Thank you for visiting my pages.
Welcome to the second Millenium
Ian Chovil
Guelph, ON Canada - Friday, December 31, 1999 at 09:26:34 (EST)
I think that people with mental disorders are so smart that they don't know how to control it. My theory is that they use more of their brains then others. My grandfather, whom I love very much, has scizophrenia which is why I chose this for a Health class project. He is extremely intelligent and has a reasoning I never before thought of. He is a walking philosopher. He, and others like he, are not "crazy" but far more advanced...you have a gifted instrument.....just without the instruction manuel. Thank you very much and God Bless.
Kyrsten ALston <WynterNX@AOL.com>
Hamilton, NJ USA - Wednesday, December 29, 1999 at 22:32:28 (EST)
Hey too bad you got shit for brains. Just like me. David
david <none@none.com>
dyersburg, tn USA - Monday, December 27, 1999 at 21:48:37 (EST)
At least you are a great writer
linda lee
USA - Monday, December 27, 1999 at 20:49:26 (EST)
is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream i think psy''christ'stress are the biggest cons on the planet i,ve been in therapy for twenty years and its still a game of whos bullshitting who they all are suffering delusions with a god complex thrown in i sometimes think a bath of ice water might be the best method of treatment after all we are only what we are told we are just mirrows refecting back that which we receive hell your story would fit half the people on this planet but i did note where you said it cost eleven dollars an hour to become an alcoholic no wonder i,m broke all the time maybe you,ll get lucky next life and come back as just a plain everyday asshole that seems to be the most popular life forn good luck man not because you,ve got problems but because you think you do if you and i were the only people left on earth which one would ge to label the other
ray carter <woringclass93@webtv.net>
knoxville, tn USA - Wednesday, December 22, 1999 at 18:24:17 (EST)
Thank you for having the courage to share your experiences with the rest of the world. I have an 8 year old son who's being looked at closely for several disorders. Sz runs in my husbands side of the family, and it took a few years for anyone to admit it to me. I know it's rare for one so young to have this diagnosis, but after reading a few sites, I'm finding it hard to deny sz may be a strong possibility. If anyone had any info on this disorder, pertaining to young children, I'd really appreciate it. Thank you, Alicia
Alicia <dreamnofsummer@aol.com>
DE USA - Sunday, December 19, 1999 at 21:18:17 (EST)
Oh my God!! I just found your web page through A and E message board re: Shattered Minds. I immediately skipped all those "know-nothings" and came straight here. Impressive, highly informative and well organized. So many questions I had were answered. It has been so difficult to find so much valuable information in one spot. Thank you for your efforts. I GREATLY appreciate all the time and energy you put into this. I don't have time to read it all right now, but plan on buying an extra package of paper so that I can print it out for my mother. EVERYTHING!!! Thanks for the links, thanks for the charts and most of all...thanks for the hope. Good luck to you! I'll be back! Awesome page!!
Sharon Barr <barrpeters@webtv.net>
Kansas City, KS> USA - Saturday, December 18, 1999 at 16:21:54 (EST)
Interesting website. I'm currently on Risperidone (have been for the past three years), and your information regarding this was of particular interest. It's good to read of someone who has survived mental illness, i'm sure it will give hope to a lot of sufferers/relatives. i'm doing okay. to any sufferers/relatives out there-don't give up hope! as for being a fruitcake, it barely deserves a reaction of any sort. that's just low (and sad...) best wishes, Richie
Richie Pugh
USA - Friday, December 17, 1999 at 06:29:08 (EST)
I would like to say thanks for your information on schizophrenia. I had to do a final report in biology and I got an A!!! Thank you VERY much...
Jander Von Kronos <metal69@netscape.net>
Chicago, USA - Thursday, December 16, 1999 at 22:57:43 (EST)
merry christmas to you to and best of luck. beautiful site.
allison <winneythepooh7@webtv.net>
queens, ny USA - Wednesday, December 15, 1999 at 22:05:03 (EST)
I decided to do a term paper on Schizophrenia for my Biology II class and found your website and charts very helpful. Thank you.
Andrea <andreamaul@hotmail.com>
Portage, PA USA - Wednesday, December 15, 1999 at 12:52:05 (EST)
Nice web-page
Ben <mikhail22@webtv.net>
Denton, TX USA - Wednesday, December 15, 1999 at 04:52:36 (EST)
I like your site and it is better thatn most of the ones I have seen. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us.. I hope that I get the help I need..
tammy <blck_drgn>
Duluth, MN USA - Tuesday, December 14, 1999 at 09:42:31 (EST)
I have had a spot of bother leaving a message in your guest book. I am finding the technology a bit challenging. I enjoy your site. keep up the good work. See you at the conference in Kingston Jumne 9, 10 and 11. Title Great Expectations: Conquering Schizophrenia in the 21 century. good wishes for the new century. Warm regards. Patricia Forsdyke.
Pat Forsdyke. <Forsdyke1@home.com>
Kingston, USA - Monday, December 13, 1999 at 14:56:20 (EST)
Mr Chovil: Thanks so much for sharing your courageous story! My 21 year old son recently had what I believe to be his first psychotic episode. I pray that it is not to late to help him him become a functioning adult. Your story has inspired me. God Bless on your journey. Richard
Richard Crawford <crawford@erinet.com>
Enon, OH USA - Saturday, December 11, 1999 at 21:54:07 (EST)
ThankYou for having the courage to tell your story. The links you provide are also a tremendous help. Words cannot even start to explain the frustration and helplessness my family is enduring due to my brothers schizophrenia. Being an adult male there is little that can be enforced on him. Recently it has progressed to the point we may have lost him for good. He was residing with my mother, and decided to walk out one day, was located a few days later on the other side of the state, now homeless. The NC laws are a disgrace, and officials did not react within the 24hr. period of time we had. Our family is scattered across the country from AK, CA to NC. I can only hope and pray for a miracle for my brother to get the help he needs, which of course he doesn't even think he does need. WE HAVE TO DO OUR PART IN GETTING THE LAWS CHANGED. It is absolutley DEVASTATING to families. God Bless You Paula Black
PB <BPaulaL@aol.com>
Anchorage, AK USA - Thursday, December 09, 1999 at 12:36:21 (EST)
My son was diagnosed w/ schitzo-affective disorder. He is having a hard time accepting it and for now, does very little to help himself. I tried tough-love and he ended up on the streets. What motivation can I offer if he lives with me, for him to become interested in becoming more self-sufficient. He is bright, understands computers, but now he sleeps too much and makes no effort to get training, a job, or even to get out and have a social life.
Dacia Adams <daciasview@hotmail.com>
Venice, CA USA - Wednesday, December 08, 1999 at 15:52:50 (EST)
We were reading through your guestbook, and thought we should write you an inspirational message. We think you are a very strong individual. Keep on truckin'.
morgan and jess <doesn't matter>
philly, PA USA - Wednesday, December 08, 1999 at 15:05:52 (EST)
Nicole and Laura were here Merry Christmas!!!
Erika <Kellt@aol.com>
Mansfield, Ma USA - Wednesday, December 08, 1999 at 12:50:57 (EST)
Im a criminology student and as part of my course we are having a brief look at scizophrenia. After hours of seraching for a good site, yours had completed my quest. Your story is very encouraging. Thanks.
Rose <golden_rose_2000@yahoo.com>
London, England - Monday, December 06, 1999 at 05:21:42 (EST)
I am a student who is studying Psychology, and even schizophrenia, at the moment. I just want to wish you the best at fighting this disease and I hope that you don't suffer any discouragement from the people whom you need to support you.
Marguerite <mamor6@yahoo.com>
Boston, MA USA - Sunday, December 05, 1999 at 12:59:24 (EST)
This is a very good site. I was researching for a term paper that I was assigned and this sight really effected the perspective from which i wrote it. Thank you very much Andy
Andy Pettit <ajp5422@megahertz.njit.edu>
Newark, NJ USA - Friday, December 03, 1999 at 14:34:05 (EST)
I was looking for a toy called
Dan <Dan@Spehr.ch>
- Friday, December 03, 1999 at 05:58:41 (EST)
You still are a fruitcake
Nate Dogg and the G Child <mkool13@aol.com>
Beaverton, OR USA - Thursday, December 02, 1999 at 20:30:06 (EST)
You are a fruitcake
Nate Dogg and the G Child <mkool13@aol.com>
Beaverton, OR USA - Thursday, December 02, 1999 at 20:28:09 (EST)
THANK YOU FOR TELLING US YOUR STORY. MY BROTHER IS BI-POLAR AND I HAD A COUSIN WHO WAS SCHIZOPHRENIC. UNFORTUNATELY MY 14 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER IS SHOWING SIGNS OF SCHIZOPHRENIA. SHE HAD A VERY TRAUMATIC INCIDENT AT A CAMP PUT ON BY THE AIR CADETS.YES IT IS SIMILAR TO WHAT WE HEAR ABOUT THE MILITARY.SHE HAS BEEN RECOMENDED BY HER FAMILY DOCTOR AND COUNCILLOR TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST BUT OF COURSE WE HAVE TO WAIT. ANYWAY THANKS AGAIN. I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU ARE HERE TO TELL YOUR STORY BECAUSE THE ONLY CASE I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS MY COUSIN AND THE RESULTS WERE NOT HAPPY.BUT THEN AGAIN HE'S NOT SUFFERING ANYMORE .
NOR
SASKATOON, SK CANADA - Thursday, December 02, 1999 at 13:44:11 (EST)
I'm doing a report on schizophrenia and your information has helped me greatly thank you very much!
Amber E. <abcande@msn.com>
oly, WA USA - Wednesday, December 01, 1999 at 12:20:06 (EST)
It is a treat to visit such a well ordered and informative web site. I came across it while searching for more information after reading "Tell me I'm here" by Anne Deveson (published by Pengiun Books). This is a compelling story of her son's schizophrenia in Australia. Recommended reading for anyone who has to deal with sz, and a condemnation of mainstream medical, social and judicial systems in the 1980's. I am glad to read on your site that there is hope today with early treatment.
Colin Knight
Dhahran, Saudi Arabia - Tuesday, November 30, 1999 at 14:17:48 (EST)
Your web page is awesome!! I am going to major in Psychology and it is because I am so intrigued by people who have illnesses, such as schizophrenia. You should be very proud of where you are today!!! Thank you so much for the information and for sharing your story with the world. You are a brave and intelligent man!!
April Timmerman
Grand Island, ne USA - Tuesday, November 30, 1999 at 10:22:22 (EST)
I think that this is a great website. Thank you. In the past 2.5 years I have been diagnosed with major depression, schizophrenia, pychosis, and a few others. I have endured many treatment options with only Olanzapine being the right one. I have spent a total of 10 weeks in psychiatric hospitals. It is not a fun place to be. I thank you again for this website, My only hope being that other people will open their minds and start to begin to understand these mental illnesses and realize that we are people, too!!!! Sincerely, Brenda Price
Brenda Price <bren_212@yahoo.ca>
Williams Lake, BC Canada - Monday, November 29, 1999 at 22:20:31 (EST)
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Dooma <phallus@poo.com>
Lowell, MA USA - Monday, November 29, 1999 at 12:13:17 (EST)
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Dooma <phallus@poo.com>
Lowell, MA USA - Monday, November 29, 1999 at 12:12:56 (EST)
I am doing research on Schizofrenia. I´m glad that I discovered this page. Maria
maria.emilsson <maria.emilsson@nvso.sll.se>
Stockholm, S Sweden - Monday, November 29, 1999 at 05:44:06 (EST)
Good Job! Your detailed research and experience is an inspiration to all those, like myself, who are afflicted. Schizophrenia was called
dave
kitchener, ontario Canada - Sunday, November 28, 1999 at 23:30:48 (EST)
thank you for making your story public. I was on the net surfing for information on homelessness in Ontario and I came across your story interesting and worth while. again thank you, please keep up the good work. I am sure that someone with illness like yours will be happy to know that their are others like you somewhere. GOD BLESS CYNTHIA.
cynthia harris <everoll@sympatico.ca>
canada - Saturday, November 27, 1999 at 23:48:38 (EST)
Hello, I just wanted to thank you for explaining to me your illness in the page. I am going to major in psychology, and my first reaerch paper I wanted to do it on schizophrenia. I read a lot about it, but it was hard to understand without a major example. Thanks to you now I hope to get an A on my paper. Hope that you feel a lot better than before Your friend Nat
Natalie <sol138@aol.com>
Sunny Isles Bch., FL USA - Saturday, November 27, 1999 at 10:06:11 (EST)
Thank you, We have a family member with this condition. She will not admit it, she states " I had a nervous breakdown "I am a retired Nurse and it breaks my heart to feel the pain of my family members. Again thank you, Dottie
Dottie Strinka <dottieww@ij.net>
Clearwater, FL USA - Thursday, November 25, 1999 at 22:09:36 (EST)
i like your site....i have found that everyone is open and willing to share each others experience with schizophrenia.
lauren ford <lford10612@aol.com>
alexandria, va USA - Thursday, November 25, 1999 at 18:11:37 (EST)
Thanks so much for sharing your story and making this page, I'm doing a speech on schizophrenia for my 9th grade english class and this page helped a lot! Thanks again and good luck in your future!
