil" after reading it and stumbled on your site. Just some comments on the book Sybil, maybe you would like to read it too. This is the second time im reading a book about a person with "split personalities". "sybil" and this other book by sidney Sheldon. The book has definitely brought about alot of questions and thoughts to my mind, and thank you for your site cos now those questions are answered. At 15, i don't know alot about life, but i definitely felt anger, fear and even a fraction of erriness. Then i foudn out that the book Sybil was actually made into a movie starring sally field, but i couldn't find the movie in local stores. Do you know where i could probably get the movie. LAst but not least, i wish you good luck and may God bless you always. love, nel
Nel <glad_168@hotmail.com>
singapore, singapore -

Enjoyed your articles. Very informative and insightful to may current condition. Thank you very much. Keep up the good work and very best of luck to you.
Keith Bolden <keithbolden59@aol.com>
Memphis, Tn United States -

I´ve Read your Story, and I can see so many same Toughts to my Boyfriend I hope Ican help him to get back to his life, like you, again. But while I was reading your Story it makes clear for me, that I have to go a long way with him. But I can´t leave him alone, I love him so I think it is my part to try everything to help him, even when it will be difficult or maybe impossible. Thank you, for writing your story, Julia
Julia <crazy_bitch_julia@web.de>
Halle/Saale, Germany -

Very informative site, has helped me a lot. Take care.
Dot <Dot@up.net>
Mi U.S. -

I know, I've being there...
Ginny <Ginny_timmins@hotmail.com>
UK -

Hello, I am watching the Debra Duncan show on T.V. right now and I just thought I would write and tell you that you have inspired me to follow my dream to be a psychologist. I just found out a couple years ago that my mom has had schizophrenia since she was 17. My family has kept it a secret from me. I grew up being paranoid though I think because she alwasy was. She never took her medicine. She has been in several Mental Hospitals and has tried to commit suicide several times. Currently she is homeless. Email me please, I think we can be friends, I am very intersted in learning more about it. Talk to you later!
Emma <Emmag143@aol.com>
Baytown, Tx -

Dear Ian, Thank you for making this very inspiring and informative site. After reading about you and your recovery I have realized that none of us are truly alone. Your work here IS meaningful to me, and I'm sure, many, many others. Thank You
Brian
ON Canada -

very nice site. as a person who is bipolar and who spent months trying to find information on what i was up against, i can understand the depth of the research you've done, and truly appreciate it. i just realize that a friend of mine is schizophrenic, yours was one of the first sites i saw, and i'm glad for that. you've given me much reading material, and i will be able to understand and possibly be there for her much more now. thank you very much.
misfitmongrel
Canada -

Thanks Ian, for a great site. My sister-in-law has just been diagnosed after her first episode but they are reluctant to call it schizophrenia for some reason. Thanks for the great insight you gave me. Now I feel I can help her more because I understand what she is feeling.
Mel <melly_w@optusnet.com.au>
Australia -

Thank you for sharing your life. My boyfriend has schizophrenia. Yes i knew before we fell in love. Many of the things you have shared makes me realize how difficult it must be for him to even have this relationship with me. He lives in France and me in Singapore so you could imagine how difficult the adjustments have been. He has recently returned back to france and I am not sure if he is doing ok coz he does not sound very well. You are probably not even reading this but i would like to hear from other care givers. I guess it helps to speak to someone who knows what we are going thru. Thank you again for your article. niki
Niki <jamayca11@hotmail.com>
Singapore, Singapore -

