I've been forced to close my guestbook to new entries by the sheer number of people advertising commercial sites, or otherwise using the opportunity for something unrelated to my web site. For at least five years I never deleted a single entry. When I closed it in late 2004 I was deleting several entries a day. You can still email me if you like but of course you can never put your email on the web as a link if you want to avoid spam. ichovil at sympatico.ca
I found your pages to be most helpful and encouraging. My son is suffering from his first episode at the age of 22. It has been incredibly difficult and scary for us. Three hospitilizations in a month. Two for the illness, whatever it is, not diagnosed yet, and one for an apparant overdose he was given via injection. The need for a better understanding of mental illness and family education is crucial in the patient's recovery and remission. Had I not educated myself I would not have been able to realize the symptons of my son's overdose and it could have been more tragic than it was. Thank you for your insight into these illnesses and sharing your experiences that really help me to understand some of what my son is living with.
Suzy
Nashville, TN United States - Friday, October 29, 2004 at 16:12:25 (EDT)Must do a report for school. Haven't read articles yet but definitely will. They look interesting. I'm sure, I have or some one I know has had some of the mental challenges brought about by this disorder. Thanks for sharing.
gail l. howard
providence, nc us - Thursday, October 28, 2004 at 08:00:19 (EDT)Hi, I so thank you for your postings. It has helped me to understand a lot better what life has instore. My daughter is undiagnosed and fighting getting into treatment. Life has been falling apart for years for her. I stuggle to keep her afloat. I believe your site maybe the way to help her see that admitting she has an illness will help her future. I also would like to enable her to become employed in a venture that I believe would work for her. She is a great typist and could record stories of peoples lives and give them back in printed form and on disks. I believe this could happen by telephone sessions, one 1/2 hour at a time. I have heard that people with Scitzophrenia are more able to understand that they are ill if they can see themselves on video tape. I wonder if they could see their thinking in written form if they would recognize the delusions as that. If you think there are ways to make this happen along with a posted website your input would be appreciated.
Rose
426 05673, V USA - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 at 23:59:32 (EDT)I also suffer from a psycotic diagnoses. I have Multiple Personalities.
Sylvia McClellan
NM United States - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 at 21:20:53 (EDT)Hi Ian, your site contents is quite interesting and yet it helps many people who visit your site to aquire more information about the problem of Schizophrenia that you have been suffering before.You have done a good job keep it up and God Bless!!!
Merniel Barton
cagayan de oro city, Philippines - Monday, October 25, 2004 at 22:03:04 (EDT)I actually found your site by chance, while i was trying to research for a biology project on Schizophrenia. I was actually looking for a person with that unfortunate illness that would portray their feelings and express themselves, explaining how they fought this. I find you extremely couragous and inspirational to all people who battle with Schizophrenia. I salute you for your undying, battling soul and strong will!! If you'd like to contact with me with further information, please do at: e_ayt@hotmail.com Thanks! :)
Elvira Ayouty
Dubai, U.A.E. - Saturday, October 23, 2004 at 14:16:17 (EDT)I would like to meet someone to talk!
Vaarti Nemme
- Saturday, October 23, 2004 at 10:35:51 (EDT)You are incredibly courageous! Thank you SO MUCH for such a wonderful and very informative website! I wish there were other sites like this one out there! We need this!
Ruth Merkis-Hunt
Ottawa, ON Canada - Friday, October 22, 2004 at 10:28:06 (EDT)Medication is not the answer to schizophrenia. It can dilute the meaning of your life. Medication is easier than true understanding. Read Memories, Dreams, and Reflections by C.G. Jung. Don't ignore your experiences, they have DEEP meaning which only you can understand.
AW
USA - Thursday, October 21, 2004 at 12:25:59 (EDT)A great website - planning to use it to inspire hope in young clients with psychosis.
Katherine Stewart
Thunder Bay, ON Canada - Thursday, October 21, 2004 at 10:21:43 (EDT)I am a psychology major and I am studying schizophrenia in children. If anyone could answer some questions for me I would truly appreciate it. If anyone can offer any information please email me at lxox_amber_xoxl@hotmail.com Learning about how this affects families and their children is very important to me, thank you so much for your consideration.
Amber
Steves Point, WI United States - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 at 12:54:13 (EDT)Hi Ian, long time right? I read your story, and was moved, touched and inspired. Good stuff. Your readers may be interested to note my view of you as "the guy who wouldn't do awful things to rats" when we did endocrine studies together at Trent University. You will no doubt be pleased to know that the regs have changed there and elsewhere. Please keep your readers informed of your journey. I recall you as a bright young man. Kind regards Rick Fisher
Rick Fisher
New Zealand - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 at 20:43:18 (EDT)I would like to say thank you so much for all the information that you have put into your website. This has been very informative. My father was an abusive alcoholic who, we believe, suffered from Schizophrenia. Sadly we are not sure because he refused to go get help from anyone. He sadly committed suicide over 9 years ago. I was only eight years old at the time of his death but i remember everything as though it happened yesterday. I only wish that there was something that i could've done for him...maybe he would still be in my life. My advice is that if you or someone you know may be suffering from this horrible "disease" then please find help!
mary
corydon, IN USA - Monday, October 18, 2004 at 14:08:00 (EDT)I found hope in reading the information that you provided. I am a mother caring for her son with chronic paranoid schizophrenia. Many of the problems you described have happened to my son. His isolation and cognitive functions have changed so dramatically. Thank you for sharing your experiences and providing information a lay person can understand.
Carol Van Trump
Independence, Mo United States - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 09:49:23 (EDT)Your site is extremely impressive. I am a lecturer in psychology in the UK and I am currently spending a rainy Sunday writing a lecture on schizophrenia. I have used many points you make - thanks and stay well gail
gail kinman
UK - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 09:47:14 (EDT)Thanks for all the great information, Ive been schizophrenic for 4 years now and just recently had a relapse, your site gives me a lot of hope.
Kevin
burlington, on Canada - Sunday, October 17, 2004 at 01:04:31 (EDT)I happened to stummble upon this website while I was doing research for my psychology paper. I read your story and it helped my out alot with my paper about Schizophrenia. If anyone has any other type of information that they think would help me with my paper and presentation I would greatly appreciate it and you can e-mail me at jesiree@mail.com *Thanks*
Jesiree
Canon City, CO USA - Friday, October 15, 2004 at 17:40:29 (EDT)I'm a 49 year old college student studying human services and doing an article on your website for my abnormal psychology course. It's a very informative website and very well done.I also have a passion for music and am a covering alcoholic. maybe i could give you some music recommendations. I wish you all the best in your recovery and ask God to give you his blessings.wish i knew your email addy, i'd write you
Jeff Rex
Lima, OH USA - Friday, October 15, 2004 at 15:31:19 (EDT)I truly appreciate your story. It has alot of similarities to my brother's story. (suffering for 18 yrs) Bravo to you for your accomplishments! I only wish my brother could/would do as well as you. Thank you.
Sister of a Schizophrenic
Canada - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 20:18:33 (EDT)I found your site very interesting.
Stephanie Grabe
Rosebery, Tas Australia - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 18:57:40 (EDT)I supervise probation and parole officers who work with mental health clients under supervision. Your information is great. Your own story very insightful. Thanks
Steve MacMaster
Albuquerque, NM USA - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 17:32:19 (EDT)interesting topic
eden
edmonton, ab Canada - Thursday, October 14, 2004 at 13:11:39 (EDT)have been on this medication but dont really understand how it works
dee
n.z. - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 at 23:37:57 (EDT)great site keep going and good luck.
Sean Becher
sheboygan, WI USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 at 09:37:31 (EDT)Hello!. Firstly, i speak in spanish so my english could be bad. I´m from Argentina (south America) and i am living in Buenos Aires. I want to contact "Alanna Abrey", a person who wrote in this Guestbook. My last name is ABREY too. If you want to contact me, i leave my mail.... roabrey@yahoo.com.ar THANKS AT ALL !! Chau!!
Rodrigo Abrey
Buenos Aires, Argentina - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 at 10:47:20 (EDT)I wish you all the best and please visit my link list Thak you very much.. http://www.goodlife-2000-kapsel.cool.cd
Nicole
Berlin , Berlin Germany - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 at 09:09:18 (EDT)I have been suffering with schizophrenia for eleven years now. I was diagnosed with schiz when I was 8 years old. I have attempted suicide many times and unforunately never succeeded. I have been seeing a psychotherapist for two years but our relationship has been getting in the way. Who am I? Where am I? What am I? HELP!
Mo Chahbar
London, ON Canada - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 18:27:09 (EDT)my boyfriend has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and iv learnt a lot more about the illness, thanks very much for all your help and advice it is much appreciated.
charlie
huddersfield, england - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 14:43:26 (EDT)I just wanted to say great site! It was very enlighting. I am a high school junior, and currently taking a Psychology class. I also plan to Minor in Psychology. Reading about your life really touched me, and as a student it put me in a totally different mind set. Thank you. I really did think it was something that can be overcome and had to do with a weak will, thank you.
Acey
Dallas, TX USA - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 14:40:18 (EDT)i to have skitzaphrenia my site is ianhard.2ya.com
steven
barry, wales (uk) - Monday, October 11, 2004 at 09:57:40 (EDT)Hi Ian, loved your site, i had a psychotic episode and suffered from many, many paranoid deusions (some very similar to your delusions!!!). I have now made a full recovery after being hospitalized and prescribed an anti-psychotic for 2 years. Thank you for sharing your story, i hope you enjoy the rest of your life. :-)
Jenny
U.K - Friday, October 08, 2004 at 12:40:23 (EDT)Hey Ian my name is Heather. I do not have schizophrenia but i have a friend whose mother does and shes upset about that.
Heather
Merritt, B.C Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 21:10:58 (EDT)ianhard.2ya.com
steven
barry, f wales (uk) - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 20:46:03 (EDT)I think your website was very important...my older brother who was also my best freind ,and the person i looked up too most of my life was dignose with scitsofrenia, i was living with him for about 4 years and went through hell with it...hes getting help now in an instituion..i havent gone too see him....myself im a goodlookin kid.. ..i haeva good group of freinds but lately i been smoing alot of pot and drinking alot..i also dont talk as much as i use too..it seems im kinda shy around everyone..sometimes i just wanna sleep and be left alone..i feel depress also... if u can can u contact me conforti_36@hotmail.com
Matt
Niagara falls, ont Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 20:03:21 (EDT)Enjoyed your site very much, I am a volunteer in the Mental Health field and enjoy every minute of my work. Kudos to you for a great website and for sharing your story
Cindy
Campbellford, On Canada - Tuesday, October 05, 2004 at 11:37:23 (EDT)I'm a student in college and had to do research on Schizophrenia. You had some good last minute information. Keep up the good work and God Bless!!!!
Patrice Bennett
Americus, Ga United States - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 16:41:21 (EDT)that was very good of you to tell your story. i was born to a mother with Scizopherina (however it's spelled) and so i'm with a different family because she couldn't take of me or my younger sister. since i'm only sixteen years old (going on seventeen in January), there's still the chance i could get it. i sure hope not. but if i do, God will take of me. i'm not ashamed of being born to someone with this diease because i was blessed with a better family. so, a shout out to ya, mate.
Jana Lybarger
Toledo, OH United States - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 09:43:07 (EDT)Bravo! Thank you for sharing your experiences. People like you make the world a better place.
Baylen Wagner
Canada - Monday, October 04, 2004 at 09:13:58 (EDT)Hi all, I would like to inform you of a website I have created to tell my own story of how I defeated my battle with a debilitating Mental Illness. It is light on information at this point in time, and over time I will slowly implement more Art, Poetry and Scientific formulas I have created to explain my Illness and how I came to defeat it. I would appreciate any feedback you may have. Warmest Regards, Kristin E-mail: kristin@vomdh.com Web: www.VOMDH.com "The epitome of fearlessness is not what you're prepared to say about others; but what you're willing to say about yourself!" Kristin - 2004
Kristin
- Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 08:34:31 (EDT)MUGU MUGU MAGA MAGA OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
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LOME, TOGO LOME - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 05:25:10 (EDT)Hi Ian my name is Andrew, I went through psychosis last year and I am doing pritty good now. I have read though your site and I really enjoyed it, there was alot of good iformation. I am thinking of making a site on psychosis and I'd really appreciate if you would E-mail me at Andrew_Blount@hotmail.com I would also like to get in tuch with you I am going to be on the T.v on B.c's knowlege network in November. I look forward to hearing from you.........Andrew
Andrew Blount
New Westminster, B.C. Canada - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 at 03:09:29 (EDT)Im still trying to understand more about the illness of schizophernic. I'm in a situation where this person was dignoised with this, yet his action has really gone far beyond any patient that I've read about. what to talk about this, The truth I'm a little scared.
kathy scott
jasper, tx u.s. - Monday, September 27, 2004 at 13:27:05 (EDT)Keep up the good work, Ian. This is one of the best sites.
CuKettle
Russia - Monday, September 27, 2004 at 07:06:10 (EDT)May you find the peace you so well deserve!!!!
Lynda
Macon, Ga U.s. - Sunday, September 26, 2004 at 15:22:48 (EDT)Dear Chovil, There must be more people like you, in the world. Your site surely helps thousands of ill persons and families. I pray for you . Keep going. My warmest regards Sergio
M.Sergio
São Paulo, SP Brasil - Sunday, September 26, 2004 at 00:19:39 (EDT)Thank you for sharing your expirence with the world! As a future worker in the health department of my country, this is very usefull information. Anette Karijord, nursing student, Norway
Anette
Spikkestad, Norway - Saturday, September 25, 2004 at 17:44:59 (EDT)I can relate to most of the things you write about
Craig shore04@earthlink.net
USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 at 23:57:02 (EDT)I like your site, thank You!
Hustler
Friday, September 24, 2004 at 16:33:57 (EDT)I really liked your site it is very informative. I'm glad you've recovered after all that hardship in your life. I am also in recovery, although at the moment I'm experiencing a relapse due to trying to change to Abilify, it seems to be causing psychosis rather than treating it.
karina davenport
Manchester, UK Great Britain - Friday, September 24, 2004 at 06:49:37 (EDT)Thank you for this website, I really appreciate all the care you have put into it. My adolescent stepson was diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder 10 months ago. He is now at a residential treatment center and dooing well. We are preparing for his likely return home in the next few months, and want to make sure we are able to help him in every way we can to have the life he deserves. We are looking for information everywhere we can, and your site is very helpful. Especially helpful to me was the information you shared about the "prodrome" period. Thanks again and best of luck to you.
Thea
Anchorage, AK USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 18:52:00 (EDT)Just thought I should also give you my email address in case you want to write to me. nancyisbell@hotmail.com
Nancy
San marcos, CA USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 15:10:38 (EDT)I just went thru a whirlwind romance with a man who I learned was schizophrenic. I, myself, have overcome Bi-polar disorder over 6 years ago eating foods that come from a Chinese Company. I wonder if this food would work with schizophrenia. I've heard of other with bi-polar disorder getting well from it but not anyone with schizophrenia. Since both are brain chemistry disorders, wouldn't it be great if it worked for schizophrenia as well. I ended the relationship with the schizophrenic because he is not being treated and hasn't accepted himself having this condition. Thanks for educating me! Nancy
Nancy
San Marcos, CA USA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 15:09:25 (EDT)I was surfing along and came across your website. I really enjoyed it. Thanks! This site is very informative. I hope to see more info for. Wishing you all the best!
kredit
de, - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 at 14:08:16 (EDT)Dear Mr chovil, I'm not sure how often you check your guest book for new entries, but if you check it in the next week I would really love to get in contact with you. I am currently doing a major piece of assessment for my grade 10 English report and have decided to look at schizophrenia for my study. Please contact me on 88.felicity.chandler@kih.tas.edu.au your sincerly Felicity Chandler
Felicity Chandler
Hobart, Tas Australia - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 at 20:59:21 (EDT)i have been there i relate to all the stuff, it is amazing how you have healed and i hope your life gets better and better dont look back in regret you are helping people with describing the illness and delusions so accurately it has helped me thank you. im sorry you had too live with such pain and fear. i know what a nightmare it is. youre wonderful :)
emma
england - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 21:33:10 (EDT)I enjoy reading your story. My uncle is a schitzophrenic and I can't really talk with him about it becaues he's really sensitive about it. I wanted to do a science project/educational type of presentation on schitzophrenia, but I didn't have alot of information to go on, and your website has helped a lot. Thanks you!
Brandon
Hillsboro, OR USA - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 16:30:29 (EDT)Not to make anyone feel bad, but my brother has SZ (he was 40) and took his life last week. He is taking 2mg maintenance dosage for the past 15 years. Unfortunately, last month, his second relapse came with a vengence. I wish I had a better understanding of his condition...maybe I could have help..maybe not. I can relate to your stuggles and I have a better insight what my brother was going through. I plan to be more of advocate of this mental illness though NAMI. Please, if you have a love one with SZ, please, please watch the early symptoms to avoid a second relaspe. It is so easy to ignore the symptoms so we could go on with our daily normal lives.
Mark
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Canada - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 10:33:03 (EDT)i land here oooooooooooooooooooooook
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lome, imo togo - Monday, September 20, 2004 at 05:06:33 (EDT)thank you for sharing your story. i had a rather complex relationship with an untreated schitzophrenic many years ago, and recently i had to refuse this person re-entry into my personal life. i am feeling a bit sad and despondent, and somewhat angry at myself for the way i said goodbye. i had to speak with her as though she were sane, in order to say what i really needed to. i used to live inside of her delusions with her. i was angry a her for trying to contact me. i have some borderline symptoms, and i nearly fell with her into the underworld. my goodbye was not kind, and i had to call her out on some of her symptomatic actions. she claims to be better because she is on medication, but she is still drinking and taking drugs, and was calling me and saying she was a messenger, and that she had to tell me somehing she forgot to tell me years ago. i lived inside of my own insanity with her... i thought she was in love with me and would never tell me, so i lived tortured and unrequited for years, as her mentor, drinking buddy, and best friend. the whole experience makes me question my identity and my grasp on reality. i always miss her, and she became a sort of muse for my artwork, but even when i slam the door in her face. there is a piece of me that doesnt let her go. i am disheartened. it was great to read your story and recognize some of her in it, and to watch the part of me that want to believe in your delusions, the way i belived in hers. maybe it is an escapist tendancy, im not sure. i know i can be a bit delusional, and am often afraid of going crazy. i can only hope that i will keep healing and growing as i have the past few years. i have been sober in alcoholics anoymous for three and a half years now. tahnk you again, and stay safe. love and light, mlklm
malcolm
brooklyn, ny usa - Saturday, September 18, 2004 at 17:40:11 (EDT)really,its a good effort to let others know about what actually schizophrenia is. all the best n may god bless u.
ribhu
delhi, new delhi india - Saturday, September 18, 2004 at 02:54:48 (EDT)Am looking at this website for help with a group project on Schizophrenia, its good to find out what its like to have schizophrenia from your personal experiences. Great website really accessible.
sakib ahmed
Dundee, Scotland - Friday, September 17, 2004 at 09:30:34 (EDT)we get to do a report on Schizophrenia
Brrody
Kent, Wa U.S.A. - Thursday, September 16, 2004 at 13:38:00 (EDT)I work as an advocate for the mentally ill, helping them to access disability benefits and medical coverage through the U.S. government. I spend so much of my time explaining to clients explaining just what this diagnosis of schizophrenia is and how this varied set of symptoms can be attributable to a single condition. The saddest part of my job is helping clients deal with the shame and isolation that accompany this devastating illness. Now I have a website to which I can direct folks and show them that they are not alone. Thank you for having the courage to tell your story and the commitment to set up this site.