Alicia
Brainerd, MN USA - Tuesday, November 23, 1999 at 22:31:18 (EST)
A great source of info. THANKS
Jaysen Dominick <cbeilp726@nomadmail.net>
calgary, Canada - Tuesday, November 23, 1999 at 15:16:44 (EST)
I thought your site was very interesting and informative. Definately one of the better ones I have been to. I am doing an essay on Schizophrenia for my society class, I thought your personal story was very helpful for me to understand schizophrenia rather than just looking at a bunch of encylopedia articles!! Keep up the good work people need to be informed!
Ashley Chambers <ash_pee93@hotmail.com>
Peterborough, on Canada - Tuesday, November 23, 1999 at 13:00:40 (EST)
I loved your site. Such good information. I was one of those young people caught at the early stages, after my first psychosis. I was isolated with such severe depression that I still find it difficult to comprhend where the years went. I sat in front of my computer all night and eventually I thought that people on the TV were connected with me. That phase passed, but I was enventually hospitalized for depression. I was put on 20mg of Olanzapine straight away, as well as a strong anti-depressant. That was almost two years ago, and now I am only taking 7.5mg, due to my requests to have the dose lowered. Sometimes I still find it somewhat tragic that I had to go through all this, but I suppose it was meant to happen in a way. Anyway, my point is that I still don't know if I am schizophrenic or not. I stopped taking my meds for quite a long time and I was fine, but then I left my job and started college and I started to get somewhat stressed out. So I am back on 7.5mg a day. Of course my psychcitrist hasn't a clue I was off my medications. I love to think that I am fine, that I just had a psychotic episode because I was depressed for so long, but sometimes I wonder if I really would have become schizophrenic, or am schizophrenic. I still find it hard to get out of bed sometimes and I feel down. I went through the whole negative thought cycle. I think it's probably best to stay on my meds for some time and try and manage my life better. I have never had any positive symptoms since I went in to hospital, but sometimes I worry about negative symptoms. I am studying psychology now, and the other night I looked in my textbook and it had a section on schizophrenia. Anyway, I guess I just need to keep my motavation going and keep living every day to the full. Thanks, it's helping to talk about it. I am so sorry about how your illness ruined a good portion of your life, but I am glad to see how you've turned it around and are now helping people through this website. I guess what I'm worrying about right now is the little difference between the red line and the green line on your chart of hypothetical outcomes. On the whole though, I have a great quality of life, and the past is the past after all. I guess the few days where I don't get out of bed is just a hangover from the depression, and nothing to do with negative symptoms. THANK YOU, YOUR SITE is FANTASTIC! It's been a great help, thanks. p.s. my webpage is at http://www.esatclear.ie/~barry22
Barry <barry22@eircom.net>
Dublin, Ireland - Sunday, November 21, 1999 at 23:41:13 (EST)
I too have sz and I have a similar story to yours but without the homelessness. I enjoyed reading your bio and the other info on this site. Thanks for your work and for being so open about this sometimes embarrasing disease.
Michael Kane <mkane@shelbynet.net>
IN USA - Saturday, November 20, 1999 at 12:37:04 (EST)
I too have sz and I have a similar story to yours but without the homelessness. I enjoyed reading your bio and the other info on this site. Thanks for you work and for being so open about this sometimes embarrasing disease.
Michael Kane <mkane@shelbynet.net>
IN USA - Saturday, November 20, 1999 at 12:36:40 (EST)
Your story is rather moving and I want to commend you on the courage to get as far as you have. I have just created a mental disorder website and I ran across this site while compiling links for the Schizophrenia link section. Well done.
Candace Mountain
Candace Mountain <camountain@home.com>
Kelowna, CAN - Saturday, November 20, 1999 at 03:38:20 (EST)
Great site! Your site has helped me a lot in finding out about schizoprenia for my school project. This is one of the better sites to actually have someone with schizophrenia share their story with the rest of the world. This takes great courage to share a big part of your life. Through this web site I can see that you have at least learned to accept your illness. Good luck in the futur. Thank-You for sharing such personal information with the rest of us in helping to understand your illness
R. Dhillon
Brapmton Canada - Friday, November 19, 1999 at 23:20:00 (EST)
Great site! Your site has helped me a lot in finding out about schizoprenia for my school project. This is one of the better sites to actually have someone with schizophrenia share their story with the rest of the world. This takes great courage to share a big part of your life. Through this web site I can see that you have at least learned to accept your illness. Good luck in the futur. Thank-You for sharing such personal information with the rest of us in helping to understand your illness
R. Dhillon
Brap. Canada - Friday, November 19, 1999 at 23:18:19 (EST)
I was doing a repot over schizophrenia and I looked it up on the intetnet and it gave me many sites and this was one of them. I'm really glad that you put this on here casue it really helped me alot and gave me alot of information that I don't know if I would have ever found.
Amanda
USA - Friday, November 19, 1999 at 22:10:39 (EST)
Hey, my mother is currently a paranoid schizophrenic. She goes off he meds once and awhile and its very hard on me. She has become so bad that she has hurt my family physically. She is doing great now. I enjoyed your page alot. It helped tons!! Im doing a project in Psychology so this was very helpful. thanks.
Shannon Breeden <ajspice@usa.net>
Pt. Charlotte, FL USA - Friday, November 19, 1999 at 08:32:02 (EST)
Hi - you did a great job with this web site. I am very impressed. I have a brother who is schizophrenic and about your age. The difference is he seems to get progressively worse. He is thin and malnutritioned and lives in a tiny apartment that he rarely leaves. He never opens the windows and smokes heavily. Actually that is all he does besides drink black coffee and laugh hysterically at nothing in particular. He goes to a clinic once a month to get his thorazine and his social contact consists of going shopping for food, which I don't believe he eats anymore. I had him over for dinner last week, (first time in 3 years he agreed to come). He ate like he hadn't seen food in a week. He was unkempt and he stayed up the entire night just smoking and drinking black coffee. His skin looks yellowish. I think he needs to be hospitalized, but of course this is the last place he wants to be. We, my family, expressed our concern to the clinic he goes to; they say he is fine and doesn't need to be hospitalized in their opinion. I am worried that he is trying to kill himself. I don't know how to reach him. When you call him, he says he is busy and most of the time he just turns the phone off. He has been schizophrenic (paranoid) for over 20 years now and has been either husky or chubby throughout that time. In the last 3 years he has become very thin (I don't think he was ever thin in his life). I'm sure this is probably a typical story but it is new to me, and I don't know what to do. Do you have any ideas of what I could possibly do to help someone who seems to have no interest in that help? I printed your some of your website and gave it to him, but he only read a paragraph and said he didn't want it. I don't know how to reach him. I am afraid I am too late. Any ideas at all would be really appreciated. Me and my 3 other siblings are beside ourselves. Thanks so much
kathy <Sakisma@yahoo.com>
Bohemia, NY USA - Wednesday, November 17, 1999 at 11:05:41 (EST)
Hi my name is Manon, i really enjoyed reading those lines because schizophrenia is really scary. The way i found your webpage is that i am studying to become a nurse and i am doing a project on schizophrenia and i also have to do an oral presentation of an hour. Hate that! Anyway it really helped me to figure how badly and scary is schizophrenia. Thanks again. Manon St-Jarre,21 years old, Edmundston, N.-B. Canada
ST-JARRE MANON <jarre@nbtel.nb.ca>
Edmundston, NB CANADA - Monday, November 15, 1999 at 21:41:32 (EST)
I have spent several hours browsing all through this website. I am quite impressed. I wish I had access to this many years ago when my "adventures" with schizophrenia first started. I have a good research background. I got an additional degree (in social work) and made myself my main "client". With a lot of hard work - and luck in meeting or finding the right people at the right time, and luck in getting the right information at the right time - I have managed to gain the insight, the knowledge, the understanding and most importantly the self-discipline needed to take control of the schizophrenia. For me now the schizophrenia is the cause of many blessings rather than of pain and sufferring I used to experience. DO NOTE that there were many times in the past when the torment was so great that I would contract with myself to endure just one more hour of that torment, hour after hour, day after day, week after week for as long as a month. Just a short note to offer some hope that better can exist. I do not see myself as having done anything extraordinary. Hope for better is vital. It was at those times when I had lost hope that I made plans to end the pain permanently. (DO NOTE as well that anyone going off their drugs cold turkey without the ability to take control of their lives instead of letting the drugs control them is doing something very foolish and dangerous for themselves and others.) I do not see myself as having done anything particulaily special. I look forward to a time when it will be routine to recognize the special abilities and insights many people diagnosed with schizophrenia have so that we can be seen as society's heroes.
Bill Carne <uncrazy@capitalnet.com>
Ottawa, ON Canada - Monday, November 15, 1999 at 17:34:00 (EST)
I have spent several hours browsing all through this. I am quite impressed. I wish I had access to this many years ago when my "adventures" with schizophrenia first started. I have a good research background. I got an additional degree (in social work) and made myself my main "client". With a lot of hard work - and luck in meeting or finding the right people at the right time, and luck in getting the right information at the right time - I have managed to gain the insight, the knowledge, the understanding and most importantly the self-discipline needed to take control of the schizophrenia. For me now the schizophrenia is the cause of many blessings rather than of pain and sufferring I used to experience. DO NOTE that there were many times in the past when the torment was so great that I would contract with myself to endure just one more hour of that torment, hour after hour, day after day, week after week for as long as a month. Just a short note to offer some hope that better can exist. I do not see myself as having done anything extraordinary. Hope for better is vital. It was at those times when I had lost hope that I made plans to end the pain permanently. (DO NOTE as well that anyone going off their drugs cold turkey without the ability to take control of their lives instead of letting the drugs control them is doing something very foolish and dangerous for themselves and others.)
Bill Carne <uncrazy@capitalnet.com>
Ottawa, ON Canada - Monday, November 15, 1999 at 17:20:33 (EST)
I was really glad to read you,re web page.THE MAIN QUESTION IS HOW DO YOU GET HELP FOR SOMEONE ,THAT WANT ADMIT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG.I,M NOT RELATRD TO THIS LADY BUT ,MY GRANDSON LIVE,S IN THE HOME HIS MOTHER, KNOW,S HER MOTHER IS ILL, BUT SHE WAS RAISED AROUND HER ACTING LIKE SHE DOES. SHE HAS NOT BEEN DIAGNOSED,BUT IN HER EARLIER YEAR,S TRIED TO KILL HERSELF. ONE DAUGHTER WAS TAKEN AWAY. SHE TALK,S TO HERSELF HEAR,S VOICES SAY,S THE TV AND VCR ARE SENDING MESSAGES TO HER SHE THINKS SHE IS SICK WITH CANCER HEART PROBLEM,S AND THINKS SOMEONE COMES IN HER HOME AND TAKES THINGS OUT SHE WANT GO TO THE DOCTOR AND SAY,S THAT THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH HER.I AM SO SCEARD FOR MY GRANGBABY BECAUSE SHE TAKE,S CARE OF HIM MOST OF THE TIME. HOW DO YOU GO ABOUT GETTING SOMEONE HELP THAT WANT GO.PLEASE GIVE ME SOME HOPE.
Sharon Reagan <bit345@aol.com>
Fort Wort, TX. USA - Monday, November 15, 1999 at 00:03:06 (EST)
I found your site very interesting it helper me alot with an assignment I did thank-you good luck in the future with everything
Tania Walker <taniaw76@hotmail.com>
Melb, Australia - Sunday, November 14, 1999 at 02:36:18 (EST)
Thank you so much for the information you have provided. It will help me to help a friend with his current situation. Keep up the great work!
Dee Peters <dapeters@bellatlantic.net>
Browns Mills, NJ USA - Sunday, November 14, 1999 at 01:25:55 (EST)
i'm beyond delighted to know that your site exists. i don't know anyone else who has similar symptoms to my own. as in- compassionate as this sounds, i'm glad to know there are others out there like myself. THANKS!
stephanie
tullahoma, tn USA - Saturday, November 13, 1999 at 19:57:52 (EST)
I am writing doing a presentation on schizophrenia. I used the internet as one of my main sources. I really got a lot of valuable information on your website. Thank you very much. I hope you are doing fine and are living a happily!!! Thanks again.
diana lopez <dialop75@yahoo.com>
kerman , ca USA - Friday, November 12, 1999 at 16:35:46 (EST)
I am doing a research paper about Schizophrenia and your site has helped me a lot. Is there anyway you could send me some more information about relapse? This would help me even more! Thank you very much and good luck to you in the future and always!! =)
amy <HIPEEE1112.aol.com>
siox city, ia USA - Thursday, November 11, 1999 at 16:55:40 (EST)
I have it and i love it
chris white
vergennes, vt USA - Tuesday, November 09, 1999 at 08:40:58 (EST)
I'm using your condensed history, recovery - so far, and the photos to teach schizophrenia to my students in the Abnormal Psych course. THANK YOU for providing a real case study for them.