HI,MY NAME IS MINDY,I AM 17 YRS.OLD,I THINK THIS IS A GOOD WEBSITE,BECAUSE IT TEACHES ME SOMETHING ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA,BECAUSE WHEN I GROW UP,I WOULD LIKE TO BECOME A GOOD PHSYCIOTRIST,OR THERAPIST,I READ A BOPOK ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA,BUT THEN I WANTED TO BECOME A THERAPIST,BECAUSE I LIKE HELPING PEOPLE WITH THESE DISORDERS.
mindy <gurlychick129@yahoo.com>
floral park, ny u.s.a -

hi glad to know you have one of the more common mental disises . sp have you tried any natrual.sp cures such as herbal chinese or whatever bye
sandi j unhoch <luck@myvine.com>
claypool, indiana usa -

hi there, i love your site so far, was looknig through the net about schitsophrenia as my cousin has the disease... but he was a long time alcoholic but had stopped for 1 1/2 years and in the past few days he started drinking again after recieving treatment of shocks... i'm just hoping the best for him... i'm slightly scared for my self because i also was an alcoholic for a long time, given up 8 weeks now... was mentally hooked to cannabis for a long time aswell also upto 11 ecstacy in one night as well as gambling problems...just smoking a little hash now and then... off harder drugs for over a year i havnt been to see about help... i just feel more antisocial, i'm highly stressed now but also depressed. My uncle also commited suicide about 9 years ago and my family keep telling me that i remind them of him by my life so far.... do you really believe that there is only a hair line of difference between insanity and genius, because my uncle was the smartest man i knew but paranoia took his life away. i'm returning back to university to study psycology in november.....
lloyd <L_L_O_Y_D@hotmail.com>
Canada -

Thank you for your work and effort in uncovering and providing support for those people suffering from schizophrenia and other psychotic illnesses. I have schizo-affective disorder and have taken med.s for over 10 years. I think it really helps to have others speak about their inflictions. Thank you kindly. Jason.
Jason F. Ganz <Jganz7@aol.com>
Boise, ID USA -

Very nice and usefull site. Found you on Yahoo dir.
Carl <Carl>
LV, Nevada US -

I wear golf shoes, I am so popular
muz <muzwhite@hotmail.com>
Newcastle, Australia -

I have voices in my head and need help now and like myself
muz <muzwhite@hotmail.com>
Australia -

Could you help me please I am desperate
Jacob <gowie11@hotmail.com>
Newcatsle, Australia -

I have voices in my head and need help
muz <muzwhite@hotmail.com>
Australia -

I found the entry on this site about family and social support as part of a larger search I performed on "google." I am a graduate student at the University of Illinois and am currently researching the topic of social support. While the discovery of statistical significance between social support and our mental and physical health is exciting, it is also very frustrating because invention is very difficult. Researchers and practioners need to work together to develop programs that improve our social interactions. Suggestions? What types of interventions are helpful?
Michelle Gabris
Champaign, IL USA -

I'm still confused about a lot I've realy suffered alot from my schizapherina,(Kan't spell)so much has happened since i was 13 got married at 24 got great kids Know I 've been branded for life because there was an alterkation with my wife and i don't remember a thing and life hads turned upside down for me i read your story but got questions for you. My wife is afraid of me and I don't want her to be She has been looking for some anwers but they are all bad ie Like is this goin to happen again even though you are heavly suddaited on meds she also wants me to stay away from her, because shes scared i'll hurt her our my kids and i don't want to hurt anyone I just want some clue as to what could be good four us. thx
alexander <rngmtr@netscape.net>
Anchorage, AK USA -

Thanks for all the great insight, you can study hard, but it is always best to get knowledge from those who really know. Best always Mel
Melissa <mel65@bigpond.com>
NSW Australia -

i really like the web site.........it is very interesting and has a lot of information on the subject i got exactly all that i needed thank you very much sincerely
yasmine singh <yasu_yours@hotmail.com>
kathmandu, nepal -

Thanks Ian. Your work is interesting and rigorous. I DO think it possible to recover to funtionality from psychotic illnesses. I attended a lecture where the speaker had recovered from bi-polar ie functioned without medication (10 years) and I have had much evidence from nurses and doctors that patients have recovered to differing levels. I know many people who've had one psychotic breakdown and recovered enough to live without medication. A difficulty is long term side-efects as well as immediate ones. eg carbamazapine causes cancer in rats and mice.
John Ellis
London, UK -