Jennifer
St. Louis, MO US - Thursday, September 16, 2004 at 00:37:15 (EDT)Great site, thank you for sharing it.
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 19:50:14 (EDT)your page is inspirational ;)
- Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 19:38:33 (EDT)WOW, YOU VE DONE A WONDERFUL JOB ON EXPLAINING WHAT SCHIZOPRENIA IS I HAVE A GOOD FRIEND, SUE , WHO HAS STOPPED COMMUNICATING WITH EVERYONE LOST 50 OR 60 POUNDS WAS ONCE IN A PSYCHIATRIC INSTITUTE IN THE MIDWEST , WHEN EVER I CALL SHE DOES NOT LET ME ASK HER QUESTIONS SHE ASKS A LOT ABOUT WHATS GOING ON WITH ME LIKE SHE HAS A LIST OF THINGS SHE NEEDS TO ASK I RECENTLY VISITED HER SHE HAS MANY BRUISES ON HER CHEST AND ARMS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR IF I SHOULD DO ANYTHING
LISA
TEMPE, AZ US - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 15:51:28 (EDT)u deleted my entry...i was being serious wen i sed that i loved ur site look if u wanna b frendz IAN, theres some rules u need to follow. NO DELETING MY POSTS...look ok they're not pranks okz i g2g...love ya always....
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the O.C bitch....i mean nah ur not a bitch...well....... nah nah ur not.., loser town - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 at 00:40:55 (EDT)I found your site searching for chovil on google. I am looking for more information regarding this resource. Thanks for the info. Doo Doo happens and it happens to someone.
Reed Skreps
Canada - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 21:41:22 (EDT)Thankyou for sharing your experiences.
mike camp
pompano , fl usa - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 15:29:04 (EDT)Your website is fascinating. Thank you for sharing your experiences. I am desperately worried for my 15 year old son (he will be 16 in November, 2004). I have been worried for about 18 months. He has changed so much over this period. From a highly intelligent, sociable, active and friendly person, to a virtual recluse, not going out, not wanting friends, not wanting to do anything, other than play on the computer. Tragic. I have tried so hard to get him help from the GP, child psychiatrist, etc. The waiting lists and 'policies' seem to put a block on actual help. I fear that the only help he'll get is if they cart him off in handcuffs. I'll just keep trying, but I feel so angry, hurt, afraid. It seems that unless he WANTS help, - which he says he doesn't - then none is available until the 'handcuffs' crisis. Anyway, to get back to your experiences. As I was reading it, I actually thought that you made a lot of sense. Ideas that may be 'off the wall', but what is crazier? Millions of people willing going off to kill or be killed? Or a theory that they have somehow been affected by a virus, or something? I think you have a point. About the mind control - I don't know much about that, but I am open minded enough to realise that more goes on than we are aware. Have you read any David Icke books? Just asking, because you both seem to have similar ideas about the world, our history, etc. Anyway, thank you again. I would be so grateful if you could email me. My email address is: whatsername2@hotmail.com.
Frankie Inglis
Dagenham, Essex England - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 13:12:38 (EDT)I visited your website because I'm doing a psychology project on Schizophrenia. Your story is very interesting. If you can give me more information please email me at ck171012@gdn.edu Thank you very much.
Christy
Newnan, GA United States - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 at 10:15:58 (EDT)my mother-in-law is having trouble with her memory and she misplaces keys,her purse to name just a few She still wants to drive her car but her vision is 20/80 in one eye and 20/200 in the other eye and she gets lost so she doesn't go more than a few miles from her home because she has gotten lost and drove 2 hours before stopping to ask if she could stay in the parking lot until morning when the person said no she called my husband which went down and picked her up and she still did not no she was so far away from her home. we asked her how she got down there and she said they made her get on the highway and they wouldn't let her get off. we weren't sure what she was talking about. we are very concerned because we took the car away and explaned it to her and everyday she asks when we are going to bring it back and every day she asks again.
deborah
raymore, mo usa - Monday, September 13, 2004 at 17:18:44 (EDT)I really respect you and like that people have the guts 2 not be ashamed of things they can't control. keep it up
Chyla
Metropolis, ill Untied States - Saturday, September 11, 2004 at 14:05:56 (EDT)Thanks for helping me to understand
Manda
A.C.T, Australia - Saturday, September 11, 2004 at 01:50:30 (EDT)From the colored occupancy chart and previous unsuccessful meds,I could estimate that Olanzapine works with my son because of the D1 occupancy that is virtually absent in the two other meds.Thanks for the data comparing the meds.
William Kalms
Acton, MA US - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 13:44:08 (EDT)A warm site. Thankyou please.
Ian McChicken
Seend Cleeve, Seend - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 08:30:02 (EDT)Lovely site - very helpfull.
Jana Gruna knikkihund@web.de
germany - Friday, September 10, 2004 at 06:33:39 (EDT)Very interesting and heartfelt. I stumbled upon this site in search for general schizophrenia information, I was intrigued by the content and leave this site more educated and open minded. Thank you.
Elisa Suarez
Canada - Thursday, September 09, 2004 at 12:05:30 (EDT)My daughter is on Zyprexa at the moment and I would like to know about GABA as an alternative treatment.
C
Qld Australia - Wednesday, September 08, 2004 at 21:01:31 (EDT)One of my close friends has paranoid schizophrenia. It used to scare me to be around him simply because I had no knowledge of the illness. Now that I know his symptoms and how it makes him feel, I am more comfortable with it. It hurts me when people refer to him as a "schizo" and call him crazy just because he is mentally ill. It is not his choice to be mentally ill, it's in genetics. People should not be bias toward the mentally ill.
Paula
Hot Springs, AR USA - Wednesday, September 08, 2004 at 14:28:20 (EDT)I've been looking for some insight of what this is like, my youngest sister recently has turned up after missing for 19 months. I got to see her and relized how irrational, agressive, and disorganized she is. She told me some wild, bizarre, weird stuff that she really believes. Such as the government/FBI has been following/under servailence her and how they want her brain for clinical research. I believe that she has paranoid schizophrenia, but she refuses to get help. How can I get her help? She ran from me with her shopping cart and all. The police wouldn't help me get her to a mental center (that I had arranged for an evaluation) so now she has lost that chance. HELP, what can I do? Now I first would have to locate her and do What? I really appreciate your web-sight it's the Best I've come across. I didn't understand this illness/decease, but now I think I can be of more help to my sister. She has a 15 year old daughter that asked me to help her find her mother (daughter is in good relative's home, she didn't want to live with me and my daughter, she perferred to stay in her neigborhood and school friends). What am I suppose to tell her daughter, that's she homeless and has paranoid schizophrenia. Help what do I do to get my sister on meds. She said, she refuses electric stocks and meds and isn't in need of help. HELP any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you again for you web-sight.
GM
Venice, Ca USA - Monday, September 06, 2004 at 23:05:00 (EDT)I believe some of your delusions have truth in them. I wish one of us could figure out the answer. There are a lot of us who are on the verge of understanding, just as you were/are. It never really goes away does it? How can we find the answer when we cant even begin to put the question into words.
Gary
, USA - Monday, September 06, 2004 at 22:51:36 (EDT)hi...great site....ive been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia....and i found your site to be quite useful...ive been on risperdal for six years now but dont find it to be doing what it should...i have weeks of pychoses...voices day and night...hallucinations...and on an average i hear some voices mostly each day not steady each day but..like i said for two weeks each month i do...my doctor doesnt do much prescribes my medication for five months sent me to a pychatrist once in six years which was 11 months ago and he said he was going to do a follow up and like i said its been 11 months...and the pyscatrist said options for my doctor was to up the risperdal by 2 mg a day or change it to zyprexa and 1mg of risperdal daily...and he hasnt done that either....so im quite fed up with the mental health services....i dont know what to do....i guess im just going to have to demand action....anyways great site
Michael
Amherst, NS Canada - Sunday, September 05, 2004 at 16:28:32 (EDT)i want you to know i found your web site very informative and would like to use it as a reference in my research paper for my pschology class please email me if possible i would feel better if i had your permisssion,you are truly an exceptional human being to overcome such adversity
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Austin, Tx USA - Saturday, September 04, 2004 at 23:57:17 (EDT)I am a case manager for the Department of Social Services Agnecy in Northern California. One afternoon I overheard a co-worker talking with her client who was diagnosed with scizophrenia. My intentions was not to ease drop, but could not help hearing the client decribing her symptoms and her daily struggle with the two voices she constanly heard. My heart became heavy with compassion listening to her. I couldn't even begin to imagine the daily frustration and helplessness she must have been experiencing. I had some knowledge of schizophrenia, as I had taken psychology courses in college which exposed me to the disorder. Soon after the client left, I logged onto Google.com and began to research the disorder, and I came across this wonderful story. I spent the next hour at work reading this article and becoming so interested that I couldn't stop until I completed it. I was so moved by this story that I had to sign the guestbook; not to share my personal expierence with schizophrenia or family members because I don't have any, but to thank you for being so honest, and opening up your world to us so we could have a better understanding of your stuggles and your victories. I hope and pray that your life and the life of many others struggling with this disorder can one day be freed by better medication and even a cure. My hats off to all that are fighting the battle of schizphrenia.
Agnes Febles
San Jose, Ca california - Thursday, September 02, 2004 at 19:11:56 (EDT)I have been hearing voices since my early twenties, and I have had my share of delusional thinking, and have battled alcoholism too. I happy happy for you Ian on your recovery and am glad your meds work. I am not that lucky. None of my meds work. You can write me at: cynthia@vincennes.net I am also glad you found Rosemary. I wish you two many years of happiness! Your friend, Larry.
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Vincennes, IN USA - Wednesday, September 01, 2004 at 08:31:28 (EDT)Dear Mr Chovil, I'm writing in reference to your informative web site. Reading your storys' felt like if I already know you. Your inspiring and encourageing wisdom of words that you speak with your pain and experences of life has help me to understand of this disorder. In fact I'm a student at Las Vegas College (in Las Vegas,NV) studying to be a Paralegal. In our psychology class we have a research paper on disorders. I choose to write about schizophreina;I have never met a person with a disorder or even knew about it.Your writing was very infomative. I think your an awesome and strong person. . your are a survior and I just wish the are more people like you to learn of disorder and survive from any psychotic disorders. Reading into your awesome stories I found my self intersted and actually understand what is schizophriena. I personally never had that but I can only imagine. I'm 21 years old ,I'm a people person and very genrious with others. I take your consideration in helping others with disorders that don't have any family. I have a aunt of mine that is currently adopted this oldlery men that has alziemer (I'm not aure if mis-spelled.)She vist him at the retire home celebrates holidays and his birthdays. The family he had screw him over and ended placing him in the retire home and never contacted him again. I people like my aunt and others out there as well are appeciated for such commiment to commit to volunteer for people that have disorders and are need of help. I wanted to end this here and hope to hear from you and how you are doing. It was such an honor to have come across your web site that was helpful and very informative. I hope you may have time to write back. In the mean time take care. God Bless. MarisolSobalvarro@yahho.com
Marisol Sobalvarro
Las Vegas, NV USA - Wednesday, September 01, 2004 at 04:36:54 (EDT)Thanks so much for all the information you share in your web page. It is extremely valuable and supportive to read about people who have gone or are going through the same hard experiences my brother is. He has suffered from schizophrenia for over 10 years. Now, after a long period of passivity living with my parents trying different meds he all of a sudden refused to continue with the medication and left from Spain to Austria. He did this without much apparent planning and without knowing anyone in the city he was going to. This was five weeks ago and we haven’t heard from him ever since. How common is this among people with schizophrenia? What are your experiences? On one hand we feel we should take this to the police, but it seems to be so that if found, he would be taken by the police (I don’t know in which terms, maybe violently?) to get in touch with us. If he is indeed in trouble maybe this is ok, but if he is more or less doing fine, then this could be quite a detrimental and traumatic experience for him. Since he decided to go away, maybe we should just respect his decission and let him be for a while? maybe even hard experiences are better than not having experiences at all, as it was being at home...? We really don’t know what to do and would greatly appreciate any comments from people with similar experiences. Thank you very much. You can e-mail me to azim397@yahoo.es
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- Tuesday, August 31, 2004 at 17:11:24 (EDT)MY 31 YEAR OLD SON WAS RECENTLY DIAGNOSED.ID LIKE SOME MORE INFORMATION ON WHAT I CAN EXPECT NOW THAT HE HAS FINALLY BEGUN MEDICATION AND REALIZES HE HAS BEEN ILL FOR SOME TIME. MY FAMILY AND I EXPERIENCED SOME OF HIS BIZARRE BEHAVIOURS BUT HE HAS LITTLE OR NO MEMORY OF THOSE TIMES.
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DELAWARE, ONT Canada - Monday, August 30, 2004 at 23:08:00 (EDT)Your site was very helpful to me. Thank you.
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- Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 21:37:34 (EDT)hi ian chovils. i went threw a really bad time with schizo back in 1980. i was finally diagnosed by a family dr. who put me on melliril. i took that for about 20 some years. (they took me off of that because they said it can make you have a heart attack)then i got a new dr. a few years ago who put me on depakote,resperdal,and seraquel and cogetin. nice cocktail,right,but it works real good. i know how horrible it was for you and me and other people who went threw similar terrible times,but i've not looked back so much as i've looked forward. each day is a gift. it could come back anyday and i know this inside of me. i spend my time helping other people,going to day treatment twice a week, takeing my medicine faithfully...and just being thankful i have another good day.(i also have had time to develope ideas i have for my artwork.) my mom was also a schizo but back in the 40's and 50's they only had thorazine and shock treatments. she didn't like her medicine so she kept going back into the mental hospital,and i missed her terribly. when the dr. told me what i had,and that if i didn't take my medicine as prescribed i'd be going in and out of the hospital/and have the shock treatments...(like my mom)that scared me so much i did whatever it took to get "well" again. i raised two really neat boys,by myself,and worked fulltime to support us. i never married, i could never handel a relationship...kinda like the problems you had. well,i didn't mean to write so much. i've never found a more interesting web site on the subject of schizophernia.thankyou.shirley (august 29th,2004)
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- Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 19:53:47 (EDT)Hello, my name is Michele and a friend forwarded your website to me. I want to thank you for the information contained in your website. I appreciate your time and efforts. My father took his life August 9, 2004. We never knew that he was ill. He never admitted to anyone that he needed help. He didn't talk to us about things that bothered him, because he didn't want us to worry about him. I live out of state, and would call him often. The morning before he took his life I spoke to him...He had plans for the week. Sounded like he had goals as well...I live with Bipolar Disorder, and would have loved to shared with him....I miss him so much. It hurts to know that he was in pain, and didn't let any of us know. He was very intelligent. He lived for Christ, giving all Glory to God. He was okay with taking his life. One day I will see him in heaven....Thank you for the information. Michele
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Carr, CO USA - Sunday, August 29, 2004 at 18:00:29 (EDT)I am doing an assignment on schizophrenia and have seen the illness in a whole new light since seeing your site. I used to think that schizophrenics were crazy maniacs who should be locked up, but now I see them as normal, beautiful people who probably have a lot to teach us. Thank you.
Alanna Abrey
Melbourne, Victoria Australia - Saturday, August 28, 2004 at 00:07:19 (EDT)hi i am very delighted to come in to contact wth you .I hope i will never regret .
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bamenda, northwest province cameroon - Friday, August 27, 2004 at 05:56:35 (EDT)hey im a schizo too i really liked your site! johnnyskitzz@aol.com
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bennington, ne usa - Thursday, August 26, 2004 at 21:18:44 (EDT)Good site!
Ben
Canada - Thursday, August 26, 2004 at 05:32:23 (EDT)Met a guy [ 27 years old ] who displayed some worrying behaviour. Overly spiritual [ if there is such a thing ? ] , very detached and ungrounded. Esoterical , gets very little sleep, anarchic beliefs , says he spent 4 years smoking weed day in day out . He told me that he feared for his mental health at times. Used to be a very heavy drinker in his youth. Told me that he wants to explore all of his mind. I told him that this would be a journey with no end. He said he wanted to take this journey.Speaks alot about David Ike and lizards and says madness equals genius. I can't tell you how painful it was to watch him and listen to his words especially as I care about him. I think he is unwell but not diagnosed. Thank you for sharing your experience with me and others Mark. May you continue safely and soundly through life's journeys. smile x
River
London , England - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 at 18:10:26 (EDT)Very good site! I lost a brother to schizophrenia in '91 - had we known then what we know now, we might have been able to do something for him. :( Jacob
Jacob
Toronto, Ont Canada - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 at 00:54:10 (EDT)thanks for a great site Ian. I'm just wondering if any of your delusions were based on fact. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2002 and am in remission but I cannot escape a number of ideas as they are based on interesting and inescapable facts. people will call these facts a total coincidence, but even with my sense of reality as normal as before my psychosis I still believe in them. I would realy like to hear your opinion on it. send a response to darcygeoffrey@yahoo.com
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dublin, ireland - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 at 00:38:17 (EDT)I know the risperdal consta .Yet i don't know if it is a better medication than risperdal.
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xi'an, shannxi china - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 22:55:38 (EDT)Thank you for this website. It is one of , if not the most valuable I have come across in researching this illness. My younger brother, currently 20 is in Homewood right now in Guelph, Ontario. He is due to be discharged this coming Wednesday into our care here at home in the Kitchener area. We, as a family are very naive regarding his illnesses and what reactions, positive or negative, we may encounter. Your insight and experiences are an invaluable tool and resource for us and I thank you for sharing it with us.
Peter Galbraith
Canada - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 21:43:12 (EDT)Thank you for your information about psychiatric practices that you combine with your own experiences. Makes the information more valuable.
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utrecht, Netherlands - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 05:21:16 (EDT)Thank you so much for sharing your story & for the information that you are providing for those of us who are having our lives impacted upon by Schizophrenia. It is a terrible and alienating disease. My daughter (now 30 years old) suffers from Hebephrenic Schizophrenia. As her condition has deteriorated over some 13 years it has been heartbreaking to see the changes in her. She has been very violent towards me (my left arm is currently bruised badly from my elbow to shoulder!), and my life is being lived with my love for her existing in conflict with the very real terror that I often feel when in her company. I still pray for a miracle - to see her well and happy is something that I would give everything for.
Angela Moore
Ocean Shores, Australia - Monday, August 23, 2004 at 00:32:45 (EDT)Many good resources, thanks from http://www.shesinrecovery.com
Marilyn
USA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 at 18:36:38 (EDT)Your website really gave me a better view on what I have. Thank you.
Cherie A
Truro, NS Canada - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 at 20:41:50 (EDT)Thank you for all the information you have so generously provided. I look forward to studying your writing more thoroughly when more time. My 22 year old son has been ill for several years now, but recognized just since June 2003. Has been in group home locally but hates it. Doesn't like meds and says they don't stop any symptoms. Wants to stop meds altogether. Wants to come live with me. Very delusional. Many voices. Very bright person. Thanks again for your writing and sharing your life. Kathy
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sdkjfk, sdfjk Canada - Sunday, August 15, 2004 at 04:59:11 (EDT)I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2001. So I have schizophrenia too, since than I read all litrature about it and I found your web page. My case little different, I think I am so lucky, since I only experience hearing voices which medication might control, and if I remit I am symptom free. I do not know, I will see. I am on zyprexa right now. Sam from Cambridge
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marcory, abj ivory caost - Saturday, August 14, 2004 at 12:49:54 (EDT)A great site with a lot of the kind of information people need.i am not diagnosed as having any particular illness but i do see things that are not there.my local doctor told me to 'go home and forget about them'.dont know if they are exactly delusions but theyre pretty close.thanks for the site.