Suzi Jacobson <suzinec@aol.com>
El Centro, CA USA - Tuesday, November 09, 1999 at 01:55:40 (EST)
I'm doing research to write a book about someone who has schizophrenia. Thank you for your interesting site!
Eva Lemaire <eva.lemaire@atek.be>
Gent, Belgium - Sunday, November 07, 1999 at 11:33:40 (EST)
Keep on rocking!!!!
KELLY FIDOCK <kellyfidock@mpx.com.au>
Bundaberg, QLD AUSTRALIA - Thursday, November 04, 1999 at 03:02:52 (EST)
I wanted to thank you for a wonderful and inspirational sight. I will have a new outlook on those suffering from this mental illness. Your a survivor! Congratulations!
Leah <spring4fal@aol.com>
CA USA - Tuesday, November 02, 1999 at 19:47:51 (EST)
I wanted to thank you for a wonderful and inspirational sight. I will have a new outlook on those suffering from this mental illness. Your a survivor! Congradulations!
Leah <spring4fal@aol.com>
CA USA - Tuesday, November 02, 1999 at 19:47:22 (EST)
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Aloni Haim MD
USA - Tuesday, November 02, 1999 at 14:35:27 (EST)
Ian, your story is moving and touching, and very inspiring. I am doing a research project over the effects schizophrenia has on families, and how society treats them, and your site was very informative. Keep up the good work, and never give up.
Anek <anita1123@aol.com>
Ok USA - Monday, November 01, 1999 at 13:36:08 (EST)
Dear MS.Miss or Mrs. Murphy: I also am a mental health consumer. I also am a sufferer, like your son;however,may I ask some questions and make some comments. Why was your son "hustled" or manhandled or other wise taken away involuntarily? I assume the police precided over the taking away with handcuffs? Has it ever occurred to you that your son is not a CRIMINAL,did not committ a crime and therefore should not have been treated like a serial killer? I do not believe in involuntary hospitilization. I am a follower of Dr. Thomas Szasz. Involuntary mental hospitilization doesn't fit the medical model. Should a person who suffers from a bad valve in the heart be FORCED to see a cardiologist? Also, no matter how ill your son was force tells him that he committed the "Crime of Mental Illness." It TELLS someone that mental illness is a crime! Why did not you or a relative take hime to a hospital? Please respond. email: emil49@juno
Emil Colangelo <emil49@juno.com>
Lake Ronkonkoma, NY USA - Saturday, October 30, 1999 at 21:50:01 (EDT)
i am interested in learning about lsd psychosis and i am having alot of trouble finding anything about the subject if you could help me, send something to the corona norco unified school district buenna vista high school www.cnusd.com, my name is patrick page.
patrick <?>
corona, like the beer, ca lsd - Friday, October 29, 1999 at 17:44:41 (EDT)
i am interested in learning about lsd psychosis and i am having alot of trouble finding anything about the subject if you could help me, send something to the corona norco unified school district buenna vista high school www.cnusd.com, my name is patrick page.
patrick <?>
corona, like the beer, ca lsd - Friday, October 29, 1999 at 17:44:15 (EDT)
Hi, I chose to do a informative speech on schizophrenia because my uncle has been suffering from it since the early 80's. I used your webpages as a source and it's been wonderful and helpful. My uncle was admitted to a mental hospital in 1993. But in 1996 he stopped taking his medicine and relapsed. I sincerely hope that that doesn't happen to you or your friends. I wish you all the luck, n. james
N. James <njames@okra.deltast.edu>
Chicago, IL USA - Thursday, October 28, 1999 at 18:48:29 (EDT)
Dear Ian, just want to let you know that I like your website very much, and that I will study it in more detail tomorrow. Cheers, Gaby
gaby divay <divay@cc.umanitoba.ca>
Winnipeg, mb Canada - Thursday, October 28, 1999 at 17:52:42 (EDT)
hi, i think it's totally totally awesome that u have the courage to do this, writing down ur personal life experience, in attempt to raise public awareness to the problem. keep the good work up, u have my support! daisy~
daisy wang <daisylah@hotmail.com>
vancouver, bc canada - Thursday, October 28, 1999 at 04:19:18 (EDT)
I was forced to investigate schizophrenia due to a tragedy. My mother who was diagnosed approx. 15 years ago committed suicide in a horrible way on Sept 26,1999 and it has devastated my family. I have to make some sense of this if there is a way to do so. Thank you for your candor, for your story and for the INFORMATION! If you can ever find the time please write.
Belinda A. McCoy <bcordy@mindspring.com>
va USA - Wednesday, October 27, 1999 at 19:16:02 (EDT)
I am a psychology major at the University of Delaware, and I plan on devoting my career to researching Schizophrenia. I find your story truly heart-wrenching and inspiring all at once. Best of luck to you and thank you for sharing your story
Lauren Coughlin <19030@udel.edu>
Newark, De USA - Wednesday, October 27, 1999 at 17:34:34 (EDT)
Hi-I am 15 and I'm a freshman at Westlake Highschool. My Biology teacher has recently assigned us a project on Genetic Disorders. I chose Skizophrenia, because my mom's friend's husband has it. I never knew how interesting it was and I am MOST DEFINATELY not into Biology at all, but this is really actually interesting. Your site is one of many that I have gone to, and it is my favorite yet. Thanks for putting out all this information so that others can learn. *JESSYE*
Jessye <JessyeAnne@aol.com>
Austin (Westlake), Tx USA - Monday, October 25, 1999 at 22:56:44 (EDT)
Hi Ian: I am soooo impressed with your web site and especially with the new web site you have created for The Wizard of Hope Walk for Schizophrenia. (web.ionsys.com/~wizardcp) I hope everyone will be able to celebrate hope with this bright cheerful new idea which is designed to change the way people view mental illness. You really have made a big difference so far, thanks from all your friends in Guelph and especially from me. Chris
Chris Pearson <wizardcp@ionsys.com>
Guelph, ON Canada - Sunday, October 24, 1999 at 08:26:53 (EDT)
Hi, I am a university student at Mount Allison University in Canada and I am studying psychology, particularity scizophrenia. I very much enjoyed your site it provided a wealth of information which was extremely helpfull. Thank you for having a great site. Your contribution has not gone unoticed. FRANK.
frank M <famscn@mta.ca>
sackville , NB Canada - Friday, October 22, 1999 at 13:23:45 (EDT)
If you could change/improve anything about services provided to the mentally ill what would you improve/change? What, if any, are your philosophical beliefs about your schizophrenia?
Diane Cole <dlcole@ucsd.edu>
San Diego, CA USA - Thursday, October 21, 1999 at 23:44:57 (EDT)
Nice work. I liked your pictures.
Diane Cole <dlcole@ucsd.edu>
San Diego, CA USA - Thursday, October 21, 1999 at 23:36:26 (EDT)
My 21 year old son has just been released home from the psychiatric hospital after he attempted suicide two weeks ago. He drank bleach, cut his wrists, and mutilated himself by cutting himself with a knife. Your site has been so informative. He has had many of the same thoughts that you express. We never knew how to react to his strange thoughts. Thanks so much for the information. I have been surfing the net looking for information. Your site is the best. My son is on Olanzapine. The first day home, he asked to go out for Mexican food so we did. Now he is staying in his room. Should we try to draw him out or just let him have his privacy?
Madeline <me@loralskynet.com>
Manalapan, NJ USA - Thursday, October 21, 1999 at 15:36:41 (EDT)
Hey, My name is Ashley and I'm 14 years old. I would love it if someone wanted to e-mail me. my favorite bands are 'N Sync, and Backstreet Boys! My role model is Christina Aguilera! I am a inspiering singer and hope to meet and go on tour with 'N Sync one day. Bye! Hope to hear from ya soon!
Ashley Burke <babybluewish@yahoo.com>
USA - Thursday, October 21, 1999 at 12:57:13 (EDT)
My son is 17, and we just landed with him in Siberia instead of Hawaii. Thank you for the info. Your writing is excellent. I would like to know more about how you overcame your symptoms and worked your way off the streets, trouble with the law, etc. Is there hope that my son can function on his own? Until now, he was a straight A student, talented athlete, etc. But now, he's, well, in Siberia, like I said.
Steve Martindale <spmartindale@hotmail.com>
Lincoln, NE USA - Thursday, October 21, 1999 at 09:39:47 (EDT)
A very useful site, especially since I am studying schizophrenia and looking into all possible causes..It's a credit to you
sara withey <stinky61@hotmail.com>
cheltenham, UK - Wednesday, October 20, 1999 at 10:17:17 (EDT)
We'd like to know something about the Schizophrenia for a important work in school for my acces to the university. Thanks for some help you can give us. Thank you.
Xavier <Tommy13@chicolé.com>
Barcelona, España - Sunday, October 17, 1999 at 07:05:10 (EDT)
Thanks for the info!
Amber <astiverson@hotmail.com>
Hudson, MI USA - Friday, October 15, 1999 at 13:58:54 (EDT)
Ian, thanks so much for your wonderful work here. I read your Brief History and will be using it in a workshop I'll be doing on schizophrenia. Also, thanks for the recommendation for the St. of Ft. Washington as a good video. I haven't seen it, but I ordered it from Reel.com on your word.
Ida Swearingen <walkin@citilink.com>
Minneapolis, MN USA - Thursday, October 14, 1999 at 12:39:22 (EDT)
I am doing a research project for my english class about schizophrenia. Your site has really helped me get information. Thank you so much for making a site designed to help people learn more about this disorder.
CINDY <Jusomegrl@aol.com>
Knoxville, TN USA - Tuesday, October 12, 1999 at 19:14:45 (EDT)
I have been browsing through your website. Great job!! My son has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is still stuggling to deal with this horrible illness. Reading your story sounded so much like what he is experiencing. Your insight gives those of us who love and care for mentally ill relatives some hope. Thanks and best wishes to you. Hang in there.
Kris
Marietta, GA USA - Tuesday, October 12, 1999 at 19:11:48 (EDT)
I have been browsing through your website. Great job!! My son has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is still stuggling to deal with this horrible illness. Reading your story wound so much like what he is experiencing. Your insight give those of us who love and care for mentally ill relatives some hope. Thanks and best wishes to you. Hang in there.
Kris
Marietta, GA USA - Tuesday, October 12, 1999 at 19:10:38 (EDT)
My mother has been diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia and she WILL NOT take her medicine. She is the smartest person I know, but her life is wasting away. Her condition worsened when I was born, and she hasn't worked since then. I long to know what she was like before this terrible disease struck her. I know her situation won't get better unless I help. Any suggestions where to begin? E-mail me P.S. My heart goes out to anyone whose lives have been effected by this disease. It is truly awful.
jen clark <browntruckgirl@yahoo.com>
Altoona, Pa USA - Monday, October 11, 1999 at 15:29:22 (EDT)
I was extremely touched by your story. I have a sister who is schizophrenic and have heard first hand many of the experiences you relate here. Unfortunately, she is still the most important person in history who is being tortured by mind readers. Your site, which I have only begun to explore, is an inspiration. I look forward to reading the entire site, as well as other information on the web. Keep up the good work.
Joe <Amyandjoe@aol.com>
New York, NY USA - Monday, October 11, 1999 at 06:47:53 (EDT)
Dear Ian ,hello! Have a nice day. Ian is a nice person.
Virginia
USA - Saturday, October 09, 1999 at 17:22:36 (EDT)
Hello Everyone! Thank so Ian - you seem like a wonderful man and I so appreciate you telling your story, as I love a man very much who I suspect to have some form of schizophrenia. First of all I am am Ivy-league educated mediacl professional, but I have to experience in pshchiatry. I (33 yrs old)am also amazed at how hard it is to find real life experience about these diseases - I cried of joy when I saw your homepage Ian. I love my partner (32 yrs old) because of his honorable character and integrity; and he has the most beautiful genuine smile, as well as the sweetest nature of any person I have ever met - he would not physically hurt a little fly, although he can put those close to him through emotional hell, most of all by simply shutting me totally out and going into periods of deep depression. Please...allow me tell you just a little about our story. My friend is a computer and mathmatics genius who was well on his way up the ladder in a Fortune 100 computer sogtware co when I met him 4 years ago. Immediately after we met, he seemed obsessed that someone from his old job had ruined him and was spreading rumors about him all over the globe (although no details were ever divulged about the exact happenings). Today, he has been unemployed for 2 years, is very depressed, obsessed w/ computer technology and science fiction, and has no real plans w/ his life, smokes continually, has allowed his normally gorgeous appearance to look that of a bum and his only plan is to take another vacation to a far exotic place. He has even guestioned my true sexual gender and occused me of knowing him before we actually met (after we knew each other for >2 years). I could not handle the rejection any longer (both physical and emotional), so I left the country over a year ago. He has never maintained a long-term relationship! I have begged him to get help and he sats he seeing a couselor now and needs me in his life. How do I figure out if he has a serious problem? And how much do I invest in this man I love? I welcome any help from schizophrenics, their spouses/partners, and their physicians! Thank-you!