I must compliment you both on your site as well as your activity in education about schizophrenia. The links page is especially valuable. Given your experience, I would appreciate your comments and suggestions re: a User's Guide for Consumer/Survivors and an article I wrote on 'positive' self-disclosure for those with mental health issues. I would like to email them to you if you would be so kind as to let me know the correct address. Again, you deserve kudos for your work on behalf of consumer/survivors, not only in Ontario but Canada and beyond. Dave Jackson davjack2001@rogers.com
Dave Jackson <davjack2001@rogers.com>
Toronto, ON Canada -

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Ian
Canada -

My 28 year-old son has attempted suicide 3 times in the past 2 years and is now at Homewood again but very resistant to antipsychotic meds and counselling. His psychiatrist, and now you, have given me some hope for the first time in years but I pray it's not too late for my son. Thank you for maintaining, and for your insights. I wish you peace of mind and large measures of joy. You are making a difference! xxoo
Cookie <cookies@sentex.net>
Cambridge, Ont Canada -

Thank you for your site!! In the last days I met two persons with a disease "borderline", one is in the thirties, the other is 19 years old is Schizophrenie like borderline?see you!! Ki.
Kirsten <KiKroening@aol.com>
Germany -

My son is a schizophrenic who recently tried to commit suicide. He tried to hang himself and was very close to death when my wife and I found him and cut him down. He has been at Geauga Hospital in Chardon, Ohio for almost a month. He will be released this Friday. He is 20 years old and has a medicaid card. He also is working with a case worker through our local Cornerstone agency. Could you offer a possible course of action? He has had this disease since the age of fifteen; however it went undiagnosed until recently. He also has abused street drugs the past 5 years. He is currently taking seroquel and an antidepressant. My wife and I are very apprehensive as to his fragile state of mind. He is somewhat better in that he is calmer than before, but he seldom speaks unless spoken to and is given to long preiods of quietness. The psychiatrist at the hospital thinks he is well enough to come home. We love our son dearly and we have had many ups and downs with him the past 5 years. He has left our home of hus own accord and we have asked him to leave on a few occcasions. We think this could be our best chance yet to help him get back his life. Fritz Johnson Dover, Ohio
fritz johnson <fritzj@tusco.net>
dover, oh usa -

Your candid story and website are inspiring. I am currently pursuing my goal of becoming a psychotherapist, focusing on art therapy - what are your thoughts about art therapy?
Vineca Gray <vineca.gray@sympatico.ca>
Toronto, On Canada -

Thank you so much for this website, I'm in a psychology class. This website helped me gain insight. Thank you so much.
Elizabeth
Canada -

I was raised by a schizophrenic until 12 years old. She was very antisocial & irrational. I watched her have a breakdown right in front of me once. I was sent to a foster home, that was very tramatizing for me. Our family had parted ways with her, she maintained no real relationships with anyone. As I got older I felt like she was trying to drive me crazy, so I left. Her crazy stories of the church putting computer software up people's genitals so the church could keep track of your sex life. I never really understood until that her brain was actually deterioating. I was angry that I never had a "normal" mom, I got over that but now it is impossible to even maintain a conversation with her. My dad also suffers from the same ilness, he was an alcoholic, I saw her maybe 4 times in my whole life. She was 36 when she had me so she was well into her illness by then. She loved me but she never taught me much, I still don't know alot of things. I have 4 kids now & she is in a nursing home, she cries over everything. It is hard for me & my kids to see her. I don't get up alot, it costs alot, travel, lunches. I have alot of guilt, I haven't been much of a daughter at all & I'm trying to support my kids & have my own life. It is a very sad illness & the pain it has caused in my family is great. I have spent many years terrified that it was going to happen to me. It's good to know such advancements are being made in case some of my children suffer from it, now I know what to look for thank you.
sheila pickering <chaos1995@hotmail.com>
scarborough, ontario Canada -

hello together! nice site! keep up the great work! bye
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Good site. Lots of helpful information. Keep up the good work. Susanne
Susanne Matthews <jandsmatt@sympatico.ca>
Cornwall, ON Canada -