R.Flavin
London, England - Friday, August 13, 2004 at 11:33:05 (EDT)wow! what a site keep it up I'm 24 and was just diagnosed with schizophrenia I didnt understand what was going on so I donr some research and found your site thanks it help me to undertstand a little better
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Kansas USA - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 17:52:30 (EDT)You write so well and so many moving stories. Persist and enjoy life!
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London, UK - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 at 09:21:31 (EDT)Great site!
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Russia - Monday, August 09, 2004 at 11:13:14 (EDT)Hello! I hope all is well. Anyways I remember coming across your site a few years ago when i was doing a presentation on Schizophrenia. I am very interest still of your story and i wish you the best in life. Its amazing how you overcame this illness and continued your sucess in life. I wish you a wonderful life and continued happiness.
Renee Deslaunais
North Bay, On Canada - Sunday, August 08, 2004 at 10:51:42 (EDT)Thank you for your story, and all the useful information you have provided. My friend of 17 years has just commited suicide a few days ago, and your story helped me understand what he must have been going through in his secretive world that I am just beginning to discover. I only wish there was more awareness in the prodome phase of what friends/ family should look for during this time. Hind sight is 20/20...I can see it all now, even though he was never formerly diagnosed (at least that I know of). I just wish I would have known before his death. I am searching for ways that I can contribute towards increasing awareness of the early symptoms, as well as the illness on a whole. Early detection is key, but there is no information available to every day people on what to look for. I now see all the negative symptoms he so exhibited, in addition to many now prevalent positive symptoms, as well as a family history (that I have just come to find out).... the pieces all fall together now in this puzzle...I just could not connect them before. I had no idea what I was looking at. In the struggle to try and help, many things were misperceived and his behavior so frustrating and confusing. It all now makes sense. You are an amazing person with a lot of insight, and although it is not easy to share, you did. You are helping the awareness. Just wanted you to know how much your story helps me pick up the pieces and head towards gaining closure. This is the best site I have found thus far.
Mianda
NJ USA - Saturday, August 07, 2004 at 11:45:31 (EDT)Thanks for this website Ian. God has obviously made you a very intelligent man. May I suggest you read Psalm 139 and the whole of the New Testament and see how God speaks to you through His Word.
Jacqui Smith
LEATHERHEAD, England - Saturday, August 07, 2004 at 03:27:34 (EDT)What an amazing story, and you are an amazing person. I'm going to share this with my boyfriend who's 25, and in the 3rd year of schizophrenia. He will appreciate this. Thank you for sharing this!
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Calgary, Alberta Canada - Friday, August 06, 2004 at 04:36:29 (EDT)I LIKE YOUR SITE
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johannesbourg, geuteng south africa - Friday, August 06, 2004 at 02:38:53 (EDT)Hi, tanks a lot for this great website. I have a small personal website on Schizophrenai in french. I fell in love with a nice person who suffer from Schizophrenia. We has a baby almost 3 years ago... Take care of yourself
Corinne De Leenheer
Courcelles, Belgium - Thursday, August 05, 2004 at 16:19:57 (EDT)I am seaching for some help. Your story brought me to tears. Could this be what is wrong with my brother? How to I get into his head to help him? HOw do I get him to go to a doctor? daria.gile.b@bayer.com
Daria
Portsmouth, NH USA - Thursday, August 05, 2004 at 15:53:09 (EDT)I have found the info on your website very informative and helpful. I find this illness so lonely and confusing. You have given me some helpful onformation. Thank you.
Suzanna Safrany
Harrogate, Yorks United Kingdom - Thursday, August 05, 2004 at 11:21:58 (EDT)I found your website very helpfull as I am experiencing milder forms of your symptoms. I realize that I must go to a docter before It's too late and I miss out on all the opportunities in life. Thank you soo much.
Brooke Blakely
West Monroe, La United States - Wednesday, August 04, 2004 at 11:53:41 (EDT)love it!! huetheca@email.uc.edu
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atlanta, ga usa - Wednesday, August 04, 2004 at 10:29:49 (EDT)I enjoyed your site...very nice keep up the great work
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Canada - Sunday, August 01, 2004 at 15:40:27 (EDT)I can totally relate to some of your experiences & have been in treatment for some undisclosed illness as well. I do not want to enumerate here, but if you would e-mail me, if you are truely interested, I would be happy to share my experience with you. It is very much like yours. Although I have never heard any voices. I did however,have the experience of going through a very phsycodelic journey leading to what I believe to be the most important revelation of life. The Bible tells us of the coming times, & yet they are already here. Some of us know more than others for whatever reason, We should be the ones to further the "Truth" to as many as possible & let everyone know what the future holds for mankind. It is going to be really special in the fact that we will be able to live forever in Paradise on Earth. It's up to us with the advanced knowledge of such, to make it known to as many people as we possibly can. Whatever anyone says of us, the truth will be made known to all, "earthwide". Everyone will know that the God of the Bible, "Jehovah", is the Creator of All things. He alone is our Grand Creator & will help us on our journey to wellness. The Bible clearly says at Isaiah 33:24, " ...and no resident will say "I am sick", the people that are dwelling in the land, will be those who have been pardoned for their error." What a comforting thought for all of us... Who knows, maybe we will have a good influence on others that feel like us. As we look forward to a happy future where "War & disease" are a thing of the past.
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lagos, Canada - Friday, July 30, 2004 at 18:08:46 (EDT)I was surfing the Net for articles about treatment-resistant Schizophrenia, and was interested to look around your webpage. My son Martin (age 17) has been hearing "voices" since age 14, and we are hoping and praying that he will soon have some response to Clozapine, which he has been taking for over a year now. He had little response to several other antipsychotics. I note that you felt relatively well on a combination of Effexor with Seroquel and (was it?)Olanzapine. I am interested that you live in Ontario. I have been all the way over there and back twice in the last few years, to visit (all too briefly) a wonderful Christian fellowship near the airport in Toronto - so near that it is actually called the Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship! They have a great website at www.tacf.org, where you can look at the Live TV menu and see what sort of meetings they have. Everything is very informal, and the people I met there (including the staff) are really loving and non-judgemental. Best of all, there is something very special there which is hard to define - let's call it the healing presence of Christ...it would be great if you could check it out. I think they also do outreaches in downtown Toronto. By the way, I don't have schizophrenia, but have suffered from times of depression and anxiety, besides marital problems and stress from caring for Martin. It was great to have a few days off to visit Toronto, after I got a tax rebate out of the blue...so I was only there last week, and my previous visit was in 1999. Both times I can truly say I received significant healing. I spent all my time at the church & hotel, but another time would like to visit the city itself. I did see Niagara in 1999 - awesome! I know of a guy called Bob Edwards who grew up in Canada (Vancouver, I think), and whose experiences were similar to yours in his teens. He had a miraculous healing through Jesus' power, and now has a ministry particularly to those with mental illness or stress problems. I will look up his website, if you would like. Feel free to e-mail me at jill.hingyi@hje.org.uk Blessings, Jill
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London , UK - Friday, July 30, 2004 at 11:08:43 (EDT)Great side! Will come back again. Please also visit us at http://www.get-wellness.de
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Germany - Thursday, July 29, 2004 at 17:34:19 (EDT)I'm in year 11 at school doing an assignment on mental coniditions (dissociative identity disorder, schizophrenia etc.) I found your site to be very useful and would like to say that i think you were very brave to share your life with the world, good on you!
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wagga, nsw australia - Thursday, July 29, 2004 at 08:20:52 (EDT)Hi my brother is continuing to smoke cannabis despite all our efforts?
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Sydney, NSW Australia - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 at 00:03:11 (EDT)Dear Sir, I need to commend you for your extensive work on the disease that so much of the world has but so many people misunderstand. My history is similar to yours, except that I had sudden onset at age seventeen. Today I live a productive life, have friends in recovery and a family that respects me and even has a bit of pride that a member of their family has survived something so traumatic. They don't really know though. I still experience mild symptoms and have taken my medication religiously since 1979. I switched to Risperdal after it became available in early 1994 here in the US. To boast briefly - I was married for twenty years, now a widower, am sole inventor on a patent for timing devices for the textile industry, haven't had a drink in more than ten years, was a guest in the White House Oval Office to be congratulated in 1984 for being 'crazy yet holding it in the road' (Actually, I wanted to discuss with President Regan the fact that his administration had recently cut out the program I went to college with, but I figured you only get in that office once, so I decided to keep my mouth shut.), am quite the guitarist as a hobby, and own a motorcycle that I enjoy riding. It's people like us that can make it possible for the next generation of schizophrenics to suffer less. Bob Howard
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- Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 15:20:28 (EDT)Hello! Talk about dumb and dumber! There is NO SUCH THING AS SCHIZOPHRENIA! If there were such a condition, a cure long ago would have been found! The word schizophrenia is a word which describes to the government that you are worthy of EXTERMINATION!! WAKE UP PEOPLE!! PS ZYPREXA GIVES YOU DIABETES AND MAKES YOU FAT!! One of the indicators of schizophrenia is that you have the following genetic determinations: 1. Intelligence 2. Good looks 3. Wary of con artists 4. Inability to concentrate because society has no motivators anymore to reward excellence, and so consequently, you will see more and more dysfunctional geniuses, and the dumbies are answering the phone already, in case you haven't noticed, as they just keep plodding along, and writing some garbage can term to people who are moral, ethical and in the western civilization who have not learned how to lie, cheat and steal and abuse women with permission of society. 5. There is no love in the world, but don't blame your mother, she was unloved by the government too, because the name of the game is to make mega bucks on human misery. There is no one in government as of July 27, 2004 who cares one iota about making the world a better place. The only artist "who made it" was Picasso, because his daughter perpetuated his memory when he learned he could turn out painting garbage to make a fool out of people! Let me know when someone wakes up to reality!
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Canada - Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 10:54:19 (EDT)I really enjoyed looking around your site. I was wondering if I could receive email updates? jack_clark@bigmailbox.org -Jack
Jack
Indianapolis, In USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 at 22:02:19 (EDT)Ihammerman@yahoo.com. You are a great person, nice site
Isaac Hammerman
Seattle, WA, Canada - Saturday, July 24, 2004 at 16:40:42 (EDT)I just found out that my best friend has been diagnoised with this disease. It truly affects me deeply to see her suffer this way. In addition, she has added stress from an unhealthy family. My heart and prayers go out to all who suffer from this unfortunate situation.May God's power rule over your lives and heal each and every one.
Unknown
Unknown, MA US - Friday, July 23, 2004 at 19:06:05 (EDT)I know all about the illness. I suffered from a psychosis, which has all the characteristics of schizophrenia, due to too much Ecstacy consumption. I also suffered from alcohol induced Manic Depression. Luckily I, not I, my family, was able to stop me before it developed into a longer term illness. It was the absolute worst 6 months of my life. I see people with schizophrenia always trying to expose the secrets to societies disfunctions, from the bouncing radio between the Earth and the Ionosphere penetrating into their minds to the TV constantly mocking you. Constantly talking to myself about world domination to having thoughts of being the Messiah. The telepathy was what really messed with my mind, I kind of played with that for a while just to mess with other people's minds. The psychiatrist has me on Zyprexa and that really washed out all the voices but one, my conscience. Now I'm stuck with repairing my shattered life. I went through Hell. Now I'm back and I stuck with wondering what the hell just happened.
James
Leamington, ON Canada - Thursday, July 22, 2004 at 21:44:18 (EDT)There aren't words enough to describe the great respect I have for you. I came upon your site while doing research for an essay. Your story helped my understanding and emotions behind the illness a great deal. God Bless.
Raquel C Cervantes
Salt Lake City, UT United States - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 at 13:14:51 (EDT)I appreciate a person like you. You have put yourself out there in an attempt to help others. You should write a book. You seem a very warm and intelligent man and I wish you all the best in life.
Sondra
Dallas, TX USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 18:50:04 (EDT)my email is here, Please if you have any advice for me.. Exotic8princess8@yahoo.com Exotic8princess8@msn.com Exotic8princess8@aol.com
Tarik Hamzah
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:51:35 (EDT)Ima get u sucka (tarik Hamzah) and the whole disney crew too oh yeah You ran out of pudding
Micky Mouse
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:40:47 (EDT)hello, I am a 23 year old who suffers from schizophrenia. I have had it for as long as I remember. I find myself talking to people that I know dont exist and Micky Mouse always follows me around no matter how fast I run. He is to quick for me. And at night time Donald Duck squeeks at me. Goffy always is in my kitchin eating my food. I know it doesn't exist but it is what I see. When I eat the last pudding package they use a counter attack on me and rape me taking turns. Thankfully this site has helped me understand more about my condition Thank you, Tarik Hamzah
Tarik Hamzah
Amman, Jordan Jordan - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:37:34 (EDT)arth419@yahoo.com
arturo hemmingway
blaow, Canada - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 10:12:11 (EDT)You've been through alot, in your photo you seem wise. I am schizoaffective, and am wondering whether I should go stay at a psychiatric institution for awhile, as my delusions and hallucinations are very strong, and am having trouble with all sorts of different kinds of spirits. Peace.
Malcolm
Hamilton, NZ - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 23:57:09 (EDT)THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR COMMENTS ABOUT SCHIZOPHRENIA. I JUST RECENTLY DISCOVERED THAT THE MAN I AM ABOUT TO MARRY HAS THIS TERRIBLE DISEASE. I PLAN TO STAND BY HIS SIDE, AND YOUR STORY IS VERY ENCOURAGING. THANK YOU!!
Tareesh Anne
Alton, IL USA - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 18:27:25 (EDT)I am very interested in your info about the prodrome period in schizophrenia. My son has schizophrenia and the prodrome period was exactly the way you described it. I wonder why the psychologists and psychiatrists that he saw never wondered about schizophrenia. They knew that I have a cousin with schizophrenia, so why didn't they put 2 and 2 together. interesting, huh? I wonder if we could have avoided his first psychotic episode. My son had extensive tests done by a psychiatrist hired by his high school because he was caught with pot and alcohol possession on school property. all he ever did was smoke pot! Where can i find more info on the prodrome period? thanks ps this is a great web site! sueshulo@yahoo.com
Sue Marasciulo
mount sinai, ny usa - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 08:57:44 (EDT)Your website is truly inspirational. I have gained so much insight into the disease. I employ an individual with schiophrenia, and have learned how to assist and encourage her during relapse. Thanks for helping me to understand.
J. Smith
Grande Prairie, AB Canada - Monday, July 19, 2004 at 08:17:10 (EDT)Hi Ian! I was wondering if you have finished reading my website http://voicewaves.tripod.com and if you have checked out my three books: (1) Little Voices: A True Paranoid Schizophrenic Adventure, (2) Illuminati: Healing and Developing the Mind, and (3) Sync My World: A SEA & Nautical Map to Relative Peace. If you have some time, please leave some comments in my mail, so that I can make the 4th and 5th book more people-friendly. Thanks a lot pal! Rodney St.Michael rodneystmichael@yahoo.com
Rodney St.Michael
Manila, Philippines - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 13:15:47 (EDT)Kammajjaa
Onu Pervo
Sydney, Australia - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 06:53:47 (EDT)This is a fabulous learning sight on this disease.. I am quite familar with this disease as I have a family member living with it.. Wow!! your story sounds alot like hers... especially the parts on wars,and aliens ect.. and religion getting mixed up into it as well.. I just found this site tonight and will add it to my favourites.. This is great work!!
Susan
Toronto, Ontario Canada - Sunday, July 18, 2004 at 00:13:47 (EDT)I have recently qualified as a psychiatric nurse in the south of england. Your website made absorbing reading coming as it does from a service user perspective. It is gratifying to hear that you cope as well as you do with your challenge. I come into contact with ucute mental illness every day (nursing in a psychiatric intensive care unit), but can only imagine the enormity of that challenge. All respect to you.
Lew Cope
England - Friday, July 16, 2004 at 17:43:33 (EDT)Thank you so much for your wonderful work and capacity to stay alive. My lover killed himself 7 months ago. Living me 8 months pregnant with his little unborn then boy. Very possible that my lover had disability of your spectrum. But he did not talk about his mental problems at all and kept a big very well guarded secret about his personal plans like "killing himself on the morrow". Let me give you my E-Mail:vita6748@hotmail.com Best wishes. Keep on living to the fullest. You are still a brilliant man with that "in the top 3%" mind.
Victoria
New York, NY USA - Friday, July 16, 2004 at 03:32:16 (EDT)Ian, thank you for sharing your personal story with our class. I would like to take this opportunity to tell you that your story is of great value to myself and others as not many individuals have demonstrate the courage to share their personal experience with others. It has certainly changed my perspective of how to view mental illness. I greatly respect and appreciate your bravery.
Jen
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 22:40:42 (EDT)good, informative page :)
bacca lao
Norway - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 20:25:53 (EDT)I have not read your experience to comment willdo so after reading thanks
anita
mumbai, india - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 15:58:51 (EDT)Hi Ian! Just wanted to jump on board with my fellow classmates and thank you for your time today and coming out to speak to us about mental illness and your own personal experience! It was kinda cool reading up here on your hobby (sound systems!) although i'm not an audiophile myself (yet...) i do enjoy a quality sound system! ANYWAY, I wish you all the best as you continue to educate others about mental illnesses!
Jeffery Wong
Miss., ON Canada - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 01:22:02 (EDT)Ian, along with Natalie I would like to thank you for coming to speak with us today at the University of Waterloo and for sharing your personal story. Your courage has helped us in our quest for further learning and for that we thank you.
Angela
Waterloo, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 21:35:44 (EDT)Ian, you came today to speak to my Family Violence class at the Univesity of Waterloo, and I found your story about schizophrenia extremely intriguing. I loved hearing you speak about your experiences, and you opened up my eyes to a world that I could never imagine. Thank you.
Natalie
Kitchener, ON Canada - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 19:05:53 (EDT)Happy now that I can spell schixophrenia.All you add is LOvE.....That is all.....that is all.....that is all....
stillnotgodever
bloomfield, iowa united states of america - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 16:29:14 (EDT)hi, great site - keep up the good work keeping people informed about this terrible affliction.
Yura
Kansas City, Mo USA - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 07:52:27 (EDT)Hi Ian, Your website is getting better and better. It is so well laid out and it was so easy to access information that I was interested in. I enjoyed both of the new additions - compliance and the story of your musical 'addiction'. This is a fantastic site - how awesome that is is on the web and the world has a chance to view it. Regards, susan scadding
susan scadding
guelph, ont Canada - Sunday, July 11, 2004 at 15:01:01 (EDT)As the father of a young woman who has schizophrenia, I found your website fascinating. I plan to return, to read more of it. My schizophrenia site, which I am still developing, is at http://nzsf.com
Alan Ireland
Palmerston North, North Island New Zealand - Sunday, July 11, 2004 at 06:10:04 (EDT)I feel compelled to write you after having spent the past few weeks poring over your website. I recently found out that the person I have been seeing for the past few months has schizophrenia. I am trying to learn as much as I can about his illness and the resources and information you have provided have proven to be very valuable in getting me on the right track. Thank you for sharing your experiences and insight.
jenny
coastal, OR USA - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 13:34:10 (EDT)I've entitled my website "Understanding Mental Illness from Inside It" and it may be of interest to you. The address is... http://mentalhealth.fateback.com I'm sure that "straight from the horse's mouth" insight would be of some worth... I hope so anyway. Thank you.