Connie <I_love_him_much@Yahoo.com>
NY, NY USA - Friday, October 08, 1999 at 03:43:50 (EDT)
Hello. I am an aspiring writer writing a short story, which shall be one of a collection of my works. My main character suffers from paranoid Schizophrenia. I have been studying Schizophrenia for one week in order to create a more plausible character. I came across this page from Yahoo, and I must say, I am glad I did. I cried when I read your story. It is so moving. You had to hit rock-bottom for you to begin your ascension in life. I too have recently hit my lowest; although it cannot be compared to your experience. You shattered the glass wall that once closed you off from reality and good mental health, and for that I happily congratulate you! The best of luck to you and to this web site.
Daniel <chikosuave@yahoo.com>
Flushing, NY USA - Friday, October 08, 1999 at 00:19:48 (EDT)
i need help with my project now
who cares
USA - Wednesday, October 06, 1999 at 21:18:56 (EDT)
This is such a terrible disease....it scares the hell out of me, ya see, my brother has it and i don't know what to do so I read as much as i can about it. Thank you for this page.
Summer <Koolthing19@yahoo.com>
Candor, ny USA - Wednesday, October 06, 1999 at 16:33:00 (EDT)
I AM DOING A RESEARCH PROJECT ON SCHITZOPHRENIA AND I RAN ACROSS YOU WEB PAGE. YOU HAVE HAD MANY DIFFERENT STRUGGLES IN YOUR LIFE AND IT IS GOOD TO SEE YOU ARE WORKING THEM OUT! BEST WISHES TO YOU IAN.
JUSTIN
GLENDALE, AZ USA - Tuesday, October 05, 1999 at 21:54:40 (EDT)
I am doing a research paper on Schizophrenia. I learned a lot off your website. Thank you.
Antoinette Gregorio <agregorio@togiak.swrsd.schoolzone.net>
Togiak, AK USA - Tuesday, October 05, 1999 at 15:49:16 (EDT)
Enthralling, inspiring and informative. I am a teacher currently working with adults with mental health problems - predominantly schizophrenia (although I too suffered a breakdown in 1998 and recogise clearly many of the things you describe. Often at work I am struck by how fine the line between myself and my clients, mental health and mental distress, can be). I had been stumbling around the net not really knowing what I was looking for until I found it with your website. I have downloaded part of your site to show some clients. Hope this is OKAY with you - good luck!
Wendy Johnson <cookphoto@btinternet.com>
Cornwall, UK - Sunday, October 03, 1999 at 16:17:30 (EDT)
Can only offer my bio that begins with Vietnam and can trace the progression of schizophrenia over a thirty year period which also reveals much ignorance among the experts and religious community, having been labeled as being everything from the anti-christ to what some called a "Nephilim" in the Bible who were half angel and half human, seeng some religious heros more unstable than their following. I encourage research, some names and addresses provided who are first hand sources, just do not bother if you are among those still looking for Bigfoot and Vampires which is the kind of activity I discourage and will not respond to.
Lou Talley <locolou@worldnet.att.net>
La Verne, CA USA - Sunday, October 03, 1999 at 16:05:16 (EDT)
i need more information about bipolar sintoms
luis gely <lrgely@prw.net>
LA, CA USA - Sunday, October 03, 1999 at 11:22:52 (EDT)
i need more information about bipolar sintoms
luis gely <lrgely@prw.net>
LA, CA USA - Sunday, October 03, 1999 at 11:21:49 (EDT)
i need more information about bipolar sintoms
luis gely <lrgelyprw.net>
los angeles, california USA - Sunday, October 03, 1999 at 11:19:02 (EDT)
Thanks for your story Ian. I also have schizophrenia and am taking risperidone.I have read alot about serotonin lately and it sounds as if it has some good qualities such as if you don't have enough of it you tend to eat more than you should.This is probably why I have gained weight on it.Do you think the risperidone might block too much serotonin or is it only supposed to bring it to normal levels.When I took Stelazine I didn't seem to gain much weight.What do you think about this?
Darren Minette <dvminet@ndak.net>
Minot, ND USA - Friday, October 01, 1999 at 15:27:01 (EDT)
Hi Ian: Just read the long version of your story on this site - you have a wonderful gift of writing and sharing. Thanks - again! As your friend who shares the Wizard of Hope's journey, I want to say how proud I am to work with you. We all learn from our suffering, and you are so wise. I am learning a lot on my journey. Your friend Chris.
Chris Pearson <wizardcp@ionsys.com>
Acton, Canada - Thursday, September 30, 1999 at 07:34:00 (EDT)
I am not a psychiatrist but I have been very interested in reading about psychiatric problems and stories of recovery since I was a medical student. It gives the patient and their caregivers so much hope and encouragement. Unfortunately, the stigma of mental illness is still very bad in my community and the best way to reduce it is by educating them. Well done !
Dr TH Khoo <thkhoo@pc.jaring.my>
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia - Monday, September 27, 1999 at 19:46:19 (EDT)
TRANSFER BEETWEN ACCOUNT
KKYS <BLACK_88000@YAHOO.COM>
KOTA KINABALU, KK MALAYSIA - Monday, September 27, 1999 at 04:17:31 (EDT)
Ian, thanks for the information that you have supplied in your site. It is the most comprehensive anecdotal site relating to schiz0phrenia that I have seen yet.
Bruce <bpollard@hotkey.net.au>
Melbourne, Australia - Sunday, September 26, 1999 at 06:23:00 (EDT)
Thank you so much for putting your experiences on this web site! You sound like a brave and wonderful person. Just wanted you to know your work is appreciated.
Karen Willmus
MN USA - Sunday, September 26, 1999 at 01:13:15 (EDT)
I am the mother of a son that has been diagnosed with schitzophrenia. This disease has devestated our lives. He has been tried on 7 or 8 different medications with little results. We have lost alot of friends because of this disease.
Janie <cjralls@ionet.net>
USA - Wednesday, September 22, 1999 at 12:17:52 (EDT)
Why is this web page up your stupid ENJOY YOUR PAIN
Mark Swan
surprise, az USA - Wednesday, September 22, 1999 at 11:06:37 (EDT)
I HATE YOU I WISH YOU WOULD DIE
Sam <IceRose6t9@aol.com>
CX, D USA - Wednesday, September 22, 1999 at 08:32:45 (EDT)
You are very brave. Well done!
Andrew McDonald
London, UK - Wednesday, September 22, 1999 at 05:53:39 (EDT)
Thank you so much for all the hard work, and information on this very important subject. Like you, I have a hard time understanding why this disease is still a "dirty little secret" for so many. I am the proud sister of a brother that has Schizophrenia. He has overcome obstacles that most of us never have to face. We take so much for granted. I am thankful both for who he is, and what he has accomplished. Thank you for putting a face and name to Schizophrenia...it's the first step...and its' a big one!
Tara
Edmonton, AB Canada - Tuesday, September 21, 1999 at 18:04:02 (EDT)
I found your site to be informative. I think that it will be very important in a research paper I need to do unfortunally I don't know how to site it in my bibliography. If you can help at all please e-mail me back Thanks a-lot. Kelly
K Gordon <gord4158@fredonia.edu>
Canada - Monday, September 20, 1999 at 19:07:08 (EDT)
Very nice and informative
feye hudson <feye@mediaone.net>
Jacksonville, Florida USA - Sunday, September 19, 1999 at 21:51:03 (EDT)
I am doing a drama performance to highlight how misunderstood this illness really is and although i will try to show the disease from every angle i am very worried about stereotyping! I would love your views on weather a performance of this nature should be performed at all and if so i would love some advice! thanks and smile!
Brook Etherington <brooketherington@hotmail.com>
Plymouth, UK - Thursday, September 16, 1999 at 17:28:24 (EDT)
This site really helped me on my project in anatomy. I want to become a psychiatrists and schizophrenia is one of the most interesting topics to me. Thanks!
Melissa Hilton <shebausamelissah@netscape.net>
East Sparta, OH USA - Tuesday, September 14, 1999 at 10:13:03 (EDT)
I am a 2nd year nursing student, doing my clinical rotation in Mental Health. Your story is very informative and has help me to understand a bit more about this illness. Thank you.
Juliet <shajunet@idirect.com>
North York, on Canada - Sunday, September 12, 1999 at 14:27:15 (EDT)
Wow, i seem to have had quite a spelling problem with my entry! what i was trying to say was, I have been studying schizophrenia, reading what you have published on the web has helped me a great deal in understanding what i was having trouble with, i apologize for my spelling on the previous comments, thank you and smile!
Stanley <Ginkth@aol.com>
USA - Sunday, September 12, 1999 at 11:41:29 (EDT)
i have been studying schizophrenia, your papers hhelped me understnwai didn't, thank you and may you hbest life you can, eeverything works out for youseems that ya more "level'then others i knowith mental illnesses
Stanley <Gnkth@aol.com>
in USA - Sunday, September 12, 1999 at 11:35:48 (EDT)
Intelligent cow?!?!?
gek
USA - Saturday, September 11, 1999 at 11:55:24 (EDT)
I am a mental health worker I am very interested in finding all information concerning mental illness to better help the people i work with. Your information was enlighting. I like to hear of people who accept the illness and move on to the next step. I am interested in rehab for those who suffer from mental illness. If you have information on rehab please send me what you have. Thanks, Anna
anna <robannbri@aol.com>
Odessa, tx USA - Tuesday, September 07, 1999 at 11:55:15 (EDT)
Thank you for your story. My mother has this disease and is currently having a bad episode. She is refusing treatment at this time.
A.Bechyne <ADJB@prodigy.net>
Amarillo, TX USA - Monday, September 06, 1999 at 23:00:56 (EDT)
It takes a lot of courage to come out on your own and speak to people about your illness. I commend you on your site. It was very interesting and informative. I have recently joined a volunteer organization that is attempting to deal with much of the stigma surrounding mental illness. The mission is to educate high school and college students through personal experiences of people with diagnosed illnesses. Hopefully young people will be willing to open up to others as you have. In your opinion, what can an educator do to attact the stigma?
Natalia <gnothi_seauton@hotmail.com>
Wolfville, NS Canada - Monday, September 06, 1999 at 16:48:43 (EDT)
How amazing! Your Web page was extemely informative and interesting.In my health class we had to do a paper on a health disorder or disease and I choose Schizophrenia. When I came on the Internet I thought the information would be WAY over my head, but it wasn't. You said what you wanted to say very simply and to the point, even for an eighth grader to understand!!! Thank You for your wonderful writing and good luck to you in your exciting future!!!!!!!!!
nina <ishroni@SWbell.net>
austin, Tx USA - Monday, September 06, 1999 at 13:09:44 (EDT)
How amazing! Your Web page was extemely inforative and interesting.In my health class we had to do a paper on a health disorder or disease and I choose Schizophrenia. When I came on the Internet I thought the information would be WAY over my head, but it wasn't. You said what you wanted to say very simply and to the point, even for an eighth grader to understand!!! Thank You for your wonderful writing and good luck to you in your exciting future!!!!!!!!!
nina <ishroni@SWbell.net>
austin, Tx USA - Monday, September 06, 1999 at 13:06:09 (EDT)
your site is very good and i really enjoyed surfing threw it.the info will be given to my brother who is also a sufferer of this unpleasent illness
george <george00@coolmail.com>
australia - Monday, September 06, 1999 at 05:09:22 (EDT)
how brave of you to share your story!i experienced what i refer to as a 'nervous breakdown' in 1997 that left me with a completely altered perception of reality. i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder but i wasn't entirely honest with the doctor- i didn't tell him about my telepathic/empathic link with others and i still hesitate to mention it to anyone.an extremely strong sense of self,a strong will,quiet meditation and a lot of reading on the subjects of synchronicity,spirituality and quantum physics, as well as the urgent need to care for my daughter has helped to keep me fairly stable and out of an institution.Particularly interesting was a book called 'the spirit of shamanism' which gave comparisons between the symptons of schizophrenia and the spiritual visions experienced by a training shaman.there is much literature around these days about mysticism and meditation,as well as ready access to mind-altering drugs.practices that traditionally were disciplined, specific rituals,usually taught by someone with experience, have become the layman's road to hell.few people can take this road alone and still live a 'normal' life in our society.i don't believe that hearing voices is a sympton of mental illness, i believe that menatl illness is the result of a gross misunderstanding of reality and the human mind.the only way we can work to correct this injustice is to share our stories and given the prejudice against us 'crazies' is it any wonder we are reluctant to? thank you so much for sharing yours.i hope you can find a mental shield strong enough to defend your mind so that you can continue to help others and make some of your dreams come true.i wish you peace and joy.
kim <hettabarf>
USA - Friday, September 03, 1999 at 18:49:23 (EDT)
Hi, Thanks for putting yourself out there. I was diagnosed schizo-affective at 35. I had no trouble prior to that time. It is really good to learn how you have handled your illness. You give me hope for the future. Your section on First Episode treatment is most interesting. My Dr. initially told me I was suffering from brief psychosis. It wasn't until last year when I asked to try going without meds that he informed me what illness I have. His focus has always been on preventing relapse and is very aggressive in addressing any indicators that I'm spiraling down. Thanks again. Please feel free to write to me.