I HAVE BEEN SCHIZOEFFECTIVE FOR ABOUT SEVEN YEARS ON AND OFF MY WHOLE LIFE I CONSTANTLY HEAR VOICES AND SEE THINGS LITTLE CREATURES THERE EVERYWHARE I ALSO HAD IT ROUGH STILL DO THANKS TO GROUPS AND RISPERIDAL IM BETTER IT ONLY TAKES THE EDGE OFF COLERS ALL ELSE REMAINS TRY NOT FIGHTING IT SO MUCH GO WITH IT DONT DO WHAT THE VOICES SAY EVILS ANYWAY I EVEN HAVE HOBBIES AND CAN GO OUT AND NOT FEEL WEIRD NOBODY KNOWS WHATS WRONG UNLESS YOU LET THEM KNOW THERE IS HOPE YA KNOW I EVEN FOUGHT DEMONS THATS PAST ME NOW I THINK TO THEM TO KISS MY BUT AND THAY GO AWAY RELAX IF YOU SEE AND HERE THINGS AND WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT EMAIL ME carolm194@aol.com thanks for listening take care oh great web site RICHARD LEE MINTER SR
RICHARD L MINTER <carolm194@aol.com>
wellton, az USA -

very nice site
Eleanor Bales <jstudlo@new.r.com>
Marinette, WI usa -

Thank you very much Ian, your Site was the best help to understand and to believe what I can´t for a long time. thanks
Holger Schauer <holger.schauer@t-online.de>
Rastatt, BW Germany -

just diagnosed bi polar affective
mauricecurry <mauricecurry@hotmail.com>
Craigavon, ireland -

Thanks for your guestbook! I can't believe how I can relate to so many of the entries on here. Sort of a virtual conference room for the mentally afflicted. I too have been diagnosed with paranoia/schizophrenia and am experiencing voices. It's wierd that the only visual symptoms I've had are seeing two angels. I could'nt believe someone else saw angels also! This leads me to further believe that many of us assumed to be schizophrenic are actually experiencing PSYCHIC / SPIRITUAL activity. But it cannot be proven, so there you go. My God voice told me I had been possesed by Satan against my will by my father before I was born or shortly thereafter, and that was why I am experiencing these manifestations. I firmly believe this is true, as my voices, both evil and good, have receded with vigilant prayer to God and Jesus Christ and through their continual comforting words and assurances in voice that all this would work out and "go away" as soon as they dispossessed me of satan and his damned demons, and also corrected the damage and mutation the devil had done to my brain over the years! My voices are almost gone completely now, with and without medication, for this is a spiritual problem for me. I can only speak for myself regarding this subject, for there are those who seem to have more "mental illness" type disorganized thoughts and voices that are more distorted and not clear about things, etc. and my heart goes out to them. It's scary and destabilizing to have this , to say the least! Also, I was recently put on Geodon, and also have been sick to my stomach every day and also experienced a type of unsettling dissociation from my surroundings and my normal feelings of well-being, so I decided to quit it today. It also has a risk of sudden death due to heart failure as well as messing up the natural heart rythyms, leading to palpitations, etc. That's scary side effects. It seems to me the pharmaceutical industry, with all its billions of dollars could come up with something a helluva lot better than Geodon!!! Anyway, I can always go back to Zyprexa if need be, it's about the best drug for this I've tried along with Seroquel. Thanks for your guestbook and thank you all for reading my little experience and God bless you all and I wish you each all the best! Psychiatry in moderation is good. If you think you are being mistreated, try another psychiatrist! /Don't forget to pray,either. You might be surprised how much better you get, especially if you have the type of condition I have had!
Mike E. <michael@canehdian.zzn.com>
Somewhere-in, TX USA -

Hi - The big step after finding out your diagnosis is acceptance. I think psychiatrists are helpful & most people with schizophrenia need to go to one. I am a Christian and I really dislike reading that someone believes the cause is demonic spirits. I believe that it's physical.
Emily
ON Canada -

I was just surfing the web to see what others have done. I thought yours was cool so I figured I'd sign your guestbook and let you know.
Johnny <stymiee@hotmail.com>
Pine Hill, NJ USA -