Glen James Thomas
Katoomba, NSW Australia - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 12:09:18 (EDT)Very interseted in your website, by the very nature of it's enormity and it ramified works. Both hand in hand.. They represent a man and many works.
Darius Leshko
Tigard, OR USA - Saturday, July 10, 2004 at 02:38:46 (EDT)Hello , i came to this site for help and information. My boyfriend has been diagnosed with bi-polar with phycotic rage.... And he has too many different moods.. I love him with all my heart he is 19 years old i am 27 he has no immidate family near by. And I want to help him he refuses medication. And I don't know how to bring things up in our relationship with out setting him off...... please if anybody has any advice will you please use yahoo messenger and messege me at big78silverados_woman at yahoo.. please i need help to keep my relationship going
Jill Hendricks
Eldorado , KS USA - Tuesday, July 06, 2004 at 15:18:43 (EDT)Thanks! I enjoed the time on your site! Sincerly yours, with .......
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de, - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 19:27:00 (EDT)Hi Ian: I came across your story in a book I am reading at this time, Beyond Crazy: Journeys Through Mental Illness. I heard about this book via the Family to Family Newsletter for First Episode Psychosis Families. I came across the Newsletter at an Early Psychosis Intervention Workshop I attended here in St. John's on June 17th. I called my local library a week or so ago, they ordered the book in, and here I am. I want you to know that your story has brought me a greater level of insight into schizophrenia (as have the other stories printed in Beyond Crazy). I feel indebted to you and to the others who so bravely shared their stories (and to those who made this book happen). I am not sure why I am writing you. I have no agenda other than to say thanks. So, here it goes "thanks". A little about me. I am a social worker. I've been working in the field of child welfare for the past 11 years. I attended the early psychosis workshop last month because I am interested in mental health related issues, personally and professionally. Personally, because I have suffered from depression for a long time. I was diagnosed twice. The first time was in 1997, just after my wife had had a miscarriage. I dismissed this diagnosis and tossed the prescription for anti-depressants in the garbage. I took some time off work and started doing some things for me (I began reading more, I visited a counsellor, I restarted my journaling efforts, I started walking more, etc, etc). I bounced back, pretty much. I continued to have low moods, quite regularly, as I've had for as long as I can remember. However, I hit a really low point in November of last year. My wife had just given birth to our third child, two months premature. Six weeks later my wife suffered a heart attack, supposedly related to the pregnancy (a blood clot 100 % blocked off an artery). Having three young kids, a sick wife and some heavy resposnibilites on me at work took it's toll. I sought help and was diagnosed yet again with depression but this time I filled the presciption and started taking the meds (Celexa). I found that they worked. I stopped thinking about ways of killing myself and my mood changed for the better. I've been off meds for a couple months now. I returned to work in January. My wife is doing better but still suffers from chest pains, almost daily. We try to live in the moment more these days and we are more grateful just to be alive than I think we used to be. Sorry for the long shpiel about my own life. I guess I wanted to give you some background on the kind of people your story has affected. Mental health issues are so important. It is encouraging to read a story like yours. So many stories end so sadly. I know several people who have died in relation to their mental ill-health. Keep up the good work Ian. You are an inspiration. Sincerely, Rob Wadman-Scanlan
Rob Wadman-Scanlan
St. John's, NL. Canada - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 11:54:39 (EDT)Although your site is tremendous, I cannot find information on how to get a schizophrenic to take medication. This person thinks that she is fine, everyone else is an idiot, and that medication is bad. Although her unacceptable behavior is escalating, it is not "dangerous" to herself or others per se -- except that she storms into their work places and lies about them. Examples are saying that someone is an unfit father and should not have custody of his children -- the supervisor of a friend, someone she doesn't even know -- and coming to her sister's workplace to demand to know her hours and also telling the other staff that they are idiots and cannot stop her. She controls her family's time, demanding that they write letters to attorneys, handwriting experts, etc. She leaves as many as 50 messages per day on the attorney's answering machine. All of her behavior is understandable in light of her multifaceted illness, yet I think that all of it could be controlled through medication. I will greatly appreciate any suggestions that you make for getting this woman to take medication.
Maggie Maguire
Carolina Shores, NC USA - Monday, July 05, 2004 at 07:17:12 (EDT)Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
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de, - Sunday, July 04, 2004 at 22:41:14 (EDT)THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. I REALY ENJOYED READDING ABOUT YOU. GOOD LUCK TASHA
TASHA
HOPATCONG, NJ USA - Sunday, July 04, 2004 at 21:41:01 (EDT)Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
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de, - Saturday, July 03, 2004 at 20:28:38 (EDT)I really appreciated reading about your experiences coping with such a highly stressful disease. I am starting on an ACT Team in New York City and your words have given me more insight into what my consumers/clients may be going through. You have come very far down such a difficult path. Thanks for this website and best of luck to you.
Katherine
New York, NY USA - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 10:46:31 (EDT)Thanks! I enjoed the time on your site! Sincerly yours, with .......
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de, - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 06:39:33 (EDT)pls keep off ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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lome, togo togo - Friday, July 02, 2004 at 05:37:34 (EDT)This site has helped me a lot on a research project I am currently doing for school. Thank you for sharing your experience with the rest of us.
Dena
ME United States - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 20:18:11 (EDT)thx for good site Chovil, very informative
Emil Lazarian
AM, AM AM - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 19:32:59 (EDT)great site ian, your obvious wealth of experience in this area will let you help others greatly when u fully recover
ken
lurgan, ireland - Monday, June 28, 2004 at 00:16:55 (EDT)One look at your photo and I knew I was looking at another Trent Alum. We all look so "granola" regardless of our personal intrabiodiversity and psychophysiology. My sister has "something" that the "family" won't divulge to me (I immigrated to Canada from the USA--they renounced me). She telephones me when in crisis and I believe it is Schizophrenia. She is always so terribly frightened I will disown her, that is her big concern, "promise you won't stop talking to me if I am crazy. Mom and everybody else won't take my calls anymore. Mickey (my brother) got an unlisted telephone number and changed his e-mail....bleah, bleah, bleah....It's crushing; not just for her but for me. There is a reason I immigrated to Canada. A political boundry doesn't appear strong enough to keep the nastiness out...<
> I hope that even if you cannot be physically present for your family member with schizophrenia, or any mental illness,you can support them through their hospitalizations by assuring them that their illness doesn't mean they are any more or less lovable than before diagnosis, relapse, hospitalization, etc. It does give explain some behaviours and thoughts that once things have stabilized (doctors, meds, hospital routine, home--someone is watering the plants, etc.) can be discussed in a family meeting with their Social Worker/Primary Care Psychiatric Nurse/Staff Psychologist. My little sister knows that she can call me any time of the day and I will take her call. I will also get help to her, if she needs it, from where I am here in Canada. George W. will have to break his piggy bank to treat "another indigent American with no health insurance." (one of my bio parents was Canadian, my sister's wasn't.)
MJ Prairie Waif
Brandon, MB Canada - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 23:21:42 (EDT)I am finishing a dotorate in clinical psychology and have never heard anyone talk about their experience with Schizophrenia quite so deeply. It is one thing for me to be educated about mental illness and how to help, but your presentation of your journey allowed me to have a truer sense of the experience of Schizophrenia than any classroom or textbook could ever teach me. A most sincere thank you.
Danny
San Diego, CA USA - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 20:13:57 (EDT)Congratulations on a great site! Keep up the good work.
Francis
England - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 15:36:41 (EDT)I found your website in search for basic information about schizophrenia for my site and therefore use a little of your text about it on my english section of my site at http://psletschert.nl Waanzinnig! About an exeptional experience, come and see under medical if its proper and not an issue in wich case \I will remove it but actually I would like your permission to make a copyright like © 2001-2004 Waanzinnig! by Ian Chovil
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zoetermeer, zh netherlands - Sunday, June 27, 2004 at 05:33:33 (EDT)You have showed great courage in revealing your own experiences of this disease and should be applauded for your innovation with this website. I was diagnosed in 1991 with paranoid schizophrenia, though since then several other "definitions" have been put on the sicknotes ie. schizoaffective disorder/bipolar etc etc. I am still persevering with a neuroleptic and an antidepressant and have the resulting weight gain but being fat and happy and leading a relatively productive life now is a small price to pay for coming off the meds and suffering a relapse.... with all that entails. Meantime, I am endeavouring to put something back into the system that helped me and now work in an administrative role in the NHS in England. However, I would say that we all still have a long, long way to go to fight the stigma that is attached to this disease even though we are now in the 21st century. The media is particularly guilty I believe in their "sensationalising" any story where a schizophrenic is involved. I hope your site will continue to educate and inform those who have had little or no experience of this devastating illness and I am glad, very glad, that you have come out of it the other side. Good luck with your future, thank you for sharing your experience and I will recommend your site to others. Carolyn - London - UK
carolyn
london, united kingdom - Saturday, June 26, 2004 at 20:55:32 (EDT)PLEASE IF ANY ONE CAN HELP....READ ME Hello, My finace was diagnosed with paranoid schitzophrenia - possible bipolar. We have tried Risperdol and Geodon, currently trying Abilify & depakote. If anyone has any suggestions or can just talk to me please write. It has been a long time stressing months. Im sure just the begging. this website was great!...I'm just trying to find a medication that will maybe help him...so far no luck...he's getting very discouraged and is coming againest us....its becoming harder every day...if anyone has any advice or has any suggestions on treatment plans for this disorder please write...some12write2@yahoo.com
Gen
Cape Girardeau, Mo USA - Thursday, June 24, 2004 at 19:58:56 (EDT)Your website was a Godsend! My brother-in-law has recently had his first psychotic episode and is now recieving help and taking Zyprexa. We're hoping we'll get our friend back. Your story is inspiring. Thank you for all your hard work, Dana from LA
Dana A.
Los Angeles, CA US - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 23:58:13 (EDT)great web site
Amanda
kansas city, Mo. usa - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 20:10:19 (EDT)really nice to inform people, great work!!
d.blanks
sweden - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 15:22:35 (EDT)i am studying performing arts. i have wrote a short play about a girl with schizophernia. this website has helped me sooooooooooooooooooooooo much. thank you
harriette wight
London, UK - Tuesday, June 22, 2004 at 10:13:17 (EDT)I find your website to be very informative. I am currently writing an informative speech and I chose to write it on schizophrenia. My older sister has been experiencing this mental illness for almost 20 years now. She is currently going though a relapse at this time. I believe more research needs to be done about this disease. Because many people may be suffering from this disease and do not know it. I wish you the best of luck with everything that you are trying to accomplish and I now know to include you in my prays every night when I pray for my sister to get better that you remain healthy. God Bless you. O'Linda Bates lynn27bates@yahoo.com
O'Linda Bates
Dallas, Tx US - Monday, June 21, 2004 at 23:52:05 (EDT)I am preparing a paper for a course in drugs and human behaivour and on your webpage i've found some useful clarification on the disease schizophrenia. Thank you.
Karen
Toronto, ON Canada - Saturday, June 19, 2004 at 11:15:29 (EDT)Hello, it is very cool site. I am from Russia and I am love him(your web site of course). Best regards, Sergei. My home page - http://www.filosof-chel. narod.ru
Sergei
Cheliabinsk, rus Russia - Friday, June 18, 2004 at 09:14:29 (EDT)My brother came over last Saturday evening, and I knew there was something wrong when I asked if he came over to pick up the asparagus my husband forgot to bring when he went up north(my brother lives 60+ miles north of us and we also have a cabin near where he lives). Then I could see tears in his eyes, and he just cried and then started talking about his wife. He started telling me of things about her that I never would have guessed she would have done, and it has been going on for years! I listened a lot, and let him do most of the talking. I also have a friend that has paranoid schizophrenia, so a lot of what he was telling me was so familiar of what my friend had gone through. They have been to counseling in the past, but neither one of them seem to have a lot of confidence in seeking more counseling. When "Dave" told me that he had considered suicide the week before, I was devastated that my brother wanted to do this! I told him his two children, sisters, along with so many others, needed him here with us and he needed us right now. How can a person do something with this 45-year-old woman that refuses to believe she has any kind of problem(s)? Or, for that matter, seek any counseling. Any suggestions, Ian? Betty
Betty
Oconto, WI USA - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 12:15:14 (EDT)MANDY FROM ENGLAND, please do contact me if your brother is still not recieving help. It is possible for someone to 'discover' their schizophrenia in their thirties. flowers_364@hotmail.com
Rose
UK - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 11:03:23 (EDT)MANDY FROM ENGLAND, please do contact me if your brother is still not recieving help. It is possible for someone to 'discover' their schizophrenia in their thirties. flowers_364@hotmail.com
Rose
UK - Thursday, June 17, 2004 at 11:03:21 (EDT)Marvelous site. Thank you!
Tan Kock Wah
Kuching, Malaysia - Wednesday, June 16, 2004 at 02:28:37 (EDT)I have read your story. My sister is also ill with schizophrenia. It has been hard on the family. It doesn't help that I am bi-polar with severe manic episodes. I found your story inspiring. I hope that someday my sister will take her meds and come home to her family instead of thinking that we are plotting to take her life all the time.Keep up the good fight. I know you must struggle everyday. I do. Good luck to you and your family.
Callie Hamilton
Piedmont, sd USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 22:07:14 (EDT)I have a ten year old son and his father was never involved. About two months ago, he called and wanted to make things right. We have spent quite a bit of time with him and he and my son have bonded really quickly. My son’s dad was diagnosed with bi-polar and schizophrenia and I honestly felt that God had brought me into his life to somehow help him. Its been heartbreaking to see and hear of some of the things he tells me and as hard as I try, I can’t seem to fully convince him that he isn’t this “bad man”. I have been praying for him and he is seeking the Lord also. His mother bought a book called “The Brain Chemistry Plan” and I honestly feel that this may help a lot of people. It talks about Vitamin Deficiency and it makes a lot of sense to me. I have been studying up on all of this and have read that schizophrenics have a deficiency in Niacin which is a Vitamin B-3. It also talks about high copper levels can cause delusions. If we look at how our society lives we can see why mental illness and also other diseases such as cancer are so normal now. Its so much easier to run through Taco Bell or McDonalds and grab something quick that has so much fat and NO NUTRIENTS or Vitamins. We tear our bodies down by not taking vitamins and eating only what tastes good without considering what it is actually doing. Since what we put or don’t put into our bodies goes to OUR BRAINS, of course, we are going to have depression, fatigue, confusion, delusions, etc. We go to the doctor and we try this medicine or that and we deal with this effect and that one. I fully believe that God has put things on this earth that are natural and curable for diseases. I am adding on two links to this message and am hoping that I can help people with the information that I have found. I would love to do a study on this. Another great things is Flaxseed Oil (Omega-3 oil). It works in so many ways, including thinning your blood so that nutrients from (vitamins, better foods) will get to your brain faster. It also helps lower blood pressure, helps with arthritis and if mixed with cottage cheese (which is sulfar based), it can help cancer patients. Here are the two links that might be somewhat helpful. www.beckwithfamily.com and http://mentalhelp.net/books/books.php?id=959&type=de&PHPSESSID=9bd653827fae96dfd6e6bd6be5a4cf03 I honestly feel that there are answers beyond the psychiatrists and doctors. The natural things just don’t bring in as much money and of course, if it did, it would be shouted from the rooftops. I would love to help and if I can answer any questions that anyone has about the book that I am reading about this disease (schizophrenia) , please feel free to email me….and I hope that this helps someone. We went to the vitamin store and got zinc (which lowers copper levels), niacin, calcium, vitamin B-1, B-2, B-12, etc. and he started on it three days ago. I will be in touch to tell you how it is working. The Number one Key is GOD. He still heals today…and he has given us these things. Unfortunately most of the food is either processed or refined or has a lot of pestisides so that is where vitamins come in. My email address is brandee028@yahoo.com
Brandi
Tyler, TX USA - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 18:10:49 (EDT)i love to see you and tell you the goodnews of god
don sarar
lometogo, Canada - Tuesday, June 15, 2004 at 08:46:19 (EDT)Your web site is really great. I have a term paper this semester on this topic. I am in the Occupational Therapy program at my college. Your web site will help me out so much.
Cassandra Owens
Summerville, SC United States - Monday, June 14, 2004 at 21:51:29 (EDT)You should keep up the great work, i can see from the responses that youve made an impact on a lot of people. :) Good luck.
andie
Melbourne, - Monday, June 14, 2004 at 07:18:05 (EDT)Nice site thank you
Heza
Dubai, UAE - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 19:17:22 (EDT)Thank you very much for share all of your experiences!! I truly believe it will help people and their families....take care!!! Bye
Carolina Rosas
London, ON Canada - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 13:26:05 (EDT)COOL !!!
Farid
Canada - Sunday, June 13, 2004 at 04:48:50 (EDT)FROM: ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI TEL/FAX: 448701278173 EMAIL: adedeji_02@yahoo.com SIR, I AM MR. ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI FROM EKITI, NOW IN LONDON UK AS A MEDICAL DOCTOR HERE IN UK FOR 36 YEARS NOW, AND I CAN NOT LOCATE MY FAMILY IN EKITI NIGERIA, AND I WANT TO INVEST MY MONEY IN MY OWN COUNTRY NIGERIA, ON FILLING STATION BUSINESS, PLEASE ANYONE FROM 45YEARS WHO CAN MANAGE A FILLING STATION BUSINESS IN EKITI OR ANY AREA IN NIGERIA, WITH HONEST CAN CONTAC ME. THANK YOU ADEDEJI JOHNSON ADEBIYI
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LONDON, UK - Saturday, June 12, 2004 at 12:48:40 (EDT)Thank you so much for creating this website. I am 34 years old and will be meeting my father for the second time in my life. My mom left him when I was six months old (she was 20 and dad was 22). All I knew as I was growing up was that he was mentally ill. He tried to commit suicide several times and he believed he was in a famous rock band. I was always scared of him and afraid I would turn out the same way. I initiated contact and met my father a number of times when I was sixteen. But, I lost interest and did not maintain contact with him and his family. Last weekend I tracked him down and spoke with him for the first time in 18 years. He sounds much worse now than he did when I was 16. He rambled about the "bureau" being after him. I have many, many questions. First, I know he is not taking medication. Is it too late to start? Will he ever be able to have a normal conversation with me? I have so many questions. Also, as I now think of having children of my own, I wonder if I will have a schizophrenic child. Any input would be appreciated. Anyway, thank you so much for your website. It is very informative and gives me hope that my father, like you, can get better some day.
Curious
Los Angeles, CA United States - Saturday, June 12, 2004 at 01:46:03 (EDT)Your story and the information on this site helps me to be more sympathetic to my father who is paranoid pschizophrenic. He was never a part of my life and for a long time I was angry and hurt over him not making an effort to be in my life. As far as I know he was clinically diagnosed, never took medication, an alcoholic, and has been in and out of jail. This helps me to look at things from his perspective and consider what he goes through. After doing some reading in this site I feel less angry and hurt. This is a wonderful site. Thanks!