DreamChaser <DreamChaser26@hotmail.com>
NC USA - Thursday, September 02, 1999 at 23:52:36 (EDT)
Great page...sharing urselves with others is one of the best services we can provide. I am a nursing student, come visit my home on the web.
j. francis <francija@muohio.edu>
Franklin, OH USA - Wednesday, September 01, 1999 at 20:29:49 (EDT)
I want to get more active in NAMI of Greater Orlando! Please put my name and Address down for the next volunteer training session for NAMI? Please help me, I am in need of finding a Health Insurance, which I can still use my same Physicians and get my prescriptions refilled. Please I need help and suggestions. ASAP. I will keep intouch. Sincelery, A Mental Health Consumer in the Central Florida area &Friend. Jo Anne Dorgan 3800 Wren Lane Orlando, Florida 32803 407-894-4807 P.S. NAMI of Greater Orlando is #1 to me. Always. Please help me.
Jo Anne Dorgan, A MH Consumer. <turkey_32803@yahoo.com>
Orlando, Fl. USA - Wednesday, September 01, 1999 at 13:29:32 (EDT)
You done a really good job on this website.There are many teenager trying to commit suicide.
Charlotte <none>
houlka, ms USA - Wednesday, September 01, 1999 at 13:24:17 (EDT)
MY HUSBAND HAS THIS DISEASE. HE IS TAKING ZYPREXA AND TRAZADONE PLUS HE ALSO HAS HBP. HE IS OK MOST OF THE TIME ABLE TO WORK BUT IS NOT MOTIVATED IN ANY OTHER WAY. HE AT TIMES EXHIBITS DEVIANT SEXUAL BEHAVIOR - SUCH AS TAKING SOMEONE'S 'underwear' without this person knowing. HARD TO UNDERSTAND - BUT I DO CARE FOR HIM. I COULD USE SOME ADVICE - VERY MUCH!!!
Mary Keller <mamacat54@webtv.net>
Post Falls, ID USA - Friday, August 27, 1999 at 15:18:26 (EDT)
Man, does it hurt to know others have gone through worse than I have. But it feels great to know others can talk about it without feeling ashamed. I'm also happy to know that others have experienced the same thing. Thanks for sharing, it has given me more courage to go through my disease knowing others have gone through it too. Eve
Eve <torpedo_slime@excite.com>
Aus - Thursday, August 26, 1999 at 18:23:43 (EDT)
Just to clarify my last message: As the eldest son of a parent with schizophrenia, living with my mom has been difficult. Career disruption has been my primary problem as I had mentioned in my last message. I am by training an Electronic Technician with a 4-year engineering degree in electronics. I have not been suprised at all by how my own career ambitions have been disrupted by my mom's illness. When a schizophrenic family member like my mom through her illness withdraws from the world and lives her life shut away and alone, with her own inner demons, the only link she has to the outside world is through myself, my younger brother and my dad. This has put a massive amount of emotional stress on the rest of the family. All she has is just us. When there is only one's family for providing the social "safety net". If it were not for the 3 of us, my mom would have been dead years ago. Sad, but true. I honestly make a lousy social worker/provider for my schizophrenic mom. The biggest feelings I have which is that I somehow caused my mom's illness when I was growing up. But I know understand that it isn't fair to me to be emotionally beating myself up for my mom's slide into the madness of schizophrenia. After all, with our present level of knowledge, the disease is totally of a biochemical nature, and not some moral or personal fault of myself or my dad and younger brother. When schizophrenia struck my mom down all the finger-pointing and assigning blame won't get her well, if she'll accept treatment, which for the the last 30 years or so she had at a couple of times, only reluctantly. In New Hampshire where we live, treatment is up to the sick person. Since she won't accept that she has a problem, tough luck, we've had to deal with our mom's problems ourselves, no matter what the cost. To me the mental health care system in New Hampshire is a joke. If I start to feel like I'm going to go off the deep end, I'll gladly go for help. That's the difference between myself and my mom who has schizophrenia.
Thomas C. Wood <twood@brooks.com>
Chelmsford, MA USA - Wednesday, August 25, 1999 at 09:17:51 (EDT)
I'm glad you are becoming a nurse. The mentall Ill. field is going to be a hard one.If you go into it realy listen to your patients. I only wish there was better help out there at a more affordable cost. Write back if your would like to talk more Jackiw
Jackie S.P. <jspcpf@webtv.com>
wo USA - Tuesday, August 24, 1999 at 08:04:31 (EDT)
Just have a few more thoughts. From my own experience of having to deal with a schizophrenic parent (my mom), one thing that does happen is that the lives of other family members, other than the person with schizophrenia end up being disrupted, sometimes severely. I myself have had several career disruptions, which has caused my own employment record to be spotty at best. At one employer 12 years ago, around the time my mom disappeared for a week, my boss was to put it quite mildly, unsympathetic to me and ordered me to fix 6 dozen defective printed circuit boards in 3 days or he'd terminate me for incompetence. I told him "fine, do it now". Well, he did and I was out the door. At the time, I was in therapy for issues related to my mom's schizophrenia and its effect on me. At the time, I was also in contact too with the New Hampshire Department Of Vocational Rehabilitation who originally helped me to get that job. After I had left the place, the social worker who had helped me get that electronic technician job in the first place went over there and asked the companty president something like "What the hell Happened?" After she left, I heard the next day when I tried to call my former employer to see if I would even get any job references from there. When I called, I found out from a coworker that after the social worker left my former employer, emotional hell broke loose on the production floor. The company president went back to the production floor and summarily terminated for incompetence both my supervisor and the company's manufacturing manager on the spot. A few days after I was fired my schizophrenic mom showed up back home again on her own. I emotionally felt like cow manure. Family in crisis, no job what was I the hell to do? I did pick myself up and through a temporary employment agency got another job to keep me from going over the deep end. Since 1978 I've had 5 different jobs, but have been unemployed for long periods of time, the equivalent of 8 1/2 of the last 21 years. I can honestly say that although I have not had any really bad problems related to my own mental health, just the fact that I've grown up and still live with a schizophrenic parent has mad a mess of my life. Don't anybody ever get me wrong, even though my mom is ill with schizophrenia, I still love her very much, but over the years I've paid a very heavy emotional price, my younger brother and my dad included. Most of the time, I have felt that I have been living her life and not my own. It will be hard to cut the strings that bind me into a family touched by schizophrenia.But I can't I've been too entangled for the last 30 years and if my schizophrenic mom died tomorrow, I wouldn't know what to do with my life. Sorry to have intruded with my thoughts on the subject of how my mom's schizophrenia affected me.
Thomas C. Wood <twood@brooks.com>
Chelmsford, MA USA - Monday, August 23, 1999 at 13:01:17 (EDT)
Help! my 5 year old son has just been diagnosed with "thought disorder". at this point he is not having hallucinations or special powers. he is about to start kindergarten this year, we are not sure if he will go to a special school for "severe emotional disturbances". his father and I don't know how much to let the regular school know about what we know. we do know that he will need help to stay focused and attentive in class. He is also hyperactive. Is this usual or is it just another problem he'll have to hurdle? any help,guidence, advice would be appreciated
JoAnne <llama77@epix.net>
USA - Monday, August 23, 1999 at 00:19:26 (EDT)
Very touching site. Stay the course!
Anonymous Web Poet <anonyogi@hotmail.com>
USA - Sunday, August 22, 1999 at 20:03:57 (EDT)
Dear Ian I keep visiting your site - wonderful connection with so many people who could be helped. After 30 years living with a bipolar II mood disorder, I finally learned about restorative mental healthcare using orthomolecular medicine. I have written several layman's guides about this. People can learn more - for free! Visit my site which is now linked to yours. www.rose.com/~searpubl Keep up your great work! Many many people will learn that we are not alone and we can be helped restoratively and without adverse effects!!! Sincerely, Bob Sealey, BSc, CA
Bob Sealey, BSc, CA <sealey@rose.com>
Toronto, ON Canada - Saturday, August 21, 1999 at 08:14:55 (EDT)
I would just like to say it was so great reading your story. My eldest brother was only diagnosed with schizophrenia two years ago at the age of twenty-seven. After he had been on the anti-psychotic drugs for a while and his thoughts had cleared up for the first time in twelve years, he admitted that he had been having these types of thoughts since he was fifteen years old. What is really amazing to me is how much of his life sounded exactly like yours. I was amazed to read that you had finished high school and gone onto higher education. Unfortunately for my brother he did not finish high school. He has spent the majority of his life on drugs, in short-term work, financial difficulty and at times homeless. Just as your mum said that she noticed the time when you changed and things started going wrong, my mum throughout the years has always said that Paul changed around the age of fifteen. Thankyou once again for sharing your story. I have printed it off and I am going to show it to my mum in the hope that it strikes the same chord in her that it did in me. Jennifer.
Jennifer Casey <jlcasey75@hotmail.com>
shepparton, Vic Australia - Saturday, August 21, 1999 at 00:13:10 (EDT)
I would just like to say it was so great reading your story. My eldest brother was only diagnosed with schizophrenia two years ago at the age of twenty-seven. after he had been on the anti-psychotic drugs for a while and his thoughts had cleared up for the first time in twelve years, he admitted that he had been having these types of thoughts since he was fifteen years old. What is really amazing to me is how much of his life sounded exactly like his. I was amazed to read that you had finished high school and gone onto higher education. Unfortunately for my brother he did not finish high school. He has spent the majority of his life on drugs, in short-term work, financial difficulty and at times homeless. Just as your mum said that she noticed the time when you change and things started going wrong, my mum throughout the years has always said that paul changed around the age of fifteen. Thankyou once again for sharing your story. I have printed it off and I am going to show it to my mum in the hope that it strikes the same chord in her that it did in me. Jennifer.
Jennifer Casey <jlcasey75@hotmail.com>
shepparton, Vic Australia - Saturday, August 21, 1999 at 00:09:50 (EDT)
Just writing to thank you for your own insights into schizophrenia. I live with my parents, one of whom does have this disease (my Mom). She has been ill with this disease for over 30 years. She isn't violent now or too hyper, but at her age of 63, she just spends most of her time now just mostly mute and withdrawn and living in her own world, sitting in her wheelchair. Growing up with her was quite chaotic for me and my younger brother. Both me and my younger brother never left the nest. Have had to wipe out our childhoods and much of our adulthoods to deal with our mom and her problems. As a result, my brother and I never became independent. I'm 41 years old and my brother is 37. feel sorry at times that our lives got flushed down the porcelin potty chair. Thomas C. Wood
Thomas C. Wood <twood@brooks.com>
Chelmsford, MA USA - Friday, August 20, 1999 at 14:25:44 (EDT)
how can I say that I have found what is a disease ? terribly fascinating, however terribly painful. My boyfriend is schizophrenic, and my mother was bi-polar and my sister is schixophrenic. I really wonder about this illness and have devoted most of my life to the care and understanding of this mystery. I wonder why there are so many subtle simalarities in undiagnosed persons ? I have alot of questions and a few answers. You are welcome to e-mail me.
fumiko robinson <fumiko_robinson@hotmail.com>
manhattan, n.y. USA - Tuesday, August 17, 1999 at 17:14:18 (EDT)
You may be interested in a discussion underway on the CNN message boards under the Health Section, "Mental Health". Some good discussion underway, plus a LOT of misinformation - including a poster who thinks schizophrenia is a "myth". Your website is very informative and I think there is much you can contribute. CNN discussions are moderated - off topic abusive comments, etc. are tossed! I'll give you a link if you're interested: if "clicking doesn't work, copy & paste always does. Thanks again for a great website. Very best wishes. http://community.cnn.com/cgi-bin/WebX?13@166.WWbnacC5adP^0@.ee8a507
Kath S.
Vancouver, Canada - Tuesday, August 17, 1999 at 12:11:40 (EDT)
It takes allot of courage to have gone through what you've gone through and still hold your head high in the midst of charging ahead with the risky business of life.Congrats Dude!!!