I've read a few of your entries, and I agree about Physchiatrists (some of them wouldn't know an illness if it bit them in the posterier region)I also agree about demonic spirits bothering people. HOWEVER, I recently read on a website about a virus which affects the mind, is thought to be the source of ME,Chronic Fatigue, and is often mis-diagnosed by the phyc teams as a mental illness. You should all take time to read the information at this web site www.ccid.org and check whether the symptom, or some of them correspond to the ones listed there. Its quite a big website, don't be put off by that, just work through the symptoms and some of the stories. This Doctor Martin thinks possibly 85%of mental illness and dimentias could be this virus thingy. He is a virologist, was head of the virology dept at a big US hospital, is a pathologist by profession so knows what he is talking about. So have a go.
Katie Hope <katie@uranium.gen.nz>
Wellington, New Zealand -

Iam the 270.000 th Visitor of Ur Homepage, And i want say you: You have a great Fantasy
Andre Berg
Canada -

Okay, this may a touch controvesial I am an RMN (for those of you across the Atlantic, that's a specialist trained mental health nurse) and, having read through a few of the entries to the guest book, I have to say I'm shocked and a little disgusted by how many of you accept unquestioningly this "diagnosis" of schizophrenia. To be quite clear here, (and in full acknowledgement of the fact that I speak from an outsider perspective on mental health issues) I'm not taking the line of hardcore anti-psychiatrists (Laing, Szasz et al - anyone who hasn't already, I strongly reccomend you look them up)who made the mistake of re-framing psychosis as a higher, almost spiritual state. The fact as I see it though, is that the single biggest evil afflicting mental health care, and impeding the advancement of understanding of mental health issues, is the myth that what we call mental ilness is in any way allegorical to physical illness. This is the lie, originating from, and perpetuated by those that hold the real power in psychiatry (guess who) that keeps all treatment and research on the subject centred around a medical model. Why? The major way in which doctors maintain their position of absolute power in psychiatry is by teaching us that the people they treat are 'ill' (and, incidentally, comfortably apart form the rest of us in 'sane' society) and that this illness can be diagnosed and treated by medical intervention. Bullshit. I meet a lot of people in my job, each of then is an individual, with entirley individual problems, challenges and resources, no two the same, indeed no two anything like as similar to each other as, say, two ulcerated legs or two cancerous lungs. Diagnostic categories (schizophrenia, bi-polar affective disorders, hypomania, personality disorder etc) are entirely arbitrary lists of symptoms tht allow the psychiatrist to pidgeon-hole an individual in an attempt to simplify a shattered life to the level of a broken leg. I urge anyone who can to get hold of acopy of DSM (Diagnostic Statistical Manual) or ICD-10, they make interesting reading. The most stable and psychologically well-balanced of people can diagnose themselves with virtually anything. I could rant on for hours, maybe I will, but not now and not here. What I will say, though, is that it is vitally important for the future advancement of mental health care that the tyranny of the medical model is challenged. Don't just take what your psychiatrist says as gospel They are human too, and know only what they have been taught within a biomedical framework. They are not all knowing, unquestionable in fact, take it from me, some of the are ignorant wankers.
Al
London, UK -

Thank you for the info!
Chris <dicks@yebo.co.za>
Durban, KZN South Africa -

hi i have scitzophrenia I don,t get out much and would love to accomplish what you have accomplished. I find that i am scared of people don,t like or enjoy going out with people. Sometimes i enjoy solitary life sometimes I so wish i had someone to speak to. sometimes i can,t speak because it makes people angry with me or I just feel i,m not allowed to speak. My mother has scitzophrenia too. I seem to live in the community quite well, I might add seem to. I usually go out on my own just to say that i,ve been out. My calling card in my case of scitzophrenia is when i think there are satanic cults after me then i know somethings up lol. I can,t seem to get on in life I think i will be alone forever which i probrbaly will, i am frightened of going to drop in centres because of being bullied by someone or made to take drugs or drink etc so i won,t go there but in the long run i think i,m doing ok :S I wish you all the success in the world whoever you are. You look good you are good and you,ve accomplished alot god bless Sammyjo
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