Tifphanie Rivera
Killeen, TX USA - Friday, June 11, 2004 at 01:33:57 (EDT)Ian, Thank you so much for providing Mothers, like me a place to go that offers personal information, strength, encouragement and hope for my son who has been hospitalized for the third time after his attempt to take his life. It has been very difficult to watch him becoming more distant from the world and is an up and down battle, however, he will survive this battle for I will always be at his side and with the help from your site and others I will do all that I can to continue to learn about his illness so I can stay strong enough to help him conquer his fears. God Bless You and Thank You for Your Strength and Courage!
Many Tears
Mt. Airy, MD USA - Wednesday, June 09, 2004 at 10:44:52 (EDT)i love this sit
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owerri, ow Canada - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 10:41:41 (EDT)I just want you to know that I think you did a terrific job on this websight.
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NY, NY USA - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:57:58 (EDT)I am suffering from Paranoid Schizoprenia. Time to time I write articles in Nepali Times. You can visit me at http://www.nepalitimes.com Then I go wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ashutosh Tiwari
Kathmandu , Nepal Nepal - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:35:32 (EDT)Dear Ian, I really like your Website. I run a Nepalese restaurant in Adelaide called Sagarmatha Nepalese Restaurant. Please visit http://www.sagarmatha.com.au I am also suferringfrom "Dependent" and "Narcissistic" Personality Disorder. Time to time I smoke Ganja and go UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Deepak Bahadur Bista
Adelaide, SA Australia - Tuesday, June 08, 2004 at 01:33:09 (EDT)Hi Ian I have just read your story, I was looking for information on Schizophrenia for an essay, and came on to your wedsite "wow" what a story. The information was all encompassing and informative I thank you, and will email you for dates regarding referencing if thats OK
Hilary
Christchurch, south New Zealand - Monday, June 07, 2004 at 05:29:49 (EDT)I just want you to know that I think you did a terrific job on this websight.
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NY, NY USA - Sunday, June 06, 2004 at 01:14:36 (EDT)Meinen Glückwunsch zum Internetauftritt. Eine Webseite, die inhaltlich wirklich interessant und informative ist. Viel zu bieten hat und userfreundlich zu navigieren ist.
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de, - Saturday, June 05, 2004 at 16:25:01 (EDT)fantastic web site ihope one day my son will be able to express freely how he feels living with schizophenia and find inner peace.I think if non sufferers are educated about mental health issues then the less the stigma there will be.thanks for sharing your experiences in your website i know i will be visiting it many times just learning all i can about schizophrenia at the moment so that me and my family can try and understand my son who has recently been diagnosed with this illness and be able to help him recover and be able to return to some kind of quality of life.I realize my son is going to have some tough times ahead of him and if Love could cure schizophrenia My son and many others would already be free of it.anyway back to the reality of it, i cant thank you enough for your website it is and im sure will be in the future a great source of comfort and insight.if there are any parents of sufferers who would like to share thier experiences iwould like to hear from then. It would also be great to hear from young adults with this illness because i am hoping in time that my son will be able to talk to people who can relate to him.my email address is ady_regan@hotmail.com.P.S thanks chovil for giving me the priviledge of joining your guest book.
adie
lancashire england - Saturday, June 05, 2004 at 10:51:18 (EDT)Thanks so much for this web sight it has been of great help to my presentation. Thanks again.
Starsha
On. Canada - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 17:42:32 (EDT)I just found out that my fiance's mother has schizopherenia. I came across this web site and it has been very helpful. Thank you for your contribution and may God Bless you.
Hanifah
College Park, MD US - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 15:28:02 (EDT)reading this is so fascinating.... i've been searching online for stuff about schizophrenia and im glad to read a real story... im so sorry about how life delt your hand of cards... but atleast u made it! late is better than never... take care of yourself....
Beth
Il US - Thursday, June 03, 2004 at 01:57:15 (EDT)nice site.guys am here.
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Canada - Monday, May 31, 2004 at 10:59:08 (EDT)i have to write an report about people, who have to live with schizophrenia and schizophrenia itself; your report about your life is very interesting and it will make my work interesting for my teachers, too. I hope so. Thank you very much
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ABA, ABIA NIAGERIA - Friday, May 28, 2004 at 13:07:02 (EDT)i need help for schizophrenia in india?
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pune, mh india - Wednesday, May 26, 2004 at 11:44:35 (EDT)Thank you for putting up this site. It was been really informative, and i was able to complete my 45 minute presentation because of this site. thanks for the list of the movies too! it helped so much! Thanks to you i can now complete my certifcate in youth work!!!
Lauren
Sydney, Australia - Tuesday, May 25, 2004 at 20:18:58 (EDT)me@newtolinux.org.uk Nice site.
Jimmy Timmins
Canada - Monday, May 24, 2004 at 22:29:11 (EDT)You cannot imagine how informative your website has been...congratulations on the work you have done....will certainly be reading it again and again.....thank you
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holly hill , fl uniteed states - Sunday, May 23, 2004 at 18:00:33 (EDT)Thanks for your site! I am writing a paper on schizophrenia and greatly value and appreciate the time and energy you have put into sharing your knowledge and experience.
Jessie Lyle
Canada - Saturday, May 22, 2004 at 18:30:41 (EDT)This website is fascinating! It helped a lot with my psychology research paper and having a personal story told made quite a nice addition to my paper and presentation. Thanks! Best of luck to you!
Jenn
Canada - Friday, May 21, 2004 at 12:00:48 (EDT)thank you - and all the best for you!!!
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Mieming, Tirol Austria - Friday, May 21, 2004 at 09:45:06 (EDT)Well done!!! Wish you the best of luck.
Abdallah Farraj
Amman, Jordan - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 08:51:56 (EDT)Hi there Chovil. A great site. You are very articulate and obviously too clever for your own good! Please could you contact me at jrf119@hotmail.com I have some treatments that you might be interested in. Jules
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Newcastle , England - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 05:09:04 (EDT)Good information source for parents.
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Tirunelveli, Tamil Nadu India - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 03:00:03 (EDT)wonderful information - thanks for the time you've invested with the details. l.
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livermore, ca usa - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 at 09:33:47 (EDT)Ian, you have a marvellous web site here. Thank you for sharing your story, yourself - your delightful self - with all of us. Blessings to you - and I've no doubt there will be more awards and accolades in your future.
Susan James
Listowel, Ont Canada - Wednesday, May 19, 2004 at 00:43:42 (EDT)My heart goes out to you and to all that suffer from this illness. Unlike many, many others it's great that you have beaten this illness. I understand it's a constant eternal struggle as there is no known cure, but you are a ray of hope for those who struggle. You are proof that schizophrenia doesn't have to ruin lives or worse, end them. Your story is inspiring and makes me appreciate my health; it's never to be taken for granted! Thank you so much! Sincerely, a future acute care nurse practitioner student, Charity
Charity
Chicago, IL USA - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 17:11:19 (EDT)Thank you for the information! My child is going through the initial stages of this disorder and your site has helped me understand what is going on. Good luck and take care. Jan
Jan
pa usa - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 11:33:04 (EDT)Hi! What a very informative and moving site. I have been struggling with my illness for nearly 2 years now. It gives me hope that one day i will get through this!
eric
Canada - Tuesday, May 18, 2004 at 10:23:40 (EDT)I found your site while doing research for my english paper ^_^ it gave me a lot of info~ i do hope you're doing well! *waves* Pray that i get an A? :)
jen
MS United States - Monday, May 17, 2004 at 02:08:47 (EDT)I have a son who is 25 and had a been diagnosed with undifferentiated schizophrenia.He was 22 at the time. he would like to email people who have the same condition but still feel that they are normal, who can help and understand this Illness.And give understanding and support to each other. He wants to speak to people who dont take drugs or drink, as just about every time he did this it has landed him in trouble. Its been a year and a half that he has been seperated with his girlfriend that he had been with since he was 16 and has 2 children. Since taking the medication he saids that he hasn't been as passionate about things (eg) he used to fish a lot. He is just looking for hope and someone to relate who knows what its like Email kimbyr2@hotmail.com.au
Dion
country, SA Australia - Sunday, May 16, 2004 at 07:39:17 (EDT)Well done!
Roy
Mayville, Wi USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 15:25:05 (EDT)I pray for you and also for young Chandan Goswami, please sign his guestbook at http://www.savechandan.org/
Malcom Stebbins
Manchester, PA USA - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 14:25:35 (EDT)thanks for helping me understand schizophrenia.
Trinity
Canada - Thursday, May 13, 2004 at 10:56:52 (EDT)Just writing to say thank you for giving me an insight into the terrible things that people have to experience. I am using the idea of schizophrenia for a GCSE solo dance, and was merely doing research, but am amazed by what I have discovered! Thank U!!! :)
anon
Oxford, England - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 at 16:13:00 (EDT)Great stuff!
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Canada - Wednesday, May 12, 2004 at 09:51:17 (EDT)i am very depressed and scared i am showing mental health issues my family all hve metal issues from a long bakround of drugs i do not do drugs but have had a very hard life i hve been hearn and seein things lately and am havn mood swings all the time im on medication cuz my hormones r very unbalanced but i feel there is more to it then that can anyone help
monique
auckland, new zealand - Tuesday, May 11, 2004 at 09:06:35 (EDT)i love ur shizzaphrenia site! i learned so much from it1 it helped me with my project for psych, and i got a B!!! yeah, so thanks 4 the info!!!
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Eagan, MN USA - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 12:47:25 (EDT)I am a schizlphrenia suffer.I think life is precious even disaster has happened.Illness is not horrible perse if we know how to control it.However losing hope is more horrible .I think finding your interst is important as well.So don't idle your life .My E-mail is :qimin120415@yahoo.com.If you like ,you can contact with me.
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xianyang, shannxi china - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 04:41:09 (EDT)hello....i chanced upon this site while collecting material for my final thesis...very informative..n touching:)) keep up the good work and good luck:) -shalini-
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kuala lumpur, malaysia - Monday, May 10, 2004 at 03:00:39 (EDT)thank you. i find this web very useful. ur work has help a lot!
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brunei, brunei brunei - Sunday, May 09, 2004 at 23:51:00 (EDT)In doing research, I came upon your site. It is so wonderful to find a testimony of a man recovering from schizophrenia. I hope the next years of your life are wonderful. It's time for you to write a book, go for it.
Mandi
Tx United State - Sunday, May 09, 2004 at 19:54:01 (EDT)Hey i read your story and used it for a prject in Psychology Class. Thanks alot i got an A+!!
Becky Moya
Goddard, KS USA - Friday, May 07, 2004 at 12:30:26 (EDT)keeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppp ooooooooooooooooooooffffffffffffffffff
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st.greg, ca amerika - Friday, May 07, 2004 at 12:08:53 (EDT)I don't have Schizophrenia. I'm a manic depressive with a schiophrenic mother. Believe me this website made me realize how much it would help her to talk this out with a psychotherapist. She used to wake me up in the middle of the night and tell me to get rid of the man at the door when there was no man. It happened quite frequently. I just moved out and I hope she doesn't do damage to herself.
Raven Jade
Rogers, AR United States - Thursday, May 06, 2004 at 23:10:45 (EDT)I've read many times your story. Thank you for sharing your experience with people, by doing so, you are offering help. I do believe you have now completely recovered.
Lee Li
Beijing, China - Thursday, May 06, 2004 at 09:33:38 (EDT)i like ice-cream. walks along the beach. sand between my toes. god loves every single one of you, even the ugly ones.only children believe in you, then they're told not to, stuck in a fairy tale, being the silent heroes.
Michelle Vincent, Allirra Harrold and Brylie Ponton
Traralgon, Vic Australia - Tuesday, May 04, 2004 at 00:16:55 (EDT)My son recently suffered a psychotic episode days after his 21st. birthday. It was the most heart wrenching experience I've ever gone through. He had moments through this episode when he looked at me with the eyes I have always known & asked in a terrifying voice, Mom whats happening to me? He has recovered quite quickly & is taking 3 mg. of respiredol for now. Naturally I was hoping there was still some hope that it wasn't schizophrenia, however after reading your story, I see that it cld almost be my son's story re your delusions. His father is also schizophrenic. My son's Dr. is very impressed with his recovery from his psychocis, however my son tends to disagree with the dxes believing that it is actually schizoaffective disorder. We have decided to go for a second opinion. Just a little confused because he is functioning fine, his personal hygene, upkeep of his room, seeing his friends & has even worked several days since his release from hosp. And he talks quite easily about what happened to him. I am very greatful to have found your sight. Good luck to you!
Aileen Pinto
Ont. Canada - Monday, May 03, 2004 at 14:07:23 (EDT)I am studying the nature of Schizophrenia for an AS level theatre studies production myself and some friends are creating, and your story inspired us with many moving ideas, thany you!
Anna Stubley
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NIGERIA, OWERRI NIGERIA - Friday, April 30, 2004 at 05:15:22 (EDT)Thank you so much for sharing all of this with everyone who is lucky enough to visit your sight. Your story has inspired me and many others in so many ways. God Bless You, you are a truly amazing man.
MacKenzie
Houston, TX USA - Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:21:45 (EDT)currently working on paper for schizophrenia for finals week. this was a great site...you are truly amazing...god bless.
brandie
pittsburgh, pa usa - Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 02:29:25 (EDT)Using some graphs for Psych-Nursing presentation. Great site Ian! Very informative and well written. Be back to read more when I have time. Have you written any books yet? Well, GO FOR IT!
Georgia Braley
Lorain, Ohio USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 23:49:48 (EDT)I work at the Schizophrenia Society in Red Deer, AB. We have recently made a website for our chapter and currently have your page as a link. I think your story is very interesting as many people with Schizophrenia stories are. Thank-you for reaching out and telling your story. It is a great website. Our website is www.ssard.com if you would like to pass that on. thanks again! Kendra Bauer SSA
Kendra Bauer
Red Deer, AB Canada - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 17:45:05 (EDT)My brother has been in treatment since February 2004, in and out of the hopital three times already. He is currently at home suffering from anxiety. He is suppose to be in a partial treatment but he cannot make it throught the day he gets extremely anxious. Is this normal, How long does it usually take for somebody to recover from their first pshycosis episode? Please help me! cecymandujano@yahoo.com
Cecy
Los Angeles, CA USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 13:40:44 (EDT)mugu keep oooooooooooooooooooooooofffffffffffffffffff
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aba, noon Canada - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 13:38:15 (EDT)Excellent site. I learned a lot. I appreciate the fact that your site is written in plain english. It is also encouraging to see your own experiences published here. I work at Mental health and will bookmark your site, as I think it will be very helpful to those who wish to educate themselves.
Holly Stowell
Courtenay, BC Canada - Monday, April 26, 2004 at 01:24:01 (EDT)I read your story and I am surprised it is a natural one. It is not suprising. You should not feel strange about it. Some other people may like you went through that illusionary worlds and might get benifit of it. The fact that your story is not unique drove me to a conclusion that I many times escaped beleiving in it. The devil. Many times I resisted the fact that the devil can have an access to any mind. But after going through pure science I discovered that that is possible. Actualy the devil can move in his dimensions every where and still beside you. We are humans are not simple intintities that don't have an origin. We are God creation. And you may take that as a conspiracy in an illness like yours. The point that I want to say is that the reality is what we see not what others tells. Many usefull experiences are catogorized as illnesses in modern psychology. Actualy I don't beleive in psychology as a science at all, completely. Beleive me there is people who think in more weer thoughts than yours and yet considered rational. Back to the devil. I think that every human with your semptoms is a target to the devil projects. Imagine that no one can trvel through time except through somebodies perception. After all the perception is something that nobody have reached its technology. It is simply that something in a universe that cannot be reached except with perception tried to go through you and as we don't see any implications have failed . He will try with many many people untill he reaches a breakthrough. khalnobani@yahoo.com
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IRBID, JORDAN - Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 06:18:57 (EDT)It's inspiring to know that there are people that feel the same as I. It feels as though the wait of the world does rest on our shoulders individually but looking at the reality of it, it must be coincidental. There have been too many times that I let my subconcious get to me and talk me out of partaking in activities that will help me grow as a person. I just turned 24 on Friday April 23 and my mom told me she felt old but I flipped it around making myself feel old and I had cancelled my plans for the weekend. You have to be real with yourself and not bring yourself to a screeching halt. I realize this now and reading your article makes me feel like I'm not the only one who thinks outside my conciousness. To all who feel alone: There are plenty of us out there that feel like you and we must reach within ourselves to become apart of reality. You are the biggest part in helping yourself and those who love and care about you are there to help as well.