Jaheey Trivley <mano@attcanada.net>
White Plains , MA USA - Tuesday, August 17, 1999 at 00:55:22 (EDT)
I am a caregiver to my brother, who has recently been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at age 38 (he has probably suffered since his teen years). I have AIDS, to boot, so our two lives are good for an investigation on "how are they the same, how are they different", a good analysis problem, as I am also a teacher, you see. I worry more about my doing the right thing, than he does about having this illness. It is not easy!
Robert Squires <rsquires46@earthlink.net>
Albuquerque, NM USA - Tuesday, August 17, 1999 at 00:45:02 (EDT)
Hi Ian, Here is my web site address web.ionsys.com/~wizardcp/
Christine Pearson <wizardcp@ionsys.com>
USA - Saturday, August 14, 1999 at 09:39:09 (EDT)
testing the script
Ian <chovil@mgl.ca>
Guelph, ON Canada - Saturday, August 14, 1999 at 08:28:18 (EDT)
Hi. I am 16 years old and live in Australia. I really enjoyed your story and it has helped me come to grips about some of the things that happen to you when you are schizoprenic. I myself don't actually suffer from the disorder but i have known of others that have had it and as a result are now dead by their own hands. Most of them either drank a helluva lot of alcohol or smoked too much dope... or both. They lost their battle but its good to know that there are people like you that are dealing with it. I'm really thankful that you set up this website, i'll be sure to pass your link onto friends of mine that know or live with people who suffer from schizophrenia. The reason i am reading your site is because i am studying psychology in Year 11, (i'm still at school obviously) and am doing a huge assignment on disorders. Schizophrenia has always interested me greatly and this is my chance to show my teacher how much it interest me. When i finish school i hope to become a psychologist and work with people who suffer from your disorder. Anyway i guess i have probably bored you enough with my rambling. Thanks again for your website, I am sure it must help a lot of people around the world know that they are not alone.
K Drummond
Australia - Saturday, August 07, 1999 at 21:57:12 (EDT)
Ian, thank you so much for this extremely informative (and timely, for me) website. My son, just 25, is presently just going through his first psychotic episode right now. It started a few days ago, and fortunately he sought out his trusted family doctor and got risperadone to get him through the weekend. I have taken him, at her suggestion and with his complete consent, into my home temporarily. So far he seems to be coping quite well, but the delusions do persist, of course. Given what I have read on your site, I think he may have had an insidious onset, although this is his first clear break with reality (demons, voices, instructions, malevolent omens, etc.) In light of the fact that prompt treatment and the handling of the first episode seem to be of great importance, I have these questions for you: 1. Should I “indulge” his delusions, or challenge them? (I’m afraid to too much, since this would likely produce very argumentative behavior) What is the correct posture for me to take? (e.g. Do we go and get the epsom salts and candles he wants to help ward off the demons, or do I respond by saying “Your mind is playing tricks on you. See the doctor with me on Monday.”) 2. Should I keep pressing him to follow his doctor’s referrals, program suggestions etc.? (He feels he needs a “channeler” or perhaps a Christian therapist who believes in voodoo or other alternative approaches - at least he acknlowdges the need for help!) Or, in order to solidify his trust in me, should I encourage him to pursue all avenues that appeal to him, even those which I feel would be counterproductive ? Responses from any others out there would also be appreciated. Thanks again! You have provided me with the best information I found. It has that unmistakable ring of authenticity based on experience that no academic could provide.
Don Richardson <donaldo@yesic.com>
Toronto, canada - Saturday, August 07, 1999 at 17:32:43 (EDT)
Phrenzy In the midst of all the anger, the delusion and the pain, Where nameless hallucinations Transcend the spectrum of the sane, I wandered driven, And not forgiven By hypoctites and worse, To a foreign dream, a fleeting scheme That held me like a curse. Condemned again to rise above The wheels of normal time, To feel again a summers' day That fires the astral sign; Archetypes and angels Whirling now within, Sinning has no meaning When the devil grins. The demons came They're still the same They never change their tune, They walk along the jungle path And sit inside my room, The solstice moon will rise again Before I claim my mind, And all aroung the battleground I seek those left behind. For now I am A labelled man, Suspected, feared and barred, Confined by medication Society alarmed, And I wander through the side streets Where the neon spirit holds The key to my salvation And perhaps, perhaps My Soul...
Joe O'Brien <drspore@indigo.ie>
Ireland - Saturday, August 07, 1999 at 13:14:40 (EDT)
Ian It is great to read all the information you are providing for others. I am sure it will be positive in reducing the stigma that is still attached to mental illness. It is also very helpful to those who suffer from schizophrenia or another mental illness. It will provide hope and support as well as basic information in what's available for treatment and support. I am a clinical psychologist and am currently completely my Ph D. with my research topic concerned witht he cognitive deficits associated with the delusions of paranoid schizophrenia. I have found my research evry interesting and have attended a number of international conferences. I was very fortunate at the Australasian Schizophrenia conference in Hobart in 1997 to listen to a couple of people with schizophrenia speak about their experiences. It was really helpful for me and with the permission of the authors I have been able to use their talks to educate others about schizophrenia. My research is conducted from a major psychiatric hospital here in Perth and involves a lot of patient contact. I have recently opened my own private practice and hope to provide therapy for people suffering from psychoses. Please keep up your good work as it is extremely valuable - so important to educate everyone about schizophrenia and so important to provide support for people suffering from schizophrenia. It can be very isolating for the person and also for the person's family. anyway keep working at it. best wishes Helen
Helen Stain <hjstain@cyllene.uwa.edu.au>
Perth, WA Australia - Saturday, August 07, 1999 at 08:17:24 (EDT)
8/6/99- Anne Purcell, Co-President. Hello, this is Jo Anne Dorgan, a friend still I hope and I still want to volunteer and be a consumer advocate for NAMI of Greater Orlando. You are still a very special Mentor/Friend to me. *Please let me know what the next Volunteer training session for NAMI of Greater Orlando will be held? Please... I will be at it. My issue is still the Insurance matter. Any suggestions? For awhile I had OCPS health insurance now it has been taken away from me again. I am putting in an application for Medicaid. Keep your eye out for any "part time any clerical work" in Non profit organizations in the Central Florida area for me. I will keep intouch. You too, I hope? Please let me know when the next NAMI of greater orlando volunteer training session will be held? I will come to it too. Have a nice weekend. Sincelery, Still a Friend, A Mental Health Consumer Advocate. Jo Anne Dorgan. 3800 Wren Lane Orlando, Florida. 32803. Hph: 894-4807
Jo Anne Dorgan <turkey_32803@yahoo.com>
Orlando, Fl USA - Friday, August 06, 1999 at 15:56:40 (EDT)
Howdy!
Connie Modzelewski
Lake Charles, LA USA - Thursday, August 05, 1999 at 13:27:55 (EDT)
Your article was very educational. My brother has recently been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Six months ago, he was in medical school. Two weeks ago, we had to have him temporarily admitted to a hospital because he was so delusional and he was starving himself. I am glad that there is information on schizophrenia. I want to know everything I can to help my brother. My mother is a nurse and she is trying to take care of him. Unfortunately, the rest of the family is refusing to see that he has an illness and needs to take medicine and receive therapy. It is very difficult because they are interferring with his treatment by not believing he is really ill. I know this article has enlightned me, so I will be referring this sight to rest of my family in the hopes that they will see how to help my brother and understand what he is going through. Thanks, Tonya
Tonya
USA - Thursday, August 05, 1999 at 08:52:54 (EDT)
Hi, my name is Sasha and I am currently a second year graduate student in Social Work. I am taking a course titled Dysfunctional Behavior in a Clinical Setting. Its an excellent class with an incredible professor. We are studying Schizophrenia and Mood Disorders right now and I thought I would look on the internet to see if I could get some insights that I can't find in my books. Well, I did. Thank You for sharing your story and your successes. Its been very discouraging for me to work with schizophrenics, as it is a long and frustrating process that often yields no positive results. I question whether I am capable of handling my own emotions when it feels like I'm running into a brick wall everyday with someone. Reading your story and other information has given me a level of motivation I haven't ever felt. It takes one person overcoming and continuing in the way that you are for me to see that this is not a lost cause and that I may belong working with someone with schizophrenia. I admire you and the will you have found to survive and overcome unimaginable odds. Wishing you continued progress and happiness!!
Sasha Oliver <squishee@innw.net>
Walla Walla, WA USA - Wednesday, August 04, 1999 at 22:39:19 (EDT)
Your work is excellent. When I get in to college, I plan on studying child,animal,and criminal psycology, so your work helped me get my facts straight. Thanks!
Meghan Carter
USA - Wednesday, August 04, 1999 at 02:03:43 (EDT)
Hi, I am doing research on schizophrenia for a term paper in Psychology. I did'nt realize how this disease is so devistating. This has intrested me so much that I might take this avenue when I become a Doctor, to find a treatment for people to set them free of there horrible, imprisoned illness. If anyone could tell me what it would be like, for only a day, to become schizophrenic, and the daily stuggles, it would help me more understand. Thanks, and God Bless everyone and their families.
Annie <BUCKSIE@Prodigy.net>
Snohomish, WA USA - Tuesday, August 03, 1999 at 13:18:16 (EDT)
Dear Ian ...I have just discovered your website and i read your story and i was struck with how similiar some of your pasr delusions are with my daughter's. My daughter is 24 and for four years she has been struggling with mental illness...Right now she is in a hospital because last week she had a real break with reality...she said that she was not allowed to talk so she became almost mute...She imsgines that she killed me and her sister and when i visit her she thinks I am dead... Her dr. has her on thorazine as well as xprexya, wellbutrin, and i think Lithium...It's pretty horrible to see her so zoned outon these meds and i wonder is the cure worse than the sickness...I want to trust that her dr. knows what he is doing but my confidence level is not there yet...What has been your experience with thorazine...if any...I know it is supposed to be a pretty heavy duty medication...i am concerned about the side effects...Thank you for sharing your experiences ...I'm sure i will revisit your site...daw
debbie <deb.maya.tuls@worldnet.att.net>
bethesda, MD USA - Sunday, August 01, 1999 at 09:02:40 (EDT)
I have nothing to say other than "God Bless You" I am just beginning all of this with my best friend whom was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I would like to keep in contact with you for help and advice. Thank you.
Christopher D. Saunders <IIuvJuls4@aol.com>
Whitesboro , NY USA - Saturday, July 31, 1999 at 15:48:19 (EDT)
Hi, Thanks for the very informative website .. If only I could have found out about this earlier, perhaps my mother could have been saved. Just 2 months ago, her illness has become so serious that she was on the verge of ending her life. She kept saying things like someone has been following her everywhere.. when she goes to work or when was outside., and that the government is set to catch her/ or trap her down.. which makes realli no sense at all, even the slightest of the internet joke panic her.. I did not really realized there was such a illness as doctor diagnosed her as just depression . During the last two months I noticed a severe change in her behavior but i could not figured out why this drastic change.. it got worse.. and finally she was not in this world anymore.. It was quite traumatic.. for a girl of 21 years old who was figuring out why her mother hang herself...for no other reasons.Little did i realised that after her death that she has discontinued her medications and stopped seeing her doctor for 2 mths already. My relatives had advised her to see doctor but she has gone up to the stage that she refused to listen to anyone advice. Thank you for the web site once again. Yours sincerely, Judith
Judith Lim <jll@pacific.net.sg>
Singapore - Friday, July 30, 1999 at 15:31:39 (EDT)
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Jane <janets@aol.com>
U.S.A. - Friday, July 30, 1999 at 03:36:37 (EDT)
Dear Reader & Chovil, I've spent the past three years (much of) trying to get my gorlfriend to accept the fact that she is mentally ill. After much research, I have come to the conclusion that she is absolutely suffering from paranoid schizophrenia. It has as you know been so difficult to deal with as well as cope with when she seems to at one moment love me and the next, she hates me. I don't know if there is anything I can do at this point to protect her. I would also love her to accept her illness and of coarse thus she would love me 100% of the time. If she was able to respond positively to medication. I want more then anything for her to be safe and happy, and be able to live a productive life style. But at this point she goes from being a confused young women who for the most part is a pleasure to be with and at the next moment she will tell me that I am the cause of every problem she has ever had, and then she pushes me away. This seems to be happening more and more often. She is surely hearing voices, yet will not admit or even speak of it. She is also extremely paranoid. She believes that I am in her words " participating with others to plot against her" but when I ask her why she thinks this or what I am tryong to do to her. She never makes any attempt to explain herself. She says very strange phrases that make no sense and she has had a drug and alcohol problem for as long as I havce known her. She can go long periods with out mentioning drugs or alcohol, then she will start seeking them, with out wanting me to know. Because I do not want her to do them, she hides them from me. I know this is normal when it comes to these sort of mental illnesses. But what can I do at this point to get her to accept this illness. I've tried about everything I can. I even filed a Juditial Phyciatric Evailuation request with the city court, but they didn't really try to make sure she showed up for the examination. It is so frustrating at this point. I'm affraid she will run away again and I'll lose the ability to help her and keep her safe. I would like to ask for you're help and suggestions. It's time this illness is taken seriously. There is all kinds of help for those who abuse drugs or alcohol. But when it comes to mental illness, you can find 100000 websites and support groups. But the bottom line is they all send you somewhere else. I don't need a directory of information. I need help. Real help. Where the hell is it? Thank you for listening. I look forward to any response at all. You're website is great. Keep up the good work. Sincerely, Gil L.