Rodrigo K. Huerta
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imo, ade Canada - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 17:32:55 (EDT)BUDDHIST MEDITATION Lord Buddha accorded supremacy to mind in his precepts. According to BUDDHISM real form of mind is void and all mental formations are subservient to this ultimate GOVERNING truth. Obviously mental make up is elemental factor in all Buddhist practices. Ultimate realization of absolute truth is not a subject matter of any practice. Perception of absolute wisdom is incidental to Buddhist MEDITATION PRACTICES.. More than perception of ultimate wisdom or state of BUDDHAHOOD, lord has laid emphasis on wisdom warranted in day-to-day mental makeup for the larger benefit of humanity. This is the reason behind BUDDHIST stronger orientation towards compassion and altruism. Applied BUDDHISM carefully investigates such practices for creation of useful positive values. POSITIVE ENERGY— Very simple objective of permeating knowledge to this world by the LORD BUDDHA And other BODHISATTAVA is to develop positive culture of thinking in this world. When BUDDHA after awakening thought to permeate his perception to this world, he was haunted by this thought. “This would not be comprehensible to this world hence unacceptable.” This simply implies that the level at which, in natural course, this creation EXISTS BY VIRTUE OF CAUSE AND CONDITION, Negative energy is much activated and its perception is more comprehensible to sensual world. In fact this fact is beyond any doubt that whatever creativity is visible or perceivable in this world, it is magic of positive energy exclusively. Still why negative energy is so activated and is so impressive in its outlook, wonders us. The fundamental reason of our devastation lies here. As we are naturally born to die, hence our creativity is also subject to extinction in the same way. Negative energy makes it possible AS existence and extinction cannot LIVE TOGETHER, HENCE religion HAS TO PLAYIN VITAL ROLE FOR THE FUNCTIONAL existence of our creativity. So now we well understand the natural role and need of negative energy. Conceptual VOID structure of mind is representative ultimate state where all positive and negative energy is merging into each other and no charge is residual. But our mind and we do not represent such VOID state, so we are representing ourself in typically charged state. Sometimes positive, another time negative. So typically our representative moment has to pass through such 3000 charged states. Our sincere attempt to mitigate negative perceptions averts reciprocating conditions further generating newer realm of negatively charged complex. BUDDHISM does not believe in negative mode of life due to this reason exclusively. OVERALL life cannot be a moment of DEATH. Though death may be a realm of such moment. So LIFE is never meant for negative ENERGY. It IS always to represent positive energy. This is culture propounded by the BUDDHA. True definition of compassion and altruism should be coined out from this understanding exclusively. BUDDHA should be understood in worldly functioning along these canons. Why Buddha denounces criticism in day-to-day behavior. Because this implies negative thought explosion which would result in nuclear type fission through chain of reactions and ultimately conditioning to devastation. So our human race has never got LIFE through such fission. How can we perceive our satisfaction over other’s destruction? Our existence in this world is relative existence. So other’s destruction simply means our own amputation. This may not be realized immediately but sooner or later we have to face vacuum. Here lays the objective functioning of compassion. It means pity with self. . Deities ARE OUR REPRESENTATIVE THOUGHTS. More strongly we represent positivism; more powerfully creative deity incarnates. So welfare of our race is represented in PEACE, COEXISTENCE AND MUTUAL RESPECT. We nowadays witness typical unrest everywhere. Despite all round economic growth, worldwide depression is perceptible. In the name of USE value creation; our energy is engaged in exploiting craze values. This has given an UGLY TURN TO OUR CONCEPTUAL GROWTH. Although after Second World War, we perceived devastation from NEGATIVE ENERGY of political persons. That even alarmed us to castigate fascism. But this outflow was again represented in the concept of economic growth that misrepresented improperly defined growth as ultimate objective of our development; and concept of growth along objective VALUES was never put to rational standardization. So ultimately again unchecked unwarranted flow of negative values is prime cause of world’s unrest. ENERGY AUTO TRANSMISSION THROUGH DAKINI MEDITATION [Samantha]Samantha: 'tranquility', serenity, is a synonym of samádhi (concentration), cittekaggatá (one-pointed ness of mind) and avikkhepa (undistracted ness). It is one of the mental factors in 'wholesome consciousness. Cf. foll. And bhávaná.[Courtesy biona library US] As your FIANCEE starts looking after you automatically--Identically energy fission automatically takes place in course of DAKINI MEDITATION [core energy] through Samantha practice. In fact its application is nowadays more relevant specifically for fighting against negative energy culminated through religious fundamentalism. ZERO HOUR Dakini meditation results into spurt of energy reinforcing our all activities in desired channel. Since meditation activates energy flow in automation, so need for external efforts becomes redundant. Moreover meditation does not require us to be Monk or a person living in caves. In fact it makes our vision versatile, Our perception multidimensional. Some teachers have misdirected this world by interpreting ZERO BRAIN in course of meditation. Zero brain with Zero desire is representative of death not life. We are meditating for self-life, for universal life. Even the concept of ONLY SELF life is as good as death. Selfishness is the prime induction factor behind DEATH FATWA pronounced by religious fundamentalists in the garb of RELIGION. Through application of DAKINI MEDITATION, we not only learn to command our own energy, but also arrange to restructure universal energy flow. MEDITATION is perceived in three stages. First stage to understand fundamentals, Second stage to develop concentration, Third stage to perceive canalized energy fission. Moreover every thing is to happen in automation and perceiver being MEDIA only. I would like to now elaborate this subject matter especially in view of BUDDHIST MEDITATION SAMANTHA.Lord HAS RECOMMENDED this mode of concentration for controlling energy in desired channel. BUDDHISM believes that rational growth of human values is possible in the society only through the cultivation of positive thoughts. Since at the level of evolution of thoughts negativity is incidental to such process, so SAMANTHA is technology, which ensures permeation of positivism with the mitigation of negativity.In fact this was a common practice of INDIAN YOGIS who were capable of creating even mundane objectives through activated desire media. Although LORD did not find applicability of this process in ultimate path to absolute wisdom. Still at the level of functioning of this world, SAMANTHA plays an important role.BUDDHA applied SAMANTHA frequently when encountered with strong NEGATIVISM viz meeting with DECOITS, CRUEL, DEMON etc.In fact with the advancement of time and typical institutionalization of DHAMMA, real practice of SAMANTHA has become a chapter of BLACK MAGIC while in fact SAMANTHA was a preliminary study of monastery. Cultivation of positive thoughts, control of negative thoughts through inter process equilibrium, creation of strong and powerful DEITY through activated fission of thoughts at ordain center for the purpose of overpowering DEMON in case of need etc was most common in the curriculum.Tibetan BUDDHISM seriously attempted to restore this technology, which was sooner or later patronized again by certain school of studies.I want to clarify this thing to this world that like other teachings of LORD, Practicing SAMANTHA is also very easy and its underlying concepts transparently comprehensible. One has to concentrate in the mid center of the eyes. LET it be a wall or in advanced stage may be a space. Ordinarily practice should be considered analogous to concentration while reading a BOOK. SAMANTHA defines concentration for tranquility, Cultivating strong positive will power overpowering and nullifying effects of negative energyIn course of its practice power augmentation process is commensurate with our mental state. Since all cruel can not be classified in the same category. Bloodsucker mosquito and bloodthirsty LION are common in their DESIRE for blood, yet outburst of their negative energy and its incidence is different.Similarly during initial stage lesser power is cultivated. Once process is initiated, automatically power enhancement takes place. Even in case of need acquired powers are abnormally precipitated by the grace of LORD. According to BUDDHISM entity is prime factor of our evolution. Entity is analogous to void state of MIND, BUT NOT EXACT REPRESENTATIVE of that state, Since void state is not subject to any description.Entity is somewhat analogous to genome in which universal evolution is encoded.First advancement represents consciousness that is the formation state of mental make up. This is the reason that all meditation practices approach consolidation of core energy along various trans meditation planks of our consciousness.State of whirling moment represents state of mental perplexity in which RIGHT THINKING is impossible to practices. Multiple perceptions of the moment in natural course generate illusion. BUDDHISM believes that such state of affairs is self-created. Since slavery to desire debilitates our capacity of right discrimination and resultantly illusion is precipitated. IN modern society the important factor behind increasing incidences of schizophrenia is also most comprehensively interpretable along this line of thinking.SAMANTHA ensures tranquility through concentration and one pointed ness of consciousness that is incidental to the process of concentration.Relevance and application of BUDDHIST philosophy with the political thinking of Rulers, economic thinking of Industrialists and economists, Research and Developmental thinking of scientist can bring in revolutionary change in the plight of this planet which otherwise is going to be more and more complex and deplorable in the view of environmental engineers and social scientists. APPLIED BUDDHISM is a science rather than religion in present context. VIZOYSWAMI Saturday, April 15, 2004.
VIZOYSWAMI
UJJAIN MP, INDIA - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 12:59:24 (EDT)I suffer of anhedonia and really dont know what to do. Since you have experience with this sickness i would like to hear your advise. I been medicated with risperdal, zeldox and leponex also tried cipramil. But it does not help, my symptom started my first hospitalization. I think my sympomes are a side effect on the antipsychotics. Antipsychotis helps to liminate dopamin in the brain. If you do that you would feel numb becauce dopamin makes you feel joy and plessaure. I have tried for a year to be with out drugs but i have the same symptomes with ore without drugs so i wonder what to do. The doctors says my symptomes are a development of my sickness.
sofie
copenhagen, denmark - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 03:57:22 (EDT)hey man, i wont bull shit you by sayin i know how u feal but i can realate. i'm 15 and feal prity much how u say u felt when u were in hiy school, I donno if i have it too or if i'm just a weak person but eather way i can't bring my self t odo anything more then sit in class and use the last shreds of will power i have to keep from blowing up at the subjectiv bull shit thet comes out of my sheaking teachers mouths...well eather way i just wonna say i feal for you...
Scerab
Amherst, NS Canada - Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 20:35:04 (EDT)Well,I would just like to say i have suffered from this disease since i was in high school and i'm lucky to still be here after all the torture of being constantly tormented from people in my home town and run out of my house where i lived for 15 years with my father. I am now 37 years old and all the medicine and doctors have not done one dam bit of good after being diagnosed in 1995 and even after moving to another neighborhood it's starting all over again,people just stare and laugh,keep their kids indoors when you go outside of your house,women won't talk to you or some of the guys want to label you as gay and want to kick your rearend for not acting like a so called normal man,hell i'm just getting worse and unable to move to another house. What are you supposed to say to people hi i got schizophrenia, you want go have a beer honey and talk,it ain't gonna work when you just finally give up on trying to act normal and and close people out for fear of being labeled something your not or being the center of laugh fest. I'm unable to make friends and unable to talk to women or anybody for that matter and i'm just tired of feeling zombied by the medicine which is (SEROQUEL)at about 5 dollars a pill with no insurance. Hell i just stay pissed off all day long now cussing and swearing at the least little crack at me or a person pointing and laughing at me and another thing don't think all the so called family members are going to welcome you with open arms,in my case they just use the disease i have to stay away from me or label you as a weirdo. In closing i'd just like to say this,if people won't allow you to get better and leave you alone to try and straighten your mind out with the medicine and doctors,then medication and doctors will not do a dam thing!!! ALASKA or the NORTH POLE IS SOUNDING BETTER ALL THE TIME. ChevelleCobra@aol.com
D. Clifton
Walton, KY U.S.A. - Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 03:12:37 (EDT)i am a sibling of 5 children all of which our mother suffers from schizophrenia herself. It gets hard at most times as she suffers from it greatly. It has been said that one in five newzealanders are affected by mental illness (eg; schizophrenia, depression and bypolla disease) does that mean that having 5 kids in the family that i have a high chance at getting any of the illness's listed above? i would like to know.
Angharad (a worrying sibling)
WELLINGTON, new zealand - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 23:06:47 (EDT)Very interesting site. I'm glad I found it. Nice info and very educating. :)
Stacy
Stacy
Canada - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 19:25:08 (EDT)CONTACT FOR DIRECTION VIZOYSWAMI@YAHOO.CO.IN
VIZOYSWAMI
UJJAIN, MP INDIA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 11:54:39 (EDT)One can get relief in mental frustration through SAMATHA concentration. SCHIZOPRENIA IS CURE BY THE VICTIM HIMSELF. just cONCENTRATE ON ANY STATUE OR PHOTOGRAPH CONVENIENTLY. gRADUALLY THE STATE OF MENTAL REFLECTION[kasina] SHALL BE OBSERVED. yOU WILL BECOME master OF YOUR OWN DESIRE. tHIS IS HIGHEST ELEVATED MENTAL MAKE UP and NO DEPRESSION IS RESIDUAL.
vizoyswami
UJJAIN, MP india - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 11:45:21 (EDT)great site,very good info 2 help with my college presetation.thanks.
julie
swansea, wales u.kingdom - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 04:58:34 (EDT)Right now I'am doing a project on the disorder of Schizophrenia for my sophmore biology class. If you have any good resources of information or anything that would help me to better understand Schizophrenia please email me at Mrfish60035@comcast.net
josh
chicago, Illinois United States - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 10:13:52 (EDT)Question? My brother is taking Olanzapine and continuing to smoke cannabis....can anyone tell me what the effect of combining the two are, and if it's absolutely useless taking olanzapine under these conditions. Anyone?
Concerned
Canada - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 01:27:14 (EDT)Any one curious about this previous guest book entry can read the page Origins of this site and decide for yourself.
Ian Chovil
Guelph, ON Canada - Monday, April 19, 2004 at 13:45:25 (EDT)nothing but the facts. this site is sponsored by the multi-billion dollar drug pushers. the ones who produce the chemical straight jackets. they are making a lot of money off the mentally ill. they lie, cheat, and steal taxpayers money and the lives of all who have been wrongly convicted of haveing schiz.. do not take your meds. they will take your life away. you will have no life whatsoever. they want you to get a govt. check so the govt. will pay for your meds. this is how they steal from the taxpayers. the facts. these are the facts.
srgt. friday
los angelos, ca usa - Monday, April 19, 2004 at 06:46:55 (EDT)I have found your site very useful in my report for school. I have learned a lot. Your site helped me greatly.
Jamie
Joplin, MO USA - Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 08:58:48 (EDT)Some body knows any web like this in spanish? http://www.arteoscuro.com
AlMaNeGrA
Bilbao, Spain - Friday, April 16, 2004 at 23:01:34 (EDT)Ello, researching schizophrenia, "they" think I may have it, told 10 months ago, I am begining to think I may have had a episode and it scares me to death, read somewhere that you usually dont have another, that sounds ok to me, I am on a antidepressant and antiphysotic (spelling) resperidal...feeling better, this site is informative, easy read some of it really I am young and scared of what happens next in life, good to hear I am not the only one out there though.
Robin Estes
Va Beach, Va usa - Friday, April 16, 2004 at 16:18:41 (EDT)I recently suffered my first psychosis. I have since recovered. I would like to talk to you about your experiences with voices; in particular the ET experience. Do you answer email?
Lori
San Jose, CA United States - Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:53:55 (EDT)mugu please keep ofoooo i m herrrrrrrrrrrrrr
mugu
lome, ase Canada - Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 06:39:03 (EDT)I AM ENGAGED IN RESEARCH OF SAMANTHA- PRACITICAL MEDITATION IN BUDDHISM FOR MUNDANE OBJECTIVES. I HAVE DEVELOPED CONCENTRATION UNDER DIRECTIONAL BUDDHISM TO CREATE AND CONTROL THOUGHT ENERGY FOR TRANSMUTATION TO DESIRED CHANNEL. CO RESEARCHER IN THE FIELD INVITED . vizoyswami ujjain, MP INDIA - Thursday vizoyswami@yahoo.co.in
VIZOYSWAMI
UJJAIN, MP INDIA - Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 05:14:54 (EDT)I AM ENGAGED IN RESEARCH OF SAMANTHA- PRACITICAL MEDITATION IN BUDDHISM FOR MUNDANE OBJECTIVES. I HAVE DEVELOPED CONCENTRATION UNDER DIRECTIONAL BUDDHISM TO CREATE AND CONTROL THOUGHT ENERGY FOR TRANSMUTATION TO DESIRED CHANNEL. CO RESEARCHER IN THE FIELD INVITED .
vizoyswami
ujjain, MP INDIA - Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 05:11:38 (EDT)Your pages have given me much insight into my own struggles, which , because of the stigma's attached, I have never shared with anyone.. In reading through some of your bio I was appalled at how much money you've been paying for a subsidized apartment.My physical disabilitiesenabled me to Iive in a subsidied 1-bedroom, and paid 45.00 a month {no joke}, when I first got my place, five years ago. Today I pay a hefty 85.00 per month. I cosidered this a blessing and wish all people on ODSP could be as fortunate as me. I agree that reforms must be made to ODSP, but I'm not going to hold my breath, and quite frankly, my struggle to see through the fog at times consumes every hour , and does'nt afford me time to argue with govt drones . Iwant anyone reading this who has similiar concerns that exercise, fresh air, and volunteer work are extremely beneficial to anyone with a mental health issue . Not a cure...but helpful overall. God Bless...
broken wing
north bay, ON Canada - Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 00:30:58 (EDT)Thanks for the stories, they have really expanded my view on this subject and made me believe in the goodness of mankind again. I envy how active you are at helping the unfortunate population that suffers from this illness. I hope that anyone who lives with Schizophrenia can find peace in their life.
Tim Dwyer
Middlebury, CT USA - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 10:47:10 (EDT)Thank you for allowing your life and information to be avalible to the public. I'm a student and it is nice to have a personal story to list on biblioragphy instead of a researcher. You have been a great help!! Thanks. Fabián
Fabián Verino
Buenos Aires, BA Colombia - Friday, April 09, 2004 at 14:44:42 (EDT)Thank you dear, and GOD BLESS you You have helped me understand my daughter and grandchild I will now look and help them with a different view
Candience Baitten
NJ USA - Tuesday, April 06, 2004 at 18:19:29 (EDT)love your website. please update! have a 24 yr. old son with par. schiz. thanks for your insight.
angela strong
picayune, ms usa - Tuesday, April 06, 2004 at 10:21:57 (EDT)I work as a housing support worker with people with mental health issues. I am at the moment working on community mental heath certificate and fond your site. I think it will help me and others emensly.
Elaine
England - Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 15:57:08 (EDT)i got your site from a search engine and wanted to thank you. i am doing a 10 page paper on schizophrenia. also, my mom has recently left home and refuses to talk to me. her mom, sister and brother have this illness and she does now, too. the graphs helped with both situations in my life. thanks again
kwrist24
usa - Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 21:09:33 (EST)Great, that will be simply wonderful if you can delete all my entries from your guestbook. Thank You.
Beena
Canada - Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 10:48:00 (EST)HI; just read your story and i am glad that you find your way.i have a friend who is psychotic, but he wasn`t at the hospital yet.he is very agressiv and all of his friends are frightened and don`t open the door.in germany it ist not so easy to bring someone to the hospital, who doesn`t want to and these people suffer a lot and live on the streets like my friend now.very bad situation, but i hope he will get help soon.greetings from germany
karin
berlin, D Germany - Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 03:44:28 (EST)I just wanted to say "thanks" for sharing your story and all the other information you have on this site. I am in school to get my RN degree and now in my psych rotation. You have been helpful to me and my classmates. God bless you and he will only make you stronger if you trust in Him!!
Carla Jean-Baptiste
Green Bay, WI USA - Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 01:21:19 (EST)Hi Ian! I also have shizophrenia, though it's controlled now with Olanzapine, a really good med. I really think the stuff about being noncompetitive is true, at least my experience tells me so, too. Hope you will continue getting better. God bless you!
Daniel
Dresden, Germany - Tuesday, March 30, 2004 at 15:14:29 (EST)Thank you for allowing your life and information to be avalible to the public. I'm a student and it is nice to have a personal story to list on biblioragphy instead of a researcher. You have been a great help!! Thanks.
Jamie
Laramie, WY Canada - Monday, March 29, 2004 at 19:35:39 (EST)WOW~ im so glad to have stumbled across this site. I am researching Schizophrenia, and this gave me a true inside look from someone whos had to cope with this illness. Thanks for the story Ian! And keep getting better.
Suzy
Detroit, MI America - Monday, March 29, 2004 at 10:32:01 (EST)Look I know I was told to come here by someone who said it helped them realise know what it was about but I nknow what it's really about. You think I'm stupid. Just because I get it and I can see past through the solid walls that are there for hiding and secrets. The glass walls are gfor seeing though through because that's where ht observation is. I cna' tbelieve you don't all see it and by me saying this I'm not knowing when to stop but who cares it won't make any difference. I'm not being weird I'm just stating what happens, we are all brainwashed anyway so why worry about how or why it happens when it's all there. cctv everywhere, air vents for whatevet yhat don't need to be htere in this day and age. What a coincidence. Funny how so much money is being made yet it's being evaded avoided like the same poles which repel each other. I think that says a lot. IT scares me that that makes me the same. Don't laugh at me or do things I know you want to.
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- Monday, March 29, 2004 at 08:26:37 (EST)I am very interested in your story about how you have suffered schizophrenia. I congratulate tou in how well you seem to be doing. My Grandmother actually died from that. It had consumed her entire grasp on reality and life in general. She got to the point where she didn't know how to continue living and her body gave in to the confusion of her mind. She was a loving person and as genuine as she could be. Thank you for sharing your information so others can learn more. It helps to know more about it so you can tend to your feelings with losing a loved one.
Alicia
Springville, Utah USA - Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 16:00:01 (EST)my mum has had schizophrenia since she was 22 is now 57.no- one knows the illness enless they live with it(or work)
cathy
newcastle, nsw australia - Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 22:09:40 (EST)Salut, ian j'ai visité ton site électronique à plusieurs reprise. J'ai assisté à une de tes conférences à quelques reprises au Royal Ottawa hospital. J'expérimente des symptômes psychiatriques proche de la schizophrénie associé à l'épilepsie. Depuis 12 ans, je chemine à travers la réalité psychiatrique. J'ai essayé presque tout sauf hospitalisation et medication. Je ne crois pas la maladie comme étant éternelle. Il faut s'éduquer apprendre à vivre plus simplement.Quand je commence à entendre des voix qui me dise que je suis guéris. Je comprends que j'ai encore du travail à faire. Merci de lire mon message en francais car ma maladie est francaise. Les voix me parlent d'abord en francais mais je les écoute de moins en moins. De vivre dans une autre communauté que le Québec où je suis nés m'aide à vivre plus harmonieusement. La maladie comme la santé c'est une affaire de spiritualité, psychologies, intelligence émotionnelle et flexibilite du corps. Ton site contribue beaucoup sur les plans psychologiques et émotionnelles merci keep up the good work ! GillesDeschenes2004_42@hotmail.com
Gilles Deschenes
Ottawa, on Canada - Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 12:14:25 (EST)I enjoyed your article "I and I, Dancing Fool, Challenge You the World to a Duel." It was required reading at my medical school. Thanks.