Gil Lastrapes <XTC008@aol.com>
Florence, SC USA - Thursday, July 29, 1999 at 09:10:57 (EDT)
I would like to give you a big HOORAY for being able to give the general public such informative and useful research. I am presently dealing with the treatment for a paranoid schizophreniac. I was having great troubles on what to do, but thanks to you I can know share this information with others Thanks and GOOD LUCK with everything to come
Brynn Walker
USA - Wednesday, July 28, 1999 at 13:06:19 (EDT)
this has been very helpful information to me for my assignment on schizophrenia
natasha o'grady
USA - Tuesday, July 27, 1999 at 20:05:20 (EDT)
You have created the most informative mental health website I have ever seen! I have been sectioned with a paranoid psychotic illness (in 1995) and I was struck reading your story how similar delusions can be. I found it uncomfortable reading because it reminded me so much of my experiences. This question I have for you; do you know of any research as to how insipient(?) (not yet developed ) psychotic illness can effect a teenager. I am trying to understand my own adolecence! Some are born 'normal', some achieve 'normality' and some have 'normality' thrust upon them. Thanks to the medication I feel I have achieved normality. Lastly, Seroquel you are beautiful! I have banished the dread Clopixol after suffering such pleasant side effects as constant tiredness and prolactin related erectile dysfunction even on a maintanance dose. When i was detained one of the other patients committed suicide and I have often wonderd how much the typical neuroleptic's side effects contributed to his state of mind. The side effects of high doses I found unerving, especially as no one explained them to me! (The vast majority of my knowledge came from research after my release in the local libary). We must demand atypicals. (Sorry if I've gone on a bit!)
'crazy' James Cuthill <itca@weycoll.ac.uk>
weymouth, dorset UK - Monday, July 26, 1999 at 11:03:36 (EDT)
I found your story through the strangest of places, but as much as I don't think you belong there I'm glad I read your story and I hope you finally get to live the "normal" life you've missed out on for so long. You serve not so much as a lesson in the desease as a hope of how to overcome it.
curtis <portal2000@hotmail.com>
Australia - Monday, July 26, 1999 at 07:18:53 (EDT)
I am so sorry you too had to deal with this terrible illness. I have been hospitalized numerous times for schizophrenia. My last stay was a year. No one can truly know the torment until you have walked in our shoes. The taunting, the hallucinating, etc.... It is pure HELL. All I can say is thank God for zyprexa. I know I would be dead now if it wasn't for this medication. Nothing else worked. I kept giving in to the intruders and trying to kill myself. I admire you greatly!!!! We are miracles. Never forget that, my friend. Best of luck!!! @>--->---- for you. Never, ever give up! B@E@T@H
Beth Osborne <Phelicity8@AOL.com>
Port Ewen, NY USA - Sunday, July 25, 1999 at 13:34:51 (EDT)
I've never had to delete any guestbook entries, unless someone requested it, but I had to delete one today, for the first time in two and half years.
Ian Chovil <chovil@mgl.ca>
Guelph, ON Canada - Sunday, July 25, 1999 at 09:12:20 (EDT)
great content
K nagle <kim-nagle@webtv. net>
winnetka, IL USA - Sunday, July 25, 1999 at 00:40:08 (EDT)
im not fucking mad listen to me me . all of you bastards
we're a nutter <whotowotme@where.com>
poo, USA - Saturday, July 24, 1999 at 19:59:03 (EDT)
Is this for real? It sounds pretty scripted. Just wondering.......
Terry
USA - Friday, July 23, 1999 at 22:24:47 (EDT)
Hello there, I have been reading your excellant site. well done- you've achieved a lot. I am a mental health nurse in England and I want to develop a meaningful program for the people I care for. Most of these people have schizophrenia and have been in hopsital for a long time (some will probably stay there). I want to do something that is worthwhile and helpful. I don't want to just play bingo etc... Please help if you can: I would love to hear your advice etc.. Shaun
shaun pool <shaunpool@aspects.net>
Colchester, UK - Friday, July 23, 1999 at 07:37:42 (EDT)
I truly don't know what to say. I have an uncle who has this condition...I never knew it could be like this. I am still at a loss for words...
Farhood <Farhoods@aol.com>
Tallahassee, FL USA - Friday, July 23, 1999 at 01:28:28 (EDT)
I AM DOING A PROJECT ON THIS DISORDER, I FOUND YOUR STORY AMZING. AND SPECIAL. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR INFO YOU HAVE PROVIDED FOR ME. I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM YOU SOON.......THANX ALOT.........FROM SAMANTHA.
samantha <sammy@mail.austasia.net>
vic AUSTRALIA - Thursday, July 22, 1999 at 07:23:53 (EDT)
I have been ill with Schizophrenia since July 1996, when I was admitted to hospital under a six-month involuntary section. I had been feeling unwell for at least two years before going into hospital but I refused to seek Treatment. Like you I got into trouble with the law and had a court- case hanging over me for five of the eight months I was in hospital. I now live in the community and my medication has just been changed to olanzapine and hopefully it will do the job.
Simon Phillips
England - Thursday, July 22, 1999 at 07:03:52 (EDT)
Hi! I have found your website really good. Thanks
carol gortmans <carolgortmans@lineone.net>
edinburgh, SCOTLAND - Wednesday, July 21, 1999 at 07:41:48 (EDT)
Hi! I have found your website really good. Thanks
carol gortmans <carolgortmans@lineone.net>
edinburgh, SCOTLAND - Wednesday, July 21, 1999 at 07:40:30 (EDT)
It is a wonderful site. I have a mother who has had schizophrenia for over thirty years. It is very upsetting to witness this. I too have a mental disorder. I hear music and voices but I know they are not real. I have a sense of reality. I have had this problem for one year. One doctor says, that I have schizoaffective disorder and another doctor says, that I have such intense fears of having schizophrenia like my mother that I have developed obsessions. What do you think? Do you think that I should see another psychiatrist. Also, I have tried many antipsychotics but none of them worked. My doctor says, it is because I am not schizophrenic. But why do I hear music playing loud outside my brain almost constantly. Sometimes, I hear an inner voice telling me violent things. I know that I am a good person and would never kill anyone but these thoughts are not normal. My psychiatrist knows all that. Do you think I have schizophrenia? Anyone, with the same problems as myself please e-mail me at gshenker@sprint.ca. Thanks and good luck.
Gail Shenker <gshenker@sprint.ca>
Kanata, Ontario Canada - Sunday, June 20, 1999 at 22:43:37 (EDT)
Help!!! My mother is suffering schizophrenia. She sometimes thinks that the neighbers want to kill her by using laser and she sees and hear somethings. She doesn't admit that she has the desease when she is normal and she also doesn't take the meds. She is 60 yrs old now. My heart is really broken. I just know my mother got ill because she lives in China with my little brother and I live here with my husband and a two-month old daughter. My little didn't tell me about that because at that time I was pregnant and later my baby was just born. He didn't want to tell me by now but my mother wrote me a letter and the content was so strange that obviously that something is wrong. So i called home and knew the fact--my mother was first found and hospitalized at about one year ago and at that time the doctor said it was already too late ( which means that my mother's desease was not at it's first stage already). Now she wants to change the living place but my brother think it won't help because she'll think the old neighber will come after her to kill her. I can't bring my little daughter back to home now even though I want so much because she is too young and the long time travel and the environment at home may do some harm to her.And I can't also leave her here now and go home alone because I am breastfeeding and that will make me have to wean her when she is only 2 month old--that is too irresponsible to her. But I also can't let my poor little brother--he is only 20 yrs old--to fully take care of my mother. And I also can't let my mother come to here because the visiting visa make us only have to buy medical insurance from private company and that is too expensive for us. If she get ill here we are not sure whether we can afford it. (My husband and I have the insurance covered by the company atwhich he works.) What should I do? I've already haven't sleep for two days and nights. Please help me! Help a heart-broken daughter and young mother! Give me some ideas! I'll be so grateful!! I also know that my grandmother had some similar desease before. So this desease may be got at born, right? So I might have it sometime in my future, right? God. My childhood was unhappy, my mother and father were seperated and I lost my dearest grandmother before I finished my undergraduate study. Now I just begin to have a little bit of happiness in my whole life--my husband and my daughter--and then I have to face my terrible life in the unknown future. I'm not an active person too. That might add the risk of having this desease, right? Should I devorce my husband? Have I already passed this desease to my little poor daughter? How do I know? Can anybody help me? Please!!! Please!!! Hope somebody hear me here. I'm waiting for you. Help!
cc <cchenwang@yahoo.com>
nashua, nh USA - Sunday, June 20, 1999 at 02:26:29 (EDT)
Thank you for all the information. I had a brother who suffered from paranoid schizophrenia. It took us quit a while to realize what it was and then once we did it was very hard to get him help. He was a very polite, intelligent and good looking guy. He was always very popular and suddenly he lost contact with people and talked about his roomates doing weird things to him. After many episodes of him loosing his temper towards his family my Dad came to a conclusion that he thought it was schizophrenia. We tried to have him commited but we all know if your over 18 its almost impossible. My parents had him arrested out of our house and it almost broke their hearts to see him taken away and him blaming them. He blamed my Mom for almost everything. He talked about having an AIDS cure. The CIA was after him and everyone at the store or anywhere he went would cut him off to get at him. The more I would listen to him say these things sometimes I would even believe him. My parents thought they had help for him once he was arrested only to have a judge ignorantly drop all charges. After about 10 years he was beginning to be able to admit something was wrong, but it wasn't something mental he would say. He could not accept it and refused to stay on medication. In June of 1997 we thought he was coming to grips with it and then on the 17th he took his life in my parents back yard. I am very angry that the courts do not allow us to take responsibility for helping our family member if they are over 18, but yet once he was arrested and hospitalized my parents were once again called to take responsibility for him. My parents and family were all there to support him but, our hands were absolutly tied. Hopefully someday we can change these laws so it is easier to get help for our loved ones. I do know in my heart that my brother's mind is finally at peace. I just wish he could have experienced all the day to day things I do. He is deeply missed by our whole family. I would like to know if you could refer me to any organizations that I could possibly try to help make a difference in someone else's family or in getting the support we need. My parents are active in AMI. That might be the same way I should go, but if you have any other suggestions please let me know. My wish for you is a clear and peaceful mind. My prayers are with you and thank you once again for the information and hope for the mentally ill.
Angie White <dlga_chicago@earthlink.net>
Chicago, Illinois USA - Thursday, June 17, 1999 at 16:20:01 (EDT)
How great it is! I'm a Ph.D candidate in Sociology in Seoul National University. My concern is the experience of mental illness and their everyday life. In Korea, those who have a mental disorder suffer from social stigma. I wonder how the sigma is constructed. Every Wednesday, I take part in mutual aid group in Psychiatric clinic and discuss ex-patient's lives. Today, I'll talk about you with them. So hopdful! Bye!
Soo0hyeon, Lee <shleeok@snu.ac.kr>
Seoul, Republic of Korea - Tuesday, June 15, 1999 at 16:58:56 (EDT)
Ian what a wonderfull side , so many things i wanted to know so many things too hard to admit and apply to myself. I'm 36 have 2 kids[15 and 10]loving wife, dog and everything I've ever wanted and now I'm about to loose all this and land on the street ,somehow I know that. Last January it stroke me went to hospital for 3 days than out for a week and back for 2 weeks, this was first episode I had. For me of course this was some kind of a spiritual emergency I was happy being chosen. Out of hospital didn't take haloperidol[ thinking is a joke]back in hospital for 2 weeks. At home reality set in and my worst enemy facts. Reading pages on the net regarding all kind of mental illneses got me depressed to the point of killing myself and this is where I'm today. Sir I,m New to Canada therefore expresing myself in writing is dificult for me, but reading your story is like being with sombody very close. I live in London Ontario and I'm very lost at the moment .I thing You are the expert in the field and first succesfull story I came accros all over the net. I know you are very busy person but if there is a chance to meet You in person I will go to any place you wish .I very much need Your help YOU HAVE THE WAPON how to bit this horible illnes Please contact me and thank YOU.
slavek <ventur@sprint.ca>
london, on canada - Tuesday, June 15, 1999 at 14:06:21 (EDT)
I am absolutely astounded with your progress. I suffer major depressive disorder. My problem is OCD, repetitive music in my brain. You are someone I respect a great deal.