Sharon Stoll
East Lansing, MI USA - Monday, March 22, 2004 at 20:42:17 (EST)nice site and i dey hereooooooooooo guymen keep ,offoooooooooooooo:::::::
unudum
lome, lome togo - Monday, March 22, 2004 at 13:50:37 (EST)Thank you for sharing your story and the information. God bless you.
J-a
Seoul, Korea - Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 17:54:02 (EST)I've been to numerous psychologists over the years trying to figure out what's wrong with me. Everyone says it's Schizophrenia but I try to deny it. I just try to do my school work and act "normal". Guess it probably still shows! Ha ha! Great website!
Maegan Hill
U.S.A - Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 02:17:54 (EST)In reference to the previous email concerning the friend I want to help (getting him to take medication) my email is annaw274hotmail.com. Thank you
Anna W.
Charlotte , NC U.S.A. - Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 21:19:23 (EST)Thank you for giving such an informative & complete look into schizophrenia. My best friend of 7 years has developed schizophrenia in the last year. He is 31 yrs old. He is still working full time, has contact with his family & some friends. He is getting more & more paranoid, thinking people are following him, seeing people - sometimes 100s of people at a time telling him the same thing over & over again. He hasn't realized how sick he is yet. He has a wonderful heart & is very intelligent. Do you have any advice on how to get him to start medication? He sees a psychologist & a psychiatrist. But he doesn't want to take an anti-psychotic. I feel that I am most responsible for taking careof him. (Mother has schizophrenia and his brother doesn't want him taking meds. I love him very much & don't want him to get worse.
Anna W
Charlotte, NC U.S.A. - Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 21:16:03 (EST)I was diagnosed with sz going on six years. Its nice to know that I am not alone. I was to help those who need help with sz. I have a degree in sociology and psychology however the city I live in will not hire me due to the fact that they know I have used their resources.
vicki
mn usa - Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 20:40:42 (EST)I am 22 years old, and I am currently attending Sydney University. After a much self-examination I came to a conclusion that I may be suffering from Schizophrenia. Very recently I finally decided to visit a counsellor who referred me to an university doctor, who advised me for anti-psychotic drug treatment. I 'hate' the biotechnology degree I am currently finishing. I wish to become a professional mathematician. I view fulfiling this goal as the final evidence of defeating my illness. I am currently faced with many challenges. My email is llee4131@mail.usyd.edu.au
Logan Lee
Sydney, NSW Australia - Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 08:44:22 (EST)I would like to add my sincere appreciation for your work, explaining your illness.It is amazing to learn,firsthand.In the 1920's my great-mother was hospitalized until her death. Subquently, my mother was hospitalized in the1940's,then my brother in the 1970's,my son in the 1980's and on it goes.Please educate family members.
Diane MacF
Middleton, N.S Canada - Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 15:21:04 (EST)It must be hard to know you went through all of that and it was something you really couldn't control. I think you are a wise and bold to make a web page about your experiences. I am glad that I read it and hpoe that what ypu wrote helps someone else. May God bless you and your family
Samantha
New York, ny - Friday, March 12, 2004 at 11:09:09 (EST)Hello Ian, nice site. It's good to know that there are people with SZ who are making a difference from our side of the fence. Best Regards!
Chad
Regina, Sk Canada - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 23:32:04 (EST)Namaste Ian, I was startled by a couple of similarities with our experiences! (Great website, by the way.) I have schizoaffective disorder.....close enough to sz to understand how real your symptoms are. I consider myself a devotee of the teachings of Milarepa. He abandoned the left-handed path, the path of darkness, for the right-handed path of light: of Buddhism. I don't know too much about tantra, but to me it means deity visualization while absorbed in deep meditation. Am I mistaken? I was troubled by your bad experiences with tantra yoga. I know a lady at a website/support group for schizophrenics, and she's writing a book about Hindu tantra. She and I are going to talk about it. I'll keep your words in mind during our conversation! It was interesting to "meet" another schizophrenic who is knowledgable about Tibetan issues. I hope that you are feeling fine, whatever you are doing, and that you find happiness and peace of mind.....as is meaningful to you. I would also like to be your pen pal! I can be reached at jennymarkman@yahoo.com if you'd like to talk about meditation, the Dalai Lama, schizophrenia, please contact me though you seem much more knowledgable than I am! Well, take good care, Ian, and thanks for the good read, your friend in spirit, Jenny
Jenny
Los Angeles, CA USA - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 17:12:48 (EST)I have a brother who has been diagnose with schizophrenia, he is now in a psychiatric hospital he has been there for almost three weeks. He is having hallusinations and hearing voices (he is psychotic) It hurts to see him suffer like that. My family is really sad because we are afraid of loosing him (mentally), but at the same time we are hopeful that he will get back his mind. He is 21 years-old now since he turned 16 he started acting different, lost his friends, drop out of High School but we never thought anything of it. Two months ago it got really bad he became violent, agressive till one night he couldn't get out of bed and his hallusinations got so bad he couldn't hide them from anybody anymore. We took him to the E.R. they send him to a psycriatic hospital. We don't know what to do? He hasn't accepted that he is ill he wants to come home, but, How can we bring him home and hide him to the world?. He needs to get better he needs help, my family needs help. We are going to out first N.A.M.I. meeting tonight, I hope they help me by answering all my questions. We come from a Hispanic background and I am sad by the fact that Hispanic people are so narrow minded for the most part.I am going to learn everything there is to learn about this disease, my brother will be one of the ones that will get his mind back. My email address is cecymandujano@yahoo.com If you have some answers for me or for moral support email me.
Cecilia Mandujano
Los Angeles, CA USA - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 13:09:22 (EST)I have a family member that suffers form delusions and hallucinations, his life in the last few years has spun out of control. Dropped out of university, quitting or getting fired for work. Unable to take care of himself, not showering, cutting his hair, nails, etc. Nothing worse than see a loved one go from honors roll in high school to no ambition to live or care for himself. He cries for help but will not agree to seek it. The system in the Burlington and Hamilton ON area is flawed. Once they find out he is a drug user, they (psychiatric team) at the hospitals tell us that its just the drugs that cause the psychosis and that he need drug rehab, that there's is no need for any psychiatric assessment...they wont even see him. From what I have read, most who suffer form psychosis self medicate and abuse drugs, hence, dual diagnosis! They are suppose to he the specialists, but I feel that I am more aware or symptoms then they are, that's what frustrates me most. All my due diligence is done form the web such as your site, so I thank you for sharing your story.
Zacc
Burlington, ON Canada - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 02:25:40 (EST)oh also, you may want to do a bit of research on the substance called 'd.m.t' it occurs naturaly in the brain and certain plants have this substance. DMT is the major constituent of the bark of Virola calophylla, also as i stated it is a natural chemical residing in the brain , and usualy is inactive , but in my opinion i think d.m.t is the mechanism for dreams and wake time hallucinations. many believe that d.m.t is responsible for death bed visions and other dying related perceptions like 'the light' which people experience during there death sequences, because when we die the body and mind {brain breaks down chemicly, thus d.m.t becomes released and active.
chris m
liverpool, u./k - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 01:10:51 (EST)My cousin has this 'illness' and previous to his diagnosis and treatment he was a active sharp person with options. he is now on antipsychotic drugs and seems to be a different person, secluded from society and with a diminished group of friends. i would rarther be a natural schizophrenic than a synthetic nice guy
chris m
liverpool, u./k - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 01:02:11 (EST)i have been hearing voices for three years and my life is in shambles i read your stupid website bulshit those medications fuckyou up!!! you are full of shit nobody will listen to me, they think i want a free ride or something fuck you i won't take those stupid pills that make you sleep all the time and jerky and then you can't see straight i don't take drugs or drink and this stupid medical system tells me being on disability is no life. that fucking pisses me off i worked for thirteen fucking years i would go back to work today if i wasn't worried about kiling somebody so they tell me i havbe to go back to work your fucking stupidity i will die before i kill somebody and then i won' care anyway. so i try not to kill myself very very hard and fuck those stupid doctors if they don't believe me or think i need help fuck you stupid motherfuckers for saying those stupid rezzzzperdol and zzzzzzypraxen ficking help you are working for the fucking prescription drug industry or something. i know iam not using very good punctuation and proper english i just want you to know how it fucking feels from somebody who really has it. you stupid motherfuckers.
alex callahan
sonora, ca usa - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 00:53:23 (EST)Mr.Chovil thank you so much for sharing your story.It's important to let others know that you have gone through what they are. I must admit thatI myself do not have schizophrenia. But Iam researching the topic for a term paper for school. I'm only in 8th grade but am curious about the subject and take it seriously. I appreciate the extra resources you listed, they were a great help. Thank you again!
Stephanie Post
Marinette, WI United States - Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 21:45:30 (EST)keep off oooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooo
mugu
lome, nig togo - Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 16:31:06 (EST)Ian, thanks for sharing your story with so many people across the world. I'm a medical student in Michigan, and after reading texts and journals about schizophrenia, it is humbling to read a first-person account from someone who suffered from it. I hope others continue to learn from your experience.
Jay Saenz
East Lansing, MI USA - Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 11:43:48 (EST)I suffer as well. Your persistent delusions are so brilliantly written as well as academic, which impresses me greatly, but to be honest, I'm looking for the absolute mind-shredding horror of paranoid delusions that no one speaks of. I am now better, and find it difficult to re-create the horror in my own writing, so look to others to tap into the nightmare to remember and to write my own story in either book or short story form. Thank you for your web site. It is great.
Muffy Berlyn
West Palm Beach, FL US - Monday, March 08, 2004 at 20:18:21 (EST)Thank you for sharing your own personal experience dealing with schizophrenia, my father is struglling with this disease currently and its something as a daughter i dont know how to help him with. Thank you for your information
Lisa
Stockton, CA usa - Monday, March 08, 2004 at 18:18:29 (EST)Dear Ian, I was born in Windsor and my mom was dx with schizophrenia when I was 7. We moved to USA. After marriage, our son manifested signs of schizophrenia/affective disorder when he was 21. Recently my brother was dx with bipolar disorder. I have been given much help from NAMI. Our son is doing well; in a group home and says he is content. He is 36. His story is long. Maybe he will tell you sometime. Carol
Carol
st clair shores, mi usa - Monday, March 08, 2004 at 09:43:33 (EST)Hello, Ian, what a fine website you’ve got! So many great links! Would you please add a link from your site to mine? It’s http://loveisanactionverb.com. Sprung from the public’s interest in the story of a “normal guy schizophrenia,” I make art from the human sciences, psychology, psychiatry, sociology, and genetics in a website that includes my picture, an autobiography, poetry, prose, and sketches of talks offered on "living with schizophrenia" and "disability and sexuality." I’d be happy to add your link to my site as well. Just let me know if you’d like to do a link exchange. Thanks. Dave Altier
Dave Altier
VT U.S. - Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 05:42:43 (EST)For all of you who really need and want help, please take note of this message. Schizophrenia is affected greatly by gluten in wheat products. It causes an opium-like effect on the brain, hence, delusions and the hearing of voices. Casein in dairy products is another culprit. The intolerance to dairy products usually precedes an intolerance to wheat products. The elimination of both dairy and wheat products will help immensely. Please read Beatrice Trum Hunter's booklet, Gluten Intolerance. If anyone would like more information, please contact me at dkazmitchell@aol.com Thank you, Kathie
Kathie
Tucson, AZ U.S. - Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 03:08:23 (EST)HI!!! your site is very imformative, I'm taking up units in Psychology for I had a history of depression in which im already treated. The very reason why I opened your site is because I'm doing a case study concerning schizophrenia. Anyway, take care and God Bless you...
MARIA THERESA
CAGAYAN DE ORO CITY, PHILIPPINES - Friday, March 05, 2004 at 18:43:08 (EST)Hi! I'm doing a project on schizophrenia for my psychology class. If you could, would you help me out and send me some information? I would love to hear from you. My e-mail address is GilGwann@councilofelrond.com. Thank you very much.
Starr-chan
GA USA - Friday, March 05, 2004 at 14:05:48 (EST)hi my name is sara and i think that my boyfriend my have schizophrenia...he says that he hears voices and he has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and ADHD...if anybody has any ideas for what i can do id really appreciate if u would just post this page and give me any ideas
Sara
United States - Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 20:29:09 (EST)Great site! I have Schizoaffective Disorder and understand how difficult social isolation and lack of relationships is on a person. I guess the key is not giving up no matter how hopeless things seem. Thanks for sharing your experience and helping others to have a better understanding of Schizophrenia and those affected by it.
Gary
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lome togo, UK Canada - Wednesday, March 03, 2004 at 11:22:30 (EST)i hear from my mom who suffered from schizoprenia that the illness is inherited so i think i have it too
exodus
anywhereiamneeded, saa malaysia - Tuesday, March 02, 2004 at 05:25:37 (EST)Wow! what an awesome site! I'm doing a memory on schizophrenia, and I have to tell you that I've been using alot of information on your site. Thank you alot for these precious information that I would have difficulties to find out. Now I begin to understand even more the source of it. I would be very pleased if you could email me, I have some unanswered questions: quark_19@hotmail.com Thank you.
Vincent
trois-rivières, QC Canada - Saturday, February 28, 2004 at 10:55:02 (EST)Ian after reading your amazing story it has really helped me to realise what people actually go through. Your story is awe-inspiring and your website is amazing it helped me a lot, thank-you so much. :>
clare
London, England - Friday, February 27, 2004 at 12:36:48 (EST)My brother was diagnosed one year ago. He stopped his meds after a couple months on them and of course returned to a pyschosis. He is now back on meds and is showing no signs of improvement. I feel as though he should be hospitalized, but my mother feels differently. I struggle everyday trying to deal with his illness. I pray for families of people with mental illness. The best way to help your family member and yourself is educate and advocate for mental illness. God bless everyone who suffers from Schizophrenia - friends and family! Believe in God and things will be brigheter! I hope!
Michelle
Chicago, IL United States - Friday, February 27, 2004 at 11:40:39 (EST)Hey Ian iam Studying schizophrenia at my new school i thought I knew all about it but i did not! when i read your site i loved the info. Its great to see it hasn't consumed you. Keep up your spirits.
A Friend you havent met.
Home, A.C.T OZ - Thursday, February 26, 2004 at 17:50:38 (EST)Hi, this is Dottie Raymond again, regarding my domestic partner. Here is my e-mail address. I appreciate any help or advice you can offer. dottieraymond_167@hotmail.com
Dottie Raymon
San Diego, CA USA - Wednesday, February 25, 2004 at 18:19:22 (EST)I currently have a domestic partner, who has been suffering from schizophrenia since 1986. he commited a crime at that time, spent several years in a state mental hosptial, was found not quilty by reason on insanity. He was released and sanity restored in 1999. We have lived together for 8 years and over this past year has fallen into a relaspe. Even though I believe it took more than a year for the relaspe to take place. It has been a slow moving relaspe, I believe it is because he was taking his medicine irregularily and not as prescribed. Also he became very stressed out trying to run the family business. I tried to tell his family that he could not do this. But in December he relasped and now he is saying that having a family is too stressfull for him. I don't believe that it was, his domestic partner and daughter that stressed him out. I believe it was his family and the family business he was running. Now that he has relasped what can we do to make him believe that he is mistaken about what caused the stress in his life. In the entire 8 years we have been together, neve once have I let stress overcome him. I have always removed the stressers from him. He is currently living out of the house. Wants to try and get better on his own. Don't know if he is taking his medicine as prescribed. But I am conerned that he is spending too much time alone. I am very afraid for him. What can I do to help him? If you have an answere please let me hear it. I love this man very much and I want to continue to be part of his life. His parents are very old and will not be around much longer and the only brother that he has is also a schizophrenic. I actually look after both of them. I am all they have in life. please if you can offer any kind of advice I would apprecate it. Thanks Dottie Raymond, San Diego, CA
Dottie Raymond
San Diego, Ca USA - Wednesday, February 25, 2004 at 18:03:25 (EST)Hi Ian, I'm really really impressed with your story. Keep up the good work and outreach!!!
Elizabeth
Paris, France - Sunday, February 22, 2004 at 19:54:12 (EST)Hi! (^_^) Sorry, I'm not good at English. I'm a schizophrenic. Few years ago, I wrote here my E-mail address. After then, spam mails came me about 40/a day from U.S.. (--; So I couldn't find necessary mails. (;o; Recently, filtering function of MS-Outlook 2003 helped me. Perhaps, there is "List business" in U.S. (...please look ".jp"...(--;;; ) "List business" and spam mails will down world's GDP. But filtering function may help us. I've already known by them, so I wrote my E-mail once again. "kenju@d3.dion.ne.jp" Please send a E-mail, if you are patient. (I'm not good at English.) There are not less than 50 web sites made by schizophrenic person in Japan. But the government is not so good. Japan is called as "economy are first-class, polities are third-class." By the way, "kenju" means a Cynicist in Japanese like as Diogenes. I think it is important to have a positive identity, not so negative one. See you! (^_^)
Kenju
Hokkai-do Japan - Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 20:12:15 (EST)Thank you for sharing your story. Doing research on the illness, I get the best information by hearing first hand experiences with the disease. Best Wishes to you.
Amanda
- Friday, February 20, 2004 at 13:42:20 (EST)Hi there. I truely believe you are an inspiration to anybody who reads your story and I credit you on that. May I ask for a favour? I am a 17 year old HSC student and I study Society and Culture as one of my subjects. it requires a 3000 word essay on whatever we like and as my parents are schizophrenia sufferers I decided to research the question "schizophrenia-what are the effects on those around the sufferers?" I would really appreciate me if you could contact me at moo_moo_bunny@yahoo.com for an interview it would help me so much. Your identity would remain anomynous and your privacey would be held. I look forward to talking with you. Yours Sincerely, Leah
Leah
Newcastle, NSW Australia - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 at 21:26:12 (EST)Your story is so well written and informative but I am sorry that you suffered so. I have a son who is homeless and living in the streets now and I do see him on a weekly basis,but don't know how to help him. I believe he could be mentally ill, he is an alcoholic and refuses any help. Tried living with him but it was impossible due to the drinking. May God bless you and thank you for telling your story, there may be hope for my son.
katesnuway
West Allis, WI USA - Tuesday, February 17, 2004 at 19:22:06 (EST)Thanks Ian for all your inspiration and hard work on behalf of others .Like you , my 34 year old son copes bravely with schizophrenia every day. We're proud of him and hope someday he'll read your webpages !!!
Ainslie Mistysyn
Bancroft, Ontario Canada - Thursday, February 12, 2004 at 14:14:55 (EST)This is a very good website. Thank you for telling us about your experiences. What I have learned here will be carried in my medical practice.
Rahul Velineni
London, England - Wednesday, February 11, 2004 at 15:23:47 (EST)ID just like to say thank you for sharing your exsperiences it has been a great help to me good luck and thanks again
Amy
Nottingham , England - Wednesday, February 11, 2004 at 07:33:32 (EST)KEEP OFFFFFFFFFF
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Mohan Shrestha
Kathamandu, bagamati nepal - Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 10:44:01 (EST)good site keep off
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lome, togo lome - Friday, February 06, 2004 at 04:26:06 (EST)Hi again Ian...........my email is "km02@indiatimes.com" pls do let me know what you think of Ariapiprizole...thanx again.......
sis
India - Friday, February 06, 2004 at 00:12:59 (EST)Thankyou. My partner has schizophrenia and you have been able to inform me of what he's been trying to tell me for the last few years but has been unable to verbalise.