Robin Stofko
Washington, DC USA - Tuesday, June 15, 1999 at 06:01:05 (EDT)
Thank you for your web page. I believe or am coming to belief and acceptance that I may have this disease. It's always helpful to hear stories that offer hope.
Adina Smith <adina_smith@hotmail.com>
Tucson, AZ USA - Sunday, June 13, 1999 at 12:30:24 (EDT)
Congratulations on your web-site! I have read your story from start to finish and have been very interested in your developments. At the present time I am studying the effects of schizophrenia as part of my A-level course. I am very thankful to you for creating such a detailed and honest report. Thanks again Richard.
Kingsthorpe Upper School, Northampton, England.
Northampton, England - Sunday, June 13, 1999 at 03:35:32 (EDT)
That's really a brilliant piece of writing put up by you. Its been a real enlightening experience going through your writings as someone real close to me is suffering from the ailment and your views have helped in making my understanding of the behaviour much more clear. I definitely feel I'll be able to help more effectively after going through your experiences and advice. A real great job done and my sicerest and best wishes to you.
Manpreet <m_bawa@mailcity.com>
Jalandhar, India - Saturday, June 12, 1999 at 00:23:02 (EDT)
Dear Ian, Halloooo ... you have all the support you ever need in your "journey" from the volunteers of the Woodbridge Project in Singapore! Be happy always and thanks so much for sharing your stories with us all ... :-) Love, Siao-E :)
Siao-E <siaoee@hotmail.com>
Singapore - Wednesday, June 09, 1999 at 22:43:30 (EDT)
My brother-in-law who is now 41, is a paranoid schizophrenic. He was instionalized for about three years. His name is Bill. Bill is also a drug addict. His Mother had him released from the institution and he lives with her. She is seventy nine years young and still very active. Bill becomes violent at times and has hit his Mother and verbally assualts her. Do you have any information or knowledge on weather or not the drugs he takes interfers with his meds.? He does crack, coke, pot, shoots heroin, takes sixty to one hundred minithins a day and will do anything else he can get his hands on.
Linda Wuenn <breezette@prodigy.com>
Hobart, IN USA - Tuesday, June 08, 1999 at 08:08:43 (EDT)
Thanks for putting this on line, I'm doing a report for a medical class and this is helping me out a lot. I hope things are going good for you and continue to do so. Once again thank you.
Monica <monijams@Yahoo.com>
Ky USA - Sunday, June 06, 1999 at 08:46:01 (EDT)
I'm a family member of a schizophrenia patient. The greatest thing I've learned is that our laws prevent me from helping her. Forcing treatment is an invasion of civil rights. I feel so helpless -- all I can do is continue watching her get into trouble and become more and more paranoid. Your site has clarified a number of things for me; keep up the good work. I'm trying to learn as much as I can.
Sue Lyddon <sue_lyddon@tst.tracor.com>
Leonardtown, MD USA - Sunday, June 06, 1999 at 07:59:15 (EDT)
Excellent info, as a learner doctor never let it be said that I can not learn from you!
TracyB
USA - Thursday, June 03, 1999 at 15:03:52 (EDT)
Hi Great site!!! I have to read more later. I have the illness and am now on Zyprexa after being on Risperdal for three years. Keep up the good work and enjoy good mental health.
Brian Strong <basireid@hotbot.com>
Naramata, BC Canada - Tuesday, June 01, 1999 at 12:39:55 (EDT)
great site. very informative. it's helped me a lot with my report, and if I get an A, thanks even more! :)
michelle <BlueMascara@collegeclub.com>
vallejo, ca USA - Monday, May 31, 1999 at 22:45:07 (EDT)
Hey, great site! I just want to say that I've been in treatment for the past 14 years, and have had the same highly paid job for 15 years. If the next 14 years see as much change as the past 14 then we're in for a hell of a ride, (I mean that in the positive sense). A
Anthony OGara
Dublin, Ireland - Monday, May 31, 1999 at 08:09:44 (EDT)
Was looking for a place for my brother-in-law to live and be happy. He is always alone in brampton and I worry about him, he needs a friend full time. He lost his father last year, who was probable his best friend, and his mother is in Montreal and not going to be around forever. He has gone through a couple of bad episodes and due for another soon, I fear. Your information has helped some but I wish I could help him more. I would love to find a group home where he can be around people who also have problems like himself. He has such a good heart and deserves more out of life than sitting in his apartment alone and going for coffee five times a day along. All the support we can give him is a phone call once in a while, We are willing to help him financially if he needs but the most he needs is friendship and love. If you can help write me .. thanks C. Menezes 9125 N. Simpson Rd. Newman Lake Wa. 99025
catherine <unknown>
spokane, wa. USA - Monday, May 24, 1999 at 17:27:34 (EDT)
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I deeply admire your bravery. Could you please assist me in obtaining information on schizoaffective disorder and how it differs from schizofrenia? Or does it? Thank you so much for your time and efforts, I wish you and yours nothing but happiness and all that's good. thanks
Isabel Sanchez <iasanchez@yahoo.com>
Cleveland, Oh USA - Sunday, May 23, 1999 at 18:02:01 (EDT)
THANK YOU! I HAVE A DEAR FRIEND WHO HAS THIS DISORDER, & NO FAMILY, ONLY ME & MY FAMILY! SHE ONLY KNOWS THE CARE (OR LACK OF) OF THE SYSTEM. SHE HAS BEEN NEGLECTED FOR OVER 12 YEARS BUT BECAUSE WE ARE ONLY "FRIENDS" I HAVE NO LEGAL WAY TO HELP HER. ANY ADVISE?
Angeline Broomhall <honeymooners@BIGFOOT.COM>
WOODBRIDGE, NJ USA - Friday, May 21, 1999 at 12:55:14 (EDT)
THANK YOU! I HAVE A DEAR FRIEND WHO HAS THIS DISORDER, & NO FAMILY, ONLY ME & MY FAMILY! SHE ONLY KNOWS THE CARE (OR LACK OF) OF THE SYSTEM. SHE HAS BEEN NEGLECTED FOR OVER 12 YEARS BUT BECAUSE WE ARE ONLY "FRIENDS" I HAVE NO LEGAL WAY TO HELP HER. ANY ADVISE?
Angeline Broomhall <honeymooners@BIGFOOT.COM>
wOODBRIDGE, NJ USA - Friday, May 21, 1999 at 12:54:57 (EDT)
THANK YOU! I HAVE A DEAR FRIEND WHO HAS NO FAMILY, ONLY ME & MY FAMILY! SHE ONLY KNOWS THE CARE (OR LACK OF) OF THE SYSTEM. SHE HAS BEEN NEGLECTED FOR OVER 12 YEARS BUT BECAUSE WE ARE ONLY "FRIENDS" I HAVE NO LEGAL WAY TO HELP HER. ANY ADVISE?
Angeline Broomhall <honeymooners@BIGFOOT.COM>
wOODBRIDGE, NJ USA - Friday, May 21, 1999 at 12:52:53 (EDT)
My sister's name was Karly Long. She died this past Saturday at the age of 29. She was a beautiful person that lived her life in constant turmoil. She died a victim. A victim of the system. We as a family tried for several years to find help for Karly. We called Doctors. psychiatrists, The Clark, NYGH, and anyone else that would listen. We screamed we cried and we begged for help. No one would listen. There answer, prescribe her more drugs and send her home. We knew 10 days ago things were getting desperate. She was picked up by the police for fraud over $5000.00. We told the police to arrest her. If we could just get her in a contained environment. They said this is not a good idea for a person that is manic depressive bi-polar. The police officer suggested we take her with them to the Doctor's office and have her sign a Form 1 to have her committed for assessment for 72 hours. We did this thinking we finally had the answer. We took Karly and the form 1 to North York General. They left us waiting and we spent our time running around trying to keep her from leaving. We spoke to the nurses, the admitting and no one would listen. All they said is that a Doctor will see her. Finally a doctor saw her for less than an hour and sent her home. SO much for the FORM 1. They told her to return to the day hospital on Tuesday. She did, it was Thursday or Friday before she would even see a psychiatrist. In the meantime she visited several Walk in Clinics and emergency rooms looking for Drugs to numb the pain. We even called NYGH and warned them of this. Their answer, give her percocet and send her home. We found her a private hospital in Guelph that was willing to take her, but we couldn't get a Doctor to sign the referral. She fought a valiant battle and wanted to beat this and have a normal life. She died on Saturday, alone an apparent victim of a mix of the many drugs she was prescribed. Not intentional overdose but rather a mix of the wrong drugs prescribed to her. We as a family intend to launch a legal suit against the North York General Hospital, as well as try to convince the government that we are in need of a central registry of prescriptions to prevent people from doing things like this. It is too easy to walk into a Doctors office and get a prescription for Narcotics. We also believe that the mental health system is in serious need of an overhaul. If your heart was sick, or you have cancer you can get help. If your mind is sick no one cares. Today we will bury my sister and hope that no one else ever has to feel the heartbreak we are living now. Kimberly Long
Kim Long <kimberly@reprodux.com>
Richmond Hill, ON Canada - Wednesday, May 19, 1999 at 23:10:39 (EDT)
sorry, previous address was erroneous...
ori and leon <orichristina@yahoo.com>
San jose , costa rica - Wednesday, May 19, 1999 at 15:06:59 (EDT)
my son leon was diagnosed recently. better now, but having hard time being who he used to be, finding joy in anything and thinking he will live the rest of his life like that, going back to school...Contact, tips, support of any form will help. Thank's Ori
leon and ori <orichristina@aol.com>
San jose, Costa rica - Wednesday, May 19, 1999 at 15:03:17 (EDT)
Stepped in doing reasearch for clinical psych. It simply is one of the best internetsites I ever saw. Good luck Philipp
Philipp Sury <yagasaki@gmx.net>
Solothurn, SO Switzerland - Wednesday, May 19, 1999 at 09:15:22 (EDT)
hi there! i am a 28year old female, recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. The past couple of years have been a trial, to say the least... i can relate to what you say about social isolation, and just generally feeling somehow excluded from a sense of community and social life. i was in my final year at university when i had my first episode. i had delusions and hallucinations, i left my husband, and gave away all of our things, convinced that i was being directed by a spiritual guide. well, after a year of being unwell, i finally got help. i am on clozapine, and so far, so good... (even though it took another few months, and a lot of swapping medication to see what worked for me). i feel lucky and blessed, as my husband and i got back together again (after seven months apart), my family supported me, and although i lost many "fair weather" friends, i discovered my true friends stood by me. since my first episode i have taken up pottery, painting, craft and started a new job in a bakery.. i have yet to finish my degree, but at the moment, i'm enjoying learning about me, my stresses and what makes me happy. it has been a time of self realisation.. well, i've babbled on! i just wanted to say thankyou for sharing your experiences. i think the more schizophrenia, and other mental illnesses are demistified, the better for everyone. understanding=empathy cheers! deanne
deanne leber <dust7dream@yahoo.com>
australia - Tuesday, May 18, 1999 at 10:28:11 (EDT)
Ian thanks so much for making such a great resource. I learned so much from your site! I'd like to let you know that you personaly helped me graduate highschool by providing a good portion of the information that went into my senior paper on the connections of homelessness and schizophrenia. Thanks agian and I wish you all the luck in what ever you do! Matt Alden
Matt Alden <lamar_latrel@hotmail.com>
Vancouver, WA USA - Sunday, May 16, 1999 at 19:54:25 (EDT)
Whoa! Heavy! Take Care and Thanks.
Mark O. Mader <Mark@Mader.com>
Altadena, CA USA - Friday, May 14, 1999 at 18:19:59 (EDT)
Thank you for sharing your research and personal story. My husband has been diagnosed with major depression with a psychotic outbreak. No one will label it schizophrenia but I am wondering...He went through a 6 year legal battle trying to expose corruption in the governemnt and then wase was fired in retaliation. He then developed the above condition. He acts like a child. I have to give him a list of things to do. He has no motivation yet he's an extremely intelligent civil engineer. We continue to believe, "All thing work together for the good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose," (Rom. 8:28) and Jer. 29:11. "I know the plans I have for you, saith the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for your calamity." We have 3 teenage boys with whom Randy interacts very little with. Can you give us any suggestions? Sincerely, Helen
Helen <Widegren@juno.com>
Sacramento, CA USA - Friday, May 14, 1999 at 09:55:33 (EDT)
your story touched me in a very big way. i'm so glad that you are doing well. my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Christina Scalise <vayreni@aol.com>
nyc, ny USA - Thursday, May 13, 1999 at 21:14:40 (EDT)
Great site - excellent integration of charts and graphics - very informative. Thanks.
Paul DeBaldo
USA - Thursday, May 13, 1999 at 17:07:19 (EDT)
Very informative site. Well done :)
Cim <cimi@iname.com>
Wy USA - Sunday, May 09, 1999 at 08