Liz Barrett
England - Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:41:10 (EST)how effective is ARIA (the new drug) on a long term..?? with a combo of Risperdone..?
a sis
India - Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 09:46:01 (EST)Ian..........cudnt help but go back and read more...again and again..am so touched coz i an empathise totally as also the effort it takes to pull thru every setback....and to sustain..the same .......a salute to you...........
a sister
India - Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 09:43:26 (EST)Ian.....am extremely impressed.am a family member of a fellow sufferer...who is tuff fighter too...chanced upon this site accidently......by typing- "need a cure -have schizo " on google..!!!!! will stay in touch thanx.
A sister
India - Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 06:02:57 (EST)Great sit. I like many others who have signed this page am doing research for school on schizophrenia and have been greatly helped by the facts you present and your personal story
Brett
Adelaide, SA Australia - Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 04:55:50 (EST)nice site, though i refuse to tell you my real name or aything. your site did come in handy when i wanted to lean about schizophrenia. you showed me a first person perspective of it.
Lost N. Space
haihdfui, NA Wardome - Wednesday, February 04, 2004 at 12:39:09 (EST)You souldnt have broke your programming Ian... Unless you go into the dhamma and fix your self up your body may begin to shut down!!GROSS MIND CAUSES CONFLICT! NICE SITE THOUGH!!
sleeper
UK - Tuesday, February 03, 2004 at 19:30:43 (EST)Ian, Just wanted to say thanks for all you do. It is through websites like yours that I have been able to sort out what has happened in my family - schizophrenia, which has touched my grandmother, my uncle, my cousin, and my mother - despite our propensity for misdiagnosing females with late-onset sz. It is through your website and others that I gained enough confidence and knowledge to GET HELP for my mother, and keep her on her meds for long enough that that she might have a shot at staying alive, and God willing, finding a way to piece together a life of one sort or another. You have done more good than you can imagine. As for the older and "wiser" members of my family, and as for the medical profession and the "helping" profession, I hope to God they now understand although the truth may hurt with a sz diagnosis, it's less painful than lying about it!!!!
S. Ashfield
Havertown, PA U.S.A. - Monday, February 02, 2004 at 11:43:04 (EST)Hey there! i read your story and am totally touched at how coragous you really are for fighting to get throguh it. I don't think i could do that when as lonely as you were. I admire you and your motivation to live your life to its fullest after what you have been through. Originally i was searching the web for some information on your illness for the base of my drama play but i don't think you can act out something like that as i can't imagine what you went through.Your site has been very helpfull and touching. thankyou for your amazing story. All the best in the future XjoX p.s. if i did a play on ur illness, i would base it on ur story!
jo
worthing, england - Sunday, February 01, 2004 at 16:25:10 (EST)thank you
patrick
al, us - Saturday, January 31, 2004 at 16:45:30 (EST)I am pleased to sign the guest book. Hope to learn alot from this site!
Linda
Sparta, MI USA - Saturday, January 31, 2004 at 12:09:35 (EST)Sir, I am in my last year at school this year and I am, for my personal interest project, doing how society treats people with schizophrenia. Can you please tell me how society treats you. I'm sorry if I have offened you in any way, but I am only 17, and I feel getting right into the source is better than just sitting on the edges waiting for it to magically appear. Thank You, Lauren. quichiebaby@optusnet.com.au
Lauren
Sydney, NSW Australia - Thursday, January 29, 2004 at 06:33:03 (EST)I'm studying schizophrenia as part of psychology A level and would just like to thank you for the increased insight your story has given me.
Jessica Robson-Davis
Cardiff, Wales - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 at 14:59:03 (EST)How on earth do you get someone who has schitzophrenia to understand that they have it, and that they are indeed ill. No matter what we tell my brother, he continues to think that it us that is sick and not hi. He has no idea that he is ill. What can we do? I believe that until he knows how ill he is, he cannot get any better.
Mandy
England - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 at 16:20:02 (EST)Hey! I love your website. I am doing a report on Schizophrenia, and I have a few questions. I was wondering if you could help me. What does it feel like to be schizophrenic? How did you know that you had a disease? Did someone have to help you realize your sickness? How much did you enjoy the support of your friends and family?
shawte
stjoe, ar Usa - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 at 15:54:23 (EST)I am a 27 year old man who has just recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia. i have been searching the web to try and gather as much information as I can about this disease. I just wanted to say that your site is very informative and well put together.
scott young
niagara falls, ont Canada - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 at 04:27:50 (EST)www.peacefulspirits.net/text2004.doc
Nicol
Canada - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 20:03:29 (EST)Hey, sorry. This is Jan again. I forgot to give you my email address for your reply. Please reply to "janzj9@aol.com" Thanks again!
Jan
US - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 19:07:01 (EST)Hey! I love your website. I am doing a report on Schizophrenia, and I have a few questions. I was wondering if you could help me. What does it feel like to be schizophrenic? How did you know that you had a disease? Did someone have to help you realize your sickness? How much did you enjoy the support of your friends and family? I understand that this topic may be slightly touchy for you, but your reply would be greatly appreciated. My project's due date is coming up soon, so I ask for your help! Thank you so much!
Jan
US - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 18:40:38 (EST)I am doing a research paper on “The Effects of Schizophrenia in a Canadian Family,” for my Individuals and Families in a Diverse Society class at Meadowvale Secondary School. I was hoping that I could ask you a few questions about this topic and any information you give me would be greatly appreciated. Please e-mail me ASAP with a response at akbrowne2004@hotmail.com
Ashley Browne
Miss., ON Canada - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 14:56:06 (EST)The day ODSP allows clients like myself to earn more than 160 dollars a month without being punished is the day Hell will surely freeze over. ODSP is not there to make out lives less complex. The yare there to make our lives utter hell with a smile. And frankly, I pray to the good lord that everyone who works for ODSP will go to hell one day! They enjoy making our lives miserable at the cost of our sanity or lack of.....
Joseph
St. Catharines, On Canada - Saturday, January 24, 2004 at 22:24:30 (EST)I am a muslim convert to Christianity, my parents tries several times to finish with me.But Jesus is faithful, he protected me from all they traps.Today praise be to God they have stated to speak to me. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS REMAIN FAITHFUL. My E-mail:Vasodia@hotmail.com May God Bless you all AMEN
Bamba Vasodia
Abidjan, Africa Côte d'Ivoire - Saturday, January 24, 2004 at 06:19:35 (EST)I am a muslim convert to Christianity, my parents tries several times to finish with me.But Jesus is faithful, he protected me from all they traps.Today praise be to God they have stated to speak to me. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS REMAIN FAITHFUL.
Bamba Vasodia
Abidjan, Africa Côte d'Ivoire - Saturday, January 24, 2004 at 06:17:11 (EST)Hi,i'm also busy studying schizophrenia and I suspect that I may have Schizophrenia but there has been no prove yet,I think that you are a very brave person.Have a nice day :-)
Zelda Lubbe
Durban, KZN South Africa - Saturday, January 24, 2004 at 05:04:06 (EST)i love mugu pppppppp
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togo, LOME Canada - Friday, January 23, 2004 at 05:15:49 (EST)Hey, great website- very moving and beautiful:-) I was wondering if you had a contact email as I am studying schizophrenia and feel you could be of great assistance to me? God Bless and Take Care:-) xo
Nic
Sydney, NSW Australia - Thursday, January 22, 2004 at 22:08:28 (EST)Thank you very much for sharing. I am taking a course in my studies called psychosocial intervention, and your story helped me out.
J.W.
Erie, PA USA - Wednesday, January 21, 2004 at 15:31:16 (EST)Great site! Lots of information and wonderful asset to the Internet. I have a site on mental illness with a page on schizophrenia. I have schizophrenia as well as five other mental illnesses. Thanks so much for all of your hard work. If you get an opportunity, please visit my site and tell me what you think. I value your opinion. www.fragmentedmind.healthyplace2.com
Insanely Human
usa - Wednesday, January 21, 2004 at 11:39:26 (EST)i started looking and i knew cause it had what i needed and the answers came clearly. you know? i am thankful that it isn't too wonderous and i have the same so thanks. cuase they gave it and i am try to comprehend my schizophrenia.
Michele
MI USA - Wednesday, January 21, 2004 at 11:37:03 (EST)The Lord Jesus Christ healed everyone 2000 years ago. Confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus Christ, repent for any sin, ask God to fill you with the Holy Ghost, read the Word of God night and day, confess it over your life, the Truth shall set you free.
R.
US - Monday, January 19, 2004 at 20:54:01 (EST)Thanks for sharing your story.I've just been diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 50. Problems in the past but not so devastating. Thanks again!!!
Stephen
Clearlake, Ca USA - Tuesday, January 13, 2004 at 19:33:35 (EST)Thanks for your useful charts and information. I'm taking an abnormal psychology course in college and need them for a powerpoint presentation. I commend your efforts and invite you to see my site at www.esotank.50megs.com. Have a nice day :)
Esotank
Barrie, ON Canada - Tuesday, January 13, 2004 at 00:13:07 (EST)i appreciate a lot the effort that you've put in to set up this informative web site.i am a graduating nurse, your web site did help me a lot to have a better understanding of schizophrenia, which is more than those i can learn from my textbook. thank you so much! hope you can keep it up, and most important, to have a happy life~~ \(^o^)/ xixiyuna@hotmail.com
yuna
singapore, singapore - Monday, January 12, 2004 at 06:49:06 (EST)i like the site okeyyyyyyyy
MUGUMAN
lome, lome togo - Sunday, January 11, 2004 at 15:41:08 (EST)My husband has schizophrenia and has recently decided not to take his meds because he *feels better* and *doesn't need them*. Your site was very educational for me and i will come back to it again. I wish i could email u tho or something cuz i have a few questions. Anyhow awesome site and take care!!
Jennifer
Lewiston, ID United States - Sunday, January 11, 2004 at 13:06:40 (EST)We first noticed that my brother was ill when he was around 30 years old, that's when he had an episode when he began acting strange [psychotic]. After a few weeks, he seemed normal again, and could discuss what he had been through, a series of thoughts and events which relate to your story. Now, seven years later, he is very ill, but cannot snap out of it at all. He doesn't seem to know that he is ill anymore, and for no apparent reason he has severed connections with my self and my mum and dad. Is it possible that he was ill when he was younger and that he managed to hide it from us? Can schitzophrenia develop in a 31 year old man? I wish you well. Mandy
Mandy
England - Saturday, January 10, 2004 at 20:02:44 (EST)Hello Ian, Hope your holidays were enjoyable. Just browsing your site like I do every now and then. I had a close encounter with an alternative reality recently. It lead me to reflect on many things. The choices you made in your life enable me to make choices in mine. I am just one of many people who are grateful that you chose to be human (it's more than many ordinary people do). Talk to you soon.
Shawn
Guelph, ON Canada - Saturday, January 10, 2004 at 14:41:01 (EST)I have been with my boyfriend for a little over a year now. He is schitzophrenic and is now 22 (diagnosed at 18 i believe). The slightest argument leads to threats of suicide and/or threats on my life. He has begun using amphetamines over the past few months and these threats have intensely increased. He won't get help as he says there is no help for him. When he is not in this state he is a beautiful and generous person who i dearly love. I am only 21 and find this pain and confliction difficult to deal with as he behaves as if i am the be all and end all of his exsistence- then he will go off and behave in a way that completely contradicts this. I am confused and heartbroken, and really don't know what to do. My friends and family do not want me to stay with him for they fear for my emotional, mental and physical safety. i do not want to abandon him for i sincerely care for him. Do you or anyone have any suggestions for me? Anything would be greatly apreciated. My email address is: like_a_glove2003@yahoo.com Thank you for your time
jasmine
melbourne, victoria Australia - Saturday, January 10, 2004 at 10:17:35 (EST)-
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LA, CA USA - Saturday, January 10, 2004 at 08:56:07 (EST)Read about you in Beyond Crazy,good luck with your endeavors
Jim
Ottawa, ON Canada - Friday, January 09, 2004 at 15:06:04 (EST)It was very interesting to read your story. I was researching this disease and found your personal story the best explanation of what someone goes through. I wish you well in your future. Thanks for sharing.
Jessica
Vancouver, BC Canada - Friday, January 09, 2004 at 13:58:30 (EST)While I have some close friends and family with mental illness, I am not close to anybody living with this terrible disease. I was deeply moved by your story and have a greater appreciation for this disease. Great site.
David Grant
Vancovuer, BC Canada - Thursday, January 08, 2004 at 00:58:56 (EST)Hi! About 2 months ago I wrote you a letter and I still do not have any answer. How are you now? Are you all right? Happy New Year! irinaf@vif.com
irina
toronto, on Canada - Wednesday, January 07, 2004 at 21:44:36 (EST)I just wanted to say that I love your web site and it is very informative. I wanted to ask you, too, if taking 25 mg of prolixin and 120 mg of geodon is too much medicine. This dose was presribed to me and I feel that it is too much medicine. Also why is it that prolixin causes less brain arrest than the Haldol. I was on that one and it just ruined me I had to take a year off from all medicine to get back my mind. Has anyone else experienced this with Haldol?
Maura
manchester, NH USA - Wednesday, January 07, 2004 at 17:00:42 (EST)yes hello, i just read your story about your life and having that disease, i never had it before to admitt im only 14 :P but i do hope all is well for you and thank you so much for helping me with school work, i now know some things about the disease thanks to you, god bless and take care :)
Vania
Langley, B.C. Canada - Wednesday, January 07, 2004 at 12:41:23 (EST)Hi! What a very informative and moving site. I have been struggling with my illness for nearly 2 years now. It gives me hope that one day i will get through this!
Lee
Leeds , UK - Monday, January 05, 2004 at 20:21:14 (EST)Thank you for the interesting and informative site. Im 23 and been diagoniozed 2 yrs ago. I can relate to your site. And it gives me hope that I can find a reason to continue.
Lynda
Calgary, AB Canada - Monday, January 05, 2004 at 20:13:59 (EST)I Am 45 Yrs Old And I Am Bipolar. I Struggle Everyday Day Just To Get Out Of Bed,To Clean My House,Etc. I Am Crippled. My Med's Barely Work. I Pray Each Day For A Cure. GOD HELP US ALL !
JoAnna
San Antonio, TX USA - Monday, January 05, 2004 at 19:24:32 (EST)Hi there, GREAT site! :) I have been raised by a mother who became ill just before my birth and I was looking for a site just like this one! THANK YOU, GOD BLESS! If anyone have heard anything about using Marijuana as part of a "natural" treatment for the illness itself, i would be glad if you would drop an email on: wilfred_the_milf@hotmail.com L, P & U
Thorsten_S
Stockholm, Sweden - Monday, January 05, 2004 at 12:47:51 (EST)Hi- good site.
ellie
england - Sunday, January 04, 2004 at 16:55:43 (EST)I am glad that medication works for you. However, medication does not work for everyone. I would like to see information on your website about non-pharmacological treatments for schizophrenia, like psychosocial rehabilitation. I believe that non-pharmacological therapies should replace medication therapy for people with schizophrenia who are non-responsive or non-compliant to medication.
G
- Friday, January 02, 2004 at 21:03:35 (EST)Our son was diagnosed 3 yrs. ago at the age of 23 with schizophrenia.Our prayers go out to all families which this horrible disease has entered.
red
Canada - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 at 15:02:50 (EST)Excellent WEB site. Very informative and helpful for me understanding my son's illness and suporting him going through this venture. I am strongly recommending your site to anyone interested in this subject. Best regards, Yves
Yves Gélinas
Gatineau (Aylmer), QC Canada - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 at 08:13:39 (EST)This is my book that will be coming out soon PASTOR’S COUNSELING AND THE MENTALLY ILL (Educating the pastors and church about the mentally ill) by Dr.Rev. William Bainbridge MINISTRY OF FAITH COUNSELING CENTER Counseling and the Mentally Ill: Why did I pick Schizophrenia to study? My son has it and that give me first hand at it. But whether it is schizophrenia or any other mentally ill sickness this study will help you understand the mentally ill better. So you can help them and there families cope with every day life. For more info on the book go to uaw1112chaplain@aol.com
Dr. Rev. William T Bainbridge
New Middletown, Oh USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 at 07:09:40 (EST)I am a Chinese Christian. I get interested in schizophrenia after I know a friend whose relatives have the disease and cast a shadow of depression and pessimism on him for ages. I have prayed to Jesus why He allows this as well as other tragedies on earth to happen. This year I get a revelation of God through the preaching of Pastor Poon, Chinese Alliance Church, San Jose, California. Let's look at the problem from God's perspective. Read Exodus 20:4-6 The Ten Commandmants: 4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments. This scriptures show that there will be a GENERATIONAL CURSE if the ancestors worship other gods. But in what ways? And read Deuteronomy 29: 27-29 27 The LORD will afflict you with the boils of Egypt and with tumors, festering sores and the itch, from which you cannot be cured. 28 The LORD will afflict you with madness, blindness and confusion of mind. 29 At midday you will grope about like a blind man in the dark. You will be unsuccessful in everything you do; day after day you will be oppressed and robbed, with no one to rescue you. Note the confusion of mind in verse 28 is one of the curses. To be honest, I was very shocked by the fact that the Old Testament had already mentioned the curses in the form of tumors(i.e.cancer) and incurable diseases(including allergies) long before Jesus was born! Pastor Poon had witnessed that such generational curses were miraculously broken by prayers of true repentance and confession of sins committed by the ancestors in the name of Jesus. Pastor Poon's wife was herself a psychologist and had suffered depression for 9 years. After prayers of confession on behalf of their ancestors, she got recovered from the depression! The point I am trying to make is that there is a way out if we can humble ourselves and let God reveal what was hidden in our family history. You may pray that God will guide you to the right church for prayers of deliverance and healing. However, the healing can be instantaneous and gradual for various reasons. Ian, I know that you believe in evolution and the probable virus which explains the inexplicable destrutive tendency of human history. I would like to give a further hint on this: Freemasonary. It is an occult composed of elites which aims at creating the New World Order as prophesized in the book of Revelation. It is using mind-control of unalert people through the mass media and subtle devices like video games, witchcraft(e.g. white magic) etc. Remember Hitler could not have been able to provoke WWII if he have had not manipulated the propaganda. Click this link which gives you the spiritual insights on the current affairs. http://cuttingedge.org/newsletters/ Ian, do take time to digest what I have honestly shared. I will definitely keep you in prayers for your recovery and spiritual discernment. Life is not merely existence of pain and agony (they are lies from the enemy) It is the Heavenly Father's heart for the sick to be completely healed.
Veronica
Hong Kong, SAR, China - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 at 04:16:42 (EST)i have just read a story almost exactly the same in pattern as mine, its nice to know there is someone out there who has put it on the internet, in such an informative way, thanks alot
aaron pinwill
jersey, uk - Sunday, December 28, 2003 at 12:09:12 (EST)I read your story about a year ago, and wonder how you are doing. Your site is very informative. God Bless You
Sharron Hagerud
Dallas, Tx. usa - Saturday, December 27, 2003 at 09:27:46 (EST)testing guestbookfor 2004
Ian Chovil
Santa Barbara, CA USA - Thursday, December 25, 2003 at 16:36:08 (EST)